Have you ever thought about having a life with someone but you also know that stuff like that belongs only in your head? And you just keep on wondering what it might have been with that someone....
Thats kinda what I love about lontalius his music is really repetitive but somehow he manages to have those moments that are different be like a lot more enjoyable then they would be other wise, its really something.
i have a loving family i have a beautiful, caring love interest i'm nearly done with school for the rest of my life i have so many friends and people that care about me i've never gone to bed hungry or cold i have a good life and yet... ...here i am. why why do i get so morbidly depressed and down why do i think terrible things why do i lose all of my energy why do i lack the motivation to pursue a passion why do i feel like i have the weight of the world on my shoulders why do i feel the need to drink myself asleep why do i feel *SO ALONE IN THIS WORLD* probably because "the noblest art is that of making other people happy" so we all sacrifice our own happiness and our own wants and needs because we feel as if we don't need or even deserve to be happy if it means that another person can be happy because who cares if we hurt who cares if we spend our last bit of cash who cares if we get cold who cares if we go somewhere and do something we didnt want to who cares if we use up all of our time just to make someone else happy even if it's a total stranger and we live this life, making others happy left and right constantly seeing those beaming smiles and happy faces question how you seem to be so happy all the time finding yourself without an answer so you respond, "I don't know" or "I guess I just am" followed by a laugh and that laugh feels like the most fake sound to ever escape your lips sure, you might have a few weeks or maybe a few months or maybe even a year or two that go by and you feel like it's finally gone you feel like you can finally be yourself again you feel like that happiness is so genuine and constant that there's no way it can be fake until your mask finally slips and you realize how long you've been lying to yourself as it all comes rushing back as if it never left and trying to build yourself back up into that happy person everyone knows you as takes so much more effort every time every time you hit that low just thinking "it'd be so easy." "i could do it right now." and being stopped by the thought of all of the people who would miss you and all of the people in your life who need you more than you could ever know even if it's just seeing you around that makes them happy or overhearing your laugh or that one thing you say that everyone seems to enjoy, for some reason maybe its a simple act of kindness you didnt even know you performed maybe just holding open a door for someone or saying thank you or telling someone that you appreciate them or messaging someone after years of not talking just to let them know you still care or even just asking how someone is doing you never know how much you mean to all of the people in your life. and if you genuinely think that you have no one in this world not a single friend, family member, acquaintance, or even pet then message me. i care about you and i haven't even met you yet. i guess that's just who we are, isn't it? everyone in the world is important and means something to someone you just have to find them.
I'm the opposite kinda. Ive never had anything. Most days I go hungry, don't have a roof over my head. No friends. Extremely toxic family that I cut off. I feel so alone. I am alone. I absolutely despise people who have everything, but I get that they may not be happy. Maybe they're grateful, maybe not. But depression does not segregate. It works with extreme prejudice. Nobody is safe from it. It's a disease. A chemical imbalance in the brain, and it is absolutely ruthless. I would never wish it upon anyone.
You brought me to tears, thank you for this comment, I really needed to hear this. To be honest sometimes I don’t believe I am cared about even though I have friends and family who always cherish me, I just feel like they don’t really need me around since I haven’t made any major achievements nor be charismatic ..
Yeah man love my life when you are fine then u reflect on ur life and just break down but ur family so says say ur a weakling so u have no where to go until you earn some good friends tell them then you float and luv ur self until it happens again you stay up stirring just sitting reflecting just floating endlessly
I just wanna say to the depressed people. There are people who love you. If you need to talk to someone, find someone you trust. If you don't have anyone, then you'll eventually find someone :]
If we are not remembered. And the tree in the forest makes noise. For none to hear. Have we truly existed? A twinkle in another's eye. Or something less. Or, just maybe, something more?
All these sad comments with people expressing their pain breaks my heart. I hope everyone in this comment section that has or is experiencing pain/difficulty heals. If you need some love, support, positivity, or comfort, take it from me. I want the world and the people in it to feel how beautiful and special we all are.
