Y'all saying the mixtape was shit but it's not for listening or for entertainment. It's an expression of a suicidal boys mind, music can mean so much more than a good track.
Because a kid killed himself and wanted people to hear his story😐 tf you mean why not like anyone enjoys it but you we can't just ignore it. The boy had a story to tell. Listen or get tf out of here with ya dumb questions
Are you dumb. He was expressing himself through music no one is listening to it for enjoyment it's out of respect. The people that only listen to music for enjoyment are saying it's shit but it's telling his story. Tf outa here with your dumb comments it's not that hard to understand
Ruby Rose don't even worry about what they saying. I haven't finished listening to it but it's about his expression like you said and people forget that music is based on an artist expressing themselves
@@freidarhealness5216 music isn't good or bad, it all depends on the tastes, the only bad thing that I personally can find it that some of the tracks are really repetitive and redundant, but they are good beats for my personal tastes
Omg. If you actually listen to the entire mixtape, and let it speak to you, you can hear him tell you his pain and confusion through the music. His dark and cloudy emotions. The samples and excerpts he carefully placed. This was his suicide note. You gotta get through the entire thing. Towards the end there was a sample he threw in speaking about depression and how people assume that you can just shake it off, but those struggling with depression can not. Also a sample said something about how you can't share your pain with anyone of no one is around. He purposely repeated that phrase a few times. Then a little after that, music changes, you hear a splash sound he inserted... Like something falling into a body of water. Then at the very end, another sample of someone talking about "when you die, your whole life flashes before your eyes in one second. But it's not a second. It's and endless ocean..." Or something like that. The album cover speaks volumes and reflects the entire suicide, his music, dark place, and his ascending into the sky into nothing. This entire thing runs deep. If this wasn't his version of a suicide note, idk what is. If you can't hear that, then you need to listen closely. That's why he asks for you to listen to the whole thing. So sad. He felt so alone. I hope his heart feels warm and at home now.
this whole tape had me shaking from beginning to end and whats the craziest part is that the music is actually amazing and a masterpiece. it takes a lot of retrospection for someone to come to such a conclusion.
Smoking weed is not going to cure depression, it can help. But recovering from depression is something that takes YEARS, if not decades of incredibly hard work and determination; and still, mental illness affects you for life. It breaks my heart that someone so young and with so much potential was taken too early. I've been sobbing uncontrollably for 30 minutes now- i can't bare to listen to his music yet as i know it will crush my soul. I wish all the best to anyone reading this. Know that as hard as life gets, it can always get better- and if you decide to leave, hearts will break, and you will be incredibly missed
WTF! HOW COULD THIS WHOLE MIXTAPE JUST GO UNNOTICED BY HIS FAMILY AND FRIENDS? WHERE WERE THE PARENTS IN THIS INSTANCE.... THIS IS JUST VERY UPSETTING TO ME....
Sadly this is the reality of many artists and people in general, we need to be there for people, instead they have us self loving and ignoring everyone else, we need to change that.
Have you ever spoken to a person “deep in depression “? You can tell them they are loved and how perfect they are over and over again. They see the world through their own eyes only. It’s something’s they have to work on deep with in their on mind and emotions. Some can fight and work through it some unfortunately can not get through it. Some ppl try for years but the constant battling. The bad thoughts creeping back up in their heads just when they think their fine and having a good day/time hurts them deeply. They get completely consumed with trying to feel normal and happy all the time. “The trying” but not “being happy” is exhausting so they give up. In these cases you can’t blame any else.
This is not a typical mixtape. He knew no one would look at it when he was still alive, so he made it into a suicide note and killed himself. He didn't kill himself to get people to look at his mixtape. His mixtape is a sort of explanation for his suicide, not the cause.
