WHAT I EAT IN A DAY | workout with me, body insecurity chat, freely eating 

this is why I hate ranting on camera, I completely left out the fact that the reason why I went into a bulimic stage in my life was not just because I was called “too skinny” I thought having a super flat stomach was considered “acceptable” while trying to get thick at the same time since having curves was also considered “pretty” & it just messed up my mentality badly to where I thought if I binged eat & regurgitate in the same day, ill have society’s acceptable body standards. While I was gaining weight throughout the years in school I went from feeling “too skinny” to “not torso skinny enough”. Basically I was never good enough to myself. I also gained a bad eating habit that I “HAD” to finish my full plate due to my childhood self being told I needed to eat all my food even when I was full. But when I force fed myself I felt guilty & too full when I did finish. So either way I felt horrible eating & not eating. Sorry I didn’t explain that part correctly.

Girl…. You’re 20????? I’m so proud of you for the life you live, I was a complete MESS at 20, didn’t get my life together until I was 25, I applaud you for your progress, and how you’ve handled yourself thus far your story is incredible, keep being amazing!

As being a big girl my whole life I understand the unhealthy relationships with food and nutrition. I’m still learning to get it right since culture has so much to do with it too. Glad I found you on here! You inspire me to get up and move even when I feel unmotivated to. Thanks for all you do! ✨

Thank you for this video. I’m 28 and I have several major health issues. I’m diabetic and when i tell you I cried watching this video. You have inspired me to get my shit together girl. Most of my late 20s I have been unhealthy. In my early 20s I was so in shape and healthy. Moving forward I’m working on creating a healthier and fuller life for me and my son 🤎 Thank you so much.

I appreciate your transparency in this video. Makes me fangirl over you even more. It's encouraging when you hear the person who inspires you talk about how they have struggles too. I got sober 12 years ago when I found out I was pregnant. My daughter is my angel, totally saved our lives. But I gained 80 lb and have never put it off. It's like my addiction switched and now I can't control my eating habits. It's a black cloud that follows over my head everyday. I beat myself up because there are people in the world dealing with issues they can't control, like cancer for example, and my biggest problem is something that I can physically control. How dare I not be able to fix it! Especially when my mother and father had cancer and I know I need to eat better and take care of my body so I can be around for my beautiful babies. I beg and pray to God please take my will away, just do with me what you want and help me make good decisions. When I see young girls being self-conscious about their body and makes me want to tell them how when I was young I always thought I was chubby. Until I actually gained that weight and became obsese pretty much !I would kill to have my old body. All I can do is keep trying. It's when you give up that you're really done for. This is the most personal comment I've ever posted online. 🙈 Anyway, didn't mean to unload my baggage in your RU-vid comments. Maybe people can relate, maybe people will talk shit. Who knows. Oh well. The point is thank you Mel for being open and honest. Your channel is a happy place for me, so thank you for providing it. ✨

thank you so much for talking about your body insecurities so openly and your athletic childhood. I've never been athletic bc of health issues, and I've had body insecurities but hearing about your experiences and them relating to me makes me feel much better abt my own insecurities.

Love that you shared your fitness journey. We all have stories that led us to weightlifting, and I think that’s a beautiful thing. Everyone in the gym is fighting past demons and improving themselves. It’s as much mental as it is physical, and I’m so glad you shared this ❤❤❤

Funny how we pick ourselves apart so hard, but there are so many people who'd LOVE to look like us. I would give anything to look like you!! And you can see in the comments how many people you motivate. But I get it with being "too skinny" and not "skinny enough" at the same time. Trying to get juicy curves but it not being in our genetics... I GET IT. I'm slowly shifting that mentality to just wanting to be STRONG and FIT.

When you said how your parents house always felt dirty I never related more I knew exactly what you meant like cleaning it would feel pointless for the most part

Thank you for all the inspo girl! Absolutely adore you. Love from South Africa 🇿🇦💖

If vlogmas is overwhelming, I would suggest uploading weekly. Like a compilation of the week's activity.

The kitty needing a hug in 01:05 ❤

your personality is so pretty and refreshing on camera, i love how your coming out your shell with that and talking ,more.

Hey Mel!! Love the transparency about your relationship with food. Mine wasn’t the same as yours but I have my own demons I’ve learned about being healthy. I laugh sometimes watching your videos cuz I have kids older than you but you do so much I can relate to. I wanted to comment to let you know that you are reaching people of all ages. Keep doing your thang and inspiring us all.

Cilantro is life! I put it on everything and anything I can! For 20 years old you are so wise. I wish I had that mindset at that age. I just recently started to come to terms with what I need in my life to thrive. Although you are very shy in my head you are my friend. Thank you for opening up to us. I know that is not easy to do when it comes to such emotional and personal information.

Wow you are only 20, you seem really grown I'm 46 and my baby girl is 20, I enjoy your content and not sure if you know how truly gorgeous you are be proud you inspire an older gal like me, also couldn't see who you said to follow for recipes, much love also I love cilantro. 💖

Awww the bond between you and your white and black cat 🥺🥺

thank you for being so vulnerable mel

i watched this whole video while getting ready!! i love your longer videos and i’m so glad you shared a little bit more of your childhood it honestly means so much that you are comfortable with us like that !!

