Passive Influence: Alters affecting things from the inside 

Annnnd you just described my every day life. I didn’t realize this had names. Especially “memories disappearing as they are happening” I frequently feel like, I’m doing something but I’m forgetting it as it happens. Like I’m aware it’s currently happening but ask me about what I did 30 seconds ago and I’m like idk, but I’m doing it. Smh

We're an OSDD1b system so all this is happening to us 95-100% of the time. The self-puzzlement, or identity confusion, is honestly the worst part. We've had spells of identity confusion last for years where our host/cores didn't understand who they were because of our accidental influence. And even now, our host has a lot of self-doubt since he can influence the rest of us to act and think like him. It's really great you guys are talking about this so more people can begin to heal from the pain it can cause.

OH MY GODS. Yes. Experience this very often. This just reminds me of an incident that occurred a few years back. I was with my friends at an event. My friend started walking away, and honestly I really don't remember where she was going, all I know is that I don't think I wanted her to go. I was holding a muffin in my hand, and all of a sudden, to my utter horror, I whipped the muffin at the back of her head as she was walking away. It was so confusing because I hadn't ever decided to do it, in fact I had no idea why I would ever do something like that. It was literally as if my arm had acted all on it's own (with very precise aim, I might add). My friend was understandably super pissed at me and I felt awful and totally helpless because I had to take responsibility for something that I never actually did. Understanding passive influence makes it make a ton of sense. And I'm also super used to my thoughts being randomly taken away mid sentence or mid explaining something. It's so embarrassing. I'm lucky I have such understanding friends.

We get this _a lot_ with our little. Anytime he's anywhere close to the front, whoever's out will start acting a bit littler. It was really confusing for us back before we realized he existed 😅 I'll also sometimes get one of the others' accents leaking into my speech or find myself using my left hand. Actually, I have a really good physical example of this! Jake & Loki played D&D together recently, and I wrote their names down for them on our character sheet, and I _know_ it was me who wrote it, but when I went back to look at it later I realized both of their names were in their own handwriting. None of us even realized it had happened at the time lol

I so relate to the dysphoria. I can look in the mirror and be like "when and how did I get so tan and old? What happened from point A to point B that I suddenly look this way?"

This this this!! Passive influence is a major part of our lives, more than co-fronting or switching. Sometimes I confuse passive influence with sickness, pain, dizziness, irritability, being moody... until one of the system clearly states their thoughts "It's just that I'm tired of being around people." Alexia may say or "I really need to stretch and work out! Is it time for the gym yet???"

I'm fairly certain I have OSDD and my alters only really affect me through passive influence, or something like that since they can front it's just... Weird. That said experiencing the effects of passive influence with no words to describe what you're going through and no idea what could possibly be doing this to you is hell, I had so much identity confusion through all of high school, my sense of style and my hobbies and my gender and sexuality and even my name changed so many times that by the time it was over I had no idea who I was. This current state of identity only appeared because I became so burdened by the emotional impact of this confusion that I could no longer function, so it got seperated off into a persecutor and I got to keep going. I'm honestly really glad for this video because even now I was still worried that I was "faking by accident" somehow because how could I have alters if I was so aware of my differences in behavior and feelings and stuff, passive influence apparently is how

This is such a big mood I mean that literally because I feel that alot and have for YEARS. This is part of why I haven't thought for sure why I was a system. I thought it was me subconsciously faking.

This was definitely a "woah everything makes sense now" for me

I'm not officially dx yet but my drs think DID or OSDD.. I experience this almost daily more than any actual full switch. Like I could be me and be fine and see a person and suddenly my mouth will ask something in a different voice and I'm like why the hell did I say that? Especially like that I sounded so weird and not me.... thanks for you guys doing these vids for the whole system. So helpful and educational

I'm part of an OSDD system, passive influence is a huge part of our every day lives. Maybe it makes sense that passive influence is more common in OSDD systems?

