I Found an Interview with MORMON ME (My Reaction) 

Good for her, I’d do that same

She should have bought his new honey a beer and given her a few tips on the care and feeding of her ex-husband. She might have turned it into a consulting business.

tell her that the people support her decision for me, lol- i would’ve done the same, probably worse😭 i’m always runnin my mouth LMAO

I had two young women Mormons knock on my door when I was in my early twenties. I invited them in and was shocked when they came in without knowing me. They ended up coming back over and over until I threatened to call the cops. I stumbled on this video...but explained alot about my experience.

Everyone should have to record themselves articulating their most deeply held conviction at 18-20. And watch again in 15 years

It’s like with every word I’m walking on egg shells. So weird to watch me self-edit in real time to seem/be as faithful as possible.

I was shocked at the difference between my drivers license pic of all things being in/out. 😂 You genuinely see how much happier I am (even at the DMV) even though I’m smiling in both. Just found your channel & appreciate your courage and voice!

Came here to say the same thing. She is so much happier now.

You're so much more authentic and happy now!

Truth!✌️💜

I know, it's got me thinking of an alternate timeline where she never breaks free from the matrix 😲 it's jarring, really

I thought it was AI at first before I registered what was going on 😭

@@iambored678i can’t imagine how many people would be stuck still in the church after “loosing their testimony” and suffering if Alyssa didn’t have the power to not only leave, but write about it so eloquently ❤

She looks soulless

I was still for like 20 seconds

I was raised in the cult end of protestant christianity. as an adult, i am horrified. but i was indoctrinated from birth and knew no different. when it is literally all you know, it doesn’t seem that bizarre. you look back as an adult and your mind just explodes at what you believed.

They start teaching you the songs as soon as you can speak, and they do their best to restrict your social circle to other members. Pre-internet it was much more effective, but I guess it still works.

Watching an interview with someone who was deprogrammed by basically the top cult deprogrammer. She has said he told her, even he could be brainwashed in the right circumstances. The people who think they're immune are probably more likely to be vulnerable

Yep happened to me never thought it would but When you’re vounrable you can Get stuck inn

Not even just that, i found myself almost in a Korean doomsday cult bc they were under the guise of a normal bible study. Like it’s easier than you’d expect

I love this energy for you 💛

That is such a beautiful act of friendship I’m sure she appreciated it dearly!

That is the true love of Christ when you actually care about someone not just about “converting.”

this is the cutest thing ive ever read!

@SENSEF - The weight of all that guilt for being such "a bad person" and responsibility to be "a good person" in the eyes of god and in my own eyes dragged me down. I am now weight-free and it feels wonderful!

Being raised in a conservative, protected home environment leaves these young adults incredibly vulnerable. They don't know what they don't know. And, they potentially could walk straight into a risky situation and not even recognize it for what it is. Scary.

Sounds like the military.

@@nadineevans5195 that is literally the dumbest thing ive ever heard. fun fact but should not expose your kids to messed up stuff to try and toughen them up for the "real world" if you dont see a value in raising your kids in a protected home environment youre a literal child abuser. you raise them protected while educating them so they dont walk into sketchy situations

how does it feel like missing the point so hard@@realyopikechannel

@@lynnefox4892Maybe, but at least the military actually trains and arms you to deal with the dangerous situation.

That's actually super cool 😮wow

I went to an all women's Catholic college. I'm not sure the general public realizes what bad@sses certain groups of Catholic nuns are. Mine were Benedictines, and being an emerging adult surrounded by strong, powerful women was good, too. I realize that for generations, Catholic nuns inflicted serious physical and psychological abuse on children and, in some cases, entire cultures. But I thank God for my strong, powerful women!

Some cool Nuns you got to have in you school!

My mother had a similar experience. She ended up graduating near the top of her paratrooping class (in 1970--in El Salvador!). A certain kind of late-second-wave feminist would decry religious sisters as brainwashed tools of the patriarchy. My mother always responded that they were among the strongest women she'd ever known!

Recently stayed at a Teappist Monastery- no self defense classes (lol) but still came away completely in love with those nuns!

