dropping out of college and moving to Asia at 18 | Glow up Diaries Episode 15 

★ WATCH ALL OF THE GLOW UP DIARIES: bit.ly/37O0bX6 ABOUT: This is a 6 year docu-series of my coming of age story. I originally thought I would end this series after a few months but ugly truths unraveled as I went further into my glow up journey. I began recording the glow up diaries at 17 years old and finished when I turned 22 years old.

"when I was younger, I didn't expect to have so many... issues" I felt that. Suddenly felt not so alone.

she is one of the youtubers who can really be called an influencer, she changed the lives of many people who watch, there was no need to sell any product or make stupid videos or create drama to have visualizations, she does it to promote more self-help, she really deserves all the best and deserves all of our support, she is a youtuber that we can consider relateble

she is the realest girl i've ever seen. not ashamed with her flaws, giving inspirations in every video. i'm really looking up to you girl

Me: *sitting on my couch* Olivia: “go drink some water” Me: *comfy in the couch” “should I?” Olivia: “seriously” Me:” Ok God, I get it”

She should honestly have a ted talk. She is so inspiring

6:30 "Just because people look fine doesn't mean they are fine".. That's so important We forget that too often

I’m gonna say it. She is SO the main character

happiness doesn't start with a body, pretty face, a relationship, a degree. It starts with ur thoughts and what u tell yourself everyday.

9:04 "feel the fear and do it anyways" is so much better than "don't be afraid"

*Seriously somebody give this girl a Netflix series* ✨

she is so lucky to be able to have a choice to be free and break away from her comfort zone.

Everyone in the comments are like: "Give this girl a Netflix show." And I'm just like: "Netflix needs her." 2023 Edit:These aren't same things because (in my opinion) Netflix needs shows like this but i feel like there isn't enough shows like this in most platforms;on the other hand she can reach people without the help of things such as Netflix. Thanks to everyone trying to explain what i meant here,after years i decided to come back to series for motivation and i was searching for this comment because i forgot the episode i commented >:D

I got terrified when I realized the red bar with “resistance” was a measurement and not just something there.

"Feel the fear and do it *ANYWAY* ." -Alivia D'Andrea

Imagine being asian and being allowed to drop out of a school and literally go to a foreign country. My parents would beat my ass to another world, if I even thought about doing that.

I love how your glow up isn't just about looking like the beauty standards. It's about finding your self, getting happy, healthy and idk it makes me happy.

Me: * watching this at night while eating chips * Also me: I wAnNa HaVe A hEaLtHy LiFe StYlE

I love how confident she is to film in public even in another country, she is so inspirational!

Honestly I didn’t realize how dissatisfying other RU-vidrs transformation series were until I saw the Glow Up Diaries and loved how real it was. I didn’t know I need that rawness in my life until I watched these and actually wanted to self-improve. I’ve been doing your ‘Intense Ab Workout’ for every work week day for going on my second week, and I was almost in tears one day because of how happy I felt in my body. It really was amazing. So thank you for your inspiration, Alivia.

Just went up and talked to random people and made friends? Damn, that’s really brave. I wish more people were like that.

I am devastated. I am 22 and I still totally depend from my mom, whose character traits are starting to worsen bc she's aging (no shame, but that's the truth) She's also getting herself into dangerous situations bc she's naive and I can't do nothing about it 😭 I have a whole lot of bad, bad things bottled up inside and I know I have to turn my life around I hope the Lord, or whatever is up above, gives me the strenght.

"If you don't go after what you want you will never get it" ~Alivia

LIVE 👏🏼YOUR 👏🏼 LIFE 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼the only moment that is guaranteed is right now!

"Just because people look fine doesn't always mean they are fine." "...somedays I succeded it and others I didn't." I profoundly feel it.

I love how humble she is when she didn't reveal to her roommate that she's a vlogger with millions of subscribers.

