I am currently going through a breakup and I thought this woman was gonna be my wife in my mind and it ended randomly when i was at work. The shock of it made me realize I have a lot of fears. I realized I have abandonment trauma and I try to “people please” I am realizing that this also causes me to panic and feel like I’m never good enough. I am trying to learn how to navigate these emotions. It’s extremely hard to look ones self in the mirror. My biggest fear is being alone and idk why I have this fear not to sure how to even get through this fear. I randomly saw your video and just idk felt safe to leave this comment.
Thank you so much for sharing this, I can’t imagine how heavy and intense the shock of that must have been - especially if it wasn’t face to face whilst you were at work. But it’s amazing also the way you’ve been able to alchemise that pain into your own self reflection, recognising your own spaces for growth and change, and what trauma you have. I hope you’re proud of yourself for getting to that space at least - not everyone can. In the meantime, as you process this, try and be kind to what comes up. Time is a healer, and self compassion is key. Xx