Like you dont want to be alive but you dont want to die. You just want to stop. Stop existing. Stop everything. Like nothing in the world matters but hey you shouldn't be sad. That's all you're told and so you pretend it's fine and you're ok and the smiles slowly get fake and fake and no one can tell they're fake cause guess what you said you're fine
Its that moment when you just want to die, but you aren't brave enough to finsih it yourself, so you just try to get used to taht feeling and hoping that one day either you'll get the courage to do it yourself, something happens or things get better.
Sometimes I just feel like closing my eyes and never waking up again edit: a lot of people seem to agree with the me from 3 years ago. I still feel like this, unfortunately, but I hope some of you feel better, and I hope it gets better if you don't! Life is hard and sometimes it feels like nothing matters. We have to hold on to the little things and fight on. Love y'all
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You know how true that is.nobody that has not been through this dont understand the pain,the blame we put on yourself wondering if it was all us and then you start to think where did I go wrong.then you start self harm or try to commit suicide or succeed.every relationship in my adult life so far has nothing but heart ack so yes I understand it all hell I think about all of it the cutting the suicide thoughts the questions.the only thing that keeps me here is my parents and my little sister.see I'm the type of person that willing to help no matter how bad my problems are.unless you do me wrong.so feel free to talk to me if you need someone to talk too that deals with the same problem.ill be more then happy to support you and be here as much as I can
@@denkishoodie5908 me but with my ps3. Baby girls been by my side for I think 9 or 10 years. I told my friend I’m offing myself the day my ps3 dies for good
Does anyone have a mental breakdown and just Lay down in the dark and just cry while so many things are rushing thru ur mind u cant control it even if u tryed....
Same, cause it’s like the people around me, all except for one person, act like they care when I know that they don’t, because if they did, they would realize that I’m not ok all the time. My dad has pressured me into telling him shit and i know that he doesn’t care, because if he did, he would let me stay in and sleep when it’s impossible for me to leave my bed or wouldn’t get angry at me when I cut.
Yes they did... I feel horrible... I love someone who loves someone else... I don't have rest... My friends don't talk to me.. I... Just... Need someone right now
Why everyone says "you should talk to someone" But no one says " I'm here to listen to you" I'm so emotionally numb but no one cares....I feel worthless and disappointed in myself.....I tried telling my mom but she said I'm too dramatic...
You're mom is mean.. and no I don't k is you but you can talk to me if you would like because even if I don't know you I am here for a shoulder to lean on and to talk to whenever you need..
I tried my best to smile everyday. I tried my best to make my parents proud of me. I tried my best to be a good daughter/sister. But I end up *this.* I give up on *life.*
I know people say that everything will be okay this and this and this and you think we don't well I understand I'm not going to say everything's going to be okayI'm just going to say that you have to make things to be okay when time is tough time will get you have to look on the bright side even if you think there's not one there is one I am adopted child so I know how it feelsdo not make your parents happy some of my family and I are you don't really get along but I'm happy that they took me in because I don't know where I would be I'd probably end up dead if I didn't have so count your stars and look at every bright day because it's coming from soon
I'm just tired is always my excuse. I bottle up my emotions to much, so they start to fade away and I can't feel anything but the thought of myself trapped in a big black, dark hole and I can't do anything but wait. wait for the right time, and the right day I snap. I snap out of fake smiling and pretending, because waiting is all I can do right now. I don't have courage to go up to my mom or dad and say "hey, i think I need help." or "hey guys. can we talk? I've been struggling with something." it's so hard. But I'm trying. I'm trying my best to stay strong. I'm trying so hard. And I want the person reading this to know that, you are loved. and cared for. people love you. you need to stay strong, not just for them. but for yourself. you matter. and you should always, remember who you are. I love you. don't give up yet. please.
Hey...I may not know you but I noticed your comment...bro I hope your good so many people care about you too! Your worth it...it's really hard atm I get it...I'm going through tough times to...like being moved from my adoptive family into a care home cause they have given up on me...but right now... remember ...your worth it ! X
Who is listening to this while they are shoving a pillow into their face trying not to cry out loud? While wanting to scream and end everything. Just me? Oh okay.
Why do people say that they're going to be there for you no matter what then leave you? I just want a friend that I can talk to someone who will actually understand me and listen for once. That's all I want.
