I can relate to so much of this! The same thing with the stuffed animals and the journals. I had so many journals of me writing and signing under a boys name. Always a boy character in video games too. "Me... a boy....penisless!!!" LOVE IT
Id always get barbies and id cut their hair short and make them boy clothes from scrap fabric bc when i was a kid, ken dolls didnt exist lmao. Yet i love girly clothes, always have. I love dresses. As a transboy drag queen, oh boy, the misunderstandings are sO real
one time on a school picture day i had to wear this girls sweater. when i got to school i took it off and refussed to put it back on to get my picture raken. i ended up getting sent home from school. i was about 13 yrs at the time.
Mack, I love these types of videos. I've had similar variations of most of what you said in this video and your first one of these, especially relating to the freak outs about dresses. I used to have complete meltdowns over wearing girly stuff such as dresses, skirts, and frilly shirts. I'm glad I'm not alone in this. Sorry this is so long lol
I really liked poofy dresses as a kid. I hated dirt. Then at like 7 I had a "boy phase". Didn't want to wear girl clothes, I tried to like getting dirty (I didn't and still don't) I wanted to be a boy and when asked why I couldn't think of an answer so I said I wanted to be a boy because I wanted to pee standing up. Anyway, so then my mom didn't buy me any more boy clothes and when I finally wore blouses she said that a parent asked her if I'd lost weight. So I wore the damn blouses and thought I was uncomfortable because I didn't like how it showed my chest. Then in middle school I get cast as Antigone, and I do okay. But then I get cast as Puck from midsummer night's dream, and I LOVE playing this peter-pan-like character. They change the pronouns to feminine for me in the script but I still have fun. And then in 8th grade my teacher asks which role we would like for Romeo and Juliet and my first choice is Romeo because "I think he would be the least whiny". I was very wrong, but I got the part of Romeo. I was over the moon! I like it waaaay more than playing Puck, and I absolutely rock the part. And I'm so disappointed when a boy (who was not a good actor) got to be Romeo in the performance for the parents. And I was so upset when I was told that I couldn't play Romeo just because I'm a girl. In highschool I hate my appearance. I'm overweight with no boobs and I think I hate my appearance because I look like a man in drag. I try to get a special bra to make it look like I have boobs, but I still feel like a man in drag. In my highschool plays I get cast as two old ladies that are typically played by dudes and I love it. And for one play, I get cast as a married lady who wants to tell her husband she's pregnant but her best friend wants her to pretend to be her husband. I am MORTIFIED by the "I'm pregnant" scene and kissing my "husband". I hate it. But I like the scenes where I pretend to be my friends husband. I bought my own costume from goodwill and I get to keep the shirt and it quickly becomes my favorite shirt. My mom hates it and calls it my "lesbian shirt". But I still like wearing skirts as comfy clothes so CLEARLY I'm not a boy. Not at all. And Scottish men in kilts aren't men, and the Romans who thought pants were barbaric weren't men either. But yeah... Me liking skirts makes me a girl. And that's why I thought I wasn't a boy until senior year in college.
Dude! I love acting!!! I am a cis girl and I love playing the pants roles just as much as girl ones. It's so great to get out of ones life for a little bit and be someone else for a change!
I frakin love you Mack.❤️ I want to come out as Bisexual but my dad was talking about that Gay Marriage and stuff being legal is 'wrong' and I don't know what to do
Well if you won't be safe (if your dad will hurt you/kick you out), don't come out to him. If he won't hurt you, then you could try dropping hints to him. Explain to him why gay marriage ISN'T wrong. And, if he still seems unaccepting, maybe just try coming out to close friends.
Thanks, two of my friends know and my brother keeps being like "Hannah are you lesbian" as a joke and i didnt say anything but in my head i was just like "well kinda"
I got given a stuffed bear for one of my first birthdays. It had a little jean skirt and a floral blouse. I quickly discarded them and just .. considered that bear a boy. All my stuffed animals were boys. Even the obviously girl ones, like a pink rabbit with eyelashes and a bow - still a boy. Somehow it didn't occur to me that they could be girls. Like... Boy just seemed more obvious to me, it was the default choice.
Oh my god. The exact same build-a-bear thing happened to me...I was at a birthday party with all girls and I was the only one who did a boy build-a-bear.
Well when I was young it was like obviously a boy, even my family was called me with a boy name.. and now they don't accept that!! and that make me so confused. I mean Im still the same person, however I need your help Mack! I hope to reply. Thank you.
Hey, Mack ! You've still got that awesome personality you had when I first started watching your videos. I hope you're holding up nicely. College has been great so far. I've hit a few rough patches but I'm trying to get through it as best as I can. Keep the great videos coming !
When I was a little kid before I knew being trans was a thing, I would say stuff like “what if when I’m a grown up I wear boy clothes and cut my hair and pretend I’m a man and maybe nobody will know?” Bruhhh😂
At build a bear, I wanted a boy bear but my mom explicitly stated no because I'm not allowed to have anything boy related so I was forced to choose girl clothes. I think I threw that bear away.
If you think your parents will hurt you or kick you out of the house, I don't advise coming out to them. Maybe try coming out to some accepting friends you trust? Or, see if your school has a LGBT support group/ Gay straight alliance.
MackMan one thanks for replying your my senpai ilysfm and two they'd kick me out and a bunch off ppl know at school I think I'm just stuck in this awkward spot till I graduate oh well I'm gonna be me. I'm gonna be here, I'm gonna be queer.