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It's me and my husband Aaron hitting you with an unsolicited update on our post-Mormon life/marriage. Like a State of the Union but lighthearted, conversational, and more fights.
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00:00 Overview
1:35 Separated
5:00 Gender roles, parenting
8:40 ADHD, exmo work
13:30 Therapy, MoSto
15:40 How we met
18:30 Aaron’s questions, Mormon marriage
28:40 Liberal vs Conservative, gay stuff
34:21 Leaving the church
37:00 Hooray for Aaron!
41:50 Our first issues, mushrooms
51:00 Aaron leaving, healing, growing
1:00:00 Permission to separate
1:06:17 Drugzzzz
1:09:45 Getting back together
1:14:00 Goal to stay together?
1:16:00 My mom tunes in lol
1:17:40 Back on track!
1:21:09 Sorry Ma
1:23:45 Our first kiss story
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@nuancehoe Год назад

My mom tuned in half way through so please support this channel so I don't go hide and die of embarassment. ✦Support this channel on Donor Box to keep the content coming weekly! donorbox.org/fund-and-keep-nuancehoe-content-alive ✦Support me on Patreon and come be my hoes. It would mean the world. www.patreon.com/nuancehoe ✦ Tip Jar (Venmo: CarahB): account.venmo.com/u/CarahB

@swaneespeedramsey6080 Год назад

Hey Carah’s Mom, just wanted to let you know that you have an amazing strong knowledgeable daughter. Pat yourself on the back for raising a daughter who stands in her own truth. As a mom of 4 daughters I have never and would never want any kid to be a “yes kid.” I want a kid that’s brave and not afraid to stand up for their own ideals even if their ideals are different than mine. Different isn’t bad it’s just different. No one wants a kid that just rolls over and says “whatever, I won’t argue or my ideas don’t matter as long as mom is happy.” You did a good job Carah’s mom. All is well.

@lumanwalters_ Год назад

You should block your mom.

@shortie.2380 Год назад

Yes, Carah, your mom should be very proud of you.

@rosapedroza5084 Год назад

deja de estar criticando y recordando la religión que dejaste ❤ cuando Jesús te dise que solo él te perdona tus pecados y que solo él te limpia lava con su sangre todo tu ser de adentro Asia afuera por siempre esto es la Gracia de Dios y cuando cres que Jesús derramó su sangre para perdón de tus pecados el pago por tu condenación de los mismos y este es el Justo juicio de Dios Romanos 4:25 cuando tu leas en cualquier parte de la Biblia La Palabra Justicia Dios te está hablando de su Justo juicio lean el libro de la carta de Pablo a los Romanos 1corintios 15:1al 4 Dios dise si quebrantas o violas su Ley en un solo mandamiento te ases culpable de todos condenación cuado Cristo murió en la Cruz el cambio esta condenación (juicio) por su Justo juicio con su muerte en la Cruz si cres eres salvo si no cres serás o mejor dicho ya eres condenado Juan 3:18 dile aJesus ven a mi corazón perdona mis pecados 😂❤ lávame con tu sangre mi corazón ❤y todo lo que está en mi y dale vida Eterna a mi espíritu humano que necesita ser resucitado por ti Señor Jesús Amén

@jeffk464 Год назад

Yeah, you lose your job, you lose your wife or girlfriend. A facts a fact. What did Hillary Clinton say, in an age of globalization when all your computer programming jobs are being off-shored you need to learn how to be a roofer.

@hannahbellxoxo2414 Год назад

I would love to see a return to Mormon stories for you and John to facilitate your husband telling his Mormon story

@nuancehoe Год назад

That would be awesome!

@CiljanCristiano Год назад

Second this 🥰

@CarolynMatyjanka Год назад

@mormonstories @johndehlin ... 🥰🤪👍

@tawneenielsen4080 Год назад

I don't think John facilitates great harmony, though

@dougspindler4947 Год назад

It would be more interesting to hear about more people/families leaving the church.

