His Mormon Father with Schizophrenia Claimed to Be New Messiah (Wrote 2242 Page Scripture)

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An ex-Muslim man converts his entire family to Mormonism when missionaries knock on his door. His stroke of genius combined with schizophrenia and tendency towards extreme pun*shments and every type of ab*se, created a cult-like environment for his chiIdren. He created his own religion and wrote a 2422 page manuscript of his own holy text. We take a look at his mindset and life through the lens of his son Adrian. Adding further clarification and commentary on generational trauma, Sami, Adrian’s daughter, joins us.
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Chapter Marks
00:01:30 Intro
00:03:50 Adrian's father's chiIdhood in India and transition to America
00:12:23 Effraim's mental illness impact
00:14:52 Adrian's traum*tic chiIdhood dynamics
00:22:07 Adrian's guilt and shame and its breeding ground for Mormonism
00:23:34 Growing up with dr*gs in the home
00:27:15 How boys and girls were treated differently TW: CSA
00:30:46 Converting to Mormonism
00:35:17 How things changed in Adrian's household after converting
00:38:02 Justifying Mormon beliefs
00:42:17 Adrian's father becomes a prophet
00:45:12 What Effraim's Book of the Priesthood of God contains
00:52:59 The Table of Contents
00:55:40 Is Effraim's Book historically accurate?
00:57:33 Effraim becoming God
00:59:21 TW: Su*cide ideation
01:06:14 TW: thoughts of m*rder. Adrian standing up to his father's ab*se
01:04:58 Adrian's relationship with his mom during all everything happening with his father
01:09:57 Sami's chiIdhood and the impact of Mormonism
01:22:01 Leaving Mormonism and becoming authentic
01:26:11 What happened with Adrian's father?
01:31:54 Linda, listen
01:34:10 Outro
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@aileenludlow275 Месяц назад

I love that he takes responsibility for how he abused his daughter and gives her space to talk to him about it. That is such an amazing healing gift that most children never get.

@aurorawolfe6060 Месяц назад

that's very important that he's doing that for her. it's dehumanizing and gaslighting when you confront someone who abused you (esp a parent) when they flat out deny the things they did to you.

@HellsFurby Месяц назад

It was nice to see, I’m happy for her. I agree most never will get that, I know I won’t personally, ever. And I have vowed to never be that type of parent if I ever became one. Beautiful moment really! 😊

@HellsFurby Месяц назад

@@aurorawolfe6060preach it, even when you’re an adult and mistreat you in front of others known or strangers and will take zero accountability and just light you on fire with their words and it’s so detrimental to people. I understand why so many go no contact that are able to.

@Aelffwynn Месяц назад

Just goes to show mental illness doesn't mean the person is always going to be impossible to deal with. Sometimes a "normal" person who's too stubborn to question their perception is more harmful than a "weird" person who's willing to hear they might be wrong.

@TheCakeIsALie-1 Месяц назад

I grew up with a father who believed he was possessed and an uncle who sometimes believed he was an arch angel. Religion, in our case Catholicism, can make mental health issues harder to treat.

@TheCakeIsALie-1 Месяц назад

Also it's 100% true that people with schitzophrenia or schitzoaffective disorder aren't inherently abusive. They certainly can be, just as we all can be. But like with any other disability, people with these disorders are more likely to be victims than perpetrators of abuse.

@nerysghemor5781 Месяц назад

I'm curious, what does the Catholic Church say about mental illness? I just wonder because I'm a Methodist and both in the left-wing United Methodist Church and in the center-right Global Methodist Church, the clergy are very open about mental illness and encourage people to seek medical help in addition to spiritual health. Which was an absolute godsend for me because in addition to my family's support and having my faith, I knew that getting help for (in my case) my anxiety disorder was important. Honestly I think God works through therapists and people who discover medications, too.

@Luis-zx3ls 4 дня назад

Maybe he should of asked for an exorcism instead

@RazzlyCrunch День назад

@@Luis-zx3lsCatholic Priests would most probably send them to a physician first. Exorcisms are often used as a last resort

@lilasfaves7846 Месяц назад

Grateful for this talk… my dad suffered from ‘paranoid schizophrenia’ now I understand it as post traumatic stress following imprisonment in Poland by nazis in pow camp for 5 years 😢 He was only 18 when he went got caught in Dunkirk. He was obsessive like this with books and books of algebraic writings about planets 🪐 and space. It’s left its mark on me and my kids now getting therapy as I did the opposite (but too much the other way of course)!!! Generational trauma is a real thing and soo heartbreaking ❤️‍🩹

@katwitanruna Месяц назад

Portraying the family as perfect or at least “normal” is common in abusive homes.