I like how you reach out and all you get is empty instagram names. And you realize maybe you really are alone. No one gets you. Everyone's just a mindless brainwashed simpleton who just can't think the way you do. Its like talking to a wall.. but even a wall has more character. Its like they don't even question their own existence. Like how animals are alive but they kinda just live in ignorance and complete bliss. Never stopping to think. Just.. living. then there's you. And you feel alone. And know someday you will die. And die alone. And there isn't anything you could do about it. Death will come and take you away and you'll go back into the black oblivion. Your body will be broken down and put back into the world.
for a long time, i've thought that i've just had some shitty times, struggles, and experienced loneliness frequently but now i'm beginning to think that i might really be depressed. i can function fine and have social interactions that are for the most part fulfilling, i work out almost everyday, i have family that love me but i feel so low, deep down. i feel so lonely, far away, i give so much to my friends but they aren't thoughtful to me in the way that i am to them. im in uni and i don't even know what i'm doing here, i have no motivation i feel utterly empty towards my studies and i just want to disappear. does anyone know how i feel
Edward Cho I feel the same way. I thought it was just me until I couldn't take it anymore and got some help. Best thing I ever did. I felt validated and I feel better overall even if I have moments where I just don't feel like existing. I really hope you get some help. My uni has an area for mental health. Maybe yours has one? I wish you all the best.
Edward Cho I know exactly what you mean and I feel the same way but I miss him and I think I have depression too but I don't know how to tell anyone or what to do
lol edwards i feel you i actually got scared reading this coz it perfectly describes word to word hang in there man and try to get her the one back Coz im trying the same
I'm so frustrated when people tell me to just stick through it, it'll get better. I know they're just trying to help, but it pisses me off. I've been doing that for almost a whole decade now. I keep fighting. I keep going. My life is like a loop, just like this video, the same shit over and over and over and over again. I try and try and try, I start to get a little better, I get hope again, then I take a nosedive and plunge straight back into this emptiness. I can't deal with this anymore. I just sit and listen to this loop for hours on end, all day. Yeah, it does get better, but only enough to give me hope. Then I get unbelievably crushed every time I go back down. I wish I could just not care. Or that I really did get fully "better". I wish I was dead.
Find something that you feel passionate about. For me it was martial arts and just learning to fight. When I’m training i just forget about everything.
wow. didnt know someone could relate as much as me. damn, i do get better n confident at some point, but the moment i get a little too happy everything goes downhill. ''it's okay'' i know it is, but its always temporarily okay.
I can understand, though sometimes I feel like a hypocrite for telling everyone else the same thing when I'm also struggling as well. But sometimes I try and try to get better too and dustract myself by watching videos that'll cheer me up and it manages to work at times.
I feel myself slowly falling into the void of depression and sadness and I dont bother trying to get out or asking for help. I just keep going deeper and deeper until I cant get out when I want to get out and Im stuck alone with no one to talk to or joke with. Just a deep lonely void.
Christian Chim Chim I feel kind of the same. It’s just that I can‘t talk about stuff like depression and feeling hurt with the people around me. We aktually don’t talk that much Idk why.They don’t care or are even mad at me for being negativ 😔 I can’t. I often feel very lonely, these people then say I’m not lonely and that they are there for me but I know that they don’t mean it it’s just them saying something so they feel better and think they did what they can and that this is all my fault if I don’t reach out for them ( I‘m trying but it’s hard for me).Times aregeting tough again. I hate the fakt that this feeling is repeating over and over again. I‘m sick of it. But I just can’t get completely out of this „thing“. I‘m stuck . Sorry if there are many erors.
L, eis you can talk about everything right here and right now. we are all accepting and i'm willing to listen. do you have snapchat? we could talk about it there if you want. if you want to talk about here then thats okay, maybe someone else can help. its alright to feel like this. i feel like this too sometimes (most of the time) and i always have a special someone to help me. you could start by explaining to your parents or a partner of yours. they could try and get help for you if you cant do it yourself. the first step is to tell someone. i wish you the best of luck with this. people care about you and love you. dont wait until its too late.