@marcellacruser951 Год назад

You've been through a whole lot in a very short time. That you hit a roadblock and had to separate to be able to come back together isn't surprising. Super glad to see you two owning your individual crap, supporting each other through it and standing up for other, even to each other... if that makes sense. Your love each other is so clear. More, I get the feeling you've rediscovered that you really, really like each other and can be friends as well as spouses. Much love and respect for your brave transparency, guys... so glad you two found true for you.

@familygrows7627 Год назад

ADHD is debilitating. Especially as a mom. Losing a mom is debilitating. Growing up Mormon and leaving is debilitating. Separation is debilitating. Life is hard. Remember to create space somewhere to be able to love yourself and take one day at a time. Much love.

@CarolynMatyjanka Год назад

I found out I was ADHD at age 58!! Still coming to some kind of grips around it!! I'm finding my ADHD Coach is the best, but also, the counseling helps with the emotional stuff (anxiety, depression, ptsd) from operating for decades undiagnosed! And apparently there's some gifts to this neurodiversity!!??

@Plethorality Год назад

@@CarolynMatyjanka congrats! I found out at 55, in 2020. It is a lot to process, i agree.

@debbiehoad1850 Год назад

It was nice to “meet” Aaron. I’d be happy to hear more from him.

@sarawithoutanh8302 Год назад

Y’all didn’t need to share, but I’m glad you did. My curiosity was killing me. It sounds like you all are on a great track with authenticity. Love to hear the parenting journey as well. Totally agree with all you said. We have 3 littles as well and they have some unique needs. It’s so hard and so important. Can feel crushing at times.

@schrecksekunde2118 Год назад

one idea i have would be "let the poor man talk from time to time!" with love from one ADHD speedhead to another 😉 you two are cute 😁🤘

@kathryngailful Год назад

We need to normalize taking breaks/separating to take care of mental health and to potentially make a marriage healthier. Or really anything a couple needs to make sure it's a healthy thing for everyone involved, even if that means divorce in the end. Kudos to you guys for recognizing what you needed and taking those steps.

@ew5301 Год назад

“I didn’t train to be a homemaker” (Aaron) None of us women have either….at least the never Mormons. We all just jump in, no classes no instructions. It is really hard.

@Plethorality Год назад

Especially housework with adhd. Seriously hard.

@nmikloiche Год назад

My spouse and I took 6 month break. We had all the things and the kids and it felt like life was a joyless grind. My spouse and I started to just resent each other and we knew we loved each other but we were breaking each other. We bot grew so much in 6 short months and while life hasn’t been bump free we have been together for 21 years. The kid years were the hardest, so know it gets better and that if you can keep loving each other and being honest - it will work itself out especially with you both committing to self care and self growth. Keep your chin up and endure and you’ll get through the storm.

@missylee3022 Год назад

Kara, That exhaustion you mentioned after engaging with people for hours is very common with ADHD. It's a dopamine thing. I'm a teacher with adhd and a mom. I understand.

@Fairpla Год назад

Also as an ADHD teacher and mom, I completely agree!

@chriscross5188 Год назад

Missy Lee, do you have a resource on the dopamine thing? Thank you very much!

@Plethorality Год назад

@@chriscross5188 its everywhere. Plenty of info, even on youtube.

@marzipankrabapoulus6371 Год назад

Thanks for this. My husband and I have had a ridiculously difficult last 3 years. It’s so good to see someone else struggling and hanging together. Best wishes to the both of you.

@sallygreenfield6991 Год назад

Carah, I love listening to you, but are you aware that you run right over the top of your husband all the time when he is trying to talk? I am ADHD as well, and this was something that I had to learn to control (it's still hard for me). I know a lot of us are unaware that we are doing it, and I thought that it might be helpful for you to hear.

@ChowderTIO Год назад

Opposites sometimes attract. Beta male?

@boxie13 Год назад

Fellow ADHDer here. I do this to my GF and it’s so hard to keep in check but I do my best. Damn that impulsivity.