I was around 12 when my mum let JW in, i was sucked into it and I remember begging her to get me baptised. Thankfully speaking with kids in my school at the time made me a bit more sceptical

Your voice was fundy baby

Funny story about the JW. I was house and cat sitting for my parents who were out of town. The house, in a neighborhood outside of city limits, was soon to be out on the market for sale so I always answered the door just in case it was something to do with getting it on the market when they got back in town. Anyhow I'm taking a soak in the Jacuzzi bathtub around 5:30pm after a long day at work. The doorbell rings so I hopped out of the tub as quick as I could, wrapped a towel around me, and answered the door. It was JWs going door to door. The 2 adult ladies could clearly tell I wasn't in any position to chit chat, plus I told them I was in the middle of a relaxing bath. They kept me for nearly 35 minutes and wouldn't take no for an answer and when I said I was Catholic (not completely true since I'm only baptized but not practicing) and not looking to convert they questioned why I was Catholic, why I agreed with Catholicism when it had shortcomings, and just doubled down on their pitch. Those girls were persistent! I finally had to say "No offense but I need to go. [closed front door politely on them and lock it]."

Unrelated but I loved the game your pfp is from as a kid, I don't remember the name though

@@Avi-qn1sm it’s from the neverhood! i love it too haha

Wow. Awful! And the victim blaming question is awful too. Or maybe it was based on fear.

That’s awful!!! Those poor girls :( how dare people ask that

​@@JuliaGulia310victim blaming is always based in fear. Non-predators who blame victims are acting out of fear that the same thing could happen to them. By finding something the victim did "wrong," they think they (or their loved ones) are protected from it.

Holy cow! Reprehensible

Oh how sad..... 😔

Same, sweets 💛

Wow I do that :( still so many times I’m so misinterpreted

Lol

Utah is a MISSION FIELD

I hope things get better for you ♥️

@@awkwardotter13 thanks... I still have issues however. We would get robbed frequently at night while we were sleeping, where people would remove our roofs and steal things while we slept. This has left me with extreme night terrors where I will lash out and attack people in my sleep. It makes things difficult. I'm taking every day slowly! 🥰

​@@lifeisbeautiful3954 Take care to remind yourself as best you can that you're not the problem, the backwards ideas of others is the problem. You'll never satisfy people whose expectations exist completely outside the realm of logic, whether that's because of their interpretation of God or a million other reasons people close their minds off with hate. Good luck on your new life.

Find a therapist that is not faith based it should help ❤

Must have been so awful, really no excuse for a multi billion dollar church to have its missionaries (aka salespeople) living in dangerous or conditions that they can barely afford food or have no water or power. Disgusting

Her eyes are now glazed which is an indication of demons

@@thepreacher5934 bahahahahaha

I noticed that too ! She looked void, now she has a sparkle in her eyes.

It might also be the make up...

I totally agree that she looks and talks much more light-hearted now! However, the colours and type of makeup she is wearing now is complimenting her eyes, skin and hair very very well :D This definitely has an impact too :)

Sounds like a horror movie. "Invasion of the Soul Snatchers"

I mean... Do it make any difference? Its ok if my child read Harry Potter, but I do not want my child to read from Lord of the Rings.

@zhoupact8567 It does if a parent says we will be reading Harry Potter and then knowing your feelings on the issue has your child read Lord of the Rings out load to the group. She lied to me regarding an 8-9 year old little girl. She was trying to indoctrinate her. This is standard procedure and considered godly by the LDS Church.

