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Not A Still Life
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In this documentary portrait, a charismatic older, gay, Jewish man undergoes an evolution of awareness amid the joys and sorrows of his wild and fully lived life. In revealing his “naked truth,” he offers viewers an opportunity for reflection about the complexity of human identity.
In the words of the film’s spirited subject, “This is the story of a gay, Jewish, animal rights, vegetarian, recovering alcoholic ... individual.” Steve Stone is an ebullient, extroverted character and an engaging storyteller with a life full of captivating tales. He is also not unlike many gay men of a certain age who were almost brought to extinction with the AIDS epidemic of the 80’s. In that sense, this film, a portrait of a man, is also a chronicle of a time that was.
This one man’s story, his struggles with sexual orientation and various addictions, love and loss, taps into themes that encompass all our lives. His quirky and entertaining reflections come from a unique perspective. We cannot help but see ourselves in, and be inspired by his distinctive outlook because for all the ways that we may not share his “outside the box” personality, his evolution, his journey through life and his deep desires are ours. They exemplify the conflicts and complexities in every human heart.
Not a Still Life punctuates the stories of Steve’s personal journey through the decades with a judicious use of title graphics to reflect key aspects of gay social history in America. His is the tale of a man who, in the homophobic period of the 50s, was ridiculed and dismissed as a child which led his irreverence, hyperactivity and rebelliousness. Determined to be himself rather than conform to social mores that made him uncomfortable, he came out to everyone in the early 60’s at the age of 17. Eight years before the Stonewall Rebellion, this was a brave move. Steve Stone has been openly gay for fifty years!

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@notastilllife
@notastilllife 6 лет назад
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@judyporter4300
@judyporter4300 3 года назад
I love that Steve is such an individual, not afraid to express what he feels. One is so lucky to meet the love of your life, and experience feeling so alive! Hat's off to you Steve for living your life on your terms, and realizing what a fabulous life you have had. Getting older is not easy, especially alone. The film was great! Thanks.
@lindaminaga2649
@lindaminaga2649 3 года назад
STEVE If you haven't seen the Movie "And the Bad Plays On" please watch. The Medical Community's conspiracy on Aids.
@rcantow
@rcantow 2 года назад
@@judyporter4300 Your comments are much appreciated.
@lorik4435
@lorik4435 2 года назад
What a beautiful film! I enjoyed this amazing deep dive into the life of Steve Stone. It took me on a rollercoaster ride of the wonderful highs of Steve finding Flint and then the lows (and beautiful) passing of Flint. The depth and honesty shine throughout the film. It truly captured Steve's essence. With the freedom of him enjoying that pool to him finding his faith again, it was deeply moving. I felt like I know him as a neighbor. Much peace and blessings Steve.
@rcantow
@rcantow 2 года назад
Thank you for sharing al that you felt and experienced. I am so pleased to know how i\the film touched you.
@sherrybell3924
@sherrybell3924 3 года назад
Excellent, endearing, sweet film. Thank you.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
thank you steve
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thnks Sherry. I am the fimaer Will you consider subscribing if you have not sone so It will hekp the film. Thanks.
@kyrvhy
@kyrvhy 3 года назад
This is beautiful. A generous introspective of a beautiful man living his life with love and faith. What a joy.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thank you for taking the time to post your comment,
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 2 года назад
thank you for the Beautiful man part.... i do have a life that is filled with Gratitude every day for every thing...:-)
@larrykrassenstein256
@larrykrassenstein256 3 года назад
“Life is to love and be loved”. Really enjoyed the video! Thank you for posting.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Not much more than that Larry... Thank you steve
@ilsavankuren6511
@ilsavankuren6511 3 года назад
Great film, although I’m a straight woman so many things I could relate to, isolation, loneliness and the feeling of not fitting in anywhere. I guess we have more in common than we realize and our differences only make us more interesting and unique. I wish Steve well and hope he’s able to keep his memories close but still move on to be happy again. P.S. so very handsome and probably the “nice Jewish boy” my mom wished I’d married. Lol
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thank for sharing all that you wrote here and for your appreciation of the fim.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i did get that a lot and even recently... thank you a very nice compliment...
@andrie4384
@andrie4384 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 So did you find God Steve?
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@andrie4384 I think that answer is yes.. a very big YES!!! i am so grateful to say.....
@andrie4384
@andrie4384 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 ...And did you fought homosexuality,with the help Of God?Or still gay? Because you mentioned above that you are alone,for 32 years...
@yamikliss6324
@yamikliss6324 5 лет назад
Great film!!! I had the honor and privilege of meeting Steve in person... he is bigger than life, a truly remarkable guy... I can only but wish that this documentary is seen by many more people... I will do my bit of promotion and I recommend others to do the same!!!
@rcantow
@rcantow 5 лет назад
Thank you for your kind words and effort re: promotion. Every little bit helps.
@Minnastina
@Minnastina 3 года назад
Is he still alive? They should do a follow up!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
I dont remember meeting you... remind me stevestone1945@gmail.com and thank you for the nice comments....
@Imam_A_Siddique
@Imam_A_Siddique 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 Hats off to you, you're an inspiration. God bless you.
@Seekyourtruth777
@Seekyourtruth777 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 I really enjoyed this documentary, I hope you’re continuing to live a remarkable life
@waynepadden6356
@waynepadden6356 5 лет назад
This was a great story that I already knew many of the highlights of but to learn all of the details was amazing. totally captivated watching it and really enjoyed it.