@LeahDyson-kq4bd Месяц назад

Every psychologist I follow usually focuses on family and they say a toxic family functions as a cult

@gailcal Месяц назад

This man was obviously a genius. I am surprised he was not successful in becoming a “prophet”. 🤣🤣

@jrr7312 Месяц назад

I have never been a Mormon, but Mormonism has always been so confusing to me. The generational trauma is real and it takes a strong person to break it.

@rachaelmacnair7133 Месяц назад

I am *so appreciative* of all these adult children coming out and letting us know what's up. Absolutely awe inspiring and beautiful ❤

@drmay Месяц назад

7th generation mormon here, breaking the trauma chain

@edsqueenlarene6917 Месяц назад

Just seeing this comment is helpful to me as someone who left 20+ years ago and still struggles. Thank you!

@maroonblue7064 Месяц назад

You would be a wonderful follower of organized religion. You give credit to organized religion for causing generational trauma and not medical/scientific theories on clinical mental illness.

@davidjanbaz7728 Месяц назад

@@maroonblue7064Mormonism is only one religion: NOT all do what Mormonism does.

@brendaestrada1782 Месяц назад

Thank you Shelise for your channel! I was raised in a super poor, abusive, Catholic family but have learned so much about different religions/cults in this world through your youtube channel. Thank you for all you do! Congrats on your baby girl! 💖💋😊🌷🦋🌈🐻

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

Hi! Thank you for your support! 🥰

@LisaFerguson-lw8il Месяц назад

@brendaestrada1782 I'm so sorry you experienced that. I was raised in a warm and loving Catholic family. All my cousins were the same and we loved playing together. My father was so proud of his 4 daughters. He and mom came to all of our school productions, special days and they encouraged us constantly. I loved going to Mass and the hymns were great. We also had very loving grandparents. I knew nothing about parents hurting their children. Even when I went a little wild in my mid-teen years, my parents were patient. My father never laid a hand, in anger, on any of us. When I learnt about the abusive behaviour of parents in other countries, I was shocked. Even worse was finding out that a lot of the abusers were Priests. I'm Irish, so we discussed these issues as a family. Our Priests were very open about that. They encouraged children to come forward to speak to councillors appointed by the local city authorities. I trusted my Priest and he was a family friend. I think many countries had Priests, Bishops and Cardinals who were too removed from the Vatican. They saw themselves as leaders and totally ignored the bad things which were happening in their parishes. Power went to their heads. Your father should not have been around children. Taking out his anger and frustration on children shows what a weak man he was. I hope you find peace and recovery by speaking out. Religious Institutions should never be allowed to rule their members. Parishners are to be guided, not oppressed.

@whitneysawyer483 Месяц назад

Sorry to hear!

@Kreepyb5 Месяц назад

I agree and am a recovering Catholic too. ❤☮️

@katwitanruna Месяц назад

Break the silence. Break the cycle.

@LeahDyson-kq4bd Месяц назад

Don't wanna be funny but when I saw the South Park episode about Joseph Smith my first thought was how do we know he wasn't an undiagnosed schizophrenic

@KraftyKris10 Месяц назад

He was a con man

@Aelffwynn Месяц назад

Yeah he was straight up lying to people and withholding facts. We obviously can't go back in time and read his mind, so maybe he was a con man AND having hallucinations/delusions. But it's more likely he was just a con man.

@derekpmoore 14 дней назад

More likely an epileptic with sleep seizures

@andreafranke8771 Месяц назад

What a wonderful pair! What a lovely father-daughter relationship they have!! Great episode!!

@KylaA5952 Месяц назад

As someone who grew up with a parent with severe schizophrenia, this video brought up a lot of unprocessed trauma. Holy f. I’ve been binge watching for about 6 months and semi-relating to a lot of the guests experiences, and a lot of their stories have helped understand a lot about my own childhood, but this video hit on an entirely different level.

@derekpmoore 14 дней назад

Sounds intense!!

