I Survived a Suicide Attempt (How Do I Heal?) 

I was just thinking this throughout the video. He emanates good vibes, like he just seems like a nice person

@@orangesplaylist He really does.

Same

@@thegingersnaps8075 worst part about it is when you know your doing things right, but still there's that "felling" bugging.

I suffer from this and it never really goes away. It's like it's rooted in my subconscious.

This boi NEEDS his 👅💦💦💦💦💦✊🏽🍌🥜

Rancid is a bit more alt-punk. But yeah, John is pretty hardcore. :0)

@@megalopolis2015 I remember him having an album in the background awhile back of some metal band, though I can't remember which one. I know Rancid isn't metal but I'm glad to see that John is into the good stuff

Yessir! He is the ONLY way! Let us exalt Him and praise Him for being our strength! Amen. God bless you and keep you. ❤🙏

That's awesome. Good for you. I hope your healing goes relatively smoothly.

@@megalopolis2015 thank you

@@JohnBrown-ig5ncsocial media in general is not good imo, maybe small doses at most. Good luck.

Yea, I relate to trying to explore things purely from a logical perspective rather than actually feeling. At times I try my best not to feel as a strategy to mitigate anxiety and overstimulation. Also, media and social media especially introduces a lot of noise into your life and your mind, which I believe can really distort and cloud your perspective and thoughts in general. Take a break for sure, you're not missing anything.

@@games68775 I need to take a break. Was thinking on this very thing earlier today and how distorted my thinking is because of it

Exactly, he needs to learn how to value himself again.

I've seen many of his talks. He also says that everyone's pain and brokenness needs to be addressed and prayed for, and that family, friends, and the church need to come together for each one who hurts. He gets the importance of fellowship. He has many people helping him (including his Lovely wife), as he helps many people. It's a beautiful thing.

@@megalopolis2015 I agree. Thank you. I definitely posted this getting more disgruntled as I listened, and here's why: I'm a survivor of people who have succeeded at their attempts and I once made one of my own and am so grateful I get to stay. The beginning of my previous comment talks about Kevin Hines, a guy who speaks out now against suicide and pro prevention. He has been influential in a lot of folks changing their attitude toward life for the better. The 1st interview I saw with him, he was still in a wheelchair, told he may never walk again from his attempt, but he was beaming - glowing with this high smile and couldn't stop saying "I'm so grateful. I'm so grateful..." He was so grateful he lived. Now, a few decades after my own attempt I am a parent. And I'm sorry; when people depend on you, you don't get the luxury of apathy. And when you make a decision to try and attempt in a way that could or would harm others, by overdosing behind the wheel and them go drive around - I get angry - because now you aren't just putting yourself at risk, which is bad enough, you're putting yourself and other people's kids at risk. I volunteer on suicide prevention lines. This guy sounded so so so so so different than anyone in this situation I've ever heard so far after years of volunteering. I shouldn't have posted my comment for many reasons. Mainly myom always says, "if you can't say something nice don't say anything at all." And she's right. This guy set me off. I should have stayed quiet. Mostly I know that when you are ideating about it you might consider that an orange or red flag that you might not be thinking clearly. I know he probably is in that space of not thinking clearly which is why I began by introducing him to a powerful force in prevention: survivors. I got nervous when his tone and affect seemed so flat. This is a sensitive and shameful topic for a lot of survivors. The don't usually talk about it so nonchalantly. You are absolutely right. I should have compassion and pray for him, and I appreciate the correction. The guy scared me. Especially as a dad of a defenseless baby. Because if he makes choices for himself that include risking others, that momma and baby could be in harms way. I'm a mom now. Not cool. Gotta get some support for those two also, just in case. The guy scared me, and I've helped support some folks and helped them put their kits away. Survivors help each other. I pray he gets into helping prevention efforts, meets others, feels less alone, and feels a renewed commitment to life as well as enthusiasm for it after meeting children of folks who have gone and seeing how it affects their lives. Or becoming a warrior for prevention. I pray he stays and find renewed motivation... And I pray he connects the dots that his attempt cold have endangered the lives of others. He seemed to just roll right over that like it was nothing, like he didn't even notice that fact. That was chilling to somebody who has children and drives. It's a chilling topic anyway. I'd do anything to get those I know who went this way back. I pray they get to Heaven because they may have made that judgement call on themselves in a state of mental distress. I hope this guy gets the support he needs to feel strengthened and renewed and to care as much about others even in his pain. I pray I can forgive him for the choice he made. I do - especially because no one was permanently harmed by it, including him. Thank God.