Do you know how chilling this is to listen to? You're listening to a dead boy's thoughts all accumulated and carefully constructed for us to understand what he was feeling. I'm honestly so shaken by this and I will never forget. Rest in perfect peace Billy Watts. I wish I knew you, such brilliance will live on forever, I promise. And shame on all of you for saying this is garbage, his music is deeper than just for your entertainment. It was a cry for help in my eyes. So again, rest in peace Billy Watts. 💕
I use to make fun of people who were depressed by saying just be happy, until I had to experience things in my life no one at that age should. And it made me hate everything and see the ugly in ever aspect of life. The exact opposite of what I was when I was a child. Depression is real and it's evil
think about how long it took to make this &the whole time, his objective is to make this his suicide note. all that background talk aint just background talk. kid was really tryna tell everyone something &no one would listen. nobody commented on his ig pics until they found out he died, fuck that. he needed help while he was here. i wish i couldve met or at least talked to the creative mind behind this music. God bless him. fly high billy
At starting at 19:10 if you listen the voice it's saying "Now I'm being called to water" this shit is scary and subliminal as hell but RIP man you was an artist with a vision no one else had
kelsy gray I was honestly afraid of listening to this in its entirety because of that. I don't need subliminal messages of suicide if I already struggle with depression. 😔 I know that may sound ignorant but it's how I feel.
I was 14 when he ended his life, I remember hearing about it but didn’t bother to look into it... now here I am bc of a tiktok unfortunately.. but as I listen to it I’m crying bc I can’t believe how this boy decided to end his life one of the most painful ways possible our brain & body’s instinct is to fight, just imagining how he felt.. fighting to breathe fighting for his life... damn. To his friends, his family, I am so sorry this happened. To the rest of us who I hope we learn something from this... RIP. I hope he found peace in GODs arms away from everything that pushed him to the point of taking his own life.
Hey, You Made It ! Probably the same reason i came. I'm here to tell you what i got from the whole segment of music, which to me was fire. So you know why your here if not ill tell you. DJKILLBILL313 tragically ended his life on Oct 26,2014. Before he did he released this piece of art. Now that your caught up lets listen. In The opening of the track you hear clips of a conversation at the en of the conversation you hear. " i never liked people and people never really liked me." Then the track switches into music but you have to listen to how the music is. You know when your watching a scary movie and something bad is about to happen or when the bad guy is about to pop out at you and you hear that BAH DUM BAH DUM BAH DUM or like when Jason's about to jump out and hear the breathing thing he does? Well He put that at the end of the second song as if something was to be coming, which it was. The music is switched and you hear another clip inserted where they are talking about technology being compared to a parasite and how toxic it can be. Now what stuck out to me was when the clip said when think of parasite yo think of something toxic right or something being an organic term. now when you think of that we can all be toxic in the we act in the things we do and THE WAY WE THINK. (depression) then it explains its polluting everything as its being created. Now lets go back to his Instagram post of technology can bring us together. We can all connect with one another through the internet. Listen to its entirety.At @12:00 you start to hear the music slow down. Everything gets slow and slumber. Like i said before when he ready to hind at something it changes to a clip that you can barley hear about the School systems in America. They don't teach to things about real life. They don't like the things that go on like in this case death (suicide) and its reality. THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE EVIL and how to prepare you to be a usable victim.LISTEN TO IT !!!! the third track seems to be walking, it has an old 80s vibe then you hear someone sing a note @15:40.Like you know how your just walking down the street and you hear you tune and you just bopping down the way and your just singing along to the beat. Is this what he was doing as he walked to the Ocean Or in the next clip he was being called to the ocean. Every-time the music is switched its a message. In his Bio On Ig It said if you wondering or even disappointed then click the link in the bio. THIS song which was on sound cloud would have been the link he was referring to. and ten its little things a i cant hear but then its laughing then more things i cant hear. then its disoriented noises and voices being played over the track. Then we go into a clip where it says its a difference between grief, depression and sadness. Here's where the clues that i was hinting about earlier with depression comes into play. The voice said i don't want to get into the differences but now one should have to compare their depression or grief to other in order for them to be valid. LISTEN TO IT !! You hear that you feel as if you sever no value to society. Hence the