My host has told us once, while in class, he heard a little kids voice calling his name. This was a few months ago. There has been more events such as this but this is the one most fresh in our mind. He was in class and heard our little calling his name. I believe he wanted to tell him that he finished drawing a picture for him but Edward was so focused on the school work he had to block him out. Which upset the little but he understood that we were at school. -Simon.

This video terrified me, there were so many lightbulb moments going off. There has to be a reason I’m attracted to videos on DID. Another video you did gave me insight on why I always have to have noise around me. I tried to read an article about bringing out your alters, but my internal argument wouldn’t let me read it. My mind is fighting against itself, how do you know when you’re ready to face the possibility of having DID?

Passive influence makes a lot of sense of you think about how even normative people might, for example, say a totally different sentence that what they mean to say because they're thinking about a sentence someone just said to them, or how someone might start slipping into an accent if they hear going around them speaking with that accent. When you have so many people in your head it's inevitable that they would influence you simply by when's being exposed to them constantly, and that's before even taking into consideration all of the stuff about sharing the same brain, the same body, adding trauma in there etc

I literally JUST got the "entropical fish" name and that is adorable and clever.

I deal with Speech Insertion all the time. It's probably my biggest issue, ya know, besides having D.I.D. I'll be in the middle of a sentence and one of my alters will just start "talking" instead on a completely different topic. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to tell anyone I know personally about my system, so everyone just thinks I'm scatterbrained. Luckily, the same issue doesn't happen very often with texting or typing! But, oh boy, when it does, everyone's confused. P.S. I'm so glad I have been able to find your channel, as well as a few others across the web, that have all helped me so much to realize that we are a valid system, and that I'm not alone. It truly means so much to be able to hear other people talk about D.I.D. in a way that isn't dismissive. All the love in world to the Entropy System

I definitely get the “saying thing you didn’t mean to say” thing. I remember one time I was talking to my parents about my mental health, and my dad was being skeptical, which he does quite a bit. Yet, I said to him “and you wonder why I don’t come to you about stuff like this” with a smug *smile* and I regretted it immediately. I’ve also had thought withdrawal where I was in the middle of a sentence thinking something when it felt like it was snatched away. Yeah I’ve definitely had that feeling multiple emotions and perspectives at once. I remember once time my dad said something that was particularly upsetting to Erika. I remember her being very angry, and myself being “oh no here we go” and I also remember Simon trying to calm Erika down. Temporary loss of skills haha yuppp. I remember some days I would just... straight up forget how to play the saxophone. Even though I was in a jazz band for years. I wouldn’t even be able to hold the damn thing properly. Also all of us have varying fluency in French. Yeah, I’ve definitely had dysphoria when certain alters are close.

This put words to so many feelings I have, and things that I experience and couldn't explain. Thank you so much for this!

ive been diagnosed with osdd (the evaluators were fairly bad at their job and couldnt even tell me what type of osdd.) and i experience almost no direct contact. when you talked about the childs voice i literally went pale. i have been hearing a child laugh in my room for months i experience every single symptom of passive influence you mentioned. as someone whos denied the reality of the alters for years, it was soooo validating and was a big eye opener edit: this scared me a lot. i also found a comment on this video from a year ago thats from my account. i think a different alter commented that. due to it i now know two names of the alters, mark and natalia

"oh. Why am I female?" That's us all the time omg 😂. -Baz from the Spinach System

Kit I have DID and ive never been diagnosed and the docs in Newfoundland are not good. And dont have a clue about DID. i have over 10 personalities and ive never told anyone before. This is my first time saying it outloud to someone. I change and switch quite a lot... i have men and women and fairies and witches in my system and others i prob dont know about. They wont give me names .... i feel their all me in diff ways but i lose a lot of time but then im co conscious most of the time. Do i just carry on as best i can ? I feel pulled in many directions and sometimes my body doesnt function at all. Im not afraid and i love myself fully..... but theres a lot of me i feel spread out into these personalities and ive been like this as long as i can remember. No one ever noticed or said anything..... i for the first time asked my mom who isnt accepting of much, how many personalities she thinks i may have ..keep in mind she doesnt even know what DID is. She said you have at least ten.... I feel 12 personalities . When she answered me i just said okay interesting and we left it at that. It was like i wanted the validation that i am different and switch a lot. She noticed but she has no idea. She thinks that i just have a wide variety of mind issues. She doesnt relize the trauma i endured through my life split me into many people. I love u all and im grateful your here. Thank you♡

