Functional Heroin Addict interview-Matthew 

Steve Wazniak clone for sure

I work in IT and my coworker Elliott looks and sounds just like this dude, he's also from the Hayward area lol

🤣🤣🤣

Waz lol

😂

Good for you dude

Beautiful! Stay Strong sweetie! Just as many people who are on it, there's just as many success stories of people staying clean also!

Congrats to you, keep it up!!

Keep it up pal

Congratulations!

They're not used to people listening to them and when Mark does it encourages them to keep talking

Well, they interview the ones that don't talk...

exactly@@curiousme113

Regarding the numb hand waking up at night, I get that too alot! But I think it's cos I've slept on it lol

When I went to therapy At first I was quiet After a while it got a lot easier

Right!?

I agree but theres people i know who were great people before hard drugs and then turned to a manipulative monster just to get there hands on drugs, theres bad addicts because of the drugs there addicted too. It sucks but theres not much you can do about an addict besides watch or try and get them help that they likely wont want

Right? Thank you.

Drug addicts are on average better people than non addicts. People who go through more shit are just kinder not to mention far more interesting

@@johnhopkins7039 im an addict. Heroin addict clean 5 years i have not met a ton of nice wholesome addicts while using... But after they get clean i agree with you.

Happy for you and yours, and for addicts ready to hear your comment who stumble across it: it’s doable. Thanks for posting.

Hi Brett... good for you!! How did you eventually stop?

How:(

@@iradhackleenmacaba6747 by not using? Tf you mean

@@thefacelessasmrtist468 It’s not always that easy, sometimes you need help. Heroin withdrawal can kill you so if someone who’s addicted is asking for help let’s not snap at them. ✌️

I would love to try them, does anyone know where I can source them? 0:03

dr.johnsonshroom is your guy. Best shrooms and psychedelics guy I know.

​@@HummersCatherinaIs he on insta? 0:03

​@@MichaelLucosOf course, dr.johnsonshroom 0:03

Psychedelics definitely have potential to deal with mental health, they really helped me.

Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.

Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them

YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

Me too. I can relate. Never good enough for my Mom.

Same

Same here

A child has their own self imposed feelings of what they think are their parents standards! Most times, it is the child who is making their own evaluation of themselves. Most often a child sees the parent as a goal of sorts. A child will never be the same age of the biological parent at the same time. The parent will never return to the child’s age at the same time. Never be the same at the same time. SMH!

@@aliseegenuine6414 So very true.

Thank you

I’ve had a few bowls with a few strangers like him at parties. Good storytellers.

but they're GENUINE!!!

@@MatthewAndrewDrake you remind me a lot of myself in some ways, and we're about the same age. The new perspectives that PE6 magic mushrooms offered me, helped me fix decades of mental miswiring that I had caused myself. The mushrooms helped me recognize and validate my sensitivities and fears, as well as understand those of others, which in turn helped me see why people do certain things. ..things that hijacked my brain and brought on torturous circular thinking that lasted for wayyy too long. The mushrooms help block my own biases and allow me to analyze things from a position of pure consciousness, with wisdom and calmness like I hadn't ever experienced in my adult life. I hadn't experienced the wonder of life as I do now since I was a child. True change comes from within, when we face our ugly ego and look at things for exactly what they really are. Forget about not being enough for someone else; nothing will ever be enough for them, until they kill their own ego. I had a struggle within me for decades while I failed to recognize the fact that certain people whom I loved very much didn't have the capacity to love me with the same ferocity I was attempting to love with, and while I now understand that they simply were not emotionally capable of it, it burned me up inside for years how they would repeatedly mistreat me, yet rarely make it right. Ain't nobody got time for that poison. I should not have wasted time hoping they would care enough to acknowledge my pain or express remorse in any way. I was trying to make do with the friends I had, but I would encourage my former self to recognize my value must come from within and we must limit contact with people who are in the habit of suggesting or acting as though you aren't enough. You're already enough, Matt. It is only yourself who needs to see it, and truly recognize it. When we have self assurance, we can appreciate the applause of others, but we certainly don't need it, even if it is our own dad. I sat on the sidelines with my piss poor courage, waiting to feel like an adult and grab hold of this merry-go-round of life while feeling bitter at my peers who already naturally felt like adults, champions even, and claimed what they wanted in life, as we all should be able to. Reach out and grab what you want. You can indeed embrace change; you have that power, but you must first embrace a new perspective of your life, and of your consciousness in general. Mushrooms can be scary and uncomfortable, but they can be an invaluable lifeline to a new perception and the ensuing change that comes from internal revelation. As I value myself today, I find it far easier to experience extreme joy in life without the need of harmful substances to smooth things over because the vale of locked-in perceptions has been lifted. My third eye is open, I guess i'd say. I still microdose mushrooms here and there to challenge my perception, but I was able to ditch my prescription meds ten years after a proper dosage ramp-down, and I've never been better I have never felt so fulfilled in life as I do now, and I wish a similar awakening to you. Your soul deserves it.