feeling of being NOTHING! You expect tomorrow to be different even though its not. Its a disillusion. Constantly just feeling hopelessness and being afraid and all they want is someone to notice it and do something and snap them back on their tracks. WANTING SOMEONE TO SNAP THEM OUT OF IT AND PUT THEM BACK ON THEIR TRACKS !!! .. PUT THEM BACK ON THEIR TRACKS ... WHAT IF NO ONE IS AROUND THEM TO SNAP THEM OUT OF IT AND PUT THEM BACK ON THEIR TRACKS? Now the Next track you know how in the movies like when the person has been trapped and they are looking for ever possible way out. you see them looking and exits and places to do secret ninja stuff to get out. This sounds like the background music for that. Then its like both o the beat are fighting to be heard. then you hear the climax music after the fight. Then its sound like water then a loud BANG. Then you hear someone jump and hit the water. @27:53. After you hear the water you hear airplanes this can signify being high above or floating free. Also know when they were searching for his body there were helicopters doing over views. The last part said i always heard you life flashes before you right before you die. Fist of all that one second is not a second, it stretches on forever like an ocean of time.Then the music sound like THUMP THUMP THUMP like a clock ticking. Now for the Cover Art. You see water. Well he drowned in the river. Think of a movie right lets say Titanic when Rose Moved Jack's hands and he floated back with his hands up then disappeared to were you could see nothing. Your probably like how did she get this from music. To be honest i don't know listen to this an art and a story!! hope i made it clar to you all !! R.I.P DJKILLBILL313
MUK well thank you for sharing what you got from this you opinion is very valued. I do understand where your coming from & indeed he probably could have believed in them, we will never know ! What else do you think ?
We are listening to a young boys suicide note. Be kind, be aware and try to see the signs. We lost someone who didn’t deserve their pain. I am so sorry king. Thank you for leaving your final words in this world through music. Your pain translated into so much talent and we lost out big time. Thank you. May you rest easy.
To people saying this doesnt sound good .. Its not supposed to be some trap shit i actually dont find it creepy but the vocal samples and transitions he uses are amazing. You don't have to be a producer to see this took alot of work
When someone decides to take their own life, people, they really dont "want to" they feel like they have too. Please stop commenting all these direspectful things. I myself feel stupid for finding out about this person just now. Please just realize the situation for what it is and have some respect.Please.
Right most people that commit suicide don't really want to die and it's actually even said that they often regret it at the last second (which idk how anyone could know that unless it was a failed attempt) but the way he documented the events leading up to his death was a clear cry for help it's pretty sad
Yeah, that's why I'm pretty upset with myself for finding out so late it's crazy that no one noticed, his whole feed had suicide written all over it. Maybe if I would've followed him I could have attempted to help, but he was too far gone. It's just a shame because he really had talent.
It's funny cause y'all listening to this to see if it go hard. He didn't make this to get your head bobbing be made it to send a message. It was his way of crying for help.
if you're "too lazy" to listen to the whole thing, at least listen to the dialogues at 22:54 and 29:55......but you should really listen to the whole thing.......
10 years later and Im back on this page . You have impacted me so that I visit your pages often and think of what you could have been, you might not have waited around to finish the story but I'll tell you , in the end you're a legend .Thank you for allowing us to understand you even though you're not here
This is not the type of music you can put into different tracks, this music to, as he says, to listen in its entirety. This ain't music to hear just because you want a dope beat, this is music to understand, every sound here has its meaning, the water, the dialogs, all of that has a meaning. People that think music is meant to be catchy and easy to understand are so narrow-minded, it makes me sad that only a few people can understand the meaning of his album, the effort he put into making it, even the goddamn cover relates to all of it! this was his last message before killing himself, you gotta have respect, you gotta be open-minded to comprehend the vision he wanted to give us. This is art, the only way that this depressed guy had to express what he felt, so don't say his music sucks, you're insulting him and all the effort he had to make this beauty. Before you even try to say that this sucks, think at yourself first and ask yourself: how do you feel inside? and even you have the answer for that, are you even capable to translate that and show it to other people how you feel? Words are easy to say, but what about a painting? a fucking album?? This guy made it, even tho it costed his life in the end, at least he left his final thoughts in the world before leaving it. What about you? Could you do any better? Just fucking stay quiet, respect this man and: "Please listen to this in its entirety".