@@StandedInUtah I dunno. At that point I feel like its the parent being a bit silly. As someone who was not allowed to watch Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings, I think I would side with the person letting the child enjoy reading the books or watching the movie in this particular case... With the context that the child wanted to watch it anyway. I get that its slightly different in your case. Indoctrination is more serious and a bigger deal. However as someone looking in from outside reigious stuff all together though. I am not sure how much of a difference it really makes whenever its a book of mormon or a bible. Is it better if its the parent's preferred flavour of indoctrination of a child? Perhaps it is, but you know. Obviously for me, and probably if it was anyone else from outside christianity, making a 8-9 year old child read the bible also sounds like an attempt at indoctrination, right? And there are probably fair bits of the bible that can be said to be not suitable for children to read at all. God having children mauled to death by bears for finding a person's look funny enough to laugh comes to mind. (You better do as the priest says or god may get angry! 'Creepy laugh.') I dunno. Its not as if its something I care massively about. If nothing else, reading the bible is at least culturally relevant and I can not deny that, living in a reality where somehow a large portion of the population actually believe in magical stuff like that. Its probably not bad to learn what is in the book. I just presume you think christianity, jesus is like, the difference between someone burning in a hell forever, or going to that weird heaven place right? So say that it was my child, who I raise to not be exposed to christianity at all. Or say I was muslim, hindu, norse and raised my child that way. Would you look at it as equally terrible for someone to try to slip my child what you deem to be the secret, they key the lifeline to avoid hell? Presuming religious people truly believe the stuff they are into. Would not trying to 'indoctrinate' someone, even a child. And even against the parents wishes, be a terrible thing to do. Worse than if you caught the parent molesting their child, but they tell you they do not want you to do anything about it. Although I think it is all silly, I can understand why religious people would do stuff like that. And if they where not based in something... ?superstitious? but rather something real. I guess I would side with their action probably being the right one. Between upsetting/going against a parent, and saving a soul. The difference there in values is night and day right?

​@@zhoupact8567 imagine someone forcing your child to read a book you don't believe in

I LOVE that you answered since you are a linguist. I mentioned in a different comment that Dr. Steven Hassan, a cult expert, talks about the use of these vocal and speech techniques in various parts of the recruitment and indoctrination practices of high control groups. The science behind it is really fascinating.

Your voice doesn't sound much higher to me, but it does sound more "breathy" which is strongly coded as feminine. Trans women learn to do this to achieve a voice congruent with their presentation

i’ve also heard ex religious members, specifically women, talk about their experience with this. they call it the “baby fundie voice” and essentially describe it as a voice consciously or subconsciously adopted to better fit what’s expected of a woman in most religions, gentle, docile, subservient and motherly. (i just got to the part where she talks about exactly this. sorry for scrolling into comments so early 💀💀)

@@abakers1374 fundies take it a step further. Transwomen do it to sound more feminine. Fundies do it to sound more childlike (and feminine)

This is a super interesting topic, I wonder if this also works with different languages (I know it's not the topic here, but I was thinking how I and other people that I know have different voices when speaking in different languages)...

The training is just so wildly oblivious, it’s like they don’t get that it’s really not safe for two women missionaries to go knocking on anyone’s door, and they also don’t get how scary it can be to have two male missionaries be pushy. Such an awful practice all around

Exactly. The reverse situation is statistically even more dangerous. Two female missionaries go around knocking on doors every day. How likely it is they'll knock on that one wrong door of a predator for example. Oh, you two want to talk to me about the gospel of Jesus Christ and the Book of Mormon? Well, come on in....

That's sad. A few years back, I remember getting approached by 2 females doing the same thing but I was going home from my high school after finishing a club activity. They also did the same to a classmate of mine who was in the same club as me. I would have slammed the door into his foot anyway while saying try me if he is ignoring it, just to prove a point.

Never open door if it's a stranger.

I would've told him if you wanna meet God I can arrange that but if not get your foot out of my door.

Yes, I grew up LDS and I call it Mormon speak. It's strong in them. You can definitely pull them out.

You wouldn’t be able to tell with me, sorry. Not all of us use this voice. Maybe many Utah members do. But since our church is global and there are so many cultures involved, we don’t all sound like that. This is a Utah thing. It’s wild she adopted it. There are probably people out there that feel like they have to adopt it to fit in, but so many of us do not use this.

@kjeracarroll450 its not just the sound, its also the words you use. I grew up mormon i can always pick out a mormon.

