Dealing With Raw Emotions In Early Opiate Recovery 

Today is day 14 for me, from suboxone..was on it for 4 years, after an extensive 2 years of a pain pill addiction! I been working since day 1, everyday I'm outside of my comfort zone, and everyday I'm proud to have made to the end of the day! I this is so much easier when your mind is ready, and you welcome the pain ahead! Do not sit still!!! Keep doing things, and know it gets better!

hi Ryan.your just a talking head? m8 your a mentor and highly respected by me dude.your not JUST a talking head Ryan...your videos and the way you tell things really carches peoples mind.keep up the excellent work bruvv :-) # 3 weeks off opiates.

Hi Ryan, this man's letter sounds almost like me except I am a woman and my family doesn't know about my drug addiction. I am on day 10 clean of oxy use of over 6 years. I liked when he said the last one is the last one. Im still having a few physical withdrawal stuff, but I def feel my emotions are raw and are scaring me. Im not crying, I feel anxiety, anxiousness. I am praying hard and spoke to my priest for support. Your videos , which i randomly stumbled upon, are really a great help. Thanks so much for all you are doing. Keep making the videos, I told my priest about you and he said he would pray for you and your mission also . Love Christine

Ryan thank you so much for the time and effort you put into your mission. You have helped more people than you know. Once again I am watching your videos sober and over "the hump" It only gets better from here. Your passion to help others is a gift. Keep up the good work. Every time I get weak i look in the mirror and ask myself what are you made of?! What the F are you made of! Keep up the good fight!

Got to love a guy who will take his time to pull over and do a help video God bless you man

Those emotions feel so creepy to me, I don’t know how else to explain the feeling, but it almost seems like I’m in a creepy movie or something. I can’t even stand to be in the house on a sunny day, hearing all of the going’s on in the neighborhood, as I’m hiding in my room, not knowing what I’m even interested in. Life feels so frightening, and the things that entertain people seem so boring (watching football? Doing yard work?). I’m remembering now why I turned to using opiates in the first place, life was so boring. I’m now trapped in methadone treatment, I feel nothing, I’m totally isolated socially, and I’m powerless to pull myself out of this place that I find myself in. At the same time I’m amazed at the natural world. I find it spiritual & beautiful. I have so much guilt for having wasted my life, but I’m too afraid to change, that’s the cold truth 🥶 I’m not actually living, just waiting to die.

Im 5 days clean and feel good but the thought of snorting one more line of dope is so hard that it brings tears to my eyes. Fuckkkkk

+hello Ryan buddy.hope your well.luvving your vidz man. Ive been clean off heroin now for 2 weeks and 4 days today.All thanks to you.keep up the excellent work buddy :-)

God puts people in our path certainly!

im so very happy that god put someone like you on this earth.everything you do and have done for everyone struggling with addiction has to have brought you back to day one mentally, And i wanted to comment to thank u your gods messanger..

yes we start with baby steps for sure

Thank you.

yes I was so numb for long when I decided to quit emotions started rushing at me. trying to explain it all to my husband is a challenge but he is learning with me... I'm feeling all the bad things from my past its so hard but I'm still going... day 6 sober for me.

Thank you Ryan for doing this for all of us. I went cold turkey six days ago and it is getting a little bit better. First days were really shit. But now the mental thing is getting the better of me. Constant crying and all that crazy stuff. Sometimes i think i get crazy, but i try to stay calm. Can you give some advice to a brother in the Netherlands? Thanks anyway for doing this videos, they really make a difference. Have a good day and greetings.

Love your videos even though I am not completely sober they still help keep it up. But this is true the thing that brings me back to drugs is the memories the flashbacks Its hard for me to deal with them and cope and it dosent help that I have PTSD so it's makes it all the worse but little by little am learning to let go of the past and not let it consume me i know one day I'll be free from these tormenting memories.

Wow, i guess a lot if us are touched by our dads. Makes me want to be an even better one. Please everyone hang in there, try to help others, and fight to quit. Its our purpose

Thank you so much for this vid! I am going to an inpatient program soon and it is really good to be prepared. That spot you parked made me nervous.😳

Dude that's so true. Thanks again man can't stop thanking you enough.You a ture blessing.

Omg...I cry over stupid shit while going through sobriety.

That happened to me the first time I went to detox , after , I couldn't stop crying and crying and crying ...

Wish I'd seen this a year ago

This really scares meMy dad is my only dealer in my entire life & @ 34- I have no family as my mom is an active addict with mental health issues. Ryan, is your email available. I'm sure your beyond busy but I'd love to reach out & get your take on my situation.Thanks for all you do either waysIt's inspiring beyond what my verbal skills can communicate

Ryan, were you not also around 26 when you begin to get clean?

I'm feeling this way coming off of antidepressants. Last time I had any was January.

I'm a recovering alcoholic and I finally had my kids over at my own place for the first time in four years since my rock bottom. It broke my heart to let my kids go back to mom. My 6 year old daughter especially. Had to drink a bit to calm those emotions. I know I know it's not healthy to do that. I haven't felt this strongly in a long time. I'll be ok though. One day at a time. Edit* no I didn't drink when I had my kids. I guess I'm dealing with these strong emotions alone.

i relapsed on day 1 help

I feel the same on day 11

My girl of 3 years assumed I gave up on us when I was in the process of getting clean. She knew what I was doing. I didn't really contact her for a few weeks and Mabey I should have. Mabey it's my fault she gave up. But she's already dating a coworker and posting pics on FB and it's been Mabey a month or a little over. It sucks because we both strived to get clean when I finally was able to she gave up. I did t imagin this happening when I finally got clean. It hurts u know

Shit. Cant stop fu@#"ing crying.

did u know if u save one person man then it was all worth it even the addiction part