I left my best friend who was a bad influence. I've gotten to hang out with my real best friend twice in a week (you'd think that's normal but we live 8 hours apart and i'm visiting my grandma who lives abt 30 minutes away). I'm not crying myself to sleep every night. I control what I eat. I promised to myself that when school starts again, im gonna do my best. I used to never smile, but now I'm always smiling and it's real. All of that has happened since March 13th.

I love her narration, it’s something about her voice and tone that is addicting to watch

I wish I was rich enough to do something like this :(

when she puts camera somewhere on the street and film I'm being like wont someone steal it, if it was me I would be scared

Who else has been waiting for this since like forever and loves her videos!!💖💖💖 👇

"Nothing teaches life lessons more than exploring the world and accumulating experience"

I love how she always chased her dream. I don't even know what to do with my life anymore

I really liked your use of the "resistance bar" on the side.

Alivia: *Glows Up* Me: *Lays in bed dreaming* By the way, why did I get so many likes- xD

ive always wanted to do something like this because of the way I see my situation right now. I want to go somewhere where nobody knows me and I can feel the freedom of adult life. I can’t wait to feel this even if I don’t decide to move somewhere, just having that choice if I want to, not somebody else wanting me to and having nobody else’s input on my decisions for what I want to make me happy. Not everyone can do what makes them happy so when you have the slightest opportunity to reach for your own happiness take it.

“Just because I withdrew from this school doesn’t mean I wasn’t learning”

Everything that you are living is my dream. I feel like time is passing me by because I haven’t been able to do what I want at 21. and here you are being so brave at 18. I know you’re going through your own struggles but the grass is always greener, I guess. The thing holding me back is social anxiety. I sweat just talking to people and it’s embarrassing. I wish I could be like you.

WHO THINKS Alivia needs to get a Netflix show already. I do :) and i would watch it 24/7

Does anyone else feel that her narration is reminiscent of old Michelle Phan content or am I the only one

she legit moved across the country and made so many friends in few days and here i am having a mental breakdown if my mom goes missing in the shop seriously!!!

All the dislikes are from the people who think they’re perfect, but deep inside they know their insecurities...

As a Half-Taiwanese living in Europe, seeing Alivia in Taiwan (even tho it was in the past) makes me so happy, but also sad/nostalgic because I had a planned out trip to Taiwan, which got cancelled bc of Corona. I just miss everything, from the food to the atmosphere, and I feel scared because I don't know when my next chance to go to Taiwan will be. To everyone who has family living overseas or miss their home country, let's get through this together. Fighting!

I'm literally from Taiwan and I came to America like last August, and I almost screamed seeing that you went to Taiwan. Proud Taiwanese here XD

She’s literally my biggest inspiration at the moment, is like if ‘my ideal self’ talking to me and giving me advise to not give up and to keep going

“Go drink some water... no seriously.” When she reminds you to drink water, but actually you always drink so much water everyday that it is already unhealthy. Seriously I should actually reduce my water intake. I drink at least 4-5 liters each day. My poor kidneys.

that's the BEST college in Taiwan! seriously the entrance test score is incredibly high

I want to see the roommate's reaction when she discovers the RU-vid channel

I am 32 and I am learning SO much from you. I relate to the whole weightloss journey, negative comments from family, and realising your true purpose in regards to your career path! Dont ever give up and dont ever give in! Thank you for these videos sis. xo

i didn't know she moved to a different country. omggg wow.

Ngl, my favourite part about this episode is seeing her going out to a party with new friends, because she seems stressed with this eating habits and feeling uncomfortable, it’s just nice to see her having fun and enjoying what she has. I love you Alivia 🥺🥺🥺💕

I kinda get what she was saying when she was talking about her younger self and her eating habits. I used to think that I would somehow the ideal body eventually and I tried to obtain though unhealthy ways. I'm so glad I found her channel. I think I saw this video at the right time.

It’s really inspiring how you do this series, most youtubers only show the good and it causes an unrealistic understanding how self improvement is for viewers. Personally you’re the only person I watch for these types of videos because of the raw honesty you have and how inspirational it is to watch you continually improve :)

the glow up diaries are literally so inspirational

Someone please get Alivia her own Netflix show or series!