@@MatthewAndrewDrake I love you dawg stay safe

Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!

Yes, dr.sporesss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.

Is he on instagram?

Yes he is. dr.sporesss

🙃

Wait is this a modern interview?

@@Milark yes lol

literally the same thought here.

Love that band, but I just don't see it...

@@franciscosalgado3114 he meant the year 1975. Lol.

Keep it up bro good job. I’m going on 4 months off of heroin. 209 in the house haha

@@Smacks1 415, NorCal! All us Bay heads, like us

@@Ron-ec4pf can u help?

@corey R, there are medications which can help with opioid withdrawals, but your better to do it cold turkey as you can re train the associations in your brain. I was a coke addict but managed to get off it cold turkey and did a rehab course by a company called Intuitive Recovery which I would highly recommend for someone trying to get over drug abuse

@@coreyr.2171 I wasn’t able to pull cold turkey myself I had gone to a rehab and they use Suboxon to help. If u haven’t tried kratom then id say try it out. I’m no doctor by any means but I looked it up and decided to try it and it actually did help for withdrawal. Do your own research and decide if it’s something u wanna try. Best of luck to u bro

Drugs are cool. That's why

Funny, I came to the comments looking for someone saying the opposite. He has that habit of many drug users to tell stories which must seem interesting in their heads but came out as confused and random. I think it has something to do with the delivery; emphasis at weird parts, no build up, etc. The way he tells stories is what gives him away as a heavy user

this guy is a terrible storyteller and completely retarded. He cried that he ODed, your doing drugs moron its part of it.

@@brendanduhamel6614 I think you're just a bad listener.

lol he’s not really a good story teller. his tone fluctuates to keep your attention but that’s about it. He emphasizes random details too much and tells stories in a nonlinear way… so no, I wouldn’t call him a “good” story teller

Oooh, I've just seen there's a follow up video! Now I'm optimistic.

Big hug muppet

❤

Thanks for writing this and happy you made a wonderful life for yourself

If they made opioids legal, sell it in special places or pharmacies, for cheap ....it would solve so many problems, saved so many lives, so much money ...it's not even funny. America is so stu*id it's unbelievable, and thanks to her ignorance and puritanism, the whole World has to suffer.

🎯

That’s a good point

@@iimDanii I'm dirty Dan!

@@Joseph-gq9us no IM dirty dan god damnit

this is why i tried xans a few years ago. i’m lucky i didn’t ruin my life. you called it spot on tho🖤💯🙏

love n prayers for you and your family. stay safe

🙏 condolences my friend

I’m sorry for your loss, prayers

No I love dog food

My friend od'd a few years ago... We were 18. Hold your head, it's rough

you still good man?

^

I feel like this comment made me realize so much about myself haha. I explain every single detail so that people can “understand” me. I’m the youngest of 5 and never felt heard… seems so obvious but I’ve honestly never realized this before 🤯

@@michellewormuth9919 it’s most common among middle children. I myself am a middle child and have been this way my entire life. It also is due to a lack of self worth in some instances. Usually at no fault of their own but because of specific personality traits that seem to be brought on by simple interactions with other as well as traumatic experiences that the person has never forgotten.

Bruh... I also feel like this comment made me realise that about myself and I’m the middle child (3rd of 5)

@@HenchGelBall it’s true. It usually makes people hyper sensitive to others and very thoughtful and caring individuals. Also they are usually very affectionate people and understand the importance of thankfulness and showing love and respect for others. Not always but most of the time.