@@brightpage1020 I greatly appreciate the thought and effort that went into this reply. Thank you. I also want to thank you for the self-sacrificial work you have done for other people in crisis, who are desperate to have someone who cares enough to talk them down. My fiance' has been one of those people in need, more than once. He has more obstacles than many, mentally, emotionally and physically. I am one of the only people who he can talk to besides people like you who can deal with the situation, or even cares to try. His sobriety and faith have helped enormously, as well as developing healthy boundaries with others, cutting off contact when necessary. It can a difficult thing to fight for yourself when few people in your life told you that you were worth fighting for. Hopefully in time he will believe it more. As for the caller, I share your concern with his driving that day. He should not have endangered other people. I think that the way he seems to speak casually about the incident is because his deep embarrassment over losing control so much, as well as fear for what could have happened. Either way, he can use our prayers.

the attempt was before his marriage and birth of his daughter and before he found God. he lives with what happened 7 years ago & chose to build a beautiful family for himself. here he stands admitting he wants to stray farther and better mentally than the person he used to be, for his family. that is a man if i ever did see one myself…stay kind brother

@@prestonj.7687 Exactly. "Don't show weakness ever" is how guys keep getting into these emotional wrecks to begin with. We all need each other. This guy has done amazing things, but he knows when he needs help, and that shows strength, too.

@@prestonj.7687 Thank you. I just reread my very snarky original comment. It was selfish of me, and hurtful toward him. He doesn't deserve that. Especially because look at him doing the brave thing now and reaching out for help - to a radio show of all things, broadcasting his struggle. That is a braver soul than I initially gave him credit for. Thank you for helping me step off my soapbox of self righteousness. Sincerely, I hope this guy gets the support he needs for himself and his family. We all have weak moments and he did the right thing during his - he reached out for us to lift him up and that is like lifting an anvil of fear and trepidation off your heart. I hope and pray he finds the comfort he needs. Man, I am truly sorry for my hurtful words and judgemental spirit. I spoke out while angry and forgot to exercise self control - or listen. One of the most powerful amd important principles of prevention. Caller, you deserved so much better. I was immature amd hasty in my initial response. I was nasty towards you, angry and bristing. I am sorry. I hope you can forgive me. I'll hold my tongue and be more understanding from this point forward. Grateful to those who stepped up for you amd so gently steered me in a different direction. This culture of popping off at each other may have me more defensive than is positive. I can slow my roll. Thank you to all who helped me see the error of my ways. Great wisdom is also on the interwebs - who knew? Not just nutty folks coming out of the woodwork. Thank you.

Even Christians can feel hopeless. Read David’s psalms. Look at Elijah. Especially if you grew up with a critical parent that constantly insinuated you were never good enough. That’s the lie that’s been sold to you from the get-go.

@@flier9947😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

My god, you should do stand up

Me too

Correction: He wanted help and is going to get it; you two wannabe chauvinists want attention.

@@megalopolis2015 no he wanted attention like I said this call sounds so fourced with him trying to sell us story

@@megalopolis2015 omg you have no life you sitting here replying to everyone in the comments 😂😂😂 this you 🤡

​@ace2live957 then I pray that you're never in a situation where you see no out and life falls on on you. Suicidal thoughts can happen when life happens to us all.