@rcantow
@rcantow 5 лет назад
Thanks for leaving your comment.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Hey Wayne thank you..... Steve
@phantasm1004
@phantasm1004 3 года назад
What a strikingly handsome man...even more handsome now than when he was younger. Absolutely impossible to miss his beautiful eyes and smile. I'll bet he still lights up a room when he walks in. So vibrant, energetic, full of life and personality. I know he would make a wonderful husband for...let me think...ME!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Thank you for all of those wonderful compliments. I have remained single for 32 years... i think my partner days are probably a thing of the past.... :-)
@phantasm1004
@phantasm1004 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 It’s never too late to find love, my friend. Wishing you the very best!
@garrettmeadows2273
@garrettmeadows2273 3 года назад
Such a well-done documentary. Engaging, poignant, and a wonderful celebration of "daily life," which some us dread. Very inspiring.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Einstein said we can look at life as if everything is a miracle or as if nothing is a miracle. I chose to see the wonder of it all..... thank you :-)
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks you for the kudos friom th fimmaker. This is a late reply but would yu comsidr subcribing to the fim;s channel. It will help the film reach its goal. Thanks agian - Toberta
@angerjane
@angerjane 3 года назад
Enjoyed this doc very much. Thanks for posting.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
just saw this.... glad you liked the film
@susanmill2394
@susanmill2394 3 года назад
Very moving and thought provoking.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Roberta asked the right questions..... she is very insightful.. and thank you... Steve
@gigithompson5545
@gigithompson5545 3 года назад
Steve very touching and loving story I'm a straight woman that my husband passed away I was young I only had six years with him I know how you feel amazing is to love and be loved.. he was 30 years older than me .and to this day I can't understand why God gave him to me and took him away it wasn't fair. Thank you Steve
@gigithompson5545
@gigithompson5545 3 года назад
Thank you Steve Daisy Thompson
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
we got what is given and have to be grateful at that time and in our memories. as difficult as it is at times...steve
@elizabethharris6050
@elizabethharris6050 3 года назад
Lovely portrait of an unusually openhearted mensch. Loved video!
@bobjary9382
@bobjary9382 3 года назад
Amen
@dericschmidt6240
@dericschmidt6240 6 лет назад
Great film and entertaining story telling.
@rcantow
@rcantow 5 лет назад
This is a very late reply of thanks for your comment. Apologies for the delay.
@nicprietojohns5774
@nicprietojohns5774 3 года назад
Loved the story about seeing God in the sand with just a loin cloth and knowing Gods love and acceptance. God Speed Steve Stone.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
when we were wandering in the desert after the Exodus from Egypt,,, we were guided by the dark cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night... i say we because we were all there at Sinai.... and that image was so compelling when I was in trouble with my connection,, it was a clear message that the Baruch Hashem was with me... telling me he was guiding me like he did with all the others.....
@empressv8163
@empressv8163 3 года назад
I love your life story! Thank you for sharing it with us 👍😁
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
being appreciated is very gratifying... thank you
@pattiehoffman6078
@pattiehoffman6078 3 года назад
What a fabulous film.....enjoyed it so much!
@marymccarthy2533
@marymccarthy2533 3 года назад
Thank you for sharing your life’s story. Hoping you found a nice place to live with Buzz. Hoping your factory is still up and running. 🙏🏻💕
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Hi mary... Buzz is gone now but Mo and Mindy showed up.... now its Mindy and me... the factory is still up and running... thank you...for your kind thoughts...
@drewhoffman1
@drewhoffman1 2 года назад
Steve, we have known each other for 50 years. You have always had a positive impact on everyone whom you have known. This was a beautiful and powerful portrait of your life.
@rcantow
@rcantow 2 года назад
Thaks for leaving your comment, Drew.Please subscribe to this channel if you have not done so. It will hel the film. Thanks again.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 2 года назад
Hi Drew thank you for that nice comment... it is true... but maybe not all are positive..LOL no one is that perfect..
@mayaparker6323
@mayaparker6323 3 года назад
Thank you for this great story Heart warming !! God bless you all !!!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Life can be an amazing experience..... Steve thank you
@marleaevans2539
@marleaevans2539 6 лет назад
Look to independent filmmakers to bring you slices of life you will not see anywhere else. This is great.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
asking the right questions helps too... you are so right...:-) Steve
@dbentleyto95
@dbentleyto95 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 Answering the questions as honestly as you can does the same. Not everyone becomes self aware throughout life and you are not afraid of what you see in the mirror. It is an important gift we are given as we go through our life's walk. It is an important gift and not everyone accepts it. Thank you for sharing with us.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@dbentleyto95 You are correct in that not many are willing to see what the see...(so to speak) 8,5 years of jungian work has helped a lot... I guess I am not afraid of too much.... maybe a gift as well as a curse..LOL thank you Donna... i apprecate you appreciating me...
@marymurphy8353
@marymurphy8353 3 года назад
Beautiful. Will watch again and shared it with friends. Beautiful
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thank you. Ys, We need more viewers.
@marianmorvillo7460
@marianmorvillo7460 2 года назад
This documentary has had me back and forth between laughter and tears. Thank you Steve, for sharing your heart, your mind, and your soul.