That’s me to a “T”!!!!! I know I am doing it and in my head I’m saying “SHUT UP SHANNON!!!! They don’t need to know EVERY detail about what your saying!” But I can’t stop myself. I have an older brother who wasn’t raised with me but my ex was EXTREMELY abusive in EVERY way so maybe that’s where it comes from. I hate being that way!!!!

i guarantee his situation is twice as worse as he says

True

I hope there's a new video in 5 years.

He said he rather live without it, and if he could, took the advice from friends to stay off opiates.

I mean...you know this isn't a pro-being a heroin addict video, right? Like...the message here isn't "BE A HEROIN ADDICT." The message is addicts are people too.

Congratulations on your sobriety. Only people who've themselves experienced addiction can truly understand what an incredible victory sobriety is. It takes a special individual to survive and conquer opioid addiction, especially methadone. So just know, you're a badass.

two years lmao you weren't an addict you just were addicted there is a difference.

@@hattchetman_2128 Why you spreadin negativity bud? It doesn't matter, the intensity of a person's addiction. If someone is reliant upon a substance to attain their daily goals, and/or find happiness or meaning in their lives, they're an addict. Doesn't matter if they've been relying on it for a couple months, or a couple years. We should hold each other up my friend. We're special. We've seen a side of life that many never will, and it provides us with a deeper insight, and empathy for others in a similar situation. We need to care about each other, because most of these Doctors don't give a shit. Most of society doesn't give a shit. So if we don't recognize, and love and help each other, who else will?

@@apebeats6631 lmao no one cares kid, you are a chump

@@hattchetman_2128 lol I'm a grown man. You're the one with the problem. Hope you get yourself figured out.

When it comes to drugs like heroin its kind of hard to deny you're an addict. You know you are you just don't care when youre deep into it, until it gets to that point where you are ready to do anything to stop (hopefully)

Took me a long time and I thought I'd never get over it. One day I did. I worked the entire time. It can be done.

hes a cry baby. ive been through similar shit growing up maybe worse. my mother is an alcoholic. i never developed drug addictions. each mind is different of course. but some one needs to tell him hes a cry baby

@@umdasu well I don't think it's ever fair to compare lives to somone because once again we have only heard about 30 minutes of his life and just because someone had a shit life doesn't mean they do drugs, I see the upper class kids in high school doing more drugs then I've ever done.

@@thisismichael2812 i was raised in the US im in BR right now trust hes crying about his first world problems. he needs to be slapped back into reality. not all users just this one case here.

I can relate and I was born in 1982. I think it has more to do with children and their relationships with their parents, more so the father and the level of closeness and ability to relate/shared interests. Verbal abuse as well doesn’t get as much credit for wreckage as it should....My thoughts anyways.

Facts. Millennials are completely ill equipped for life.

Straight up. Exactly how my Dad was. He still is to this day. Born in 88'. My Dad is a quintessential boomer born in 57'.

I taught my 4yr old how to solder new earth connections onto technics 1200’s. Teaching them young is the way.

Elder millennial here. Born in 82. I was really lucky to not have a dad, but my grandpa was my father figure. He taught me a lot about life, lots of skills, etc. A lot of people my age don’t know how to do a lot of these things, and I’m always 110% down to teach them. I realized not having my dad, but my papaw, was probably the best thing pretty early on. My bio dad is only good at drugs and drinking 😒

Exactly what I was thinking the entire time I was watching this 😂

Lol Hyde 😂

@@WhoIsJaiK Hyde’s younger brother 😂

Lmao I said this too 🤣😂🤣

He’s been home from Vietnam for a year and he’s having troubles fitting back into society have some respect.

Lol I bet you he's probably been called a poser for liking blink which is why he said that

@@hicksdillon he literally said 10 seconds later he got called a poser a year later lol

Most things people refer to as "punk" or "punk rock" just aren't in the slightest. But, by the original "definition" of punk, Blink-182 was punk for sure. I can't speak on anything they're doing currently because I have no clue what they're up to, but being punk is just being original or unique or true to yourself. It isn't about spikes or leather or trend following or even trend setting. But I'm just a fool. Kids today would call me an oppressive gatekeeper for stating such things lol

I loved blink 182 growing up

@@Valrax yeah which is why I mentioned it, but he never said he got called a poser for specifically liking blink

its a fucking interview, the interviewer isnt supposed to talk that much

@@orber7057 lmfao relax chief its not that serious

I think personally people that talk your ear off with almost no prompting are lonely that just need to say some stuff to someone.