@montessoriutah 5 месяцев назад

Check yourself and let him SPEAK! If you’re going to have someone on with you then share the time!!!

@smallfootprint2961 Год назад

Just a little way into this video makes me remember when I was a new mom and working full time. It's so good to hear you discuss this openly. Aaron is so good as a new full time Dad. Thank you for telling us how you're doing. Santa Monica? Yeh... I raised my kids there, but it seems they're packing more and more people and buildings in those few square miles. It's beautiful there, but glad you got out. Sounds weird, but I'm with you guys. I had to find some calm place to rest my soul, and try to realize what God really is for me. Taking care of the kids while searching for more awareness is hard, but thank you for letting us peek in on the process. Best wishes to you both. Lynn

@BebbaDubbs Год назад

Finding our she's twice exceptional: ADHD and (obviously) gifted. This makes so much sense! Love y'all!

@stuartsenften237 Год назад

Kudos to Aaron for Talking about His Depression, and also a Handsome Man, a Mix of Neil Patrick Harris/Bradley Cooper! LOL! Carah funny as Hell, Smart as a Whip, and I'm Sure a Great Mom. Interesting Lives You Lead! Thanks for Sharing, Shout Out From an Ex-Mormon Old Man.

@margidehlin803 Год назад

How do you manage to talk about sensitive and complicated realities with such realness, depth, and humor? It is incredibly hard to do (for most of us)! You make it look effortless! Take good care of yourselves. You matter to us. This space can be relentless. We are sending all of our love and support your way.

@outwardbound2241 Год назад

@Margi Dehlin, love this!

@allibrinkerhoff2212 Год назад

You guys seem to make a really balanced team. It's really cool to see how you reason with each other and are able to communicate and work through very intense, heavy, complex issues. I love the energy that you emanate as a couple! Thanks for sharing your story and being so candid about everything. Love you guys!

@tedsmith8369 Год назад

Carah you both need to be commended for baring all. You are both very brave for doing this! Best of luck to you both!

@nuancehoe Год назад

Thank you so much!

@sandragalati6281 Год назад

Good on the two of you to figure out yourselves. Hubby sure is cute and you two make a cute couple. Hang in there, Carah and Aaron. ❤️🙏

@shaylanelson4204 Год назад

Loved every minute of this. Thanks for sharing your honesty and normalizing life

@helen17ish Год назад

thank you for sharing so honestly. sending love to you both. none of this is easy.

@swaneespeedramsey6080 Год назад

Carah my hubby and I separated for about 6 months when we had a nine year old and 3 five year olds. All girls. Best thing we ever did. We came back together with better focus, aligned goals, love for each other and a much stronger dedication to our marriage. Nothing is harder on a marriage than children. I will admit that. Carah and Aaron some days I had to remind myself that I wanted these children, I wasn’t raped. I actively participated in getting myself prego. Actually I didn’t sign up for triplets but here they are, healthy and happy so this is our reality now. In the end we discovered that our marriage separation showed us that we really had something worth fighting for. 33 years later we are still going strong. Stu and I both embraced the marriage/kid chaos and jumped back in with both feet setting the resentments for each other aside. Was it easy? Hell no. What it worth it? Hell yeah. Best wishes to both of you in whatever you both decide moving forward. My heart goes out to both of you.

@nuancehoe Год назад

My hero Swanee! ❤️👏🏻👏🏻 that’s really inspiring to hear. Thanks for sharing

@AMFibers Год назад

This reminded me of something I heard once that makes a lot of sense to me: In relationships where one partner works and one partner stays home with the kids, problems arise because both partners feel like they've been working all day and are "off" for the evening. When, in actuality, neither of them have the evenings off.

@cptdebbie Год назад

Thank you for being so real!!! You are both beautiful people, inside and out. ❤❤❤

@dmissme.9683 Год назад

I loved listening to him talk about switching roles, and watching the kids…I could have listened to that for an hour…there must be some funny stories there…and the churches stereotypes of not being the man working away from the house…

@willowt9196 Год назад

Thank you so much for validating my own experience of raising children! Children are challenging and everyone around me thought I was nor being blissfully happy enough.