I have 2 friends that keep arguing and I look like the bad person hanging out with both people knowing that they hate eachother and I still don’t want to lose them because they are my only friends
I'm in the same situation as he is, having a boyfriend that is suicidal and tells me that he wishes he was dead is the most painful thing ever, and knowing you can't do much makes me disappointed in myself, the worst thing is, I have problems myself and having to deal wit others problems is so hard and overwhelming, and so I forget about my needs and give everyone my everything and end up with nothing for myself 💔
I was in a similar situation a 10 months ago. What I wish I knew that I know now is 1. You can't change what other people do to them selfs. 2. Don't let your loved ones mental health effect yours. Take care of your self it's not selfish. 3. If the go off the deep end no matter how bad you don't have to with them. I figured those things through one of my worst relationships but also one of the most important. we both made each other worse throughout the relationship without realizing it; tell It end when her lie shattered our relationship then when she realizing what she done she could stand to look at me so her Solutions was to kill herself because I was the one person that cared. She told me that and ripped her out of mine and left me crying in a women's bathroom wondering if I just killed the only person I ever loved. for three days I wondered if she was dead because you didn't show up at school until I finally saw her sister come back to school and she told me she was in the hospital. since then I've had trouble connecting with anyone that has mental health problems because I just get panic attacks when I try to help them. I used to love trying to help other people with their problems. I don't know how to fix it. Sorry went on little rant. How have you been doing it's been 2 months?
so glad to read all those beautiful comments. this song helped me through so much shit in my life and i'm happy, to help you guys a little bit with sharing this to all of you! have a nice day :)
Thoughts that go like bullets through me The time I told you that I wished I was dead But so broken on when I can't stop choosing to sleep through my alarms M a n i m l o s i n g m y h e a d
Been months, I remember going to school, then work, coming home around 1am every night, sometimes because of work, sometimes because I'd go eat alone and smoke, I would only sleep to this song, on repeat over and over and over, til i remembered every strum and every lyric. I would get high and listen to this, and get drunk on the weekends and stare at my ceiling thinking how much of a piece of shit I was. It gets better..
@@nishka9605 it’s crazy how much of a difference there is now compared to then. 4 damn years! I have an amazing career, my own place, my own car, I have a girlfriend and two dogs. I’m happy. Sometimes I can’t believe I’ve made it this far. Thank you for asking!
@@jorgesaname7132 that's literally so amazing !!! i hope you can look back at your comment whenever it's a tough time going for you and that you can actually say that things get better one day beacuse it did get better, also have an amazing life ahead that you deserve !!
I hate being alone but at the same time I want to be alone no one to judge me and no one I have to look out for except for me I feel this way but at the same time I want to scream out to those close to me about how much I hurt but I lose my voice everytime because I realize no one genuinely cares
i found this song back when i was 14 (18 now) and i never thought i would ever hear it again, by the end of my sophomore year i was in one of the darkest places in my life, i had failing grades, alcoholic step dad, made horrible decisions and the worst anxiety ever. i would get home from school every day and my mom would ask if i had a good day at school. i would smile and say “it was good” then walk to my room and cry on my bed every day without fail. i hadnt even had a heartbreak so i knew i couldn’t get attached to anyone so i pushed everyone away and did nothing but play games all day. towards the middle of my junior year i met someone online i played games with and i knew the moment i met her i would get attached. after just a few months of knowing her we started dating which was the worst thing i could’ve done but i was so lonely and i craved everything that a relationship was. after 3 months we couldn’t take the distance anymore and split just to find out she got with another guy online not even a month later. that tore me apart and i had finally lost everything. i’m 18 now and i just moved into my brothers because my step dad got abusive and now i have no future and have to work a minimum wage job. what’s the point
I'm at the age of 15, I feel just as wasted as you do due to different reasonings, trust me, this isn't a waste. You aren't a waste at all, everyone starts off later than some, its alrigh. Just do your best at your age, don't do something that could ruin you even more because you feel as if you 'deserve it' you dont, you belong somewhere better than this. I understand why you feel so little with every day you finish. As soon as daylight burns out an you sit in bed, thinking what the fuck are you doing? Youre doing good. Better than some people in your stage in this world has done, i'm glad you've made it this far. Just continue, ok? If i can push as much as I can, you can as well. Especially after losing a lover online, I also lost one, which is what brought my interest to write you a reply. Being a girl, suuucks, being more fragile. Just take your time ok? Time is our enemy really, so just inhale the little moments that catches your eye an makes you feel warm inside even by the smallest.
when you try to cry to let the bad feelings out, but it doesn't feel enough anymore, as if there's always something stuck inside you that you need to release.
