Drug Addiction: Shooting Heroin For The First Time 

When you can quit you don't wanna, when you wanna quit you can't. Such is the riddle

I worked with a recovering heroine addict many years ago and he said this: "Every single moment of every single day, of every week, of every month, of every year...EVERY SECOND I have to concentrate on stopping myself from going and getting high. I want to get high every moment of every day. Even talking to you right now, I want to go get high. It's like a spring that is always wound as tight as it could be and I have hold on tight because if I let go for even one second I will go get high." I remember thinking - DAMN. WHAT? How can you live like that?

I never shot heroin but I did smoke it. The first time I hit that tar I got a super warm sensation start from my waste and go up to my head and down to my toes. It was like a warm blanket was tossed on me. Been clean for just under 2 years now.

Thanks for going into detail as to how it feels to take heroin. I lost my son from a fent overdose in 2018. He was only 21. I always had a hard time understanding why he chose that route. He had no trauma, had a lot of friends, was a third yr engineering student. It seemed like he had it all..we were not unapproachable parents. We were loving and supportive. Our lives blew up the day he died

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

One day clean 😢 It hurts so bad to be clean. I don't want to be addicted anymore 😔

I never done drugs in my life - but yet, listening to you gave me a new perspective on drug addiction... And it is a scary one. You're an amazing story teller. Keep doing it!

A real man is what i see with a lot of potential and a good heart, be strong buddy

I shot heroin and then fentynal was the only thing around so I got dependent on it, after heroin, for 19 years. Heroin isn't around anymore. Collapsed all my veins after the first 4 years then skin popped and muscled. Still ha e over 80 healed holes as a nasty reminder. Went through everything a junkbox can go through. Was on subs 5 years. Been on methadone for 12 years since 2012. Down to 50 mgs from 120 mgs. Took me 9 months. Now getting sick on the taper. I want to be off this garbage methadone. Stopped doing cocaine and weed on June 4th 2009. Quit smoking cigarettes on October 9th 2009. Quit drinking arpril 7th 2021. Had fatty liver and was drinking a fifth a day. The dts were bad. Stopped shooting fent on April 21st 2023. Xzylazine was in the scamble. Was sick for 1 month, even on methadone . Now tapering off methadone. The only thing im dependent on now is the methadone, and coffee. Im also on 2 meds for psoriasis and psoriasitic arthritis.

I’m so glad I haven’t touched any hard drugs in 2 weeks

Thank you for being so honest and sharing your story. I wish you all the best in your recovery

Can see the pain on your face. I’ve been addicted to opioids since I turned 19 and I’m 26 now. Kicked it off and got heartbroken and went right back to it. Been on it for 5 years straight now, I’m hoping and praying I get off it permanently before I’m 30. It’s hard to imagine a life without it. Wishing you the best in your recovery

Thanks for your honesty. Power to you and what ever you do from now on.

The smile while explaining it says it all. Sad

you're a great storyteller. love the pauses in between

I love your honesty brother. What most lack in the world, not only addicts. ❤

Thank you for your story

what an articulate guy. so well said and so well framed. i hope he is well. more people...way more people need to see this to understand the addicts they hear about often are people they would care about, if they only knew them. they aren't objects.

Beautifully spoken

Daaaamn this was so well spoken. And nothing was held back it feels probably. This story could be way longer. Never did hero but i can imagine being stuck for ever

I've been an iv heroin user for close to 30 years. All the people I started with have died long ago and I consider them the lucky ones. All I can say is don't ever ever do it that first time.

Very powerful message

this description is just what i felt like when i did it years ago , it is so true you do anything to get more , it was what i was looking for or so I thought , in the end I got sick of needing to get some everyday just to function , i been free of it for 12 years now but once you had that feeling it stays with you for the rest of your life , and that is the hard part because there is nothing like it , I will never go back to it but its always there , sometimes I did mix it with speed and that was hell of a ride when you feel it going in to your blood and you feel that warm hug , but i would say never ever do it don't let it in as once its there it with you for life and it will mess your life up completely and will kill you in the end

I was never afraid of trying drugs, tried dope twice and it just felt dizzy and warm, like motion sickness in the beach during vacation- same feeling after spinning for some time. I felt unnaturally helplessly relaxed for no reason, ended up totally hating it forever.

My first time using heroin itvtook my breath away. A wave of euphoria and warmth. Total content and i never looked back. 27 years hardly any clean time. Smoked for many years but as soon as i hit it. Yeah its a lost cause for a long time.

This is very powerful

For 51 years of my life I have covered up my feelings, sober 8 years now and it's so hard to deal with my feelings, BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Giving back seems to help the most, but still yes in the back of my mind it keeps calling me. Just being honest, any one who says it's easy hasn't been to the gates of hell and back like me.................