(I just wanted to comment on here because I don't like to admit this to people I know) Even though we went to the same school, we never really talked..but wayyy back before any of this happened..I used to see him post certain kind of things on Instagram like he did before he passed,but I used to feel that way also, so I would sort of be like in my head "Same here" not "what's wrong with this dude" when I saw it. A person can be so happy to others on the outside, but in the inside can truly be dying. I feel like no one can really understand unless you been in their shoes before. This is why I'm really touched with this because I know how it feels. Thinking about dying. Planning how you should do it. Crying yourself to sleep. Feeling alone. I experienced everything except actually going through with it like Billy. I'm not going to say anything like it gets better because being depressed is like a roller coaster ride that never ends. So even though he is surely missed by others very very much,and this is very sad and tragic and many different opinions are going around..I know he is truly happy now..that dark feeling in his soul is gone. All I can say is.. I understand. RIP Billy
I’m glad you didn’t go through with it babygirl! Life is too short , it ain’t the best until you make the best out of it 👌🏾 don’t let nobody steal your joy .. find something to make you happy! People don’t have to be involved . You was born alone , you die alone PERIODT 💕
“What if no one was around to snap them out of it (out of their depression)and put them back on their tracks” he kept repeating that. He really felt alone. He was begging for anyone to notice how depressed he was,I feel like he really needed someone who loved him to be there for him.
He narrated and planned his own death in weeks. Depression ain't no joke, man... RIP. I wish I was there for you as a friend cause I can relate to you a lot.
The tracks display his view of the world. Dysfunctional, dark, and trashy. This is how the world looks she you are less optimistic. It's almost hypnotic and his statements he made really make you seriously consider the same questions he asked and ask them yourself. It makes me realize I don't have the answers. Deep.
I listened to this and instantly started crying you can hear the sadness in the beats.. plus the ocean thing at the end was sad.. I'm so sorry Billy that it had to end that way... if only there was someone who was there to tell you to be strong...
My interpretation: during one of the songs there is a recording of someone saying "breathing is painful", so this must be why he drowned himself- hence preventing yourself from being able to breathe. Also, there are mentions of how techology is a parasite, depression, and how school is not needed for a child, and actually does more harm. I think he was really sick of society and felt lost and alone. Nobody commented on ANY of his instagram posts until a week ago. How fucking sad. I wish by some luck i followed him and talked him out of it. I also think he wanted control over his death-instead of dying unwillingly and living life unsure of when that day would come- scared him. He wanted to be in control and planned his death. Nobody could fake something like this, each song goes in order and tells a visual story and it all connects to his posts and death. RIP to this amazing and talented young man 💙
I really wish I could've talked to him, just to see what was making him feel like he didn't need to live anymore.. I wouldn't wish depression or any suicidal tendencies on my enemy. RIP Billy.
See that's the thing nobody could have talked to him because all his friends were saying they wished they knew why he did it ): he masked his feelings && this was his way of expressing himself smh. I wish he would have told someone
+Becky Thoe I wish he did too, it's saddening to think that someone could feel like they can never go to anybody about anything, and that's why I'm always here for people cause I don't like seeing or knowing a person is sad or going through a real emotional state cause it truly is one of the worst things to feel.
Seemed like this guy was too fucking creative for his own good. The way all of this is strung together and tied in with his Instagram page amazes me. Almost as if he knew his suicide would be a huge thing.