@awesomeblue9841 Месяц назад

Just saw and will be watching today, but I wanted to share how thankful I am to see something like this shared. I have a story of my own with mormonism and mental illness and it means a lot to know that there are others that went through similar experiences

@greg-op2jh Месяц назад

Couldn't agree more. Sending you so much love. ❤

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

Thanks for sharing that!❤️

@michaeltallon7911 Месяц назад

Adrian, Tom. I had no idea you were dealing with something like this when we hung out in high school. I just remember partying and having fun, laughing at your jokes and humor. And I always looked forward to your underground news paper

@cassif19 Месяц назад

I love how Adrian kept pointing out how the same thing can affect people differently, with no fault of their own. Abusers or abusive communities will often point to those that "ended up fine" and say it's one's personal failure that they were scarred

@Aelffwynn Месяц назад

Not only that, but those who "ended up fine" usually have coping mechanisms that are either hidden, or more socially acceptable than the people they're criticizing. And a lot of those coping mechanisms are unconscious and unhealthy.

@MaineCoonMama18 21 день назад

Yes! Also, things like the level of support/ help you receive and whether you have a history of other trauma can have a big impact on how trauma affects someone.

@SleepyGoblinPrincess Месяц назад

I really love the dynamic between father and daughter. It warms my heart to see a dad genuinely care about how they are treating their kids and making changes.

@syliadalth Месяц назад

Facing my child self in her suffering, and telling her "I am here for you, I protect you, I love you" really helped me let go of that suffering, at least partially.

@appledpickle Месяц назад

Oh man, the unclear expectations trauma really hit me. That's exactly how my house was. If we did something wrong we got verbally and/or physically abused but we never knew what exactly we had done wrong or if it would get the same reaction each time. It was terrifying.

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

I’m so sorry you went through that

@denisepace3229 Месяц назад

Same *hugs* ❤

@TibiSum Месяц назад

I'm glad to see the abuse involved with the coffee incident labelled for what it is, by the person who enacted it. It is abuse. Admitting so is the only way to address it. Connection and repair are the opposing forces to abuse and these can't be there until light is shone on the fact that abuse was there and each individual is responsible for abusing someone, even if we have been raised in a terrifying home. Even if we live with severe mental health impairments (as I do). I speak as a person who grew up in daily terror in my own childhood home, dominated by two traumatized parents who lived with significant, untreated, mental illness. My home was unsafe, always. I grew up to be a bit toxic. Not as inherent personality pathology, more like "fleas", where my behavior was shaped by what I knew, not what is healthy and helpful. The best way not to be our own parents is not to never make their mistakes, rather to see our own mistakes and grow from there, making repairs with our loved ones as we do. I am no longer toxic, just a regular adult who makes mistakes and works on their crap. Change can happen, but only if the person wants to change and only if they admit hard things about themselves, to themselves. I live with two mental health DX that are portrayed as dangerous in media and I'm as gentle as anyone can be. I'm a safe adult for a lot of young people and I'm a loving and helpful partner. A lot of my generation (Gen X) are trying to break the cycle. And we can. The cycle can be attacked, ripped apart and new growth, post traumatic growth, can happen. Thanks for this. My mother is fully capable of doing something weird like producing a book that is underlined by her scholarship, but twisted by her delusions, with her pion, my father, doing all the boring labor involved. She is Mensa, but also totally incapable of operating in the world. As always with this channel, it is helpful to see that other families can live this way, dominated by ideology and abuse. I don't want that for people, but since it happened, I am always healed a bit by hearing about it. Also, I joined Sami's channel. I want to hear her voice more. Sami, I hope you do anger at the things you experienced. I'm glad your Dad is willing to admit wrong, but that doesn't erase how you felt. I saw that confused and hurt child in your face when the coffee incident was being talked about. That's legit.

@Aelffwynn Месяц назад

I'm sorry that all happened to you. I appreciate what you said about seeing and fixing our mistakes rather than trying to avoid our parents' mistakes. In my experience, some DV/toxic parent survivors have this weird hubris where they think they could never fail as badly as their parents did, and that allows them to continue pretending their own flaws don't exist. Then they hurt people, and the pattern goes on.

@leoak Месяц назад

I lost my kids and entire family for leaving Islam, but will admit this family was dealt worse cards. So happy to see they broke free and still have each other ❤.

@why55555 Месяц назад

It says 204,000 subscribers today. Congratulations! Bless you for all you do. TY.🙏❤️‍🔥🥰🥳

@uncleanunicorn4571 Месяц назад

It's important work, Cults pray on our vulnerabilities and we need to be aware of them.

