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I have immense respect for you and your team. Your channel, content are awesome. Thank you for all you do. I shared this one on fb.

I cant go and talk to ppl about anything related to cptsd bc of their reaction ( victim card and etc ) ppl with cptsd are so lucky to have a channel like this , to hear from someone who understands us thank u

If I ever doubted I have CPTSD, then the section about procrastination and crashing got me.

My procrastination is part “what’s the point anymore?” My entire life anytime I had something I cared about or was proud of it was was either destroyed or taken from me.

I’m a huge procrastinator, but I’m a little better now that I started eating better. I stopped wine, carbs, sugar and all processed food. I think stopping these things healed my brain or maybe in the process of healing my brain.

I just want to add that there is something so emotionally comforting and real/authentic about you and your videos. You have wonderful energy and thanks for all you do. You have been a safe and informative haven and hugs to you and everyone here in the comment section.

It helps me sometimes by setting a timer for 15 minutes and tell myself I can at least do that. You can get a lot done in 15 minutes. Then the timer goes off and you are now into the project and set it for another 15. Music definitely helps! I have a list of 20 things to do all the time because I take care of my parents and their bills and I get VERY overwhelmed. I am afraid to pay my bills because the money is low. We had some structural repairs on the house. I KNOW I feel better when I cross things off of my list. It's getting started that I dread. I do the same thing about going to bed or take a shower. Once I am in, I'm good. It's getting there..... Thank you for being here fairy!!! Loveyoumeanit!!!

I literally have zero people I can talk to about anything. So I’ve just been slowly learning and applying things to heal my own self. It’s hard having noone to vent to or cry with.

This is my safe space for all things CPTSD. I feel like most people dismiss this concept quickly or downplay it. On the outside I appear as if I have it together but inside I’m stuck in freeze mode and unable to show up in the world as I like and live my purpose. Thanks so much for these videos ❤️ they have really helped

worrying about what others think is wasted energy. being you is beautiful

procrastinating has been my worst fault my entire life

I am so glad you took the step up. I don't have childhood trauma, I have developed this deregulation paralysis, loss of executive function over the past 3.5 years from grief, carer burnout. My little bother, Mother and Father all dying, plus other stuff. Going from a high functioning person to the extreme opposite. You made me laugh today, I thought is she here somewhere as you describe me to a tee. All the time I spend frozen and procrastinating I could have done all the things I'm avoiding. As I was watching, I got up and started clearing up, my problem is that when I do get energy I get distracted and start a side quest and end up with a bigger mess as I am sure so does everyone else. Anyway your delivery I really resonate with. You're a star. I will make my way through your links and episodes (whilst doing stuff) because I always feel positive after watching. Thank you.

Here's an example of what I do to myself: my dentist complimented me re how good I am at taking care of my teeth. I could almost feel something click inside myself. So- yeah, I stopped taking care of my teeth. Procrastination is part of my self- destructive stuff. I don't know what to do if I feel good. I have to ruin it for myself.

I’m sending Love and Hugs to everyone who resonates with this episode

I don't usually comment, mostly a lurker here but... This video (watching currently) might just help me get off rock bottom and get my life back together. Thank you for taking the leap and having the courage to make this channel :) It really is a blessing for those of us struggling. I used to be a high achiever but lately I have been very down. When people ask me what's wrong... I had no idea how to even begin to explain what I was going through. But this video puts things into perspective. Again, thank you so much for your work and dedication 💝

Happy Mother's Day !

"cPTSD feels uncomfortable when you ascend to a new level." YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I just accepted a new job as a supervisor but I keep on regressing to negative thinking. It is so difficult for me to not think in the negative because of the stuff I have going on but your videos help bring me back to reality!! KEEP THEM COMING!!!

I am a queen of criticism, and most people who have heard me say anything will verify that; BUT, I can find NOTHING in any of your videos ( I've seen at least 20) to criticize. Rather, the opposite. Anna, you truly are, for me, the Functional Adulthood Fairy. Thank you, thank you, thank you. 💯👌

You have a lot of guts you are as brave as any special force soldier fighting a war!!! Because that’s what this feels like!!!. I am so grateful to you. I can’t put everything in a text, I just wanted you to know that. And as a mother, look what a model you are to your sons, and grandchildren, and how this will carry down. Happy Mother’s Day, Anna.🙏💕💕

Where have you been all my life. Seven decades later.....😂😊

I live in florida and I definitely feel like being outside was used as punishment when I was younger. This makes sense to me now because whenever people talk about going out in nature being relaxing i literally panic

Your stories about how people sabotage you really hit close to my heart. It’s a shame people like that really exist.

Happy Mother's Day.

Procrastination is a parasite.