@@orber7057 lol right not a fucking podcast

As someone who’s not a talker myself I love listening to people like that 😂

I’ve been looking for any sort of an update on homie right here, super happy for him

Jake paul

@@anindustryplant7449 there’s two follow up interviews

Where did you get the update from?

yeaaa!!!! like a supertramp member

I would but it’s hard for me to care about creating things and showing people. I put my heart and soul into being a musician until I was 27 and gave up and started the opiates. Now I’m clean and felt really creative and made some new songs. Still nobody really cared that much. Maybe I’m just not that great at music. I can’t imagine my writing being any better or more enticing or impactful or whatever people need.

​@@MatthewAndrewDrake Sometimes we are just not creating the right thing as the right time, or we are not there yet. But your story is compelling and you have a voice. I wish you all the best and thanks for answering.

That's beautifully and well said i never heard anyone say that I'm gonna steal it thank you

@@MatthewAndrewDrake Explain. I need a concise summary of what exactly you’re trying to convey here. Hurry up I don’t have all night. If you’re serious we can exchange a meeting. Dress business casual, and don’t waste my time.

@@teo5836 👎🏿

Absolutely and I agree

Absolutely.

Correct

Oh yeah many people, technically we all our addicts in one way or another

@vor 11 Monaten I only mean in the legal sense. I am in no position to make judgments of anyone but myself.

What’s your thoughts on kratom? That stuff makes me feel ok with life/work, when normally I’m dragging just to get out of bed.

Congrats man

Hey, that's so, so big. I'm proud of you even if I don't know you!

god bless

Amazing achievement 😊I admire anyone that can beat their addictions no matter what their addicted too as it takes so much strength

That’s insane! Congrats

Nobody has said anything yet 🤷‍♂️

@@MatthewAndrewDrake did you make it back to the clinic?

@@MatthewAndrewDrake have you experienced your addiction progression come to a standpoint, overall?

@@MatthewAndrewDrake please I encourage you to go back to the clinic... often to get clean and not carry an opioid tolerance makes you more susceptible to death from using during initial relapse period. it takes dedication to stay clean pass frequent drug tests and drive to the clinic but after a year, only having to go once a month I find very manageable and it works well for me... idk if I'll ever get off methadone completely but medicaid pays for mine so its govt subsidized free harm reduction that works.

@@MatthewAndrewDrake My advice. Find someone you can fall in love with and start a family. I'm not telling you what to do, it just helped make me the man I am today. For me it makes a big difference when someone calls you dad.

Thanks that’s best comment so far. Ever seen Cabin In The Woods?

What a fuck up comment..not fair

@@MatthewAndrewDrake yeah definitely see Marty from cabin in the woods with this guy

@@hunterbrady4789 that is that guy 😂

Cabin in the Woods

Thank you

He said that he smokes his heroin. You probably don’t know much about heroin or the different ways to use it (which is a really good thing) but people who od from heroin are the people who use a needle and shoot up. When you’re smoking heroin it’s pretty close to literally impossible for you to od, regardless of whether or not it’s laced with fentanyl. His story about the one time he od’d he was doing straight fentanyl and he was snorting it. But when it comes to smoking heroin, you’ll pretty much always nod off before being able to smoke enough to actually od.

@@mikeblackwell3445 Thank you, I'm gonna test your theory tonight.

which is why drugs should be legal and reg'd

Cut with fentanyl you can tell. I test batches for my dude fentanyl is clear. Also say it's cut with fentanyl you can tell.

If he stays on heroin he'll go to prison or the cemetery. There are no old junkies. Edit: exceptions don't make the rule.

Nice

Saw. I relate to those words very much lol.

erwin meester Ik a dude whose 85 still on fentanyl

@@mdsign001 Reminder: eventually you'll end up on a cemetery too.