Seeing this makes me want to change my life and go halfway across the world and go after my dreams and do what i want.

i keep forgetting this was in 2019 and i just think every few minutes like "where is her mask?"

This is how many people are SO happy you uploaded! 👇

“The magic happens when you step outside of your comfort zone” This is truly inspiring to me. I’m gonna be graduating next year, and I plan on going to Canada to do college. I’m not gonna be there with my parents and English isn’t my first language. I’m really scared of airplanes and the flight from my country to Canada is 13 hours long, and I’ll have to face it alone. I’m an extremely shy person, and the idea of going to another country in these circumstances is terrifying, but on the other side, I’m not happy here, and I’m so excited to go and start being independent. This phrase means a lot to me, and I’ve been seeing it a lot lately. I’ll take it as a sign. ❤️

Now I feel so much better. She is such an inspiring person. Bless you girl. You got all my love and support.❤️

I love how confident she is . Definitely trying this one day. and oh my God what a great story teller. And editor

I love how real and honest this is. It's a rolleroster of feelings. Also: i love how she writes "go drink some water" haha i had just drunk some, and i neeeeededdd to do it again, just for the sake of it.

Late here: but how did you get out of your bubble and socialize with complete strangers when you barely and/or don't know the language? So curious

I think this is my favorite episode of season 1. The editing, the journey... Everything

I’m not even joking this girl has changed my life. Her videos have gotten me out of a bad place time and time again. If you’re reading this and you’re in a bad place, get out. Exercise, eat healthy, do what makes you happy. It’s hard at first but get out of bed and live! Thank you Alivia and good luck to u all.

The parallels between alivea's life and mine just astound me. Everytime I watch a video I'm struck by how deeply it resonated with me, our journeys r almost identical. I'm glad there's someone I can relate to..

honestly this girl has made me thinkway more of my life , i discovered her channel six months ago ,and i clearly have made a change in my life I was honestly unhappy , i judged myself way more than i should have , i left big scars in me , i was the biggest monster that scared me , and i always hated myself for it , i didn't kow how to change that honestly , i was lost , i've always dreamed about that life style , where i would be independant , trust worthy with myself, beautiful ... but i never knew how to get there , in facts i've always believed that i will never reach that , and i just happened to discover her channel . My first impression of her videos was like " hey it's not that bad , maybe i'm not alone" and as videos went on , i was sure of that , that anyone could get lost , could lose their way , but it's just life , you have to lose your way to find another one . Honestly i tried to see the wrongs from the rights , the good from the bad in me , starting with food , i was over eating , i didn't eat sweets ( in facts i'm not their biggest fan ) nor did i eat between meals , watching her videos , i discovered that diets wouldn't work , rather than that , i needed a healthy relationship with food , a relationship where i could eat healthy , but yet still get full and not tell myself that that's all i should eat , but rater than that i wanted to enjoy my meals , to be excited because i was going to eat something healthy that would give me a pleasure doing so , so i started eating , anything that my mom would cook , but in more wise portions , i separated the portion i needed from the portion i wanted , and honestly , it was such a i don't know maybe pleasing feeling to wake up the morning not dull from what yesterday's meals . Exercising , honestly , i hated doing exercices before , but now i'm almost excited to do them , i love to wake up the morning and go to do a cloe tings routine , even tho i know i'm not the most athletic person , i loved trying to do so , to do the routine competly and feel droplet of sweat on my forhead and say this every single time " oh so my body was capable of this ? !" not going to lie , i was exercisng to lose weight ,but i quickly changed my mind set about it , i don't do it for weight anymore , i do it because i love how much love it brang to my body , honestly to be completly fair , i don't think i lost weight , but i'm sure that i gained selflove , i love to look at myself at the mirror , rather than the monster that complained that i look like a pig , it was that girl that encouraged me to do ore , to see where i can get if i keeped up with it , i loved to look at my self and say "Hey i'm at least trying " and i never knew that communicating with yourself was the missing piece , just few months ago , my heart wanted this , my brain denied that , and y body wouldn't listen , but after i came up with an harmony that set all my organs together , i felt like i was talking to that insecure girl in me , saying that it will be okay to try , even if i fell , the ground was always there to catch me . Mind , honestlyi'ma rally sensitive person , i worry a lot and a lot , i'm afraid almost all the time , i feel so insecure and unconfortable whenever i change my daily routine , i feel like i messed up something and i felt so unconfortable with it , but i learned to integrate good habits to my dailly life , i learned that a good habit , a good thing if you did it everyday , eve, if you force yourself in th efirst days , it would eventually decome your everyday life , yo will feel uncomplete without doing it , and i honestly feel so proud that i got some new habits that i'm really proud . Next year i'm going to be a senior , and that means finals , college and the whole squad , i won't lie , i'm really scared , i feel like i'm still this little immature girl that doesn't know what to do most of the time , i'm scared i'm going to mess up my exams , i'm scared i'm not going to my dream college , i'm scared i'm going to ruin my life honestly , but i also know that i'm the only one living this life of mine , no one is me , no one is in exacly my shoes , as much as there mustbe someone similar to me , i'm just the only one , and i know that i can get over it , i can make it , that my hard work can pay off , i don't know if it's gonna be enough , i know it's never gonna be enough , but i'm doing my best , i'm trying to see through life . My grand mother always told me that i have a great long life ahead of me , and i always believed that life in some point will happen , but i always skipped that point where i should know that i am the one that will make life happen , i am the only one that could make a difference , i want to ake it memorable that at my 17 , i though that maybe i really did want to get accepted into that math informatiue college , but i also badly wanted architecture , i don't know what will happen , but at least i got something in mind , i should plan it , having a plan , with a backup one , that was how i should get through it . will i ever glow up and become that person i draw with both my brain and heart ?i don't know , but i'm excited to find out . if you made it this far , thank you for taking your time to read just someone's between 7billions mind , someone will alsolisten to you.

