REGAIN balance or LOSE it all! (Reaction) | Ren ft. Bibi - Crutch 

Bibi was Ren’s girlfriend at the time.. and they did break up, but Ren has nothing but love for her. She was the one who started the fundraiser that got him his lymes diagnosis in Belgium.

Someone pointed in another reaction, that while she does leave him at the end, by that point he's standing on his own two feet and no longer needs a crutch.

This Ren video is literally and physically the most raw i have seen Ren. So many tears have flown. My question becomes was she ever really there. Is he remembering back when they were a couple to make himself move forward only to find out after the mania and phychosis that nothing of it was real?

I look at like this, she was never there, just his imagination of her being there being his virtual crutch so to speak. He needed to get up off that cold October night's concrete, and stand on his own, and in his mind she was there for him to help him get to his feet, but his reality is that he needed to stop being his own crutch, because there will be days no one will be there for you to be a crutch.

Did you notice that she didn’t “disappear” until he was on his feet again? I think that is key.

This is seriously the best reaction I've seen to my favourite Ren song/video. Great job. Still can't watch this without feeling my heart break for him, he was in such an awful place back then and he masterfully splayed his heart wide open with this piece of art. The guy is a genius. Loved your breakdown and beautiful words ❤

One of my absolute favourite songs by Ren. Thanks for your reaction, love your intensity!

So happy my favorite Ren song is making its way through the reactors :) This is the best one I've seen yet!

I also suffer with auto-immune disease.. You hurt 24/7 and you have joint pain. I described the joints as broken glass is in your joints, you feel like here are hooks with weight that pulls you down. You have nerve pain that feels like your limbs are on fire. You have chronic fatigue and you can be in bed for days, It is horrible disease.. It is called the invisible disease because every looks normal. I feel his pain. This is my favorite song of his..

Damn. This is one of the best reactions to Crutch out there. The subleties you pick up, like his soul leaving when he's in the bathtub, is just amazing. And the fact that you allow yourself to FEEL is what I appreciate most about you.

I love this song so much. It hits my heart even harder when you see how thin Ren was and knowing all he went through. Love that you did this one. Great one!

This is such a hard song to watch, and I cannot begin to encompass what it took for them to make the video. Your reaction definitely paid Ren back for the effort.

“If I lose my mind would you stay with me?” People wonder if she left him, BUT WAS SHE THERE AT ALL if he was losing his mind? I don’t know.

RENS ACTING! Damn. Damn. Damn. I broke on this one. Fantastic reaction. Best I have seen.

Thank you for getting around to this one! Along with The Hunger, it is one of my absolute favourites from Ren. It is just stunning. The way he manages to perfectly express agony in lyrics, voice, music, and even the video. And never has distortion sounded so emotional! It’s heart wrenching but beautiful.

I can't express how much I get from your reactions. I love them, because you always shine a new light on songs, that I thought I knew. Hope you will do "Money game Part 1" some time. It's a masterpiece, but I am always struggling with the interpretation. 🙈 Thank you again.

When I first saw this I wondered if she had ever been there, or was she one of his delusions. She got him on his feet but if she was a delusion and he got up, got back on his feet would she still be there? Ren said this was is fear - that no one would be able to stay with him through his struggles.

It's so hard to be the support for someone in crisis, and no one knows if they'll be able to stick it out.

I get Pink Floyd vibes when the rock kicks in and the visuals.

Brilliant reaction, to such an emotionally powerfull song and video... when i watch it, the first parts were he is struggling and crawling .. i took that as a sign of the crippling effect his autoimmunity has on him.🤷‍♂️ Keep up the great content... lovin your reactions man👍🇬🇧

Your reactions are so heartfelt and complete. What a video!😢

I love this one Beautiful and Heartbreaking,Thank you ❤Ren

Just heard this one yesterday and I've been beenwatching it since. So powerful. 6 years ago.. this guy is just incredible.

Another very enjoyable reaction !!! 😊 This song breaks me every.single.time. 😢 Ren has suffered so/too much.