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

Thank you!!😁🙌

@msdennish8732 Месяц назад

205K today❤

@tamaratamtammorris8151 Месяц назад

Thank you again for a fantastic interview, Shelise. Adrian and Sami were a delightful pair of guests, and their nuanced tackling of the subject of mental illness and religion was a welcome breath of fresh air, given how mental illness and religion often are painted together in a broad/extremist brush. I hope they can come back in the future. There are still so many stories they can share

@maroonblue7064 Месяц назад

The painted brush nuance is refreshing. The guests probably have worked regular jobs and have practice with Separation of Church and State laws. This basically means race, religion, ethnic background, value systems, philosophies aren't discussed. People primarily collab for a common cause to accomplish a mission and get paid money.

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

Glad you liked it! We are going live with them tomorrow!

@annfromma8456 Месяц назад

I think that any religion that is shame and blame based is a religion that needs to be avoided.

@ktamsiin Месяц назад

Thank you Adrian and Sami for sharing and being so insightful and honest about such a difficult topic ❤️

@sandybowers5085 Месяц назад

Every time I watch one of your videos I think “That one is the best!” THIS video hit me with some issues within myself and my family after getting out of our own “Family cult”!!!! Almost 20 years later and we are all so different in how we deconstructed (myself and my children) but are still so close to each other and respect each other’s own journeys❤ From an ex wife of an NPD and IBLP family chaos. I truly resonated with these two guests.

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

❤️🙏

@lisonjacques2139 Месяц назад

So I don’t typically comment on videos much. But I have to say that this has probably been one of my favorites. Absolutely amazing family. ❤

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

Glad you enjoyed it!

@_kmCarter Месяц назад

I won’t get into detail; I just want to say I know EXACTLY what these folks went through. Mormonism exacerbated the mental illness of my male family member. Living subject to his “authority” was hell. I’m still unwinding the experience 30 years later.

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

❤️❤️❤️

@drmay Месяц назад

My friend's dad had an extreme bi-polar episode where he was receiving visions from angels and my sister-in-law also had a bi-polar episode where she was hearing the holy ghost speak to her and she believed she didn't have to eat anymore if she was righteous enough.

@jewelssylva3738 Месяц назад

Thank you Shelise, for giving voice to these people. I attended a nice Christian denominational church. I am resistant to dogma, & am glad I have been able to question & search. I am very moved by the stories of people who are able to get free of abusive cultic faiths.

@pillylamb Месяц назад

Oh yes - the cult of schizophrenia. I have a family member who has created their own reality in this mental disorder. And yes, on some levels their realities are amusing and entertaining but can also be terrifying, destructive and distressing. I kept on thinking of the old curse - « may you live in interesting times. » For sure I can see many, many conversations with this amazing duo. A million thanks again, Shelise.

@rhondahart2416 Месяц назад

This story almost made me ill and reminded me of my childhood when he said they were coached as kids to make everyone think that their life was perfect and his father could be all things to all people, that was my mom's specialty.

@hannahviolette4553 Месяц назад

This is beautiful! My father was schizophrenic and we were raised in a higher demand religion and it has echoed throughout my own life...I see SO much beauty in how this family has evolved. Truly, truly beautiful.

@EricJacobusOfficial Месяц назад

What an amazing episode. I have to admit, I'd love to see that holy book the guest's father wrote. I hope he puts an electronic version up online someday. It would be a fascinating look at modern schizophrenia, alienation, etc. I love hearing Adrian's take on the LDS which is very balanced and nuanced, something that's missing and mirrors my own, limited experience with them. And lastly, his path of learning that he was abusing his children was very powerful. Thanks for yet another great episode.

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

Sami is going to digitize it! We are reading it on a live tomorrow 😁

@EricJacobusOfficial Месяц назад

If you read at 2 minutes per page, at 2000 pages, it'll take you 4000 minutes, or 67 hours. You can make it a 3-day fundraising marathon!

@miak4006 Месяц назад

@@EricJacobusOfficial Girl that would be over 22 hours per day. If there was 3 readers it would still be almost 7.5 hours per reader. Shelise has an infant and I'm sure the guests have busy lives too.

@sarahinacan84 Месяц назад

Btw, I just looked at WorldCat, which is what librarians use to look at which libraries have certain books in their collection. There is a record for Effraim's Book of the Priesthood of God, but it only shows the ones they already told us, Brigham Young, the Library of Congress, and the National Library of Israel. The LOC and BYU actually note in their catalog "prepublication copy", interesting?