It's not weird, but the longer you let yourself feel that way, the harder it is to be okay. I'm pushing 30 and wishing like hell I would have listened to this when I was 8, or even 15. It's okay to be okay. You don't have to suffer just because other people are suffering. If we all live that way, no one in the world would be happy and it would end. Joy has to start somewhere, let it start with you and spread like the flu
I relate to this audio but if someone asks me how I’m feeling on text, I’ll just say “I’m fine what about you?” And then the conversation will go on but irl I’m drowning in tears.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you want to talk to someoane who understands, i'm here for you.
it hits so hard when u can relate to every single line she said. you’ve been there. you’ve been through hell but u kept smiling. I watched this show a couple of years ago but i didn’t feel like this back then, and now… I just understand. I feel it. It’s not just imagining how it feels. I feel what she feels and it keeps suffocating me.
@@anag4432 exactly.let me say this. I was 22 or 23.had a girlfriend feel over heels in love with her lost my only stepbrother got our place moved she started drugs got me into it cheated on me with my best friend on the kitchen floor attack my mom attack me more then once cheat again on the exact day my godfather died broke up with me over the phone.so tell why everyone says time heals all.bullshit I'm dam near 30 and I can still sit here and tell you everything from what was said to what happened and I still have a very hard time trusting a woman around anyone even my own family.so no time dont heal.it just stays in the pass but the pain and lack of trust still fallows.the only woman I trusted in a relationship was toxic.and the Person I wanted to be with was 17 and for me that's a no go.
Even though you're broken, someone will always be there to fix you, you will miss out lots of things if you die, one day the smile you faking will later be a real, life may get hard but there always will be a good end.
"Tell me how your feeling right now" "Right now?" "Yeah, right now" "...lost..I guess? Sort of empty" "Empty?" "Yeah, I don't feel anything.." Exactly how I feel Hannah...
I’m scared , scared to be happy because every time I ever start to feel better start to feel happy something happens and destroys it as easily as it is to breath. And I’m scared because every time it destroys my happiness it takes some of me with it. I’m gonna disappear soon
You don't need to harm yourself because of someone else . Your mom did not carry you for 9 months to see you disappear . You are here today because God saw something in you , he gave you this situation because he is probably preparing you for what's gonna come next
In such a young age I have felt and experienced such stuff which is not everyone's cup of tea . If you need any free happiness or love good people do exist and they won't leave you even if you hurt them
“How are u feeling right now?” nothing, i feel nothing and that’s my problem. Emptiness, numb, I don’t feel anything at all, I don’t love the things I loved before, and why is that
I’m 25 and I feel like nothing is good about being alive. Everyday seems like a task, that loneliness is taking over, and I’m really tired and exhausted.
people need to stop saying "Omg dont kill yourself, I love you!" yeah, where were you when I needed a shoulder to cry on? where were you when i needed someone to not tell me to stop hating my mind and body, but to tell me that what i hate about myself will be a person's favourite sight one day? where were you when i looked at the sky and cried, without any reason? where were you when I needed a hug? where were you when I started to feel so numb and fuck it all? ....where were you when I lost myself? that's right. you weren't there. stop saying things you dont actually mean.
I wasnt there then, but I'm here now. I dont know you, but I do care for you. And I mean this, with all of my heart. I love you. I'm sorry you felt/feel like this.
@@vees1on sorry i don't know u unknown person but u r not alone in this world .everyone is facing problem.the world is full of fake smiles .i don't know why i am writing this ..sending u joy n blessings from this side .be happpy stay blessed.🙏n u r real not dramatic👍
You're right. Everyone cares once you're dead. When you're alive, no one will even check back on you, but when you finally have had enough and commit suicide, everyone'll be liked "wish we could've done something..."
@@vees1on Well. this comment makes me happy. Its good. But yk, sometimes people should also ask you, all I'm saying, and not brush it off as you "wanting attention". Also, its not a shame to accept your thoughts and illnesses, don't feel that you're immature just because you said something that meant a lot to you.