@rcantow
@rcantow 2 года назад
Thanks for your comment.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 2 года назад
thank you for being able to relate and appreciate the things about my life...
@kathyellis2350
@kathyellis2350 3 года назад
Thank you for sharing your many stories of great depth, Steve Stone. I love your courage and compassion.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
being connected is a good way to strengthen the world community.....
@gregoryalexander4418
@gregoryalexander4418 3 года назад
Thank you great film I being a gay man in my 60s relate to all his Struggles and still looking to be loved. Steve is still Attractive guy its putting are ghost from are pasts a side .Sorry he lost the home down size is always a good thing how many times I've did that .
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
things are good... all the changes being considered.... and thanks for liking the film Gregory... I have friends that love me and hope you do too.....
@lj9524
@lj9524 3 года назад
A beautiful person and story. Thank you! God bless!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Bless all of us and you too LJ...
@davebowker1113
@davebowker1113 3 года назад
Really interesting film Carl Sandburg said -- A society will be judged on how it treats its animals and its old people.......
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
a society IS judged ... we have to live with the pain and hope to be a part of the changes steve
@stephaniemedina1848
@stephaniemedina1848 3 года назад
I needed this thank you🐱🌷🌹🌈🌞
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
its great that it helped you.... thank you please consider subscribing to U tube its free and will help the film... :-)
@danahkaram5975
@danahkaram5975 3 года назад
This documentary made me cry so bad. Everything resonated with me and I felt it was a reflection of my spiritual and self-love journey.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Danah another example of how we are all alike , just with different individual situations... I have watched it many times and i cry every time,, starting with the sweet Melody what was written for the film.... You and I are One.....
@sorayaasjana8292
@sorayaasjana8292 3 года назад
I enjoyed the video, beautiful video, beautiful love story, 👍👍
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thank you.
@SABOREAME68
@SABOREAME68 3 года назад
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Thank you for sharing this story. Is bit sad that Steve couldn't keep his home but then again maybe this event will make him move on in this life. Steve, may you always have a smile on your face, Love in your heart, and Happiness within your Soul... Abrazos
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Romano I do smile a lot,,, help others laugh and my heart is full and my Soul is grateful every day for another day to be a better person... R U in Italy?
@SABOREAME68
@SABOREAME68 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 No, I'm in Madrid, Spain, I'm a Spaniard.
@SABOREAME68
@SABOREAME68 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 However, I travel constantly to USA, due to my career.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@SABOREAME68 so that is a yes.. Flint and I had 3 glorious weeks in Italy...
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@SABOREAME68 25 members of my Jewish community had 12 days in Spain...too much to talk about here..but the contributions of Jewish, gypsy and Muslim people living in harmony together was like no where else until here.....
@joalexsg9741
@joalexsg9741 3 года назад
I couldn't thank you enough for this amazing documentary!! Much love from Brazil!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
thank you Jo .... happy to know you enjoyed it... steve
@joalexsg9741
@joalexsg9741 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 Thank you for the kind feedback. You're adorable, please stay safe and you can bet your feelings are shared by most of us LGBTQ+s worldwide. As one born here in Brazil in 1960 I can relate to so many of your experiences and so all those of our generation. I also felt a lot of synchs, being a vegetarian for animals and having some connection to the Jewish people: though my family did not practice the religion, we have ancient Sephardic origins from long-ago converted Iberian Jews (and, according to my maternal grandpa's accounts, one Ashkenazi ancestor as well). I've always been interested in those lineages and try to share material about the Israeli LGBTQ+ movement, the Israeli pagans (I'm myself an eclectic Taois/shamanist) and intactivists, and, last but never least, the Israeli animal rights activists. Keep us updated, we love you!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@joalexsg9741 not much to up date but its good to hear from you... stevestone1945@gmail.com
@MaggieKortchmar
@MaggieKortchmar 3 года назад
That was exactly what i needed. Thank you ❤️🙏🏼
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i am curious how it helped but you dont have to tell me... that it helped is enough
@SingerGeneLeonard
@SingerGeneLeonard 3 года назад
I love your story Steve Stone. So much of your life I get and understand. Thank you❤️
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
well Gene then the film had accomplished what it was intended.... and thank you
@blueyzsf
@blueyzsf Год назад
What an amazing story, thank you for sharing.
@jamesallison4875
@jamesallison4875 3 года назад
So many similarities in our lives and so many differences. Very well made doc. Kudos to all. I as well had to stand in the corner in kindergarten. Haha! Hope you are able to enjoy your life from day to day. That is the key to happiness. Loving what you have. Also, great dog. They all break our hearts, don’t they?
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
I got even with Miss Gosh and many others who did not get me.... dogs do break our hearts when they leave us... but before i knew it Heaven keeps sending new ones that need love and care... so they can love back.....
@mamaTea1
@mamaTea1 3 года назад
Beautiful film. Life’s journey. A lesson for us all.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
thank you..Roberta knew how to ask all the right questions....
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 2 года назад
just looked again and yes we are all connected... its never about Gender.. its about Humanity...... i am a nice jewish boy btw :-)
@lucasflanders8557
@lucasflanders8557 3 года назад
Wonderful video. The best wishes to Steve.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
thank you Lucas....
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Thank You Lucas....