@powderandpaint14 Год назад

Everyone considering having children should be aware of that, that being a parent is challenging!

@KelseyDunlevy Год назад

Yo, I feel like my own relationship with my husband is mirrored here with your relationship with yours... our husbands are super patient and acknowledge our need to speak our peace! Love to see y'all working through your own stuff in your own unique way. There's infinite ways to have a marriage/relationship, and from what I see, you're doing it your own right way. Thanks for sharing.👏👍

@jodigirl6610 Год назад

I started listening to Tig Natoro after you mentioned her before. She is hilarious! My husband & I have been married for 31 years. We both were raised JW and got married so very young. We left the cult together 14 years ago when our boys were little. We have had plenty of hard times to be sure, but I am so glad we figured it out. There is something about being married to the person you literally grew up with. I hope you guys can stay together too. You obviously love each other so much, so i hope it will all work out. ♡

@larryfisher8862 Год назад

great content to get the perspective of others on life’s journey. Thank you and keep up your stories.

@coshuajurtis7029 Год назад

Thanks for sharing your stories and being so chill Aaron and Carah! My wife and I met in 2008. She was 19 and I was 25. Soooooooo relatable and obviously have never met you guys but sending love!! 🙏🏼

@ruthrodriguez7694 Год назад

Thanks for sharing. Loved, loved hearing your story kids. Amazing. I admire your thinking. Your strength too.

@samanthahill5428 Год назад

I got out of the military a year ago and have been with my daughter at home (doing school). The military is EASIER than being with a 2 year old all day. 😅

@KelseyDunlevy Год назад

Lol! That's the first comparison I made while talking to my mom after I had my first kid... I said, "Being a Marine is easier than parenthood." My mom was honestly shocked, but it's true!

@maggiethurber8111 Год назад

This was such a great video. Thank you so much for sharing. ❤

@shelby477 5 месяцев назад

I have struggled with talking, explaining too much all of my life. I only recently learned it is usually connected to not feeling believed as a child. Which so hit home for me. I was thinking that if I was just truly heard, I would be believed. And our over explaining ourselves for this easily morphs into over explaining everything. It would so hurt when people, 99% of this from my family members, would say i was selfish for this. Things like what I thought was explaining why I could empathize with people or situations, ended up looking like I was making it about me. It was so humiliating to be thought of as self centered. I would try to catch myself, to stop it in the moment. But it was like I was missing some ability, as of I were missing some sort of filter everyone else had. Then I would end up too quiet because I was scared of being judged for my not being able to judge how to even talk with people. Anyway, understanding this has helped me to finally start to temper this with some success. Don't feel badly, you are such a seeker of truth, you will get it. Also don't forget, women are called out for this far more than men.

@nicoleharalson4929 Год назад

I like when people are real about how hard marriage is. I was separated for a while and luckily it worked out but I wish you guys the best with whatever comes next. ♥️

@matthewdailey8637 11 месяцев назад

Hi Nicole 👋 lol!

@nicoledailey8175 11 месяцев назад

@@matthewdailey8637 hi!🤓

@freedomandcoffee Год назад

y'all are adorable--i hope Aaron moves back in soon!

@marquitaarmstrong399 Год назад

I'm glad you and your Mom are communicating

@CarolynMatyjanka Год назад

Love you two together!!! Also, John should interview Aaron!!!

@Kalama_Llama_King_Kong Год назад

Love you folks. Thank you for your vulnerability. I learn from you. Also, you are working with Jimmy?! Awesome! Love that guy too.

@lianidri80 11 месяцев назад

Carah...you are amazing. Thanks for your videos. I am not a mormon but I have learned a lot from you. 😊

@abrahamcollier Год назад

So brave and vulnerable. Thank you. ❤

@allibrinkerhoff2212 Год назад

Also Sam's comments in the live chat replay gave me life during this episode

@tlcmeans Год назад

Having children is exhausting and fulltime child care can be depressing because all your energy goes to them with nothing is left for you. This is something good mothers are never allowed to talk about.