@maroonblue7064 Месяц назад

@@sarahinacan84 The 50 raw copies belong in a library or museum. Whoever typed 'prepublication copy', realizes the ergonomics of the current publication would make most people feel like they're lifting weights at the gym.

@rachaelmacnair7133 Месяц назад

Wow how beautiful is it that they can share their healing journey together! Finally watched this and man, what he said at the end about mistakes hit me, personally, and that that fed into his father's illness.... so good, all these interviews are amazing but this one shook me up Thank You!❤

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

❤️ I’m happy to see it was so impactful

@tarrenp4021 Месяц назад

Oh my gosh I think I saw this person post a couple times on tiktok about this! So excited to watch :')

@duerremueller3609 Месяц назад

Wow, this is definitely one of my favorite of your videos! I also had the experience of leaving a high-demand religion as a teen and then my parents followed me and did a lot of healing on their own part soon after.

@liriodendronlasianthus Месяц назад

Absolutely fascinating episode, thank you for sharing your stories and thank you for becoming a better parent.

@Kadillac_Kim Месяц назад

1:07:10 wow. Thank you for sharing this story. This part where you spoke about worrying about having to kill your dad. I've been in that exact place. I was a Jehovah's Witness with a horribly abusive father and I spent my quiet time figuring out how to do it if things came down to it. The abuse didn't stop until I hit back at 17 as well.

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

❤️

@niteshade2271 Месяц назад

I just keep coming back to this channel, thanks again for posting!

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

Glad to hear it! 😁❤️

@afterthestorm221 Месяц назад

The understanding that energy is neither created or destroyed is what shattered my own delusions induced by my parents belief system.

@davidjanbaz7728 Месяц назад

Only within the Material Universe: science can't prove your statement before the Universe started as per the Big bang.

@foffndy666 Месяц назад

Terrance Howard knows why.....😂

@AlexanderofMiletus 2 дня назад

How?

@SarcasticShrubbery Месяц назад

Perhaps I can shed some light on who would buy a book like this. I work at a specialist bookseller that supplies (mostly) academic publications to libraries. The Library of Congress collects pretty much everything published in the US. I'm not even in the US and they collect most of what is published in my country as long as it adheres to certain standards or subjects, too. On top of that, any religious studies department may be interested in this, so BYU and the National Library of Israel do not surprise me in the least. I imagine that any institution of higher learning that has a professor researching something like fringe religions and/or Mormonism would be interested in this, and they tend to get their literature through their institution's library rather than privately. The book may not even be read by anyone, at least not right away, but if it fits the collection development policy it will be added to the holdings and potentially used for research later on. Religious studies isn't my area (I'm on the arts, mostly) but you'd be surprised how valued these types of "fringe" publications are to (research/university) libraries who specialise in the subject! We're constantly scouring our sources for exactly this type of thing in order to be able to offer our client libraries something they may not be able to find elsewhere.

@maroonblue7064 Месяц назад

Around the world if people find lost copies of the book in decades, they will find the literature fascinating, and some may believe as scripture. The family probably has some ideas on where the 15-20 copies were sent and is keeping their mouths shut, which is the smart strategy to follow.

@greg-op2jh Месяц назад

Shelise, thank you for bringing these stories to us. It makes you feel human to know about other people survival stories. Not just what happened but how it looks on the other side. I can't tell you how much healing and growth comes from it. Sending them, you, and your family so much love❤

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing that! I’m so happy to hear it’s helpful

@raydziesinski7165 Месяц назад

Wonderful interview. Painfully won insights from your guests. Thank you.

@viancavarma3455 Месяц назад

Hi! correction; the rest of india is not hindu. India is pluralistic (though less so with our current government) and there are several muslim and christian communities interspersed in almost every city

@batyaswiftyasgur9500 Месяц назад

Thank you, Adrian, for your courage and clarity in coming forward with this extraordinary story. Thank you Sami for participating and for your input, and thanks to Shelise, as always, for your compassionate and astute questions and for having such wonderful people on the show. Growing up with such abuse and being determined not to perpetuate the cycle is remarkable and truly inspiring. I would like to add (as a mental health professional myself) that I think the handling of the subject of mental illness in this was quite sensitive and nuanced. I would also like to add that--while I agree with the decision to legalize marijuana (I don't think that its illegality accomplished anything positive)--there is an increasing body of research linking psychosis to cannabis (called "cannabis-induced psychosis"). Based on what I've learned from colleagues who are psychiatrists, more and more people are turning up in psychiatric emergency rooms with severe psychosis tied to the impact of cannabis. So I wonder how much the excessive and casual use of drugs that Adrian's father engaged in (and Adrian too, as a child and youngster) played a role in the mental illness. Obviously, that doesn't mean that everyone who uses cannabis will develop mental illness. For some people, it can be very beneficial. But it is an increasingly common phenomenon and unfortunately, not well known enough.