“Are you okay?” “Yeah I’m fine” I wish I could say “no I’m not okay I’ll never be okay, I don’t feel anymore I don’t care about anything anymore I’m numb”
"Im fine" "I m okay" "Yeah I m fine" " I m okay just tired" "...yeah just tired".. ..... "So how many smiles did you fake today"....asking myself this question every day in evening to count them....but it's to much.......to much....and I want to just fall asleep and never wake up again ....
you have to open up. Its hard, i know, but once you start talking about all of these feelings that are just stuck in your head, you will feel so good..i told my counselor everything that has me sad, stressed, angry..she helps me a lot and shes more than just a counselor. shes like my best friend
It's okay. I've been there and so have millions of others. You're not alone in this. You just want the pain to stop which is why you sleep your days away. What's the point in doing something anyway if you're useless right? You believe you're weak because you cry a lot or maybe you don't even cry anymore because all you feel is numb. Like you're sitting on a train and the world just passes you by. Maybe you'd even go as far and say that you hate yourself because you heard all these negative things about you from people around you. But here's the thing: You are not that! Those words were never your own, until you made them yours. And just because you're not good at certain things or maybe even failed once or twice, does not mean that you are a failure. Crying does not make you weak, it simply means you've been strong for so long. And you're tired all the time because you keep running away from yourself. You're scared to face yourself but that's exactly what you need to do to heal this pain. Depression is not a war against yourself. Realize that you are your own best friend. What really wants your attention is that inner child that's been hurt in the past, and it wants you to be there for it. Let it know that it's okay. I'm sorry for what happened to you, but you and I we can't go back and change it, but you got everything inside of you to create a better future for yourself. Take off that heavy mask and stop portraying somebody you are not. You are here for a reason, you may not know that reason now but you will figure it out eventually. You have your place in the world and you will find it. Maybe you've been broken a couple times but it's meant to shape you into who you're supposed to be. Those people were never your people but the right one's are waiting for you and they don't want anybody else. Your numbness will fade away and you will feel again and this time all the beautiful things life has to offer. And you will cry but this time it will be happy tears. And you will look back at this time of your life and laugh in gratitude because this is what made you. You are lovable, you are wonderful, you are strong and you are capable of doing this. You are wanted and you have a purpose here. It can't rain forever. This may not be what you want, but it might just be what you need to grow. So please, don't give up. I believe in you. Never let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future, ruin the happiness of your present. You might say that their is no happiness in your life rn, but their is. Just keep looking. If not for urself, do it for me yeh?
its weird how so many things go through our minds when we’re asked “how are you” but we reply with “im fine” and a fake smile. i dont even remember the last time i was truly happy. i feel like im drowning in my own tears and no ones picking me up.
"I have so much. A loving mom maybe dad too. Two friends. Then why so I feel so suffocated? " Because you don't have the one person who completes you and understands you. The one person who would never hurt you and would do anything to keep you happy. The one person who lets you breathe and you can cry with. The one person who won't leave you at your darkest. That one person! Just one, but more than enough
to whoever’s reading this it’s ok to be sad trust me i understand what you’re feeling. but please don’t give up. i want you too know there are many people out there who love you. including me. i love you. you’re beautiful/handsome and you’re enough. please know that it will get better and you will be happy again. i promise. please don’t give up. i love you and you can get thru this. ❤️
I try to be the best daughter/ sister I try to smile I try to hid the pain I try to laugh I try not to feel scared I try to be there for everyone when they need me I try to be the person who makes everyone laugh I try to be the one with is happy I try not to cry at night I try not to crumble I try not to let myself slip I try not to want to die But in the end I just want it all to end.... I want life to end…. I want my life to end…
Is it so much to ask for a hug? I wish someone would just hug me and tell me it's okay to break down, that it will get better eventually. That I don't have to hide anymore. It hurts.
I'm not good at supporting but....you have my hug,you don't know me and i don't know you ,let me send some telepathic hugs,many hugs not only one ,hugs that don't last fast,so you can have a shoulder at the same time to let some feelings to come out,yes everythings gonna be okay ,maybe not right away ,but you ..no...we can do this,not because everyone else want us to be "normal" but because you deserve it,you deserve to be happy,and gets a lot of support, wait um...i have something to send you that i hope you'll listen if you want, since im a stranger and probably we will not pretty much talk afterwards I'll leave you something to keep ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-70VlAyEUXYM.html Here /u\ i know I can't help as much as i want but here,this is my hug in other form Its hard right now,! take as much time as you need before stepping forward in Life!
I'm done.......Why am I so sad I have a great life, great friends, great family great home, and yet I'm sad, im depressed and there's nothing I can do! I can't stop this saddness from flowing through me and it hurts, so bad....