Congrats man keep it up

Good job 😃

Stay safe gang

Same I felt like I got sick a lot more severe compared to everyone else

I always felt like that too. None of my friends seemed to be as bad as I was

Bro fuck what your dad thinks You do you fuck it bro My dads no good Neither is my mom its whatever bro life goes on just be strong 💪 check out the youtuber buff dudes he will make ur life better.even if u dont workout

@M. Denz you do enough to comment

Thats gay

I totally understand his father being pissed. Totally.

You’ve never been good enough for your dad? Your dad was never good enough for you is more like it.

So glad ur still here! Keep strong!

Im so glad for you and your child⭐❤ Stay safe

Me too, im getting clean now. I was able to hold a job, nice car, alwyas had money. Never stole from anybody or did scummy shit to get dope. Only issue is it started getting harder and harder to function and hold a job. So I decided I need to get clean. I reached a level of misery I didn’t even know was possible. I’m now entering an new chapter of my life. I broke up with my partner recently, switched methadone clinics and I’m moving to Florida now to go live with my best friend and his girlfriend. Life does get better.. slowly but surely.

Well said

Ive been a functional heroin addict for almost 15 years. I smoke it have never shot anything. Always had a good job been a model employee near perfect attendance I am a manager at my current job been there for 8 years only missed half a day in 8 years. Work super hard. Never steal and never robbed a friend, dealer, family member. Im super reliable, like boring reliable, like every dealer I know would front me any amount I ask for. I could get an oz fronted right now. Im not a shitty person, always pay my debts. Like this guy in the video my lungs are getting destroyed though. I need to get off to save my lungs.

Shit made my eyes wet, I’ll try and stay clean for the parents out there

@@Rafungilo Just do it for yourself as none of the rest of the outsiders matter. But please do it!

It’s so fucking hard, but I promise you can do it. Especially if you can find a loved one to care take for you for 2 weeks or so. It’ll be so much cheaper, they’ll have genuine love for you, and you won’t starve or lay in filth or have to lay and suffer thirsty for hours because of the pain. My big thing was food and water. I had such a hard time keeping stuff down and it made the pain worse and more intense. Hydration and sufficient meals are key. You need to replenish all b vitamins, d vitamin, and c vitamin for sure. I have chronic gastritis, GERD, and ibs so turmeric with breakfast WORKS WONDERS

I got off of heroin because I wanted a better life and my poor parents deserved some peace. I didn’t want to die in my addiction. I overdosed a few times but luckily someone found me.

@@Onelightoftheworld I am so happy for you!!! Thank God someone saved you when you overdosed. God Bless you and I wish you continued vigilance in your fight against addiction…

Thanks Kimberly

@@MatthewAndrewDrake I'm rooting for you. I'm not a drug addict but I used to have issues with food, and I relate to alot of what you are saying. Take care Matthew.

@@lucydaly44 thanks Lucy

Hey everyone my name is Trey I'm 30 I have 2 years on heroin and still on it I work at the JFK airport making 18.50 a hour I love this drug why cuz it make me want to work more even my boss says ur a good working trey I look at him and say thanks but he didt no I was on drugs I get my drug in new Jersey where it's cheaper I pay 100 dollar for 50 bags every Friday I get 3oo dollars worth so that is 150 bags it last a hole week really it does I only do 2 bags at a time never three I also shoot it up way better not in my arms on my foot so please guys don't do this i lost family friends job cars apt and I just got my apt and my car back it took time but yea the sickest is really bad like really bad I bin there but please bro don't do it this is my story stay sober

@@MatthewAndrewDrake Good luck man. I'm rooting for you. I'm currently on Suboxone. It helped me a lot, might be an option.

That’s great that the methadone is helping you maintain a better quality of life. Thankfully I’ve never been addicted to opiates/opioids but I have my own addictive tendencies that I have to manage. Take it a day at a time and keep up the good work!

@@Legalize23It Thanks brother. Knowing yourself is more than half the battle. It’s easier to prevent it from happening than recovering from it. I definetely haven’t always been productive. Years ago I was much worse off, homeless. Nothing to my name. Just chasing drugs. Not worth it man. I have so much advice and wisdom I wish I could share.

@@ZERELA666 I can’t even fathom that man. It doesn’t really get more rock bottom than that. What pushed you to recovery? And are you doing any type of 12 step program?