You have to know the meaning of life, you have to feel people on an intellectual level to understand emotions.... I have been looking through his Pictures, reading comments that this young man has posted, listened to this whole 30 minute video and the signs are there. From the actual art work of the album.. To the snippets of voices through out the songs to the end when you finally hear someone jumping in water....I mean the beats say it all... music is a story I could literally feel his pain through this music...disparity, pain,sadness, death.... it's Crazy but his music,his words, his pics were all signs... he wasn't hiding anything they were in plain sight it was right there!!!... only a few will understand.....😢😢😢
The kid hated life so much that he decided it was better to just end it. During the process he created & left this mixtape behind without explanation, now he's left us with this huge mystery that'll probably never be solved....
this is actually good bro how are yall hating? it was just ahead of its time cause if this dropped today hip hop heads would be all over this. rip ily bro fly high.
Here I am 5 years later in 2019 re-listening to this and now that I’m older, I hear the message clearer, may he Rest In Peace now you’re free from today’s world 💖
"I had always heard, your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all. It stretches on forever like an ocean of time."
This is by far one of the most deepest things I ever heard and as a artist I can feel all the depression though the beats on his playlist... He had a great artistic mind I can feel it thought his music RIP BILL
Cant even finish this. I miss u bill we all miss u 😭 u were my bus ride home buddy sophomore year u made the bus ride home so good i came to this video because I almost did what u did that day i dont wanna go down the dark road thank you so much
i love you brother stay well, this whole comment section is here for you no matter what. just keep holdin on tight because life has many wonders and blessings to come even if the pain and struggle is too much. i pray for you man
I am so sorry that I just found about about this I am 16 now and I was ten at the time I just heard this from Tik tok and I wish I would have been there to help him 😔 I feel so sorry for him.i wish he was still here I would have helped him through I wish I knew this happened.
Kid was actually such a talented producer and was only 17... His style reminds me a lot of XXYYXX, but this is even more unique. Billy, your legacy still lives. ❤️
Damn, so twisted, so sad. The whole album sounds like it's being stabbed through the heart. I felt like he was breathing down my neck the whole time, hard to describe how powerful this is.
I still come back to this album. I was 17 when this dude decided to jump in that river. It hit me hard cuz we were both in school.. I spent hours looking up more info on him. He loved his brother but his brother kept getting locked up which made him feel very alone & trapped in a matrix
for those of you who do not understand this, its an expression of what he was feeling internally. its a musical representation of the lack of enthusiasm for life and a general feeling of emptiness and worthlessness. ur welcome hunty
Today was the first time I’ve heard about this. I was young when this happened and didn’t have a phone or knew anything about the internet. I cried a lot about it and I’m upset at myself for just seeing it now. I wish I was born at the time he was so I I could try to talk to him or something. I’m sorry to everyone who is experiencing this. I wish I met him before this happened. It makes me sad thinking about how his life could have been if he didn’t do it.
Rest in peace to this young man. For those saying they don't sympathize or respect him for committing suicide and being weak minded then you are very sad excuse of a human being. NOT everyone is strong, not everyone has had ppl around to build them up or help with their self esteem. If that's the case then you should hate abuse victims as well for not being 'strong enough' to leave the person that is hurting them. You never know someone's situation so don't be so quick to judge. This could happen to anyone, even your own friends and family members, so be careful of what you say.
thank you. my friend says things like that and while I understand what he means it still breaks my heart when he says things like "If someone really really wants to die, I'll hand them the knife because why keep talking about it?" But that's his stance on suicide and I can't change it.
this is creepy and very hypnotic. i suggest that if a person is under depression, he shouldn't be listening to this bc it might gonna trigger him to commit suicide and such just like what happened to the kid from the instagram. :'( never give up on life, it's a gift and how we really think about it is a huge thing.