@ashleybrown-fs5zc Год назад

I love your content! My brother used to be seminary president and I met my partner in seminary. We have all since left the church obviously lol.

@calebseverson318 Год назад

glad he came around again, cause you are awesome !

@jillette7490 Год назад

Just have to say Tig is freaking hilarious. Love her!!

@Ann-so6vl 9 месяцев назад

Wow, you two. Such a fascinating life.

@melanieovens8008 Год назад

Raw and humorous Loved this one.

@tawnyachristensen7310 Год назад

Your last Mormon Stories interview with JL was so good!

@nuancehoe Год назад

Wasn't that the best! Whoooooo!

@rickyjohnson7591 Год назад

Agreed. That episode was 🔥! Well done Carah & John!

@CarolynMatyjanka Год назад

@@nuancehoe Where?! What???

@Faith.unraveled Год назад

Love you guys!!! ❤

@nuancehoe Год назад

Love you babe!

@scottyeates224 10 месяцев назад

So invested in you, the start of this show broke my heart

@lynziebryant9474 Год назад

Depression and marriage struggles are real and hard. I’m sorry you’ve had a tough go this year.

@shannonmerrell1538 Год назад

You both are awesome! Lots of trials but don't ever allow anyone to gaslight you, manipulate or guilt you into anything. One day at a time. Frankly, I never understood how they keep up with all those personalities. Act one way at work, another at gathering, another at Church then leave on vacation and cut loose! All signs of abuse and oppression.

@eleesab4883 10 месяцев назад

I appreciate your vulnerability, and hope good things your way! It’s a challenge to learn how to healthy relationship for the first time. Also, shoutout to late diagnosis of ADHD, I relate.

@grandmaroxie2210 Год назад

Thank you for sharing your story. You are both beautiful people. All the best for both of you. Forward ever forward.... lol 😆 🤣 😂

@maxfrank13 Год назад

You two are the cutest couple of all time. 😭

@FreckledGemini Год назад

Leaving the church!! You MUST check yourself somehow, right? When it hits you. The depth of deceit. You have to reboot. However that looks. You guys needed to be sure you weren’t mindscrewed into your very marriage! Now parenthood. You’re faced with the reality that your entire existence, shit, pre-existence and eternity is an effing sham….poof. Like. Uh. Whaaat. That’s a “knock you off your axis” event. It’s nuts dudes. You guys are a good example for many people. Adam I appreciate your experience in the loss off your mom. I lost mine suddenly too and my experience has been a very uncharted road and definitely resulted in a rebirth of my spirit/soul. Changed. I could only feel my mom at the river for a long time. So I went fishing every day for months. It’s a “total- being” shift of huge proportions. Have mercy yo. Am I right??? 👀 K. Later. Lol

@Lovealwayswins1 Год назад

Thumbs up for Aaron

@CatskillsGrrl Год назад

I wish you both the very best. You will find your way.

@NeonElixr Год назад

Your guy is a really good guy 😊

@nuancehoe Год назад

Thanks for seeing that! He is!

@jonipitcher7185 Год назад

I am not saying that my opinion matters. BUT I hope you guys can pull through and make your marriage work. I hope that you can all heal and feel better. Life is for sure difficult. No one tells you how hard being a parent can be and is.

@nuancehoe Год назад

We feel great! It's all gonna be fine. Thanks for your nice words.

@zachlightcap2179 Год назад

"Behold, I will send forth the Comforter...".. ty

@Marie-ml1pr Год назад

Great video. Your both titanium

@nuancehoe Год назад

Thanks 💪🏻

@okaylady8692 Год назад

Carah, honey... let him speak! Lol no hate, like at all. I was barely able to hear him tell his story without interruption or speaking for him. I love you and your channel, but this was very very difficult to follow.