@mamaboocee
@mamaboocee 3 года назад
I enjoyed this video. I enjoyed this man. Us baby boomers grew up in such a weird yet wonderful time. The world was just getting ready to come out of the closet, it was a time of plenty. So many different and fascinating blossoms of personality came of it. This one here - is especially so. Glad I just happened to see it. That being said, your polish roots and your mothers face made me sit up and take notice. My grandmother had very similar features, her parent were Polish immigrants, her father was a Polish jew. My great grandfather left Poland well before WW2, I wonder if we could be distantly related.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i am glad I got to live it....:-)
@mariongiles6629
@mariongiles6629 3 года назад
I really would love to see how steve is doing today. I hope him and his dog are safe and healthy. Hi from Wpg Canada
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Is that Winnepeg? Steve and Mindy.. my laters and sweetest of dogs are doing just fine... thank you
@tonycollazorappo
@tonycollazorappo 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 , after watching this I wondered where you were, wink. Enjoy life, it's the best if one know how to enjoy it properly and you seem to have found the magic to do so. :)
@jhb61249
@jhb61249 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 I'm a 72 yo gay male. I met the love of my life at age 22 in 1971 in Nashville, TN. We were together only 4 years. I enjoyed much as you did those same things. But little did I know he was wrestling with demons at that time. And then to make things worse, he and I witnessed his brother's death, which drove him to self destruction and finally he pushed me away. He said he loved me too much to hurt me. I did not understand at the time. But I moved on, went back to school, then living, and working all over the world. I was living in LA in 1989! Periodically, I tried to find him, with no luck. Eleven years ago I returned to the states. Three years later I found his obituary and life story. We had been chasing each other around the world, and always just on step away. Strange. But I never stopped loving him. I am who I am today because of his influences. The film was very well done. You are a remarkable guy, (and have such a nice ass laying in the pool) ha!. Such a nice way to end a biographical sketch! I'm glad you are around and doing well. Do take care and the best to you. Jim
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@jhb61249 hey Jim yes we do have lives that can be more tragic at times... but you did have the 4 yrs like I had the9 thanks for the Ass compliment
@bettywith2girls
@bettywith2girls 3 года назад
Absolutely wonderful film honoring this great guy. I l-o-v-e hearing people's stories. I hope he is able to allow love in his life and put the past in the past some day. That's too bad he had to downsize his business and lost his home in the end. God bless.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks for your thoughts and comment.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i learned to accept the changes and have made the best i can of them.... Bless you too steve
@jc2delaga
@jc2delaga 3 года назад
Amazingly beautiful n interesting recount of his Jewish gay life! Very compelling
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks so much for posting your comment,
@56chrsbri
@56chrsbri 3 года назад
Very interesting to see a person with morals and a religious prospective that continues to grow positively in his life. All of his story is inspirational.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
nice to have you appreciating that...
@rainbowdreamer9469
@rainbowdreamer9469 3 года назад
What an incredible man with an incredible life's story. Thank you so much for sharing your poignant story here on RU-vid. It has touch me in a very profound way.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks for your comment. I am th filmmaker. Would you consider subscribing to the channel?It would help the film gain more tractiion and eventually a little income. Thank you.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Hey Rainbow Dreamers...(some where over the rainbow.... ....... ) Thank you for calling me incredible... not that i see myself in that way....I am so pleased that you were touched... these comments truly make my day....
@MsNooneinparticular
@MsNooneinparticular 5 лет назад
I want to know more about gay life in the '70s! It sounds absolutely debaucherous! I was born in the mid-'80s...the most depressing time in modern history. Never lived in a world without AIDS. It's never affected me personally but it obviously changed culture in a big way.
@tanyajantz6376
@tanyajantz6376 3 года назад
I came out in 1986 right in the middle of the aids epidemic. I was 19 and a freshman in college.. crazy time
@marilynriddle6290
@marilynriddle6290 3 года назад
🥵🥵🥵
@marcuslloyd8218
@marcuslloyd8218 3 года назад
Yeah born in 82 here but dated older guys. They have some great stories. Which I hope are captured
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i have written a book about my life in the 60's 70's and 80's and lived to write it down... you chose a good word to describe it.... :-) Steve
@cidweinberg
@cidweinberg 3 года назад
I really enjoy these “Slice of Life” stories. As a screenwriter it’s very engaging and inspiring. Thank you.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thank you, @Cid Weinberg, for such a re-assuring comment, especially coming from a screenwriter. (Steve is waiting for someone to come along to turn the documentary into a full lenght feature :) = Please subscribe to our channel to help us along. Thanks. Roberta (the filmmaker)
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Hey Cid coming from a screenwriter that says a lot... now find someone to make a bigger film using this story line... maybe with me in it......lol engaging and inspiring are really good things and warm my heart..... Shabbat Shalom
@thepinksidewalk
@thepinksidewalk 9 месяцев назад
To Steve from another Steve. Thanks for sharing your beautiful life with us. I have been with my love for 54 yrs. We just picked up the ashes of our 13 yr old baby today. She will always be with us. Kindred spirits are all around us and God enables us to experience them at just the right time. I hope you are healthy, happy and full of life. ps: I wish I was sitting on the fender of that truck back then. I think in the “now” we would of had a meaningful experience together. Yet, we are guided in our journey to eternity……❤️
@MegaSid19
@MegaSid19 3 года назад
What a wonderful man, inside and out. Thank you for sharing your life-story.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks for leaving your comment. You will probaaby hear from Steve too.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 2 года назад
Hello Sed ... i always say it is what others tell us that is the truest reflection of who we really are... and its always nice to read nice comments like yours..... Thank you..... Sincerely...