Anna, one of the things I really like about you is that you talk about the exact things I struggle with. Like feeling the need to vacuum the entire house when what I know I should be doing is recording and editing my first RU-vid video. I've been preparing, studying, and thinking I want to do this for months. Thinking, "I can do it!" but then this weird hesitation kicks in and I really need to clean something, or go outside and work in the garden. What IS that? Sigh. The struggle is real.

Here's what I did: I made a poster board of post-it notes, one per task - just getting all the tasks out of ny head made a huge difference. Next, I chose no more than 3 items per day. Sometimes 1 was enough, sometimes the task was taking an item and breaking it into smaller tasks! (And I counted the tab as done!) Through this method, I got over 300 must-do items done in 6 months! Then I "fell off the wagon." I think an important step in any organizational system is an easy way to get back on the wagon. I'm trying to start my list again, but it's hard. I think planning a "get back on the wagon" system is an important piece too.

I am working so hard on being victim no more. I’m taking control. This video was well timed. Many thanks.

I’ve always found that doing things for myself (and the procrastination associated with those things) comes from my lack of self-worth. It’s difficult to do things for yourself when you don’t feel worthy. Doing things for others: easy. I’ve always been too much of a giver. But doing things for myself…. For me, the thing that has really helped has been to imagine ‘little me’, telling myself that “we are worthy”, whenever I need to do anything. I’m not just doing it for me. I do it for both of us; and that’s makes it a little easier. I’m doing it for that little girl who had so many hopes and dreams that I was never able to follow though with.

Happy Mother's Day! ❤️

I feel mighty foolish. I actually saved this video to my "watch later" and "from surviving thriving" folders! I had to admit this foolish stumble to someone. But, more importantly. A Very Happy Mother's Day to all you Moms out there. I love this, channel but it's difficult relating to this topic too completely. But putting off this video on procrastination is actually funny. I've learned to laugh with myself. (Not at...) Thanks Doc. You're exactly what I need. Amd I'm grateful. ❤ A fan from Canada.

Ok well PTSD came around in my late 30s early 40s not as a child, however I have a hard time even bathing. I function just enough to go to work, but everything else is toast. Soul sickness is the perfect terminology. Just to have someone to talk about this gives me more hope.

When the algorithm works, it's a beautiful thing. I needed to hear this right now🙏 Keep spreading this message.

I’ll finish watching this video, I swear I will. Right after I’m done procrastinating.

Happy Mothers Day. Freeze mode… yup . That’s the name for my days of the week.

Happy Mother's Day ❤️💐

For many of us, we don’t strive to do big things, we work to survive. The striving can cause mental problems that complicate CPTSD. It’s constant hustle and comparing yourself to others that’s produces more difficulties.

Wow, "squandering time", is my inner critic's favourite term for how I've been living my life. Knowingly squandering my life, my time. Definitely want to do better yet... 😞 I'm going to go for a walk in the sun. Thanks so much.

👍🏼 so timely. (Actually could have used it 55 years ago 😏) Just think of what could have been accomplished.

I’m paralyzed too, this is so real.. it’s horrible can’t function.

It really upsets me to know that you gave up so many dreams for the exact reasons that you're helping me through daily - I really want you to know how important your work has been in even getting me out of bed - I'm leaving the house for the second time today and I wouldn't be if i didn't understand my dysregulated emotional patterns just a little better then i did yesterday, and the day before - thank you for being so open and vulnerable with your personal experiences it's so easy to see myself in the letters you read and the experiences you share, and I truly hope you manage to reclaim ALL AND ANY creative power that may have been relinquished on your journey - I want to see your movie! Please make a video directing us to some of your personal endeavours, I'd love to read your book as well!! And sabotage.... ouch. I truly believe in being there for everyone and supporting the community talent pool so when people sabotage and compete it hurts me to my core... I think it's more of a reliving of trauma then anything elseI've had similar experiences, but I've always been able to create boundaries surrounding that particular subject and I'm sorry you didn't feel you had a voice. Your voice is globally powerful and you save lives - thank you.

Listening to this on a cleaning binge. Tysm! ❤❤❤

Freeze mode that is it. My son's all have it as do I Recovery came slow and I am sober and benzi free for 710 days Boys are grown, my oldest died suddenly 6years ago prompting us to heal. Smart lady I feel blessed to hear you.

I'm glad you published your book. :) Be proud of that.

Stay "proud" "doing your bliss" its beautiful❤ thank you so much

You should be proud of yourself, your videos are awesome, and help so many! Boy oh boy, paralysis is a word I can identify with! Add adhd to it, and I spin as well, fun times😂😂😂I appreciate what you have to say, I've learned to bite off smaller chunks to avoid the overwhelm, and I'm so proud of myself, I can now accomplish by small actions. Can't thank you enough, It makes me feel so much better, not staying in frozen mode, by taking baby steps of action really helps!👍😁 I also learn alot by reading the comments from the people who comment here, cheers!