I feel so lost, I feel like I’m just floating in a dark void. Numb, tired, afraid. I feel like I’m happy but I know I’m not. I don’t know how to feel, everything is just so frustrating. It’s even worse because no one can relate to how I’m feeling.
Why can’t people just understand they are beautiful, wonderful, amazing, and smart? Why cant people believe they are worth so much more and thst they deserve so much more? Why can’t the people see the beauty I see in them?
Aluna of the evy. To remind you that you are alive. Give it time.. It should ease up a bit.. Wish I ad a miraculous remedy for it. Could use it my self..! But give yourself time. It the only way to make it go away..
@@Specato man, I stumbled on this video around when you uploaded it. It was my junior year of high school. My life has seen some drastic change in certain areas, though my mental health has remained relatively the same. Still I suffer rather severe depression, and anxiety has begun to tag along a bit more often. Two years from now, I'll likely not have found much success is either of those areas, but I won't give up, and I hope none of you will either. We are all loved, unconditionally. You are valuable, you are strong, and you will make it through this. You won't feel this way forever. Happiness will prove to be worth the suffering, I promise. Hang in there, we will surely make it one day and perhaps, with time, we will look back upon depression and anxiety as old friends who taught us compassion and empathy for others. Please don't give up - Xavier
I have a really good life. A family and friends that care for me. Not many. They're not much to most but everything to me. I have a girlfriend, I used to get good grades. But there was still this feeling in the pit of my stomach. I ended up in a small verbal dispute with my dad that ended with him shoving me and that was the straw that broke the camel's back I guess. I ran upstairs and set an alarm for midnight, and I didn't plan to sleep thru that one. I knew everyone would be asleep at that point. I wrote a pair of suicide notes and strung up a belt on the rod of my closet, tested it to see if it would hold my weight. It did. So midnight came, my alarm went off, and all the preperations were in place. So I went into my closet and my mom came into my room and brought me in to the emergency room. I was put in a mental hospital for 2 1/2 weeks. It will be a year since that happened in 10 days and I think that I regret my mom coming in. My attendance to school is spotty, I can't muster the strength to get out of my bed most days. My grades are slipping, food tastes like nothing but is my only escape. I gained 50 pounds in 2 weeks I eat so much now. Anxiety attacks made their way into my life now, my dad's hit me, I've needed to run away and stay at a friend's house for my safety, I see shrinks left and right and it doesn't help and I genuinly wish my mom never came into my room. I'm not sure why I feel comfortable saying this but idk it just seems like I can. I've got diagnosed depression and generalized anxiety and they're winning.
Samuel Farrelly don’t let what happened take over your whole life, try and fight it, we all make mistakes and we move on .. you should accept yourself for who you are and move on.
Ummm....I'm pretty sure these people AREN'T pretending to be sad 😐😐😐😐😐😐 IM SAD RIGHT FUCKING NOW AS A MATTER OF FACT don't try and put others down with your mean words.
Ok so I'm a teen, I'm not "pretending" to be depressed. It's not a joke. I've been through just as much shit as the people I this comment section have. I have to deal with the same problems most people don't have until their late 30's. Anyone in this comment section deserve respect for what they've been through, not just adults. So to anyone out there, I'm proud of you for making it this far.
@@Izzy-rq4uu THANK YOU OMG!! you're words are truly inspirational! I agree with you! Honestly everyone deserves to feel emotions honestly, if we didn't have emotions we'd be robot's in this world. Btw i hope you're doing ok!!! Take care fellow person may good light be upon you!