Yesterday night, I fell asleep listening to soft piano music. There was just something about the music or the day that I had, or idk something, that for the first time in a while, made me feel like I didn’t have a single worry on me. Like I knew everything was going to be ok. It felt like I could breathe, my heart was finally calm. I fell asleep thanking God, the universe, whatever, for the feeling. “I know it can’t always be like this, but it feels so good to finally get a break. I needed this so much. Please, just for a few days, let it stay this way,” I said. It’s the day after and ig the break can’t last two days cause I’m back here, but that night was more proof that no matter how bad things are, the light finds a way to shine eventually 💗
I used to be such good friends with this boy. We went to daycare together, then we played t ball together. And I remember clear as day how my mom always drove me to his house when my mom had scans. and they'd take me to school. we went on and on and on. we went to pro baseball games together. Held hands in the car. He'd always make sure I was okay before he was. we played together for baseball for a good 4 years. We continued being good friends until about 4th grade, his parents got divorced. he took it very hard and started to take it out on everyone else. I knew this was coming. And my mom and his mom worked together, everything went downhill. And over summer, we never hung out again or talked. And when we did talk, it was on text and he wanted me to get him a relationship. Now he just left me like I didn't mean anything to him. And it's hard because every memory flashes back everyday. He doesn't even acknowledge that I'm around in school. he never even says hi. He's just changed. Tonight, the guy in the video sounds just like his dad. I got very emotional. I just miss the old days. He was literally like my second dad. And it's just sad. Ever since I've lost my bestfriend, my life has changed significantly. I want that family back in my life :(
Kalea's Kreation am sorry quite the same happened to me to am convincing myself not to give a shit about ut cause apparently we are living our life for our selves not for someone else
i understand. i met this guy after 6 years of lost contact and was so happy to see him so i talked to him, but he didnt seem happy nor interested to talk to me, a smile wasn't seen. so i just left awkwardly and felt really shitty.
So relatable... I am still here for my parents & friends. If it had been up to me, I would have gone long ago. Sorry Mom, I can't tell you because I don't want to hurt you with my pain
I have moments where it feels like I'm dead.. and I just walk around not being able to control anything, it sounds like I'm under water and feels like nothing.. literally nothing, and when I "snap" back it just feels like I'm in the wrong place, it's hard to explain but if you understand, you understand, if you don't, you don't. All good-ish vibes here 🌻
So relatable in 2023 it's exactly reflecting my mindset now...🙂..all i need now is someone's shoulder to cry out loud at the point of breathlessness... without being judged...
.. "I need everything to stop ".. This is exactly how I feel right now.. 😔 Its as if I just want to sleep, shutting the things that is running constantly inside my mind...
If you're reading this I care about you I know it's not the same as love but even if we never meet I want to know that somewhere out there in the world that you are alive... and happy and isn't that the definition of caring Logically it's not possible to be a friend to the entire world but... I'll try because the world never got anywhere by not trying and believing that something wasn't possible, so I'll try I know that I'm not you I can't feel your feelings only you can do that. I know I can't relate to everything you've been through and everything you're going through but I can attempt to understand and I can try and be a friend when you need one. So if you do need to talk to someone or just rant to someone who just might understand dm me and I'll hear you.❤️
Idk what i have been doing i can’t imagine how much ill be hurting my family . I can’t live up to their expectations and i am not even trying to work hard
I feel it too. Its like you don’t care about your life anymore. The feeling of emptiness and numbness that you are going through, no one knows. I had no one to talk and life is not getting any better. Its just that one day i woke up numb. I heard them saying im ‘lazy’ ‘worthless’ ‘waste of space’ and it didn’t affect me like it used to. Its like ‘I don’t care, it doesn’t hurt me anymore’ ‘I don’t care i dont feel pain anymore’ ‘I don’t care life is not important for me anymore’ and ‘i dont care nothing is mattered to me anymore’.
Everyone says teenage years are the best. You make new friends, you grow up, but they always forget the nights you sit in your bed and cry without a fucking reason.
i’ve accepted the fact that happiness isn’t for me. i’m never going to get rid of my depression i’m planning on living my life as a corpse. no hopes, no dreams, no relationships, nothing to look forward too.
Same, I don't feel anything, I feel broken inside, but of course, I fake being happy to people around me. I do it every day, it just comes naturally now I do it without realizing, 😟😞💔
Growing up, getting older made me realise dying is easier than living. Teen years isn't fun, its just a stage of life where I learnt the truth and see what actually life is.
Exactly! Suicide pops into my mind as I'm drifting in and out of sleep then I snap awake and think things over! I'm anorexic and my mother doesn't know, but apparently she doesn't notice that I don't eat! And then she tells me "Watch what you're eating you are going to get fat." I cried. I couldn't bare to come out of my room. We think suicide is the answer but I just dare myself to go on another day atleast one more day and I keep telling myself this.. That's kind of how I get myself up and going..