@oliveoilchic Месяц назад

I looked it up and that book weighs approximately 15 lbs

@lotion_laura Месяц назад

That book is massive!

@helenr4300 Месяц назад

So appreciate your clarity re mental health. This story is where high demand religion and mental illness collide, and the impact of both on the lives of those involved.

@graysonspaw8661 Месяц назад

The comments made about childhood around the hour mark are almost universal to trauma. I didn't have problems socially as a child until I was older. I seemed happy as a child because I was able to keep my misery and abuse at home. I started middle school in a small town a few minutes from where I grew up. I couldn't pick up on social cues and suffered. When I suffered at school, I was losing a grip on hiding the abuse I suffered. That's when my mental illness and pain was made aware to other people.

@tianna1116 Месяц назад

Ok wow I have SO MANY thoughts. I’ve never heard my own story, specifically my father’s personality, explained so well. I never thought my dad could be schizophrenic but now I’m seriously considering that possibility. Everything described here perfectly applies to my dad too, down to every detail. It’s blowing my mind actually

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

🫢

@Maguire708Julie Месяц назад

Never expected Doctor Who here!

@syliadalth Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing, thank you Shelise for being such an advocate for the voiceless ❤

@kaysharogers32 Месяц назад

Fascinating episode! I want to hear more from them!

@bethlovelace7395 Месяц назад

Holy cow. I watched all of your videos and I keep thinking how relatable things are, but this story...omg the abusive neglect, drugs, mormonism.

@sodonnamounts126 Месяц назад

Love your channel. I have learned so much since watching your channel. Thank you for all you do to bring to light the characteristics and dangers of cults. ❤

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

You are so welcome! Thanks for watching!

@katmur7136 Месяц назад

Another great interview! Thank you both for sharing your story. Would love a follow up with the daughter and how she got out first. ( Shelise, you are radiant and somehow managed to keep that on track, brava!) Other folks in the comments talking about how religion ignores mental illness is also an interesting topic. Many just want a happy face.

@cj2507 Месяц назад

Such a beautiful telling of your story. Such a wonderful relationship you both have with one another. Thank you for sharing it. 💎🦋🕊️🎁

@elisa-beary Месяц назад

HAPPY 200K🎉🥳🎉 beyond well deserved & I can’t wait to see the channel continue to grow & people continuing to get an opportunity to share their stories & protect other people from getting involved or open their eyes to getting out. 💜

@ane-louisestampe7939 Месяц назад

Definately one of your most interesting interviews!

@dawnhughes9942 Месяц назад

My father believed he was the son of Jesus and he tried to start his own cult. Even changed his name to Star "of" Jesus. Can't wait to watch this episode. Thanks!

@DustinHawke 13 дней назад

How's Grandpa Jesus doing? Tell him to hit me up, he's been avoiding me for ages.

@ChristinaCohen-bz5ig Месяц назад

the father basically copied the Baha’i religion - his son and granddaughter should check it out.

@redfraggle525 Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing your journey.

@cmacbybs4748 Месяц назад

I needed to see and hear this in my life. Thank you

@RobertaReal7980 Месяц назад

I can't imagine having to grow up with a self medicating schizophrenic. My heart goes out to you ❤

@elizabethgeyer-green9910 Месяц назад

Thankyou so very much. Absolutely fascinating 🙏🙏🙏

@rmj4978 Месяц назад

Loved this duo!!❤ Wonderful people! I could listen to them all day! That book is massive…

@everlynhoughton1230 Месяц назад

Loved this story, fascinating, and thank you for sharing.

@TirraOmilade 12 дней назад

Bless you, Adrian. I pray you continue to heal and live a life of peace and self-actualization. Big hugs and healing to you, also, Sami. Thank you both for sharing this deep story.

@TirraOmilade 12 дней назад

Bless your daughters for helping you. You all are definitely healing generational trauma.