Thoughts that go like bullets Through you The time you told me that you wish were dead But so broken on when you can’t stop choosing to sleep thru ur alarms, man you’re losing your head (But I can't stop) The thoughts that go like bullets through you The time you told me that you wish were dead (But I can't stop) But so broken on (its a broken arm) When you can't stop choosing To sleep thru ur alarms may loosing your head
Thank you, but here's the official lyrics: Thoughts that go like bullets through you The time you told me that you wish you were dead But so broken on when you can’t stop choosing To sleep through your alarms, man, you’re losing your head (But I can't stop) The thoughts that go like bullets through you The time you told me that you wish you were dead (But I can't stop) But so broken on when you can't stop choosing To sleep through your alarms, man, you're losing your head
I couldn't get to sleep at all last night because I was just so depressed and I craved listening to this song. So I plugged my ear buds in, listened for about five minutes and then started sobbing hard at 1:15 in the morning. I ran down to my parents room and woke them up so I could just lay in between them and stop crying and ended up staying there for the rest of the night until I had to wake up again at 6:30 for school..... Teenage problems amirite?
I’ve had depression ever since I was around 8 or 9. It never really clicked that I wasn’t normal. That people aren’t supposed to think about off-ing themselves daily. That you aren’t supposed to have a constant war between your mind, heart, and soul. I always knew of course, it just constantly felt like I was faking being sad, or it wasn’t that bad, or I couldn’t be depressed, because I have a pretty decent life. Every day went by painfully slow. Harder and harder, as if I were slowly dying. Wanting the day to be over so bad, so you don’t have to deal with today anymore. Yet at the same time, dreading the end of the day, because you know it would be the same exact cycle. Over and over again. Fake a smile, act happy, and when you finally get the chance to take that mask off-completely crumble. Cry yourself to sleep, harm yourself, let your mind spin out of control, and it builds up every day. Then one day comes, when you’re so sick of it. Of everything. Of everyone. You take that bottle, pills, rope, whatever you can find honestly. You think to yourself “This is it. I can finally be free. Everyone will finally be happy. This is happy ever after.” Until you realize its not. Either it turned into an attempt or you just couldn’t do it. You find yourself more broken than before. So torn apart. Where do you go from here? It feels like there’s nothing else you can do. It feels like you’re going to stay in this empty, dark void for a lifetime. What else is there. Trying to hold on to something, when you have nothing left. This was me my whole life until 2 years ago. I finally reached out for help. Got therapy, put on medication, and took a couple visits to the mental hospital. People realized I was never actually happy, it was just a show, for their sake. Everything finally started looking up. I had been happy. Truly happy. It felt euphoric. Like nothing would ever bring me down again. I could never reach that low again. Quarantine hit, and at first I was good. “This is my chance to grow” I said. Until eventually, it became draining to stay positive. I found myself back where I started. Lost, scared, confused. “What happened? I was so happy..” I lost all my friends, family doesn’t realize I’m not ok, everything feels like its falling apart again. Usually my episodes will strictly be one thing. Maybe us completely numb, or really overwhelming, or just extremely defeated. This time though, its everything at one. I’m so overwhelmed, yet so empty, and numb. A part of me wants to escape, but a part of me wants to stay here. Stay in this empty place. It feel like home. I want to scream, and cry, but nothing comes out. I still feel content with my life, I’m still happy, but as soon as a negative thought crosses my mind, I shut down. Its weird. Feeling everything, with no one to talk to. I don’t know where I’ll go from here. It’d be nice to off myself, but I’m too scared to. Only time will tell what will happen. Truth is, depression never truly goes away. It can lessen, and it can get better, but it’ll never be gone. It takes a warrior to go through every day. Mental, and physical scars. Moments of wars, and moments of peace. We all have fears, worries, things that make us happy, things that make us sad, but one thing we all share in common: we don’t know where we’re going, what is happening, what we’re supposed to do. Even through all of this. We keep going. Whatever battle we face, we find a way to deal with it. Rain, or shine we’re still here. I just wanted to acknowledge all of you. Every single one of your battles. Your scars. Your hopes. That takes real strength. The fact that you’re still here.. words can’t even begin to explain how much strength you hold. Im proud of you. Wherever you are in your journey, it will be all be ok. I hope you find happiness. I hope you get to achieve all of your goals. Reach all of your dreams. I hope you get to grow. I hope you get to experience true love. I hope you get to fully love, and accept yourself. I hope you find some sort of comfort in my message today. Wishing you all the best. You deserve to be happy. You got this. Best of luck with your adventure in this odd world. If ever you need me, I’m just a message away. Instagram: @laniesgalaxy