Honey please do not do that to yourself..your body is stronger than you think and your mind as well so don't give up. The world would not be the same without you, trust me. ❤
I felt anxiety,when i was 10... I felt so much pain,and that image when the pain was the worst... Everyone are trying to make me forget it,but scars never fade away... I feel insecure about my body,about my figure... I can not take the critics anymore... Why do people with extra weight,need to be in the bullying zone.. But pain,will never fade away.
The fact that the bathroom is the safest place in my house bc I can hide from my parents when they get mad/yell or fight or my brother is being rude. But even then I don’t feel completely comfy bc I think someone is watching me. I’m a kid and the safest place for me is a freaking bathroom, awesome.
I’m not depressed, but I still have this part of me that’s lost. I’m happy, but when I hear sad stuff I remember the past, afraid it’ll come again to hurt me. Then I start feeling emotional, my head fills with the painful messages I wrote to myself, and it hurts.
“I- I can’t do this anymore. _I can’t do this anymore. _*_I can’t do this anymore._* If I keep doing this, I- I’ll break. I’ll break, shatter into a million pieces and I won’t be able to put myself back together again. I won’t be able to do that _again._ I can only have so many breakdowns before I shatter irreversibly. _I can’t do this anymore.”_ “You’ll be okay.” _”If I’m going to be okay, why does it feel like my heart’s getting crushed, slowly but surely being ground to dust? Why do I feel like I can’t breathe? Why am I constantly on the verge of a breakdown? Why do I feel like I’m slowly shattering? _*_I can’t do this anymore.”_*
@@manjeetmashankar9630 If you do need someone to talk to i'll listen to you. However, I am not perfect, and i'm certainly no angel so I don't know if I would actually help anyone. I only said that in case someone needed a friend.
I was in an abusive relationship it was both emotionally and sexually abusive I hid it from my parents for a little over a month and when they found out about him I myself didn't even know it was abusive until I finally left now I'm afraid to ever speak face to face or see him ever again. My parents would not let me drive because I wanted to kill myself the relationship was intense and so much stress I was going crazy I had alot if hair fall out cause if the stress and I was cutting and the urge was even stronger with him but my parents ts and friends are all helping me get through this I still cry myself to sleep sometimes it's been about almost three weeks but he lives super close so I'm always remined and Gods love is being shown to me through different t ways so what I am saying is God didn't give up on u so don't give up on u I won't either it's worth the fight
The only thing you need to stop is listening to negative and breaking words like this, it's not gonna help and will make you even depressed to think it's fine to be this way and to it's ok to be sad. That's wrong make your way to life no one will do it for you except yourself even with friends and family support you have to do it yourself. And start with quitting listening to these, maybe change it up with motivational speeches and videos, there's plenty and it sure did help me get out of my hard situation one day. And guess what I'm glad I did. Good luck buddy and live your life as you want to yourself and the one u deserve.
Hassan Anibou What if this is all I can do? I have no one, I’m all alone. If I can’t feel happiness, sadness is my only option. Anything but this numb feeling in my heart. I need to know I’m not the only one struggling to find the will to live. I need to know I’m not alone.. I can’t be..
Is it weird if I've gotten to the point of watching these videos and no longer crying? I feel the same drain after as if I had cried, but I have no tears left to cry.. "I need everything to stop." Which it would.
Someone: Hey, how are you feeling What I say: I’m good thanks What I think: I feel terrible, every day is making me sad and tired of my live. I just wish I could end this pain inside...
I'm already lost....no friends...no friendship....no love yes these words describe my life but I'm just gonna smile...yes....I'm fine.....(not fine).....yeah no worries I'm fine.. (I'm lost anyone help me to get out of this hell).....are u happy with ur life?......yeah I am!.....(actually no....I wanna say the truth but why would someone cares....?)....if I did it would be only pretending right?....heh...I can't take lies anymore.....I trust nobody....and now I'm fine alone without friends cuz even if I do its gonna be fake u will just use me and throw me....and I just gonna get hurt more right?....yes
from time to time I come back to watch this kind of videos (instead of sad songs) to feel better somehow or to feel anything actually but no I just don't is so damn frustrating is like I know my feelings are somewhere I just can't find them if that makes sense and is so strange cause I always was an extremely sensitive and emotional person and now I'm like numb emotionless