This is all what I suffered thru this past year and the way you explained the stuff Alivia hit me hard because it finally explains my confusion and finally explains my pain. Thankyou for sharing such raw vulnerable stories.

Crying throughout all this diary episodes 😭 such an inspiration, thank you for this 🤍

"I will always be a student of life" ~ Alivia

Hey guys just keep in mind that not everything works out for everyone. So, if you think about dropping out make sure you have everything planned out🌸 Good Luck 🍀

went to bed one night watching some youtube videos about school productivity and stuff... I woke up to find your yt channel and i'm ready to watch all of this series. Incredible storytelling ability and editing, plus you're a breath of fresh reality in comparison to other internet personalities. On top of all this, you're incredibly talented. Never stop telling stories and being your best self

after watching this video i truly want to cry, I feel most of us can relate to her. Truly inspiring, and you are perfectly describing my feelings right now with food and body image.

Alivia: go drink some water Me: *not having a prepared water in my room* Alivia: srsly, drink some Me: *thinking of getting out of my room at 2 am while my parents are asleep*

It’s very admirable how real you are, many people are too afraid to show their worst moments online because they want to portray themselves as living this picture perfect life. You feel like the big sister that everyone needs on here

this video absolutely resumed my life rn. i understand everything you were going through and your videos help me a LOT you have no idea. thank you.

Ok but how do you film EVERYTHING?!