I love the bond you have with your cats. They absolutely love you

I love and admire you’re transparency 🫶🏾

I can tell you’re such an awesome person because the way you treat your babies- they’re so cute and loved it’s transparent definitely gained a forever follower and fellow cat lover ❤️

The food segment was beautiful thank you for opening up to us

thank you so much for being so real and raw about your relationship with food and body image. i've struggled with my weight all my life, going through periods of being a healthy weight and exercising, to binge eating, etc. every time you post it gives me hope that i can still change for the better and i shouldn't give up, even if i can't change everything i want to change overnight. (also the espresso shaking was hilarious and the coffee looked gorgeousssss)

The fact that everyone in your home has similar love languages is soooo damn awesome to me! Love you Mel and Thanks for sharing. I’m going to try that “Panda Express” recipe because I was craving beef and broccoli the other day. ❤❤❤❤

I love you and watching you doing hip trust back then verse now really motivates me to be consistent at the gym. I get so discouraged going to the gym Monday to Saturday and not see any results but you really help me think that if I don’t quit I will see better results. I love all your videos 😘😘

This is a wonderful video a wonderful message; I struggled greatly with binge eating in high school because I so badly wanted to be tiny and stick thin, sometimes I think the mental and emotional effects from that time are still here, and sometimes I still catch myself going all day without eating to stay slim. Thank you for speaking on this topic, I know its hard, but you are making so many men and women feel seen and heard by sharing your life and stories.

Loveeee your transparency about your body.

Omg to see you on those videos when you where young and now to have see you grown is so inspiring

I completely agree with you! Thanks for being so transparent about your past eating habits and body image issues. Honestly, now instead of restricting myself and limiting my food options, I've learned go make healthy alternatives / healthier recipes of those take out foods that I love. It helps me satisfy my cravings and I don't feel guilty or beat myself up about it.

Oh my god !!! Girl you look amazing

Proud of you mel keep living your best life❤️🙏

Love your honesty Mel 💕 you look so beautiful in white it makes your face glow. Thanks for sharing with us!! 💐🌷💞

Mel you are BEAUTIFUL always have been always will be ! So proud of you and all you continue to do !

loooove your vibe and videos!!

Hey mel always love watching your videos you are inspiration to me

The love from you cat fills my heart omg so cute

Your videos make me so happy❤

Sending Aroha to you and your loved ones🤍 Thank you so much for helping me creating a healthy food relationship with myself xx

Really love your videos ! Great content!!

Hi Mel, I love watching all your RU-vid videos! Just wanted to say, thank you for your honesty and for inspiring a lot of us to continue fighting to change bad habits and turning them into a more positive life. I am 29 and just last year started making better choices when it comes to eating healthier and exercising 4-5 times a week. My fiancee and I go workout together, meal prep everything together, cook a variety of meals that are filling and cleaner, allowing us to feel better overall. Don't take me wrong but we tried so many times eating clean or making healthier decisions, but it would never last. I would often suffer from stomach problems, felt nauseous, burped a lot and just felt disgusted overall, so it got to the point where we started together to change things little by little and now it got to the point of feeling better and energized. This changes don't just happen very fast. You have to be patient with yourself and care enough for yourself to make a good change that will lead to living a longer and fulfilling life. PS. I love your cats, they are so beautiful! I have 4 of my own

I just want to stop dead in my tracks watching to take time to thank-you for feeling so open to share so much of this with us! I know since watching you from the beginning how much you've kept quiet about your own struggles & that's progress alone being able to share it with us all. I think something I'm realizing even at my age (31), is that most females have some form of an eating disorder at 1 point in their lives... I STILL struggle myself with starving/binging only to realize at the end of the day I can't starve off my 'bloat' more than likely caused from under-eating/binging. Just know that all of you, it is ENOUGH💜 (something I need to tell myself a lot more tbh)

can't believe ur 20!!! I'm turning 20 in a couple of months and i'm very far from being independent. I haven't been able to find a job (Uruguay's magic), and even if I did it's pretty imposible to get a place here if your family doesn't have money. Not only that, u are STUNNING, like HOW

Recent subscriber but love your talkative love and getting to hear your thoughts and overall personality more!

Girl watching you work out is such motivation. 💜 🔥 And your health habits 🔥 thank you for your energy transfer. God bless you beautiful sister 💜💜💜💜

I know you’re a few years younger than myself. I’m 25 will be 26 in April ♈️. But I just wanted to say your blogs are so so inspirational and help me as a grown ass woman to get back on track!

It’s your life girl, no need to explain yourself. You do what you can, the best as you can like the rest of us

Recently started following your you tube page. Really enjoy what you share with us…thank you ❤️ the positive vibes and realness are a blessing. Thank you.