I'd swear there are cult eyes too. Some sorta, idk...distant, sorta vacant and glazed look in the eyes, hard to put my finger on. The leader of Heavens Gate is a prime example but most people aren't that extreme in the look.

unfortunately i feel like i still have a mormon voice because i speak very low and timid and careful and slow but you can certainly tell quickly i'm not mormon by what i'm saying lol

I'm so glad that I wasn't pressured into serving a mission. I feel like I was in the same boat as you. I really believe my brothers were brainwashed more severely because of their missions. I got out pretty young because I wasn't forced into that.

It’s great that you’re out of this Mormon cult but I hope you’ve not lost your love for God and Jesus Christ ❤

Sounds like PTSD. I am so sad for your experience and wish you brighter days ahead. ❤

I am so sorry.

Woah! Where were you serving? I've been living in Argentina for almost 30 years and have even voluteered in shanty towns (villas miseria) and I don't see Argentina as being as dangerous but idk

@@euge7569 I lived in Mar del Plata, Bahia Blanca, and places like that. The best place I lived was easily Tandil. I would probably live there now tbh. Most argentine people are awesome (if not really blunt lol) but when you're being shoved into enough ghettos and shanty towns dressed like a wealthy american in a white shirt and tie, you tend to have things happen to you. One guy in my mission even got stabbed in the liver. We were robbed a lot. And since we weren't allowed to carry any weapons or even walking sticks, I got creative and turned my scriptures into a weapon that I used to fend off wild dogs and thieves. One time I was helping an older woman carry her groceries to her house in Mar del Plata and a drug addict tried to attack us with a big knife. I had to protect us with my scriptures lol. The church also refused to let us go to the hospital and it was common to get dysentary and other illnesses

@@euge7569 In hindsight I would've done a lot of things differently to protect myself and my missionary companions, but you aren't really thinking as much when you're only 19 years old

Where did you serve your mission?

I’m so happy to hear it. The journey is long 🤍

It’s mainly her eye makeup.

It’s also confusing that the Mormon church places baptizing new members above the safety of its missionaries - because what good does it do to risk the lives of your members? They’d only be trying to convert amongst the least likely to join - at the risk oflosing a devout member. 😵‍💫

@@jenniferlynn3537 Everyone loves a martyr. Nothing confusing about that, very horrifying though.

@@jenniferlynn3537yes, but if one missionary makes even 2-3 converts, the church makes more money, even if the missionary leaves

Liar.

Oh honey. I’m not a Mormon but I am a Christian and I’ve been 16 before. Two things I know to be true: (1) most decisions are easier when you give yourself breathing room and (2) all decisions feel urgent when you’re 16! Remember that you don’t have to make any moves today, tomorrow, or even next year. Take your time, go to school, do your homework, hang out with your friends, pray if you’re comfortable with it (heck, maybe even if you’re not!), and try to extend grace to yourself and your family… not because your struggles aren’t important, but because they are so very important that you can’t rush to a resolution. Basically, be gentle with yourself and you’ll figure it all out. When and if it’s time to leave, you’ll know. You’ve got this ❤️

ew.

How gross. Doesn’t he know the official response is it’s never too late for anyone?

Wow, what a guy 😢

😳 that’s insane!

My family is Methodist.

That's pretty funny 😊

I'm from Kansas... ya'll have missions to Kansas?! 😂😂😂

@@SmolTrailer surprisingly yes, lol I was Spanish speaking too

Enjoy the ride! 🏳️‍⚧️😊

@@mariesabine2385 oh yeah! The ride to PRIDE! (Next week… because yeah, it’s almost June, & that’s, that’s where all the queers & ally’s are.. at PRIDE 👀)

Holy crap dude. That's crazy. It's amazing you're okay. With all that happening I think I'd have decided god was forcefully telling me he didn't want me there after all and I'd go home.

I went to something similar to that when I was in the Peace Corps. I was one of the first groups that went out and they didn’t realize asking us to live like the natives people. Ha ha was making us very very sick. We were with we lived without any utilities you had to go out and get your own water, and there was no sanitation of any kind And we were 12,000 feet up in the mountains so there was very very little food that we could get. I went from 130 pounds to 92 pounds and I was seven months pregnant when I weighed the 92 pounds I had gotten in Amiba while I was there that was causing me to opt check at least five times a day, but I will say the people were very kind to us. I was not fearful for my life.