@soude85 Месяц назад

Thank you both for sharing your story!💐 It was very thought provoking and opened up some buried memories from my own childhood…🤔

@jamesmorgan1967 Месяц назад

This story would make a good book/documentary. Fascinating.

@sugoruyo Месяц назад

I guess there's already a pretty big book...

@fionafiona1146 Месяц назад

13:00 actually the genetic risk of Schizophrenia seems to be moderated by "adverse life events" (like the violent upbringing, sexual abuse, extreme stress allredy mentioned) There is great data from Australia and Scandinavia, if you want to have some hope for your possible kids avoiding such psychological outcomes

@arnicepernice8656 Месяц назад

It is not hereditary but they have a predisposition ❤

@fionafiona1146 Месяц назад

@@arnicepernice8656 yes , people who have a low trauma life can brake that cycle too

@Ikine557 Месяц назад

This episode was very helpful for me. I'm going through my own journey of figuring out how to have a relationship with someone who hurt me, and this interview really gave me some clarity on that. Thank you both for sharing your story.

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

❤️🙏

@Ikine557 Месяц назад

@@CultstoConsciousness I want you to know that this podcast gave me the strength to handle that relationship (without going into details) just hours after leaving that first comment. I got so much clarity from watching it, this episode truly changed my life. Or at least my life right now. So thank you.

@sadiemae6854 Месяц назад

I love their vibe. Instantly subscribed to Sami's channel and can't wait to hear her deep dives into the book.

@jewelssylva3738 Месяц назад

My mental illness, Thank God, was not involving family or religion. I was abused by a health provider who convinced my mother that I needed to be treated in private with him because I was "more anxious" with my mother present. The abuse lasted over 5 or 6 years, about once a month.

@stephanieallangarman5598 29 дней назад

His ETERNITY will INCLUDE HIM being SA’d constantly and in separation of GOD. Just know that will happen. We All REAP what we SOW. 🤍🙏🏽

@avantgauche Месяц назад

I love thew understanding you have for teacher and the compassion you have

@tammiekelly1906 28 дней назад

Adrian rang a bell for me when he talks about shaming his daughter when she drank coffee. I applaud you for sharing your story.

@saartjeart 19 дней назад

I am always glad I listen to your interviews because there is so much to learn, but this one is different. This is the first time I have ever heard a pretty much mirror image of my own youth and my father (not schizo, but the rest is spot on). I have always been gaslight or gaslighting myself that it wasn't like that and it took me years to tell myself, no, this was real. It helps to know other people had similar situations!! Thank you Shelise, Sami and Adrian!

@bendyrland7213 Месяц назад

Interesting conversation. Thank you very much

@sweet_creature7799 Месяц назад

Hi Shelise! Have you ever discussed Quakers on your channel? Thanks!

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

Not yet!

@sweet_creature7799 Месяц назад

@@CultstoConsciousness Oooh! 👀

@TirraOmilade 12 дней назад

How brave you were at age 17 to stand up to your dad. Bless your entire family. May you all heal and have deep inner peace.

@kikiu1062 Месяц назад

The dads ted talk material 💫

@lostdutchman3838 Месяц назад

Best episode ever!

@katwitanruna Месяц назад

Went over and subscribed!

@arnicepernice8656 Месяц назад

Cannabis and schizophrenia… known to trigger . It is also un explored/ unexplained situation that even people who have never set foot inside a church /christian belief when they are psychotic they think they are the messiah , are walking on water, it is odd why the mind goes to this place. I find this really curious.

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

So interesting!

@arnicepernice8656 Месяц назад

@@CultstoConsciousness I was booked to hear a lady psychiatrist of Muslim upbringing about this phenomen. Sadly my husband of 30 yrs had a psychotic episode and I have been trying to learn as much as possible. Someone who I knew for all those years became someone I didn't know! Also I dont think mental illness is hereditary it is predisposed? Another topic! Anyhow now over 200 k subscribers. Well done both of you! I guess all three now x

@sugoruyo Месяц назад

This is likely a result of the prevalence of the Christian (or other Abrahamic) narrative in our cultures even if one is not themselves religious. What I mean is that we, as societies, have acquired a belief in one powerful character who will arrive to save us from ourselves and will be so powerful he (it’s pretty much always a he) be able to actually do it. So we look for charismatic politicians or fantasize about superheroes or just plain hero types like some cop or soldier or something. The so-called Western cultures have been getting increasingly individualistic, further reinforcing such notions. Regardless of one’s own belief or lack thereof, we are all aware of the trope. In fact, these days, there is such a large gap between in the attention and validation that some people receive vs. everybody else that it doesn’t much for someone to subconsciously conclude they’re only worth anything if they can be some type of worshipped figure. And we all want to feel we’re worth something.