@nuancehoe Год назад

Okay okay I’ll talk to my therapist about my control issues 😅😅😅

@patfromsac7951 Год назад

I agree😂

@tawneenielsen4080 Год назад

It's not just control issues. Really, it's anxiety and ocd and anxiety. I'm not being rude at all either and not diagnosing!! If you can't learn to sit back and let someone else have an experience separate from yours, then you become exhausting for other people. Then, despite everyone's best efforts and highest intentions, people will need to leave just to breathe. Watch the snarky comments. Say what you mean and mean what you say. If you're doing that, you don't want him anyway.

@maggiethurber8111 Год назад

@@nuancehoe don’t listen to the negative comments. This is my fav video you have ever done. If he doesn’t mind then no one else should.

@juliet.echo.m Год назад

YES. It was painful to listen but I really wanted to, to learn from their experience. Kind of an interesting insight into the relationship and the difficulties they had/have. I was in a marriage previously where I behaved like this and really drowned out my ex in so many ways. It didn’t work. In my new marriage, I don’t do that and have learned how to temper myself, to LISTEN more than speak. This is a tremendous life skill to hone, not only in marriages but in all relationships.

@lurenacornella6588 Год назад

Feel bad for you both. Try to work things out. I've been away divorced from my children for years. If I could go back and fix things I would.

@richardjones1699 Год назад

It was good to see you both. Thank you for being open and vulnerable. Best of luck to both of you. I may have enjoyed a bit of lucifer lettuce, but damn if I dont appreciate you.

@lumanwalters_ Год назад

I was a software engineer for a year and got PIPed(which Aaron will be aware of) so I had to bounce to a tech job that isn't programming. It's a tough field and I don't know that I could go back to programming after not doing it for so long.

@BTyeful Год назад

I always enjoy your content. Thank you for being so vulnerable ♥ your hubby seems like a very nice guy. I wouldnt know as he wasn't able to get more than a couple words out at time. It made me so nervous... HOWEVER... My husband has the same problem, unfortunately. He has an Adhd diagnosed, overbearing, controlling wife and he's a very gentle soul. I even got him a t shirt that shows a circle half way loaded and says "thinking" because it takes him for-e-ver to spit it out 😳 our poor guys need to be heard! This was a good example of that. No hate, they need women like us. My husband would still be working for Golds Gym membership collection 18 years later if it wasn't for me. On the flip side, I need his cool demeanor!

@freedomandcoffee Год назад

i've done a lot of research on mental health including adhd, brain fog, depression, anxiety, etc... I think that ADHD is basically a brain type that is not the majority. but i don't think it's an illness... i think it's just a type. And of course there are benefits and drawbacks of each brain type... but i believe we can optimize our brain function naturally so we can benefit and not beat ourselves up about how we're different. I've helped a lot of people do that too.

@powderandpaint14 Год назад

Having a third child increases the chances of a couple divorcing, as does job stress/loss of a job and health problems.

@Peedarb Год назад

Scruplocity is real for young Mormons, especially when you lose a parent at a young age and you feel immense epic pressure to keep a family together through your goodness and keeping your covenants so your family can be made whole again some day. That's the kind of scruplocity guilt that kills.

@llamamama2910 Год назад

All the best for you now.

@MyPumpkinSpicedChaos Год назад

I'm a never-mo who got into a relationship with a "Mormon in church records only" (he doesn't want to disappoint his mother so he's keeping his records in until she passes away) over 11 years ago. Our relationship has been rocky over the years leading to 2 significant periods where we just could not talk to each other unless it was directly related to our kids. He couldn't move out because we didn't have the funds to support the kids on our own income alone and I am disabled and really needed his help with the children. It wasn't until 2016 when I started to investigate the church that I figured out why we had so many problems in our relationship. To be fair, I wasn't going because I wanted to be in the church, we were just trying to get help with food and even though my fiancé is a member, they still wanted me to get baptized so I went to all the classes (side note, after 8 weeks we were denied assistance and I was told that it would be a good idea if I just not come to church again. They never explained why but just kicked me out). Anyway, our entire issues came down to patriarchy and communication. He was constantly feeling like a failure because he was taught only one way to be a man, and with his depression he could never measure up to that. And i really sucked at making and communicating my needs and boundaries. It took awhile for him to actually sit down with me and the ces letter for him to start to understand how he was raised and how traumatic that can be to a male who never really felt priesthood worthy. The last few years have been really really good because we're finally on the same wavelength and we literally made out lists of needs wants and desires so that we each had ways to approach and communicate with each other. Sometimes separation is the only way to bring us back together and show us what really matters in life.