Hope you’re well

if Mark wasn't making money on tis, he wouldn't be doing it- that why there's "no judgement"

@@anonymous-zw1nb right

its funny listening to this dude - he is so good at blaming everything else around him - he does not need encouragement or questions - just wind him up and away he goes! i would have a quiet chuckle too if a 33year old man couldn't recognize what a drill was lol.

@@anonymous-zw1nb Well when you put it like that 😅😅😅 its facts, but God DAMN 😭😭😭

His whole story is one fatass pity party lmao

I have younger siblings. This struck me. Thanks.

I felt this tweet. I lost my brother. Fentanyl overdose. Feb. 23 2018. RIP Max.

I don’t miss my brother.

@@walterkersting6238 Keep it to yourself.

My alcoholic brother had a really nice older Acura and he crashed it twice; bought two more acuras, crashing thrice more. Coke man. He was in such a bad place. My sister and I had to pick him up from a motel when a transvestite stole his keys. That’s when he crashed for the final time. But he’s kinda better place now and taking sobriety months at a time. Hopefully your brother can get better too.

Sadly, all it takes is just one fuck up. R.I.P. to your brother. He's free.

Oxytocin...? Hmmm

Not for nothing but he did have a pretty normal childhood. Nobody’s parents are perfect. We can’t just ignore the fact that he’s admittedly a drug addict. Not everyone turns to drugs because their parents drink and yell at them. We all have choices to make. We need to stop trying to find ways to justifying doing drugs. Sounds like he never had any drive to overcome his problems. My childhood wasn’t perfect but I still know right from wrong. There are exceptions obviously but it’s not like the guy isn’t educated. He’s pretty damn intelligent .

His parents seem completely normal to me? Most addicts I work with never had parents (reality and figuratively).

@@Whydoweneedhandlesagain Have you ever been addicted to anything?

That's how I'd begin my story too. But then you start filling in details...

@@Whydoweneedhandlesagain you have no idea how drugs affect your brain and it shows

That's the thought I had. They, but especially, the interviewer kept being amazed at how this guy appears normal, has a job etc, that's because the only drug users the sheltered person knows are the screaming in public/scabs on face/tweaking like hell type. Fact is most people that use you wouldn't even know. The general public have probably met users and were amazed and wooed by their social fluency/energy/quick wit/etc and never realized that was due to crystal meth or coke or whatever. It's a loud minority. There's no way to put a number on it but i'd say 85% of users have no outwardly telling signs or behaviour and lead normal lives. The amount of people working in bars, especially people-facing roles(bartender etc) who use cocaine/meth/speed down here in Australia is astronomical. If you're reading this and you're a shy person who dreams of confidence and thinks this is the solution, know you are the highest risk group for dependence, just work on yourself it's possible.

@@Heopful i was reading in interest, and then the ending applies in a way

If you count cocaine we’re talking billions

ive used opiates daily for about 5 years now and nobody really on a personal level knows. none of my family, coworkers, or anything. just a very few small amount of close friends. without it i feel like shit. im lethargic. i basically cant function but as soon as i get a little buzz its like i chugged the worlds strongest coffee. ive tried quitting but always come back. theres many people like me but none of us are really open about it. well, functioning addicts that is.

Or they're right under your nose. No one knew i was on heroine for 6 months

...I thought I was the only one that caught that🥴

Yeah, the interviewer was totally off there. Not only with the knife thing. Matthew was trying to gloss over it and make it not seem like a big deal, but from what he said it seems like he was made to be an outcast throughout all of his school years and dealt with a good amount of bullying. That's not "normal".

Normal where I’m from

Shit I got a gun pulled over my skateboard in middle school lol but my place wasnt ghetto

@@johntorres532 see, even in places not that ghetto, if you spend all your time outside as a kid these things happen

Thats a wise choice, I sure as hell wish I never would have tried it. You're also right about the "its too good" thing

@@RickyM247 I hope you're trolling. Not every experience is the same for every one, for you it wasn't something you felt the need to come back to. For others it immediately becomes something they NEED use. I'm not trying to be rude, but your comment is rather ignorant.