Sitting within a crowd. Seeing as everyone is so...social. Why do we feel so alone, yet surrounded? Internal confidence plummets. Latch onto it, grip the essence of nothingness tightly. A silent voice within the crowd. A voice waits, and waits, and waits. Until someone wishes to hear the silent voice shout to the heavens above. The Someone doesn't arrive in time. The Someone never notices. The chance never taken for the neck vibrations to grow. Amongst the crowd, yet still alone... The only sound that speaks within my ears... A melody, a rhythm, voices of devils and angels. A voice that is not my own. A conversation that never started. A debate that never initiated. An argument never shouted. A silent voice sits amongst the crowd. That voice...it's my silence. The only voice from me, A never ending internal war. The One Man War... Sorry if this seems edgy. I just struggle with a lot of social issues, and have no one to really to vent to because well...yeah I'm sure you get it. I barely talk to anyone nowadays so it feels kind of good to speak on the internet. Anonymity always felt great in that sense. If you're reading this...thank you. I hope you liked it.
"I don't understand why some people see negative thoughts as such a bad thing. I think a better word for negative is honest because it's how it's you really feel not something else. Those thoughts help me think and for a brief period of time it gives me subtle motivation an inner desire to change my life for the better, it helps figure out which things I should get rid of. To make myself feel better." Ron
The line thoughts that go like bullets through you hit me the hardest because I interpret the line as the thoughts can be extracted but the pain never goes away
I’m close to have to begin thinking about college and leaving my home town, and this makes me feel sad that I have to say goodbye to so many people I care about, and have amazing memories. High School was a mixture of emotions, sad and happy, angry and calm. I probably met over 50-70 new friends, and I don’t want to leave them behind. Thinking about makes me sad and alone. I just had homecoming yesterday, and met the most kickass group of people yesterday. It was me and one dude, and the rest were really funny girls. They were all amazing people, and I warmed up to them fast, and we talked about a lot. After I got home, I stayed up and told everyone that my last homecoming was great. Deep down, I wish that it would have lasted longer...
Hey dude, it’s been about a year since you commented. How’s college? What are you majoring in? Have you maybe dropped out to pursue different and hopefully exciting dreams? But wherever you are, good luck. :)
this is exactly what I've been thinking everyday it's just i want the time .to slow down just so i could make a little more memories with everyone even tho I made enough to remember them for the rest of my life but growing up scares me sm
Do you ever just feel like everything is falling apart for no reason at all. All you can do is sit there and watch it waiting for it to break you until you have no choice but to not exist anymore. And while it's breaking you you have to tell everyone else that your okay and they believe it no matter how much you look like your being broken down. All things have a beginning and ending even if it lasts forever eventually you forget about it until it's actually gone. Everyone has a pain inside of them and they have different ways of dealing with it. But most people want others to hurt too because they don't know that you're actually already hurting. sorry to be emo but..
This song really has a lot of emotions flowing in the lyrics. I can't help but relate to this so much. For the longest time I was bullied but I knew other people probably had been bullied worse so I thought that it didn't matter but it did it really did by then I had fallen deeper into this sate of loneliness hopefully it get better soon
Sugar Da Bear :D When someone tells you that you shouldn't feel depressed or sad just because others have it worse is like saying we can't be happy because others are happier so don't listen to them because if you push those emotions aside and not think about them it will hurt alot later on so don't forget your pain and don't push it to the back of your head face them head on and if you lose no one can call you coward because you faced your demons head on...