Man I felt that rollercoaster of emotion you were on watching with you. Great reaction ❤️

Fantastic reaction!! Your silence at the end says it all 😢 well done sir. Sending love for Ren & you, from the UK 💕

what if she represents hope. that, you can never be sure that everything will be fine, feeling. Security can suddenly disappear in the inner struggle. then you're standing there naked and alone again with nothing.

Great job with the interpretation. Makes me appreciate the song and srt more.

I have been watching Ren reaction videos to try and find someone I connect with and relate to. After 25+ different RU-vidrs some solo/2’s/3’s in my battle with pain this morning I found you. I know it is selfish but the physical pain has beaten me down so consistently for so long that my mental health is in just as many pieces. The reaction community reacting to Ren and showing compassion/understanding/love and sympathy allows people like me who suffer the same battle but don’t have any support to vicariously feel cared about and loved. Subconsciously I feel like I replace “Ren” with Dalton when I’m listening to reaction videos and am on the floor in so much pain I can’t open my eyes. I don’t mean to steal from Ren, and I truly believe he deserves/has earned everything good coming his way so I’m not saying I deserve anything as much/or more than Ren. It’s just sometimes when the pain is excruciating for hours on end with no end in sight/or momentary break; I get so defeated I pray for God to bring me home everyday and allow me to live eternity pain free as a Guardian Angel. I promise I will never take a break and try to help and guide as many people/animals I can everyday🙏❤️ I’m 31 years old 6ft 120lbs; I have been sick like Ren since I was 19. I just very recently was diagnosed with M.E(the same thing Ren has) and even with a proper diagnosis, I haven’t had any help or change in my situation. I’m praying to get a family doctor soon(I’ve been on the waiting list in my city for years, it’s really bad here) or to be lucky enough to be sent out of town somewhere to receive help. Even though I spend 95%+ in my bedroom of my apartment I still barely scrape by financially. In this 11 year battle it’s stolen all of my twenties and any chance to experience life or relationships. I’m grateful to have someone who has suffered the way I do daily for many years without answers or help be so vulnerable with his journey. His sheer honesty and vulnerability allows me to know I’m not alone in this battle. His music brings me peace in my darkest hours of suffering everyday. His journey mirrors mine so accurately, the only difference is an Angel granted him a saving grace and a stem cell transplant surgery saved his life and allows him to live life to the fullest. At his worst he was 120lbs and he is 6ft tall; I’ve been 6ft 120lbs for my entire decade+ long battle with M.E The hope I have from his story gives me a reason to live and hope that things can change. Since I lost my Dad It’s been so much harder and I love him so much. He is my hero and took care of me every day for years. I suffer in pain everyday for hours; haven’t missed a day in 11+ years and he would help me 24/7, waking up with me throughout the night since my body only lets me sleep 4-5 hours maximum he would be taking care of me while be exhausted too. My faith has been broken many times throughout this long journey but I prayed to my Dad and God for guidance and help a few weeks ago when I was beaten down one day and I swear to God the amount of serendipitous events that have occurred since have granted me some serenity and Ren’s story found it’s way into my life when I truly couldn’t see a way out and honestly had given up on living. I wanted to die, I prayed for death everyday, I was at peace with dying because my body feels like it’s dying everyday. I now hope and pray I can get better and maybe one day live without unbearable pain and sickness. Sorry for the rant and I don’t expect anyone will read this but thank you for this video. I am subscribed and grateful for you🙏

This song breaks my heart every time I watch it

My interpretation of this was the possibility it was in his mind of what could happen if she disappeared...that he felt the guilt of relying on her and putting that trust out there and his fear of losing it. A tragic story that turned true, but it's good to hear they are still friends

Like your interpretation.. Mine was a bit different about the ending...Since at the time he didn't know what is wrong with him and when people get so sick, they have to think about death and the last scene to me is visual representation of how no matter who can be around us at the time, no matter the amount of love they have and we have for them, when we need to face the death we are ultimately alone.