Poor guy. I have never used drugs, but I always wondered how someone could become addicted after just one time. It sounds like they're not addicted after the first time, but need to keep chasing the high - and then the addiction follows. This is such a sad story - I only wish the best for all of you.

When you dont want to be addicted but dont know how to be clean...

You described heroin addiction precisely. Had a family member that lived exactly the same way. He threw us family members right out the window. He developed a badly infected lower left leg from collapsed veins from injecting. He died before it was amputated. It was all a nightmare.

Been there and yes, that first hit, you just know you're in trouble.

I shot it a couple of times, didn’t do anything for me at all. Now, shooting coke, that was a devastating experience.

Right after the moment he says 'i have been a selfish prick' he feels that this statement is true for him and the sadness kicks in. Damn, painful.

Stay strong brother🫶🙏

Iam glad you quit !!! You are a strong person !!

Forever chasing the dragon 🐉

Sad ! Don`t do drugs ! Live is so much more. I got fetanyl in hospital, that feeling was someting, but i don`t go to drugs. Stay safe....

I love your honesty and your explanation of herion how it feells......I say it feels like when you get up from bed in the morning in a winter time and take a freshly heat tumbled cover and wrap in around it!!.....That's hoew heroin feels like!!!!.......Like being wraped in a hot blanket!!

I stick to weed once in a while, i dont drink alcohol any, quit 2 months ago

Ill never forget first time i did it. Years later I saw the guy i bought it from in prison. 10$ orange top vials. Was 18 but had bad habit sniffing. I just got the rush . I only did 1 10$ bag in needle. Id do 4 every morning sniffing, roughly quarter gram. I didnt stay on needle right away. I sniffed and shot for another month or so. After about a month i strictly shot it. That was almost 25 years ago.Today im battling i really dont want to take bupe anymore

Drug is one hell of a drug.

8 months in rehab. One week after I go out I shot heroin. Yesterday I od'd.

I can’t imagine making that decision to shoot that drug up for the first time! Everyone has seen what heroin does to people!! Why would anyone want to willingly take the first step to become a junkie? CRAZY!! 💉 😈 I Pray 🙏 You Stay Clean! Thanks For The Video & Your Honesty.

I started when I was 17 and wasted most of my 20. I stopped back in 2018. It really does suck especially fentanyl. I was arrested so often and started using meth too. I found first girlfriend in AA and we lived together. She relapsed then died I didn’t go back to dope but man that hurt.

Sucks hearing this. If we only knew how lucky we are to even be alive. We could do so much more if we just stopped making excuses. I understand though. I do blow every now and then but luckily I can always quit. But that week long bender is a week a just wasted.

1:24 unintentionally hilarious but so true

idk what to do. im a middle aged woman who never did any drugs until i turned 42, and i started clubbing, and eating ecstasy..someone gave me perocet to sort of come down after the night was over...now? im severely addicted to pain pills, which i guess isnt the same as heroin, but the withdrawals are scary...ive done some very shameful things even for these damn pills...i want help, but i dont know what to do. this is all so confusing and scary to me. :(

we may try once what really feel

i know

It's not herion anymore.

Scary

seeing this while in manchester wtf 😭

It's an urban myth you never experience the same feeling again. The first time isn't even the best time because you will puke

When ur thinking about trying and shooting for the first time and this video comes up. wtf

Yeah opiates are no joke. Trust me, to anyone who may read this you don't want to open that door. Some doors should just never be opened. That feeling is insane it will instantly change your outlook on life. In seconds you've permanently alternated your life often times for the worst. I've been addicted to pain meds and opiates for over 13 years I've tried so many times to quit and I always went back knowing the exact outcome. I've opted to just stay on suboxone until my life is more established, but tbh I'm scared that I may go back.

One question for someone foreigner... Why the US and North America, in general, are so fond of opiates? What happens in your part of the globe is impressive and scary!!!

Keep talking😢❤

He's high

Of course it was a honda civic.

I'm pretty sure that microphone is supposed to clip onto the person's shirt.

Fuck that

You do not seem selfish to me.

Just one bag?

Yeah keep convincing yourself that your life is manageable.. trust me it will become unmanageable soon er.. then later.. when you're every waking thought of your existence is thinking of how you're going to get your next fixed or get well.. your life is not manageable..

Black pitch on a silver screen

Yo , u bragging or complaining ? Y do u think its called DOPE 😕

Akorát jsem si pichnul… proto jsem se byl projít! Kupoval jsem kálo 😂😂😂

🫂🫂🫂🫂

Talk actually about recovery and how to change.

Bro your just a dope fiend

Sorry but can’t have any sympathy for junkies, you made the choice no one forced you.

A real man never quits what he loves in this life he learns to moderate.

Once you decide to puncture your skin,you have lost all respect for yourself!