@ellenlehrman9299
@ellenlehrman9299 3 года назад
“He made my life so much easier.” Is there a better definition of love?
@josi4251
@josi4251 3 года назад
No, I don't think there is.
@patricia5686
@patricia5686 3 года назад
I thought the same.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks EllenPatricia and Josi, , for taking th trouble to commnntt. Plase consider subscribing to th channel if you hav not done it. It will help the fil,m. Thanks.
@janethood4776
@janethood4776 3 года назад
Really enjoyed this film. Thanks for sharing your personal story. I think it validates the many ways we are similar.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanis for you comment and your insights.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks for your feedback Please cnsider subsribing to the channel. It wil help th film get more exposure which can lead to income for te filmmaker.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i agree with you Janet....i think i have been saying this all along.. that we are all similar... related... all part of the whole.....
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks for your insights. Some people like to consider that they are above Steve's issues and challenges, but we all have issues of some sort, whether we recognize them or not. Thanks for getting that. Rberta, the filmmaker
@anitakinnear6735
@anitakinnear6735 3 года назад
I wish I knew this guy. He’s delightful. I understand him completely.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
It is a beautiful thing to feel connected.. thank you
@aldente2676
@aldente2676 3 года назад
Well, let's set a time and place (emoji of wink)
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@aldente2676 write me and we will work something out... stevestone1945@gmail.com
@bobjary9382
@bobjary9382 3 года назад
Such a warm nourishing glimpse of how Steve has carefully, but with a carefree touch, navigated what must have been quite bewildering times. I'm loving the 'evolution' he's found I guess by experiencing and feeling things many would never see. Mentioned as a mischievous scamp but coming like a wise man... Seeming now so accepting and humble . More men like Steve please, more evolved folk. The world would be a better place
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@bobjary9382 i am humbled by your words... thank you..... we take life as it comes... what choice is there... the gift is to be able to hold onto my connection with Heaven.. and all the wonders of creation....
@lauriemorris9175
@lauriemorris9175 2 года назад
Beautifully done, introspective film of a person I'd love to meet someday.
@rcantow
@rcantow 2 года назад
So glad you liked and umderstood the film's intention.
@pward3338
@pward3338 3 года назад
Completely enjoyed this
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks for posting.
@clientsupportservices4483
@clientsupportservices4483 3 года назад
What An Amazing Story..Of Spirituality Love And Finding Peace..Steven Is An Incredible Testimony To The Struggles Alot Of Gay Men And People in General Face As We Search For Our Purpose And Place In The World...His Connections To His Jewish Faith And Family..Is A Blessing..From God...This Was Very Inspirational..Hopefully Steven Has Found That Special Someone To Share His Beautiful Spirit, Warm ❤ And Unique Personality With..God Bless Him And Keep Him Safe And Well "Tis better to have loved and lost, Than never to have loved at all” Peace and Love Steven.❣
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i use Stephen btw ... i have not found another since Flint... but your thoughts are truly appreciated...I feel exactly the same about "never to have been loved etc.
@carmencantwell1249
@carmencantwell1249 3 года назад
Beautiful film. Wonderful experience for this southern Christian girl!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Hi Carmen... it was a gift to know you enjoyed what Roberta knew to bring out....
@shakypam
@shakypam 3 года назад
oh no, he lost his home? This man MUST have a pool at least
@jennyrine7216
@jennyrine7216 3 года назад
I am more upset than I probably should be that he lost his house 😥
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i have LA Fitness they have great pools..... i got over not living there any more.. but I did thank Heaven every day that I was there. steve
@werqzeleke2815
@werqzeleke2815 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 you are awesome, wishing you long life and happiness
@marciabradley7660
@marciabradley7660 3 года назад
Beautiful, touching and wonderful life he’s lived. It’s also comical that their names are Flint and Stone.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
No one ever made that connection... LOL thanks for that.... my life is still beautiful and wonderful.. thank Heaven for that....
@marciabradley7660
@marciabradley7660 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 Well I’m glad you are still around! I almost added your friend Rock something too, but couldn’t remember his complete name. My heart ached watching your story because having a long history is magical when someone takes the time to reflect.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@marciabradley7660 I do not have any friends with the name Rock...My heart ached as well at times and still does over the loss and separation of my soul mate ... but life is what it is.....we either accept and adjust or become consumed by it... I chose accept and adjust.... and thank you for feeling for me. it is clear you understood much about me.... :-)
@marciabradley7660
@marciabradley7660 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 thanks Steve there’s little left to say other than I may watch the film again and I did forward it to my friend who speaks often of a friend she cared for as he died of Aids.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@marciabradley7660 It is ok that we dont have to keep talking here.. I cared for so many who died from HIV related illness's i do understand... and if the film offers any comfort that that is because of the producers questions and from how deeply involved my life was then.... thank you stay well..
@omarhoneyman9197
@omarhoneyman9197 3 года назад
thank you for an interesting and touching story, I wish Steve Stone only the best !
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
and Steve Stone thanks you with all his heart and wishes the same for you Omar..