Thank you too my son for doing this ren video , wow it's shocking too me how much pain he goes through

I know I'm always going to get a great detailed reaction when watching your videos The ending of the song hits you really hard has I've been struggling for many years and have been in this exact position I lost my marriage my family my friends they all walked away because they couldn't handle the fact i lost who I was through illness not addiction so watching this video I lived it and still do I know I'm totally alone in this battle and the person I used to be has gone forever I don't trust people anymore who say they can cope with it because deep down I know they will walk away like everyone else has done but I'm trapped with no escape I can honestly say I don't know how much longer I will be around because there's nothing left here for me apart pain

Im here with the Ren train... again 🤘😎 Love this

One of my favourites from Ren.

Thank you for this reaction. Your emotions coupled with the video had me in tears all over again. So moving .

Listen to the last 2 verses ! He cant take her with him , But he knows she will follow him !

Great reaction to a great song by a great artist

Great job again.

Great reaction! IMHO, this is the best song Ren has produced. It has everything I love about Music and Visuals. Hits me everytime.

I think the first section shows the idealistic belief that you can support somebody through anything and then the second part is the harsh reality

Great reaction and great breakdown As Usual. Much love and respect from The UK.

This is so painfully beautiful.

If you read Ren's comments on his original video you'll learn more about what this piece means to him IRL. Having been a crutch for someone whose problems were too much for me to handle alone, I get it from her perspective. Sometimes, no matter how much you love another person and want to fix it, you can't. It's too big for one person, it's too big for someone who is not a trained therapist. Crutches are normally meant to be temporary, to hold you while some part of you heals, not to permanently take the place of something missing completely. The scenes where he's overwhelming her with how much bigger he is physically than she is, clutching on to her to pull himself up and she's struggling so hard ... too much. My SO's issues are like that - too big, too much and I can't fix them. There comes a point where a drowning person will flail and clutch at a lifeguard in a panic and drown them both. She may have been gone at the end, but he was standing on his own and she helped him get there, ready to step forward - without a crutch.

Omg I'm at a loss for words this is absolutely incredible what an amazing I'm blown away!! ❤❤❤❤❤

You are a great reactor!

I awoke from coma with a very fragile grip on reality. The doctor told me I should keep getting better bit by bit, but he warned me that some brain damage and memory loss could be permanent. (And some of the damage *has* been with me since then.) While I was weaning off the sedatives the doctors used, i hallucinated a lot. Every hallucination ended in abandonment. I was convinced I had totally lost my mind and would never be a valuable contributor to my family again. I was so certain of it, I called my husband and told him I had figured out that he was leaving me and that I wouldn't be allowed to come back home. It took a few days for him to convince me otherwise.

Great reaction. Beautifully haunting song.

I just love your breakdowns and how you interpret things its very refreshing ❤

Great reaction!

Great reaction! Subscribed

sometimes love isn't enough.

Was she ever even there? Or was he imagining it? Such a heavy song...

Brilliant breakdown of the song. Thanks

Amazing Reaction!

4 hours of you wasn't enough yesterday, so here we are for a little more SV. Cheers!

Soul crushing

awesome reaction deserves subscription

My hubby has ptsd from the military. I could never leave him and he's been very hard to do sometimes. How could you leave someone when they need you.❤🇬🇧✌️👍

Great reaction

you read this song and video so well thankyou

I adore this song but it’s so hard to listen to and watch, great reaction 🖤

Crutches can break under the weight.

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Ofc you're an anime person:)

ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-jaltehH_cNo.htmlsi=ZZu9FiinZ0KRLaLu Ren. Filmed when he was very ill.

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Did she disappear or was she never there? Hmmm

Great reaction. Don't know if you knew Bibi was actually his girlfriend when he recorded this.

When I first discovered this channel, I loved it so much that I complimented you and even mentioned you on other social media. But now I find your commenting on things that sometimes. doesn't warrant mentioning. I also wonder if these are genuine reactions. I feel you mention things that haven't been mentioned yet in the song.. I feel when you pause, you do t need to go back to the beginning of the song up to three times. For drag out affect. Ruining the actual flow of the composition.