@@RickyM247 not everyone gets addicted until they finally try something that theyve been looking for, i never got addicted to molly and coke but i got addicted to pain killers and nicotine, everyone is different x

@@RickyM247 delete your garbage comments

heroin is literally nothing like MDMA, well hopefully MDMA hopefully youre not getting meth in your tablets or some research chemical and someones selling them to you as MDMA.. but honestly actually getting real ecstasy tablets is pretty fucking rare especially from the street but yeah dont try heroin (i say this as i inhale smoke, literally right fuckin now as i watch this, directly into my lungs……so im kinda a hypocrite?) but for real dont try it youll want to kill yourself by the time withdrawals b hittin anywya though heroin is a PAIN KILLER mdma is has structural similarities to AMPHETAMINE and METHAMPHETAMINE, which are classic STIMULANTS. the two are literally nothing like each other

I never heard anyone describe this before. My dad always did this. Made me stand there to “help”. Never allowed me to do anything. He also was way over the top when it came to us playing sports. Would give looks of extreme disappointment/anger in the stands if we made an error. I’ve definitely struggled with anxiety/low self esteem/depression starting around age 15. Alcoholism started around that time as well. Hope you’re doing well.

1986? This shit looks closer to 1976.

@@yosefshekelberg5433 i was gonna say the same thing

Cute curly hair...glasses match...how old is he? Mentions the 80's..hmm

@@joyamongstforeverspark5422 I’m 35

Noooo. This looks like 70s.

J. Cole vibes from "The Warm Up"

Mine did too💔

Shut up lmai

You probably want to give everyone participation trophies

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Good on you. Keep it green. Odaat 5/23/96.

Ur a beautiful person. Keep it up homie

Amen

Jo in

Shooting meth to help while being dope sick always helps lol...

Thanks man. Some people on these comments are comparing it to getting Beat as a child and saying I didn’t have it as bad or that I’m just a privileged white person. This world is so fucked up these days

Those people will go along with any dominant opinion, no matter what it is or how out of touch it might be. It is fucked up. There is power in numbers. If only those people realized the influence that they could have, instead of letting their fear of being an outsider in their opinion rule them. Their perception sucks. Not worthy of taking you down with it. There is good out there though. I think everyone needs healing

@@jennaparker672 it’s the dominant opinion in the world but not on this channel fortunately

@Either Or thank you I’m doing well

This is true. Dad driving drunk and angry was a form of violence. Hitting walls is a form of abuse.

That's how most people feel before the "I want to die" stage.

I believe disappointing loved ones has alot to do with feeling that way, as I parent I really believe in showing my kids that self love and becoming their own person without being influenced by other people including myself is essential In their happiness and success. I'm here to guide them on the right path and give them guidance. Pay attention to the people around you, comments like that can be a cry for help

A lot of us struggle with this unfortunately

Thank you I think

@@MatthewAndrewDrake you are welcome .

RIP John 🙏 may you never suffer than demon in any other life you live.

I’m sorry for your loss

I’m so sorry, I also lost my brother this way last year. I miss him so much too

someone was explaining to me that basically you get use to the high but the effects on your central nervous system etc still are there and you can't get use to those, eventually no matter what at some point you will overdose even if you are use to it when you keep bumping your doses, your body can only handle so much stuff. Rest In Peace

I lost all my best friends to overdoses and I’m an ex heroin meth user myself.,, I’m sorry that happened man. If I ever mess up I try to be careful and immediately reach out for help

lars and the real girl

He plays a crack addicted teacher in half Nelson

Or Jonah Hill

Looks like a fear and loathing character

It actually is Ryan

i know right.

@Dude its worse when you realize nobody actually cares if you live or die. That's why I had this fucking huge breakdown when I had my kid. For the first time in my life I had someone/something that I had to answer to, that needed and loved me. IT was fucking terrifying. The only thing almost as terrifying was the day I realized I had no one. Kind of ironic the only thing more terrifying than that was realizing that I had someone. LOL

I’ve seen people OD, get hit with narcan to bring them back to life, and pick up again in less than 20 minutes

I hope you have home owners insurance 😂🤣😅

@@ashleyhumbyrd7274 It's also specifically from the PAWS that naloxone throws you into. It's like the worst form of instant withdrawals the reversal drug can throw you into. You're the sickest you can possibly be, and almost nothing but time can get you better. You can go fix up, but it's near useless unless you do a stupidly ridiculous amount, which might cause you to OD once the Narcan wears off in like another hour or so.