Your fine...I was bullied in school and I still get bullied at almost 22 years of age. Just ignore the shit it's very simple. If I can do it so can you. At the end of the day the money is in my pocket so fuck them. This music is beautiful though.
literally no matter what song i put nothing ever calms me down, but i found this a couple of months ago and i cant seem to stop loving it and it literally makes me fall asleep immidiately so thank you
hey! i know this is two weeks late, but please keep going. life is too short. please keep your head up, people love you! i hope you have a good week. much love
Thoughts that go like bullets through you / The time you told me that you wished you where dead / What's a broken arm when you can't stop choosing to/ Sleep thru ur alarms / Man you're losing your head (But I can't stop the...) The thoughts that go like bullets through you / The time you told me that you wished you where dead / (But I can't stop the...) What's a broken arm when you can't stop choosing to/ Sleep thru ur alarms / Man you're losing your head
Iyrics are actually "Thoughts that go like bullets through you the time you told me that you wish you were dead. But so broken on when you can't stop choosing to sleep thru ur alarms man, you're losing your head. (But I can't stop) The thoughts that go like bullets through you the time you told me that you wish you were dead. (But I can't stop) but so broken on when you can't stop choosing to sleep thru ur alarms man, you're losing your head." (:
i don’t know how many times i have came onto this video and read the comments and then vented. it feels like a safe place. no one’s judging because they’re going through the same. i just really don’t know what to do anymore. i don’t have any motivation because i know in the end it’s not going to be worth everything or anything. i honestly hate being a person it’s too hard. i cant anymore with the “it’s going to get better” “head up” “it’s going to be okay” “don’t say that riley” “you’re perfect the way you are”. only if you had my eyes. you’d see what i’d see and understand too. i hate myself and there’s not point in saying it when you can see it. you can clearly fucking see compared to my cousin. she’s skinner and shorter. she’s nit built like a fuckibg door like me. yes i have a loving boyfriend who thinks other wise but he too is one the reason i hate myself. he gets so mad over the dumb shit i do. it makes me feel like a burden. like no one would have to deal with me. i don’t even wanna deal with myself. i’m annoying fat ugly just everything. i wnat to lose weight and love myself. but the seems impossible when my body just won’t let me fuckibg lose weight. i just wnat to be happy. i just want to look at myself and say “hey. look at me. this is beautiful. this is me. i love me. oh my god this is me.” but no. i’m like this. i just think if i could just look how i wnat this would all be over. i’m too inscure to do anything. and it gets in the way of real life. actually fucking life. i don’t liek going out side because i feel like others would judge my body. i dont go to the store because it’s feel like they would too. i don’t like eating out because people probably think “no wonder why she’s eating out, i mean look at her”. i cant anymore. i just don’t see me having a future. at least a good one. please just one day can i love myself. ???
i hope youre doing okay now and more confident, no one deserves to feel this way. I know it could be really frustrating and i hope youre in a better place mentally now. Never let these thoughts win stay strong love
This is the song I run to when I am feeling like I need to cry. I listen to it a lot on Spotify, but currently not in the mood because of ads... But I need to cry, so I am here :)
I wish I could be fully happy again. I have no one. I have my family. My friends. But at the same time I have no one. I’m alone . I want to be with someone, who actually cares about me. and it’s not even the fact no one loves me, it’s the fact I have no one to love. I’m filled with emptiness
I started sobbing and the ‘time you told me that you wished you were dead’ it reminded me of when I broke down and told my best friend about how I was feeling suicidal two years ago and she didn’t even care
covid damaged me so badly. i genuinely have never felt more horrible, mentally. i feel guilty for being healthy because there are so many who are suffering or are not around and suffering anymore. i turn 17 soon and i worry that the fun part of being a teenager is being taken away from me. i am pretty sure that my friends and i are drifting apart and it all just makes me feel so broken. i feel so broken. there's nothing i want to do more than see my friends and my family and give them the biggest hug, but i know that i can't because it could kill them or someone they love. all of this mess was so preventable and i just want things to be normal again. i miss normal life. i just want all of this to be over. i am so lonely and scared.
Every morning I get up at 6:00am to treck through dark woods and wait at my bus stop. Then for the next hour I just put my headphones in and play this on repeat as I stare out of the window and try to get a little sleep. The emotions are real people, glad I'm not completely alone here.