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Appreciate the commnt. And we would also like you to consider subscribing to the channel. It wi help the film, if you don;t mind
@SuperVodkaChick
@SuperVodkaChick 3 года назад
Thanx for posting this. Great story and I hope Steve finds someone nice to share his life with.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
actually I did find a woman I truly loved but she died.... this year.... i have great friends and a wonderful dog.... thank you
@michaelbenton1434
@michaelbenton1434 3 года назад
It would be cool to see where he is now, 10 years on.
@milly8151
@milly8151 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 I hope you're thriving !
@teresah4190
@teresah4190 3 года назад
Such a beautiful story.
@BneiAnusim
@BneiAnusim 3 года назад
Loved the Bar mitzvah part of it!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
the story behind that is another amazing 5 years that it took for my Beloved Cousin to walk me to...
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
it only took me 37 yrs to get there but it has changed my life ....
@marcuslloyd8218
@marcuslloyd8218 3 года назад
Falling in love in that time is so different than now. More about who you are than today.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Meeting is different... falling in love is probably the same I would think even though I have never found a second man of my dreams... the one was beyond words... steve
@marcuslloyd8218
@marcuslloyd8218 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 wow hey Steve!!! thanks for the comment love hugsss
@Pureimagination200
@Pureimagination200 3 года назад
I was born and raised in West Hollywood. Grew up on Waring Ave. went to Fairfax high school and shopped on Melrose Ave. and swam at West Hollywood pool. I love that city. I moved to the pnw when I got married in 1995. I come back every few years but the old house has been sold after my folks died and it’s sad now.
@Pureimagination200
@Pureimagination200 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 I do but it’s bittersweet
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Bittersweet is a good term that applies to a lot of what we are compelled to accept and live with....
@Pureimagination200
@Pureimagination200 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 thanks Steve for your reply. Peace be with you my fellow West Hollywood friend.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@Pureimagination200 and with you as well...
@bernadettemarlow1238
@bernadettemarlow1238 3 года назад
Amazing uplifting & sad what a great guy ❤
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks so much for your comment about the im - and the guy,
@sharonsterling2576
@sharonsterling2576 3 года назад
beautiful film!! Wow
@teamdrivealot8441
@teamdrivealot8441 Год назад
Very good documentary ❤
@BrownsBacker
@BrownsBacker Год назад
I relate to Steve in always having a place in your heart for your ex that you can never release. My first boyfriend died from AIDS in Jan 1993. I had partners after that, but have been single since 2004...and being 65 now, I'm afraid I'm past my gay expiration date. Lol. Was Steve able to keep his house? It would be so sad if he had to leave such a place given to him by the love of his life. Best wishes to you both. I loved the documentary.
@ceciliapreziose3783
@ceciliapreziose3783 3 года назад
very interesting, i felt like i knew him and were friends
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Yes. I think he is very real - and that is rare.
@moirajilani1
@moirajilani1 3 года назад
A lovely slice of life that I never knew about...thank you for sharing...just a quick question...how did his company manage during COVID?!? Praying he is still up and running.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks. Steve wil see your comment and replyl He ade it through the pandemic.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
we kept gettin orders... and kept working ... amazing as it seemed at the time... The upper crust always wants new things......lucky me
@moirajilani1
@moirajilani1 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 So glad to hear!!!!!! Love your attitude on life...we need more Steve Stones in our life, hope this new chapter with leaving your home is good for you.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@moirajilani1 you are more than kind in your sweet thoughts... thank you.... i am after all just a guy finding his way like the rest of many.....
@deeppurple883
@deeppurple883 3 года назад
Hope by now things have woeked oufor you, especially the house . Respect for your honesty. 👊☘️
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
HI things are working out for me... but the film did say i had to leave the house... no big deal... actually i am relatively healthy... and still working.... :-)
@deeppurple883
@deeppurple883 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 great. Its so important to keep busy , you know the way our head does a number on us when we over think some things 🙃 well done. 👊☘️
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@deeppurple883 my analysts taught me years ago that we must keep talking to ourselves...i hit the ground at about 6 am and do not really stop until about 7 pm and correction subscribe to the film's channel, (the very channel that they wrote their review in) will help the film.....
@CG-sx3no
@CG-sx3no 3 года назад
Such a lovely story of such a lovely man💕
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
thank you Claudia :-)
@nlbhaduri
@nlbhaduri 3 года назад
It’s interesting that he was asked about his”promiscuous side and his religion” which is an odd question to me….I mean it makes me think of all the televangelists who got caught with their pants literally down, but get forgiven by their congregations….why does it matter what this fellow does behind closed doors with consenting adults? He feels real love for all beings. It’s wonderful that he has known true love! Not many of us can experience that. Best wishes Steve.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
thank you....very true thoughts
@joyceanthony-huff2914
@joyceanthony-huff2914 3 года назад
Obey God
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@joyceanthony-huff2914 Hi Joyce... "obey God" that is the seed for another much longer conversation... but I feel I do what i can to do that... not that easy....
@rolandcornelissen687
@rolandcornelissen687 3 года назад
A very Inspiring man , and a beautiful man … giving hope
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
thank you Roland.. we never see who we are from the inside... it is when others talk to us that we are given that gift...
@jimrick6632
@jimrick6632 3 года назад
SO WHERE IS STEVE STONE TODAY??????????????
@avifalco
@avifalco 3 года назад
If he still alive he would b 78
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
@@avifalco 76 actully, and still alive.