Thanks ALF!

@@MatthewAndrewDrake Finally someone who knows who alf is… People would always be like what’s up with ur pic what is it lol

@@LordBonesaw love ALF! 💕

True. Late shows are so predictable and hypocritical.

Yes!... with like endless episodes, and no commercials if you have RU-vid red ! I love it

Late shows have never really been interesting though...

Bad time to believe in yourself, all hope is lost in America at this point, u less you want to be broke you’re entire life and/or rely on the government. But the upper middle class is destroyed and won’t be coming back anytime soon

@@ShinyFlakesShinyFlakes Why are you specifying the upper middle class? Fuck the upper middle class. The working and lower middle class is what’s needed

@@JamesThomas-xv4tf well obviously it’s because I’m a part of the upper middle class, and while I don’t like saying “fuck the middle and lower class”, it’s pretty good damn frustrating when I see over $10,000 a month being stolen from me in taxes. Expand your horizons buddy, it’s very clear you are uneducated and broke. Strive to be better dude, you don’t need to be poor you’re entire life, but with your attitude, trust me, you will be.

@@ShinyFlakesShinyFlakes Amen! I agree ☝️

Very well said. And heartfelt. I Wish this man well, too. He’s got more going on than he’s allowing himself to exploit

Damn...

You never know what people are going through. RIP to him. 😔🙏🏾

Aaa that’s so damn sad

I do oxy pills 🥲 lately my doses have skyrocketed. At what point is considered deadly?? Apparently my mother said I slur my speech on them now. It must break her heart but I’m in a huge addiction and can’t stop.

So sorry to hear of your many losses, especially your love. I know she will be looking down proud as punch at you.🙏🙏

Yesssss Philly…Kensington to be exact has been CRAZZYYY!! 😩🥺🥺🥺. it looks like a zombie apocalypse out there. I wish I could help many addicts that want to be helped, not all are bad people man. Some are shitty people because there are shitty people out there regardless of drugs or not but yeah man, god bless everyone 🙏🏼💕

Wow just like my story but with a guy. He has od’d but he got lucky those times

So sorry for your loss, my deepest condolences. Sending love and prayers ❤️God bless

So do mine and my only addictions are cigarettes and coffee.. I used to drink alcohol and smoke weed a LOT, daily, for years from when I was 15 till my mid 20's. I don't miss waking up and wondering how the hell I got home and what happened.. But I fully empathise and understand not being able to handle life sober all the time. If I would have something laying around the house today for instance, I would most probably have taken it. Not alcohol, but some caughin - codiëne for instance: yes please.. It's good when you can get through those sht days and see the sun rize again without any aides other than stamina, faith and some music that has good vibes to it.. Can't say I like it. But it is just life and a better day will come again. You look pretty happy Buff. I bet sports provide you with enough dopamine to get you your fix if that's you in the pic.

Don’t act like you haven’t been there Buff ;)

*coughin'

same

@I Love :/ this is where I am

Heroin really helps if you feel a lack of love, fear of abandonment, lonely or any negative feelings get quickly dissipated and you can continue your day. But if you have goals and want to be something you realize it's only slowing you down.

@@Z3sty367 there are many ways to escape definitely. I think having a hobby is the best remedy, it helped me out of my depression and helps with my anxiety. Finding a reason to live is so important above all tho.

yeah! he does that as an escape from his thoughts! Mind is our biggest enemy control the damn thing

being loved as a kid is overrated. Lack of being overly affectionate with a kid can make them crave that love as an adult, it makes you hard but it doesnt necesarily make you a jerk. Its different than being abused, its not really a bad thing in my opinion. I was deprived of love as a kid and i turned out fine, it just made me love my girl as an adult that much more

@@Z3sty367 I've never done opiates other than when I got my wisdom teeth out, but I used to browse drug forums and the way that nearly all the opiate users, especially the ones who shoot up talk about heroin and other opiates is kind of interesting. The best way to describe it is like being in love. They write poetry and talk about the feeling of being high exactly the same way someone might for their girlfriend. People who quit talk about it like losing a lover. You don't see this kind of talk with addicts of any other class of drug.