I’ve had a really rough week and I’m looking at the comments and they seem so welcoming and helpful, I wouldn’t mind another lonely person to talk to. And the more I look at the comments I feel like we are all in the Same position right now.
i listened to this in the shower. cried my eyes out, held my mouth so my dad wouldn't hear me. and got out of the shower pretending i was okay. now i have to go to school tomorrow also pretending im okay when im really not. i hate living like this, i wish i was back in 2016 where i had nothing to worry about, wasnt getting lectured about my grades dropping. or getting yelled at because i have cups in my room. or because i have nothing to be "sad" about. if youre seeing this im proud of you. keeping fighting
Hey idk if it’s day or night for you but your loved, it could be by a friend, your boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, wife,dog, cat or whatever but your loved no matter what anyone tells you. your important you were put on this plant to make someone’s life worthwhile and to make someone’s day shine little things can be big things.. your amazing no matter what you do even if you don’t have a job or even if you just play video games all day. Just wanted to let you know your very loved. and one thing, never doubt your self by the way. Don’t forget to tell people you love them before it’s to late..
I come back to this video quite often, and I just want to say that whenever I listen to this, I reflect on my past mistakes and my problems. I never actually realize how much is happening while I’m going through my daily life until I stop to think about it. Life’s incredibly shitty, but I’ve found that with time, some problems start to disappear or mend themselves, but maybe that’s just me.
i used to hear this everyday,it was 2 years ago,i miss that time but i don't know why maybe because things changed so much in these years ahead,even thought,i feel like things were easier
hello to the person reading this comment. you are amazing, beautiful, talented, and just outrageously worth it. you deserve the world, honey. you will get through whatever is making you listen to this perfect 1 hour loop video, i know it. you know it too, deep inside. just live through it and great things will come, i promise. i am here for you. follow my ig or add me on snap, i will listen. i love you. you're important to me.
For all you ppl who have felt pain and this song makes you, tells ur story and makes you cry yourself asleep. You're gonna be ok, it's a song that relates to many of us, we all go through shit...We just have to pick eachother up and stop judging and hurting eachother. You only live once, why waste it by ruining someone else's life. So if you're listening to this song in complete agony, just remember ur not alone and I hope you get what u want from life. If you want to share ur story, ur more then welcome to comment below my comment and ill read every single one of them...I'll be here for u :)
My girlfriend broke up with me. We were 2 Years together and one to another day she was gone. Not the same person anymore so cold. I dont know what to do. Iam so broke. It feels like i lost everything. What should i do....
Estra it gets better eventually i went through the same thing i lost someone so close to me now it’s like their a whole different person im still recovering from all the pain. i miss them so much but i know i can’t have them looking at them at school makes me want to break down. i hope your doing better
yhadira hernandez Hey man! Yeah man life is good! Its getting better and better every day. 3 weeks ago i tought i would die but know i can start a new life. There is so much i didn‘t do because my ex told me that i cant do it because of her. I hope you doin good too but anyway trust me it gets better every day ☺️ And if you want to talk text me every day! i will be here for you :-)
found this song around a year or two ago when i was really depressed and suicidal. now even though some days are rough, i've learned that the pain wont last forever and that it is only temporary. i am much happier now but as i listen back to this song i can feel the old me's emotions and thoughts. even though this is a nice song i cant listen to it without feeling sad and heavy
It's 9/6/2020 2:00 am and here I am listening to this on loop thinking about everything and nothing at the same time And hoping by this time next year everything will be okay and I will be happy......
What is the best thing you could be doing right now and why aren’t you doing it? Whatever is stopping you, don’t let it. You’re so much stronger than you could ever know. There is power inside of you, don’t let them take that away. You’re incredible.
I've cried so much so frequently that my eyes are actually sore and I'm just starting to tear up. It hurts. Physically and emotionally I just want to be loved. No not liked, not admired, *loved.* And I feel like I'm never gonna have that.its been years now of me feeling so horrible, it just lingers... *y'know*