Thank you for your wonderful insight!

Thank you for all you so freely give. God bless you truly

Wow. I've loved your content, but this might be the best video you've given us.

I never knew this existed until yesterday. The more I watch my adult children struggle with depression & irritability just like me. This has made me so sad, but this video has enlightened me.

This is why it’s best not to tell others when you’re starting something new. There will always be jealous people and saboteurs.

This is exactly where I am at right now and the first video of yours I’ve seen and I just want to say truly… thank you. Thank you. You are amazing and it’s really liberating to know there is a reason I am like this. I feel heard finally without having to say or do anything.

I'm so glad you talked about crashes. I've become more and more aware of it, but had no idea how to put it into words or how to describe it to someone. I had a very traumatic experience recently with a sibling and it really threw me for a loop for days/weeks. I truly felt traumatized. It was hard to stop thinking about it or know how to process it. It still bothers me, but I'm somewhat better. Your teaching on these things helps me understand why it's so hard for me to not internalize that kind of experience.

Hi. When you began to talk in this video, I felt as if you were describing me to the T. I felt as if I was the only one. I felt as if you have watched me all my life and telling my story. Of course I'm not the only one. There are millions of people just like you and I in this situation. I appreciate you talking about this and helping us find solutions to our problems. Also, as you began to describe the symptom, it was very overwhelming and exhausting. Even though I'm trying to help myself, feels as if whatever little or a lot I do to help myself sometime feels as if I have made no progress because the problem still there. The way I cope is by taking baby steps and not look back. Only look forward. The image came to me of a horse that has those things on the side of their eyes to help it look forward. Lol, funny but true I have to stay focused. Not easy, but doable. Thank you for helping us. One day very soon, I hope I can help others in whichever area they need help. You have no idea how much I appreciate you. Thanks again.

I am suffering tremendously from procrastination. I literally have not been able to make myself move forward with work because I'm suffering again from a physical injury which brings up all the other painful stuff in my life. I joined today with the annual membership. It's a step in the right direction.

You mentioned something I never really thought about. " What if I succeed, and have to keep doing this forever!" I always thought I was afraid of failing, now I am thinking about, just maybe, I am afraid of succeeding.

I have just found you and I am absolutely so grateful that I did. It’s like you know exactly how I feel and you know my problems in getting things done. I am soooooo grateful to have someone to listen to who completely gets me. I have learned so much in the 3 videos I’ve watched and I can’t wait to absorb more. Thank you!!! ❤

OMG I really, REALLY love these longer compilation videos. They're awesome because we get to hear related information but presented at different times and in different ways. OMG by the time I reached the 3rd segment, with Anna in a white shirt, I was so clicking with EVERYTHING she was sharing!! My heart relaxed and I was able to find such a gentle, compassionate attitude towards younger me.....the me from 30 years ago. I remember in my mid 20s getting a job and feeling like it was so wrong for me because I wasn't happy. My brother, also my boss, said "You don't know what you're talking about. This is a great industry, oil and gas, and you don't know enough about it to judge it. So you need to commit for 5 years then make a judgement." SO I did and found ways to force myself to do a job I hated. It was ONLY when I refused to go on without anymore until I HONORED my own deeply held desires that I found a better path for me, computers. BUT I STILL struggle with this path because it too has some very negative aspects for me. This video helps me feel like I'm not so bad for feeling the way I'm feeling and that I have found ways to take care of my needs while also finding work. I've been crashing for 8 years over and over again and living off of savings. It's unsustainable but I'm now turning 57 and terrified that it'll continue but I keep trying yet again to find work that I can do, sustain and feel energized and passionate about because everywhere I look, it's just more of the same. Disgruntled people, working in businesses, suppressing others, only in it for the money, stress and more stress and "We're running a business here not a daycare" kind of mentality.....just many bosses upon bosses that are like Anna's old boss that suppressed her writing and I can't help but think "NO!" and then get down because that's the majority of what I see when imagining going back to work because it's such a common issue. And then my brothers voice comes crashing back in saying "You don't have to like work. It's work afterall. Most people hate their jobs. Doesn't matter....get up and do it anyways" and I just think....."No I can't" and that's a crash then I start the cycle all over again. Ugh I want to be free from this but not sure how and where to start....it all seems so damned complex, complicated and confusing.

Thank you for this topic!! Wow!! This is GREAT!!

I completely felt this video! My whole life story. Thank you

There is always something pulling me back or down when there is something i want to do...just doing dishes or work on the car....etc...