@xelakram
@xelakram 3 года назад
What a delightful gentleman! I hope he is happy.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i am extremely happy...most of the time..... :-)
@xelakram
@xelakram 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 You sound like me! 😉 🌈
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@xelakram i have said it before,,, we are all connected and all dealing with the many issues that life places before us... and there is comfort in that......
@xelakram
@xelakram 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 We are all connected and we are all certainly dealing with many issues. Too many damn issues for my liking! :-) But deal with them we must. I don't quite understand where you see the comfort in all those issues, though, I must say. Please explain what you mean by that. I don't get it. FYI, I loved the documentary, so I put it up on my blog about two weeks ago. I hope that all is well with you now. You have clearly been through a lot. (As indeed have I!) As is said in German: Kopf hoch! Or as we might say,: Chin up!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@xelakram Good Morning,, First, thank you for putting the film up on your blog,,, the more views it gets the better the standing for the film. and calling me a delightful gentleman..... (big blush here ) All is well for now,, I am happy to tell you. as for your question relating to the comfort of issues... the best i can think of is that the only way we can grow as individuals is through adversity.... when everything is hunky-dory,,, there is nothing to learn from... Working through even the worst of circumstances , if they dont do us in.... does make us , i feel , stronger and enhances with a wisdom that comes from walking through fire and surviving the burns..... i hope that helps....
@rhodes1948
@rhodes1948 3 года назад
What a beautiful soul .I wish I knew him ..
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
that is very kind... thank y ou Rhodes... hopefully you got to know a bit about me in the film..... :-) please consider subscribing to U tube its free and will help the film... :-)
@charleskesner1302
@charleskesner1302 2 года назад
Wonderful
@localman12
@localman12 3 года назад
I loved every second of this, I can relate in so many ways, thank you for making this.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
david we are all more connected that we may think.... you seem to have gotton it... Thank YOU
@johnleggatt4953
@johnleggatt4953 3 года назад
Very interesting!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
so you got things out of it I hope..... thank you please consider subscribing to U tube its free and will help the film... :-)
@cagliarigirl6510
@cagliarigirl6510 3 года назад
Does anyone have any updates on Steve?
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
I have asked him to reply to your question.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
what do you want to know stevestone1945@gmail.com
@sheilamorrell6329
@sheilamorrell6329 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 hope you remain well.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@sheilamorrell6329 i have had a bout with bladder cancer and a few days with extreme septsis but am doing ok now..... thanks i hope for the best too....:-)
@debradorfman7940
@debradorfman7940 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 Refuah Schelema. Wishing the very best for you. Debbie.
@connieobrien3807
@connieobrien3807 3 года назад
Such an enjoyable documentary that speaks volumes of the genuine person you are Steve. Absolutely refreshing! Cheers to You Steve……never change who you are!!! P. S. Fantastic mustache!!!❤️
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
I tried to make one dog a vegetarian and he became anemic. i had to revitalize him before a surgery.... they do have food for dogs that is vegetarian i think I may try it... thank you for your very nice thoughts about... i wont change that much.. we seldom do.... and will keep the Stach....:-)
@connieobrien3807
@connieobrien3807 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 I also tried to feed a Vegetarian diet to one of my furbaby’s. It also did not work, dogs indeed are carnivores and really need a balanced diet to be healthy. As it turns out and a lot of money later I found her allergies were from processed food. I cooked a clean healthy diet for her and that did include poultry and that help resolve her skin issues.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@connieobrien3807 there is a way to raise and kill animals for food without pain and suffering... I have yet to try the meat alternative dog food........we have to accept our world the best we can....
@connieobrien3807
@connieobrien3807 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 Thank you…I completely agree & am aware. What I am not willing to do, is make my dogs go against their natural diet and choose the Vegan lifestyle just because that is what I choose.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@connieobrien3807 i tried it .. years ago... was a disaster... Guy became anemic and had to be restored to good health before a surgery... thats how i found out...
@bester34
@bester34 3 года назад
When was this produced? It was heart warming.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
It was completed in 2014. Thanks for your comment
@heatherhall3452
@heatherhall3452 3 года назад
I hate to tell ya mate but he is right, you are wrong - ‘that’s gona be us one day’ he’s there with you, he’s just in the next room, the next dimension but he’s there holding your hand, growing old with you 🙏🏽💕
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i used to feel that a lot but now i think he is tending to other things.... but will be there waiting on that shore when my ship arrives...... thank you
@nickywilks7928
@nickywilks7928 3 года назад
Great inspirational man.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Hi Nicky a lot of people have been inspired by the film and with parts of me... I think that is because the film has made it possible for people to talk about how they feel, in an more anonymous platform... and if it helps them see themselves then that is because of the good questions i was asked... ps.. please consider subscribing to U tube its free and will help the film..... sincerely steve
@jobhartgers1854
@jobhartgers1854 3 года назад
Leise Flehen Meine Lieder. Love it.
@RonnieMinh
@RonnieMinh 3 года назад
Very inspiring, thanks.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks for your feedback.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
i think that with you both feeling this... you are lucky to be able to share it with each other and i hope it leads to newer and better things for you both...
@StevieinSF
@StevieinSF 3 года назад
When was this filmed? Seems like 20+ years ago. Quite interesting!