@arnicepernice8656 Месяц назад

@@sugoruyo thank you. That is really helpful and informative.I appreciate you taking the time to write this.

@TirraOmilade 12 дней назад

Adrian and Sami, look at you giving your father an audience. May his soul rest in peace. I feel for him having mental illness so badly and being raised up in abuse himself.

@graceyoung3771 Месяц назад

Interesting, raw, and relatable story. Ive always found it Interesting that squizoprinics will oftentimes obsess on religious ideations. Thank you for sharing and growing.

@wendychavez5348 11 дней назад

Thank you for your clarification. I have mental illness (es), as do other members of my family, and at least two family members share the illness that Sami & Adrian's ancestor had. It's an empirical point that cult leaders often have some form of mental disruption, as do most human beings who have lived in the world. Some of us have an easier time coping with our particular mental cocktail. Thank you, Sami and Adrian, for trusting us with your stories!

@clifb.3521 Месяц назад

Putting the “mess” in Messiah

@shirleytrenche7852 Месяц назад

And I oop 😂

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

😂

@BimbleThrooLife Месяц назад

There's no messiah in here.... there's a mess alright but no messiah 😂

@sharkie-boo Месяц назад

woah this sounds so interesting. A lot of layers

@pamelot9158 Месяц назад

Amazing..... thank you for sharing.

@silktish Месяц назад

I think the think I appreciate most from this video is his aknowledgement that he did make mistakes with his own children and has since sought to rectify those mistakes. I made mistakes with my own kids and I will tell you, i am a far better parent now than i was with my oldest. Overall, this was a highly relevant video for me for multiple reasons. The bravery your guests have in coming out and talking about the hard things openly is absolutely amazing. Thanks again, Shelise!

@nerysghemor5781 Месяц назад

Man...I can't imagine what it would be like to see your father go through that sort of severe mental illness and know it's something that could happen to you. And then it does. I am very glad that he has a good support system in place to have treatment and deal with episodes as they come.

@johngerrard6269 Месяц назад

that book is still an amazing achievement

@CoronaryArteryDisease. Месяц назад

I am sorry your father went through those challenges, and I am sorry you had to deal with it.

@xonlyxjojox Месяц назад

Its interesting that his father’s upbringing was very strict, because i remember my mom saying that before the islamic revolution in Iran, everyone in the Middle East were very liberal and not strict Muslims. But after the revolution, the effect somehow trickled down and affected the whole ME by becoming hella strict. But seriously, thank you Sami and Adrian for sharing ur story. I wish u all the healing and happiness u guys deserve🙏🏻 ..

@CultstoConsciousness Месяц назад

Thanks for sharing!

@maroonblue7064 Месяц назад

Liberal because the society was cutoff, and no comparisons were possible. Venezuela and Afghanistan were chill places with organized governments in the 60's and 70's and even more so compared to the status of today's Venezuela and Afghanistan. One nation is in South America and the other is considered South Asian, not Middle Eastern.

@user-saraswatidevi Месяц назад

I heard about this on Instagram and was fascinated by it Thanks so much for this

@SallyImpossible Месяц назад

Thank you this was interesting.

@lotion_laura Месяц назад

Great video! Very interesting. TFS. 🙂

@freddenker9537 Месяц назад

The US grandma with the pink hair, Kat Kerr flies every week to God who sits in a gelatin cube, Kat can also scare away typhoons, and people believe her grandma and make her rich... the madness is limitless...

@elisa-beary Месяц назад

Makes sense that things got work as untreated mental health issues get worse the longer they’re left untreated. Also, marijuana can exacerbate schizophrenia, very severely in many cases. I’m working towards my masters in mental health counseling & in my trauma course we talked a lot about how there’s the traumatic event & then people’s response to it which is heavily affected by everything that happens right after (community, therapy, support, being believed, etc) so when he talks about his sister having such a diff reaction it makes sense. I always think of something like a natural disaster- a ton of ppl experience that traumatic event & their reactions will be vastly different. This is such a multifaceted story. I wish your whole family continued healing & peace.💜🩷💜