I’m gonna need you to start posting a music playlist of the music in your vlogs. Even your intro music is hella 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥….the song playing at 29:51???? Yoooooo……

I swear you are such a dope individual love ya style !

thank you for sharing - i am in this position. can you make the next video about how you started to incorporate fitness *workouts/splits/etc* and eating more to get strong.

Omg your cats are so adorable and way they kept giving you so much love 😻😻😻😹😹😹😸😺

We love you Mel💕🌻

Girl your a goal❤ I was going to ask you. What do you do to prevent injuries from working out? Also you should a workout video blog. I need your routine !

Girlll the love from a distance is real

Thank you for sharing your journey ❤

Beautiful family I love watching your videos ❤️💐

I could relate to you the most atm because I had a binge session last night. The things you told Abt people calling you skinny the opposite happened to me ppl calling me fat and shit when I felt so comfortable in my body and now that I have lost wt and skinny and what not I don't feel comfortable.... Irony, thanks for sharing man ❤️❤️

Hi from Sputh Africa. Been watching your for like forever. You calm my anxiety

I love your vlogs I'm am always looking for healthier coffee recipes and meal recipes I have 3 daughters and I'm trying to teach them how great it is and how delicious it can be to eat healthy

I love hearing your backstory. Please keep talkin.

I LOVE cilantro!

From Namibia 🇳🇦 just showing love to a sistaaa❤️❤️❤️❤️

can you do a skin care video? ur skin looks so good!

I wish I could workout/weight lift like I used to. I have to be careful since I’m currently pregnant (also being in my first trimester). I’m starting to become insecure about my body even though I shouldn’t be at the moment. I love your videos btw, they give me the drive and motivation to keep working towards my goals ❤

Unlisted gang. Love you Mel, you are beautiful ❤

you're such a strong strong woman for putting yourself 1st and your own Mental Health care beforehand ....THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR MESSAGE MEANS EVERYTHING to me because I too suffer from this a greatly ❤ I wish you all the Best on your journey I would like to know more about your doing well and lovve your work-out videos your upper body strength is incredible giirl❤❤❤ YOUR Body is your Temple and it SHOWS!!! GREAT WORK

loveeeeeeeee ur vlogs😍

I loved your baked oats. And I too had bad relationship with food growing up and currently. And I need to workout more and be more fit. Def thinking about getting trained to be personal trainer. Thanks for sharing your journey.

luv ur videos

i LOOOOVE cilantro!

I love everything you do. Can you send about sharing your recipes please and thank you. I appreciate all the help and tips. Information. Keep up great work. Lots of love 💘 💕 ❤.

Thank you for sharing because i really need hear that

I love cilantro too!

Love your content. Thank you! I was wondering What type of face oil are you using. My skin breaks out so easy. Yet I need some hydration?

Thank you so much for sharing. I appreciate it so much. Dios te bendiga!

I am so happy to have found your channel! I relate to you in almost EVERY aspect, but your resilience to be aware & keep going strong is inspiring! I've been craving for a healthy change in my life again but couldn't get out of this rut no matter what drastic change I've made. Thank you T__T

Damn Mel, that thumbnail😍(my favorite youtuber and it’s not close…)

This might sound weird but it taste so good. Try adding chopped up apple without the skin to your tuna. It’s the best.

Cilantro is LIFE

“Idk why you’re still here because people get sick of me real easily, I do” I felt that Me too 😂

Lol i LOVEEE both cilantro and tomatoes! I could eat both raw😊Also appreicate you being open about your journey with food🫶🥺

Since youre still having painful cramps, try cutting out shellfish (bottom feeders) and pork. Shellfish tend to be very high in mercury. Ive been Kosher for several years now and the most i get is bloating and discomfort from gas but no more cramps. I used to have crippling pain from cramps and severe nausea and dizziness, haven’t had any of those symptoms since being Kosher. Not saying it will work for you but its worth a try, i think.

you’re absolutely gorgeous and wonderful ❤

Love cilantro and tomatoes!! 🍅

You look amazing ❤

Mel I’m new to your videos! I have been watching you the past couple weeks and absolutely love you! You are just so chill and real. You said your birthday is in December Im guessing you are a Sagittarius?

This is the first time I've seen such Tactile cats😍🦋

Thank you for sharing so much about you

Really like your talking vlogs 👏

love cilantro hate tomatoes. I cant do mushrooms either, its a texture thing. But cilantro tastes so good!

My cat is so needy too lol. Love it.

Did you use a pull up daisy band to strengthen your pull ups if so what’s it called ? ,type of band, and where can I get it ?

I notice I get less stomach aches or bloating when I drink my water with my meals! Especially a lemon water

i love cilantro

I was struggling with bulimia for 3 years it ruined my life, I uses to binge and purge multiple times a day everyday 🙃 now 2 years later finally recovered but I've really done damage to my teeth and my throat, worst part was I had no one to talk to honestly. I recovered on my own just by watching RU-vid videos and reading books, you sharing this is definitely going to help some one who is struggling with it ty Mel.

I’m same as you! Love cilantro, hate tomatoes

this woman is just turning 21???????? wow girl!!!!!

Hi love, what program do you use to edit videos? It's so nice! Also, love your content!

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