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
It was filmed about 10-12 years ago, but not with a high end camera Thanks for the comment
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
about 11 yrs ago we started... 4 yrs to film and that was 7 yrs
@michaelbeckingham6742
@michaelbeckingham6742 3 года назад
i felt sad watching this;a great guy
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Michael there are those parts of our lives that are in deep grief... we all have it but we also have the loving kindness of friends and family... Lucky me...
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
there is sadness in our lives... and if we have our hearts open a lot of love toooo :-)
@LuisaD93
@LuisaD93 3 года назад
Steve is an amazing human being and I really enjoyed watching this and listening to him . I can see myself being a friend of Steve’s in real life . He has a lot to offer ppl . I find it sad that with his personality and all his intellect he is so isolated because he has so much to teach and offer . I’m not sure from watching this if he’s isolated because he lost the one real true love of his life and he mourns him and their love or he feels that most ppl don’t understand him or his ideology. He’s correct in that if all parties involved are involved willingly and voluntarily then it’s moral but let me be clear because I’m sure some may misunderstand me . As long as all parties are adults (I’m sure I needed to clarify that ) ppl read too much into things . I believe that 💯 and God doesn’t judge so it’s sad that ppl do . Steve’s a good looking man and while I also am content with my love and relationship with God but wouldn’t turn down a real relationship with someone else also after having lost someone I was completely in love with . After watching this to it’s conclusion I realize he’s still carrying a torch for his partner . I wish you nothing but health , happiness and love Steve . If there is ever to be another significant other Steve let it happen naturally . Don’t be mad at God . He doesn’t bring the strife to your table . It’s that other element but god can help you through it and I’m sure you’re well aware of that . Be good to yourself and keep God close . He’ll never let you down or abandon you . Just keep the lines of communication open and ask for his help . Take care 💐
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thanks so much for syiur thoughtfl comment. I am the filmmaker. Steve wil lprobbly repy to you. If you have not done so, please consider subscribing to this channel as it will help the film in the long run. Thank you again.
@LuisaD93
@LuisaD93 3 года назад
@@rcantow subbed already. Thanks take care !
@sandragalati6281
@sandragalati6281 3 года назад
Wow. Great story of a human.
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thank you,
@davisholman8149
@davisholman8149 3 года назад
I love him - he is such a wonderful human. Complicated, God made, loving and narcissistic. What an interesting biography - so glad RU-vid recommended it for me. A few years ago my children gave me a DNA test for Christmas. I am a tiny bit Ashkenazi Jew. It made sense. I have felt defensive for m Jewish friends my whole life. I told my dear friend about it - she was not surprised. She always said I acted like a Jewish mother, LOL.😎. Thank you for sharing your life, Steve Stone.💕
@AcidQueen08
@AcidQueen08 3 года назад
I'm so happy I got the recommendation too! I wonder why/how that happens? There are lots of similar comments today. I'm glad RU-vid suggested this one.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
you are so welcome...Davis.... nice to be able to see all of me... Steve
@nvrgvp1
@nvrgvp1 3 года назад
Thank you.
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
and I say thank you too.... please consider subscribing to U tube its free and will help the film... :-)
@samuelkeaton3944
@samuelkeaton3944 4 года назад
Bravo !!!
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
Thank you for sharing your appreciatiion,'
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
thank you...
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
If you enjoyed the ffiim, please consider subscribing. That wil help the fim a lot to be able to monetize in the future. No cost. Thank you for considering.
@frankcasatelli4078
@frankcasatelli4078 3 года назад
All the best baby! Love you!
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
thank you Steve
@renaebailey82
@renaebailey82 3 года назад
I like all people as friends
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
its not easy to like all people..but i learned in therapy that if someone makes me feel uncomfortable it is because they are carrying part of MY shadow (in Jungian terms) so the more we are with that person and observe , it presents the oppportunity for inner growth..... please consider subscribing to U tube its free and will help the film... :-)
@ronalddonner3396
@ronalddonner3396 3 года назад
Rock Hudson's biography is finally coming out (no pun intended)in Yiddish.It's called "Gay in der Erde."😂(just kidding)
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Rock was a tragic figure in the end... trapped in the Collective Unconscious as were and are many for many reasons please consider subscribing to U tube its free and will help the film... :-)
@carmenmcquillan6249
@carmenmcquillan6249 3 года назад
To be able to reveal yourself, allow others into your deepest self. He has faith. I want to be just like him🥰
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
Well Carmen,,, I would say , dont be like me . be like Carmen... as we say,,, Seek Justice, Love Goodness and walk humbly before God.... open yourself to yourself first and wait for the surprises.....they come in unexpected ways and times....
@carmenmcquillan6249
@carmenmcquillan6249 3 года назад
@@stevestone3644 G day and thank you Steve. Yes I will be me.🤗 It's probably that I could see something about you in me. And it was comforting. Love from Australia. And thank you again for noticing me💗
@stevestone3644
@stevestone3644 3 года назад
@@carmenmcquillan6249 Then we are more like one,, and thats a good example why I feel so good lately about making this film with the Producer... its so much more than about me and you telling me this is the wonderful example and proof... how much we are all alike.. crossing gender and life styles.. ps I have made a strong effort to notice everyone here... :-)
@rcantow
@rcantow 3 года назад
That is a erry sweet comment. Perhaps you can cnsider subsribing to the channel if you have not already. It wil heo the film earn money in the long run. Thanks..
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