Alivia I just want to thank you for changing my life ❤️ before I found your videos I was feeling lost, the life that I was living wasn’t healthy, and it wasn’t making a positive impact on others lives, and I knew that if I kept this up I wouldn’t have much more life to live. I started watching the glow up diaries and it inspired me so much, I started working out, eating healthy, having a positive outlook on life, and just improving my life as much as possible. I wanted to thank you so much for helping me ❤️

Okay so I just have to say this. You are the most underrated RU-vidr I've ever seen. Your filming style is incredible. It's so we'll put together. Your narration/voice over is reminiscent to that of Michelle Phan. Your calm voice and very specific and poetic verbiage is almost musical. It just flows so well and tells your story in a way that both captivating and relatable. Please Oli. Don't stop being yourself. It's hard for us to see how truly amazing we are. But your gifts are so insanely beautiful. You work hard and it shows. One thing I will say, is I too have BED. I have been able to kick the habit about 85% of the time. If you need tips, please feel free to message me. I actually completed a 7 month group therapy program for it. Goes for anyone else that sees this. Keep doing you Oli. You're amazing.

You make me want to accept myself the way I am , love myself, and explore new things about myself. Thank you so much

i literally feel so proud of you. ive been watching your videos for a long time now and the way your story telling and editing skills have improved blows me away! it makes me so happy.

“I felt so trapped in my current situation that all i could feel was pure excitement dying to break free off the cage.” - exactly what i feel about my life right now. Im happy you uploaded. Your words inspire & motivate me. ✨

I honestly just want to talk to her and have a personal conversation about mental heath and physical heath

I love your glow up diaries because you're so real. You say and act how everyone else feels when they're going through this. It's not just all happy fun time exercising. It's not that easy to transition. Thank you for voicing that.

She is so inspiring and her parents are also supportive. My mom dont even let me go for a sleepover and and she living in another country. 👏🏻👏🏻

I used to live in Taipei, Taiwan too. And my grandparents still live there. I love the food and culture there. I moved to America later, but I still liked Taiwan :c I hope you feel better after moving there!

I just wanna say thank you for the glow up diary...it helped me to get a healthy relationship with food and being happy...I was way to focused on losing weight and that’s why I was always so stressed and also depressed..I hope you’re happy and healthy and live the life you want to live

I've just watched the 15 episodes today, I took notes and stuff to get motivated, thanks for inspiring us Alivia ♡

I'm 13 and weight 80,8 kg and i used to suffer from depression and alot of anxiety in the past. It was a shithole at that time, self if i'm very overweight i'm trying to love myself tell myself that i'm beautifull and everyone thinks that i've began to love myself more but i still wanna loose weight.. But i'm taking it slowly because if i didn't i would end up in depression again and i don't want that to happend, but just love yourself for who you are and take it slowly because it's not gonna be great if you ended up like me..

I FELT THIS SO MUCH. the way everything looks good and like you're having fun but actually you just want to stay home and binge and it's on your mind all the time.

Hey I hope you’re doing well! I get worried when you don’t post for awhile, but I love seeing this series. It’s raw and honest and feels very validating. Keep being awesome!

"Just because people look fine, doesn't always mean they are fine"

alivia you changed my life. thank you so so so much. i hope you live the life you always wanted and will achieve. we love you!

Honestly, this glow up series have changed my perspective in sooo many ways Alivia...thank you for sharing us your journey with us 💕

She is so amazing, she’s going after her dreams and making them a reality 🥺😊❤️

Alivia, I hope you know you’ve inspired me. I’m moving across the country for college this year having knowing no one just so I can pursue a dream. I’m terrified. But every time I watch your videos I’m reminded of the beauty of making mistakes and being anxious and growing. I’m excited to grow as a person. I’ve been too anxious for far too long. I’m finally ready to try something new and who knows, maybe I’ll have fun too.

Alivia, I’m always very impressed by how real you are, and how well you articulate your feelings. I wish I could have had your self awareness when I was your age. It’s not about how much you know, it’s about your desire to learn. You’ve got it, girl. Always a pleasure watching your videos!

I’m so proud of you Alivia~ Going to a new school in a foreign country is probably really difficult, and you did so well! Aahhh I’m so happy for you! Keep up the great work~ Love you 💗

I dropped everything for this, because I knew that this is what I needed. She always comes when I need it the most~ So.. thank you Alivia and welcome back beautiful~ 🥺🌤

"Feel the fear and do it anyway." My new motto. Seriously, great timing because I'm about to get on a call for a new job.