So wrong on all accounts! Surprised to hear how horrendous the circumstances were for many of you.

Nicaragua?

@@SmolTrailer yep

YES!!

Excellent point!!

This is what I’ve always believed. Missions are only partly about conversion but more importantly solidifying the us versus them mentality through fear and isolation

And if nothing bad actually happens, those close calls and seemingly dangerous situations are interesting missionary stories you can tell after.

Ohhh you're right!! I'm now reconsidering many old interviews and movies...

Your kindness is important.

They’re not allowed to talk to their parents while on missions so it was more than just a way to get you to take the book. He wanted her to know he was okay.

@@bunnylacy2097 So not even on a payphone from the airport, because until they get home, they are still technically on their mission?

Yes. I wonder how many times he did that?

Lol good point! I don't even like to read old emails I've sent at work. I don't think I could have made this video! Maybe the fact that she is so utterly different now helps her disassociate from it.

So my dad spent some time with missionaries at one point in his 20s or 30s after my grandfather converted. That is exactly what he said convinced him not to go through with it. He told me he had a great time and everyone was really nice but when he asked them why he should believe in the book of mormon and Joseph Smith, they said the same thing and he wad like well if it's true, you would have a better answer, so no thank you...

Right??? As everyone’s saying, she obviously looked scared, but she also looked **tired**. Like, exhausted. I was genuinely surprised when she said this was a month after getting back from the mission and not directly after.

Yeah...their confusion and weakness extends into the new generations...enjoy the unaccountable life!

What are the key signs of a brainwashed soldier? How many of those exist vs. the general population of soldiers in your estimation? Like 10% or close to 50%? Do they tend to behave like that only while they are active or does it tend to continue in civilian life?

Let's face it, that one's on make-up. Having coffee is still awesome!

​@@xxx041189xxx makeup doesn't magically add life to your eyes.

She has a lot of highlighter around her eyes, beforehand her hooded eyelids young face combined with her less confident personality gave her eyes a sunken look... she's matured and radiating power now!

That was kind of what I was picking up, but couldn't think of how to describe it. Old her looks like the type of person I would have not gotten along with at all at that age. Like she'd be judging me or waiting to find something to judge me about.

My son wanted to get a Mohawk and to dye it blue. I didn’t use gloves 😭

​@@alyssadgrenfellnice I have a Mohawk but its not blue also im from Colorado!

@@alyssadgrenfellI figured it was something kid related. Sounds awesome

@@jamesbrooks3664 Depending on the shade it will fade to green. I'm sure her sons hair is blue.

If you get bright color hair dye on your skin you need to scrub it asap with whitening toothpaste and a brush. I use splat which is actually based off of fabric dye. It has always worked for me. Even of it doesn't get 100% it get like 90% and it fades off super fast. Also don't use hot water on the hair if you want it to last longer.

I'm very curious about this. I've heard of people converting to Judaism. Is there something in Judaism for that or are those people acting in a more appropriating lane?

Most people who convert either marry into Judaism or they are Jewish by ethnicity or family ancestry and rejoin the religious part of their heritage. So I guess the second one is more of a “home coming” than a conversation. But like most converts have some connection to the faith already.

(At least that’s how conversation was explained to me by my mom when I asked her just now.) I’d never considered it before since everyone in my family is pretty much Jewish.

​@@rogueshadows4664 I'm orthodox which is the most difficult but also most widely accepted community to convert to. If someone wants to convert the have to go to a bais din ( jewish court) which discourages them heavily from converting ( called geirus) the idea is a truly sincere person will return asking to convert 3 times. After this they might ( or might not) be approved to move forward and start adopting religious practices like kosher and shabbos and once they've basically become as religious as orthodox jews the go to the mikva with another bais din and say a bracha on geirus and afterwards are considered as if they were born jewish

Christians and Muslims do it a lot