It's so sad that this young man felt like he had to end his life, just to find peace. I hope he's finally happy where he is. This mixtape is amazing and it's obvious that he was very intelligent, creative, and innovative. R.I.P
27:00 this whole part is speakin to me. I’ve been diagnosed with clinical depression and made a half attempt to overdose at 16 but this just feels like you know what you need to do to be happy but life is still stessing you out but you can feel the bliss and happiness of death and being free but you’re still stuck here. Then the splash and plane crash, that’s the end, it’s just build up to until you can finally feel that wonderful sound and feeling grace over your body forever. I actually just shed a couple tears listening to this and writin this out. To everyone who feels like me life does get better and even though you have bad day we all do, you gotta find what makes you happy
An artistic genius gone too soon. It sucks that we can't vast in your talent. I don't follow you Billy (talking to him as if he can see) ,but just know I would've said something. You didn't have to do it. Just fight until your stronger. Fight until everything is better. There is always a better day. You might feel down, but just keep fighting. God sees,just ask him. One time I was soooo down and asked God,and at that moment my mom came in and just hugged me and kept hugging me. At that moment, i knew God wanted me to fight. Don't give in. Fight the devil and his temptations! I don't understand the messages btw. I wish his mom listened to his music 8 days ago. *-IF ANYBODY COMMENTS ANYTHING NEGATIVE ON MY POST I'M GOING TO GO FROM ANGEL TO MENACE REAL QUICK-* Rest Easy Billy
Very true he also has a lot of new age posts wich connect to spirituality I belive that new age has somewhat toxic positivity, he saw that spirituality and light but got the wrong help
This is the realest shit 💯🌏 I wish I could've talked to him he's smart , opened minded and aware he just needed someone with the same mindset as him to have conversations with
Tbh this mixtape is not bad. If your looking at it at the view of a actual mixtape. Then yes. It's confusing. But the way I see it. He was just trying to send a message. This mixtape sorta relates to what he was thinking at the time. Which is quite interesting. It's a message. And it's pretty damn good message too. It shows how he was. What he was feeling. Rip bro. All my respect goes to you.
You never know how people feel until you ask them what is going on. Rip Billy you were brave enough to do sumtn you believed in regardless if it was suicide, you made your choice and that's why I respect you as a msn and person. We will all pray for you on your next leg of this journey
@@hmmmwho2388 You are dumb you spec, all of these people heard because of his posts from instagram, you are not god so dont blame others....you dont even know this guy.
no matter what you wouldnt have stopped him from killing himself. he made a choice down a path that he felt was his own happiness, from dropping this symbolic project to taking his own life and leaving a message. nobody was gonna get in front of that. R.i.P.
This is some scary shit, the sounds he created are so emotional, and dark, and depression sucks, trust me I know. Basically all I want to say is our actions are our only belongings. And we get brainwashed by all the things we see on TV and on the internet and we always want something even if we don't need it. A simple life is a life worth living. This is for all my depressed/suicidal people, find yourself, depression is way smaller than it seems, that's why people can fix it. Everyone faces hardships, its just the way it is. I really wish I could speak with every single one of you on a personal level. You are Gods! WE ARE GODS.
poor boy 😪 I found out about billy today and this broke my heart😔 I can image the last few hours of his life and I don't even know him. he wasn't meant for this earth he was too special 😇
Sad part is, all those that say it's wack would bump it if keef, migos, Wayne, drake, nicki, or any of them garbage ass artists recorded to it Rest in peace my brother. I, too suffer from depression. Like you, I had music as an outlet. I wish you stuck around to continue the push
The anxiety riddling Melodies and almost spastic-like drums really capture the overwhelming feelings of anger, sadness and tiredness he must have felt as the trudged through his day to day struggles. So gut wrenching. Rest In Peace man.
What's funny is where were all of you guys when he was going through his depression? Smh people only care when you're rich, famous, attractive, dead or any combination of the 4 mentioned
+thedarkknight646 but I don't fuck with him, his beats are alright, I'm just saying no one has heard of him before so how would others find his shit if he was unkown
+BradenDJ you're missing my point I'm saying he now has all these people here to sympathize with him but he obviously felt alone and hopeless when committed suicide where were his so called friends when he was posting this shit on Instagram? Why ain't anybody stop him because from the captions on his pictures it was pretty obvious what he was about to go do
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