For the longest I called it laziness until you saw how badly it was affecting my life but it felt like I couldn’t do anything about it. I procrastinate with almost everything and say oh I like doing things last minute because it gives me a rush and then I get it done fast but then I would get upset at myself when things took longer than expected (ie homework, work assignments, etc). I just found out I have CPRSD and paralysis is the worst

Happy Mother’s Day, Anna! Thank you for this video, a great Mother’s Day gift 💝 Yes, we can do the craziest things to avoid our important life work.

This is all me. I am a hardcore procrastinator. All of the above

Happy Mother’s Day! ❤ Thank you for what you do :) I really needed to hear this!

This one is so spot on! The best of all your videos I’ve watched. Planning to contemplate, work it out, convert it into an action plan, review multiple times, adjust my goals and start flying in moderation towards my ideal future. I’m feeling so grateful you’ve uploaded this exactly todo, I had an intake for ADHD/Autism when we simultaneously concluded with coaching on procrastination in relation with childhood trauma, exactly like with Jacob’s letter! Funny universe. With lots of love, Iris, Rotterdam, The Netherlands 🥰

Thank you for allowing Truth to speak through you; it sets me free and keeps me on my path.

thank you for this. I needed to hear this. I can’t elaborate on my trauma right now cuz it still feels ongoing but I am just grateful that I’m not alone n that we have a wonderful human like yourself giving us these resources. Thank you again. Have a blessed day.

You are changing lives out here. Truly, you are a godsend. Best of all things that come to you and your team.

My nervous system was hit hard! I know that whenever I was stressed out, my body hurt & I could barely move at times. I've been called all kinds of names bcuz of this. It feels like a huge relief that I came across this video.

You are truly so very gifted at what you do. Thank you so much for this video. Your videos are the only things helping me truly understand why I behave as I do. I feel extremely stuck despite heing told how smart I am. I am going to watch this video over and over again let the information solidify in my mind. Could you *please* do a video on how to actually organize yourself with a schedule to create routine? Everything is so messy, cluttered and chaotic, inside and out, without organization. It's overwhelming.

Yes! You nailed it! Thank you!!❤️

This is totally me. Thank you for putting words to it.

This insightful video sheds light on how childhood trauma can manifest as procrastination, a crucial revelation for personal development. 👏 Embracing small, consistent actions can effectively break this cycle, enhancing personal productivity.

Thank you so much. I really needed this today.

I just came across your channel, you are heaven sent.

Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for these videos.

Thank you so much for doing what you do!

I really enjoy all of your videos! I like your voice and style. You should be proud of yourself. You help me to do just that. Keep up with your passion.

Anna, your videos are changing my life. Thank you.

This is such an important topic. Thank you for delving into crashing and reminding us of the importance of routine!

You're an inspiration Anna. I have this summer to come up with an at home business and it's hard because of procrastination. I feel like such a lazy bum. This video really explains it. I gotta do the work plain and simple. Thank you❤

I have CCF videos in the "watch later" list. That's how hard I procrastinate. 😅

Well, thank you. I really really needed hear this. You just described so much of what I’ve been going through for the last few years now I understand why. It’s also very helpful just to listen to other comments. Thank you so much.

I can really relate to Jacob! Big hugs Jacob.❤

Thank you for this. It's all so true.

💯🔥💯🏆😎🥰🥰 You're AWESOME! Thank God for you and your work!! It's really important to do what and be who you're supposed to be!!! You're lovely and we're lucky to have you here with us, even after and during your healing!!! The world needs you and we're glad to have you!! 😁

Glad to have found this as I've noticed since having Long Covid Vaxx( but not entirely z) increased procrastinating! Helping me figure it out and gently start..blessings

Happy Mother’s day 🙏🏼🧿💕

You described my life right now❤

Thank you for sharing, it’s so helpful.

Thank you for Sharing your personal Testimony ! I Believe it Helps others So Very much !!

What an inspirational video! Thank you so much for creating and sharing this❤

Makes sense as to why I could not get myself together to complete my final project.

Thank you.

From Madrid ( Spain) You are a live savior. Uso mi idioma : entre lágrimas: Gracias.

Thank you so much for your RU-vid. I found you through a recommendation from Sober Mind. You are helping me a lot. Thank you!

You reakky have such great incite and are to give examples rhat are so reai. So accurate.

This is really good, thank you.

This was awesome. I made changes to stop hard crashing. I can actually see the signs now and do more self care. In my situation I was a workaholic for years but no more!

Anna you hit the nail on the head for me I actually know you from years ago with the international call meditation. I've used resentment fear strategy for years and struggling with regulation. To top things off I've been in a 30 year marriage to a man on the narcissistic spectrum.I was in a deep dark cave. Your work has helped me in practical ways to live LIFE. Thank you so much. Im working on digging myself out...... to find another place to live, study for a major exam that will enable me to return to the work force and be financially sober and self sufficent. So at least 3 times a day I say IT is Hard. and I AM WORTH IT. I deserve to flourish prosper and thrive❤