@freedomandcoffee Год назад

Sounds like you're introverted, Kara ;) i am too. It's hard to believe when we talk a lot for a living or are really friendly and not shy, but it just has more to do with what depletes you and what energizes you. Personally i love to talk to people and get out and help people heal, but it's exhausting and i have to be alone to recharge. So introverted ADHD brain that talks to people all day, check :)

@1949lwd Год назад

You are both so physically beautiful, you should be fashion models, or something like that.

@nuancehoe Год назад

Aw thanks gosh

@seufubeca1 Год назад

he really sets off my "I wish he were gaydar"

@marquitaarmstrong399 Год назад

We do the best with what we got

@DM-nw5lu Год назад

I gave the 666th like on this video. I'm proud :) I'm only at the beginning of the video but looking forward to what's to come.

@bouji_ 9 месяцев назад

When you add in the "celestial" kingdom part of Mormonism, it demonstrates perfectly the amount of manipulation that is present in Mormon marriages. I have never really considered that point until you both brought it up in this discussion. It was kind of a clever innovation from Joseph Smith. Although admittedly, I have no idea who actually came up with the idea. I'm sure it's not necessarily present in all Mormon marriages, but I'm guessing it probably really rears it's ugly head when both of the spouses are poor.

@Geoplanetjane Год назад

ADHD here. Made it thru HS, college, grad school. Amazed. Not diagnosed until 2014. Hmmm. In my experience too much weed messes with your brain in some not necessarily the greatest ways. So be careful.

@Listenerandlearner870 Год назад

He seems a really really nice man.

@paigerperry867 Год назад

Y'all are a cute couple!

@robochop78 Год назад

I remember Aaron from professor blast off!! I knew that voice was familiar.

@Franciellestephanie 28 дней назад

What's the deal with ex-mormons and mushrooms/weed? I've heard so many stories that involves drugs in this post traumatic experience. Why so many of them go straight to numb themselves after?

@livelearnlovesmile Год назад

I'd love to hear about your experiences with mushrooms and Marijuana.

@laurablack8700 Год назад

Agreed, I dig all of your content, Carah, but by 30 minutes in I had to give up listening because I was so tired of hearing you talk over him or for him. You both rock and I soooooo appreciate everything you put online. It was just a very different experience trying to watch you two share the mic…

@juliet.echo.m Год назад

Same here. I really wanted to hear this episode, like from Aaron, too. Kind of demonstrates the relationship dynamic overall.

@juliet.echo.m Год назад

That being said: it takes a LOT to do anything remotely like this, being vulnerable and out in the open.

@notheothersarah Год назад

The ADHD diagnosis (wait, she didn't know) lol I'm Add I get it

@jocylouie Год назад

You guys are so cute 🥰 Also why were the rumors that you guys separated bc you (Carah) were possibly hooking up with Sam Shelley 💀

@rubyray777 Год назад

👍

@caseyjude5472 Год назад

43:10 truth!

@sdfotodude Год назад

The treadmill of life is the epitome of Mormonism.

@natachu444 Год назад

Ummmmm, I don’t do anything with balance … i am with you 100%

@Starfish2145 Год назад

I found out how hard it is to be a stay at home mom 😂

@NikkiSoFar Год назад

Can you please try to speak slower? English is my first language and I am Canadian (fast talkers) but sometimes I couldn’t follow you. Thanks! Love you C ❤