Holy shit, I think passive influence might describe my entire existence tbh. I’m undiagnosed but I’m starting to realize just how serious my dissociation has been. It feels really good to have someone describe experiencing the same thing I’ve been unable to put into words for so long. 😭

yup. this is sooo relatable for us. Especially out of place thoughts or feelings that seemingly pop up out of nowhere. Internal conversations I used to think everyone experienced buuut turns out it’s not when it’s quite literally a full on internal debate😂

I actually experience this a lot more than actual and full fronting (I have osdd) and it was super helpful to hear more about it, because I also never heard of this term before. Thanks for the video! :)

Just like you I had no idea what passive influence was like a named thing, but we experience it heaps.

Yep, definitely hit most of those! The dysphoria was always the most confusing, it happened in different ways from eye color, to chest size, to tone of voice.. I actually had no idea it was considered a passive influence! Your Mistletoe sounds like our Seth(he was quite the bully, pre-awareness), and ironically enough at some point Amy also thought Seth was the ghost of a 7 year old boy... The price on her face was pretty priceless, but finding out about our DID definitely answered a lot of questions we had in our lives! Thank you for this video Kit! -Chelsea

Wow! Thank you so much for giving me words to describe feelings I regularly experience. I have an important therapy appointment tomorrow, so fantastic timing too.

Ive experienced it once when my mother was hitting me. I cursed at her while I knew it wasn't me. I dont remember anything that happened before I said it.

The hair just gets better. Absolute fire you guys 🔥👌 Hi Kit, thank you for yet another awsome and very educational video! Sending lots of love to everyone ❤ Also shout out to Daniel, you're great and we love you...!

This is like our everyday day! Lmao we’re almost always influencing each other. We’ve learned self soothing whatever alter is influencing you can help and grounding but gosh it confusing sometimes!

I experience this all the time... and I think I might have osdd. But my therapist said “that's normal“ and I was just like “Nooooo?“

I definitely experience this a lot. Some of the most awkward moments have been, for example, when I'm having an intimate moment with my wife and I suddenly feel either a gay alter or a female alter passively influencing me and suddenly feeling like I'd rather be with a man. Another thing that happens is less awkward but extremely inconvenient. I might be at work and suddenly lose the skill to do the task at hand. It's all my years studying and my work experience just vanishes. I once lost an important client because of that!

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I get this a lot. I am not diagnosed but heavily suspicious and this is uh... telling. I was getting a bit angry with myself for not being able to be straight with people (because I seem to lack a singular perspective on everything). This video was extremely helpful so thank you! I may not have a reason to beat myself up after all 😅

It's been a little month I used terms like DID or OSDD 1b....... Yet, it't will be 10 years of being several people in one body at the end of june 2019 for us. So I didn't know "passive influence"..... Yet, even as a OSDD 1b (always co-conscious) I have some passive influence which can sometimes make my boyfriend feel weird : If he want's to kiss me, at a very moment one of my alters want to front to do something else,... it's still me, I'm just about to lend the body to someone, and I can refuse the kiss, just because someone else is around to take control. I always show my system to my boyfriend as a group of ten totally seperate personalities, but sometimes, there are things mixed up. Passive influence for our OSDD1B is kinda different than with DID. Our memory troubles are not the same. And "hearing voices" and "internal conversation" are totally natural. Don't know if all OSDD1B have an "innerword", but when I close my eyes, while I let the body lay in my bed for exemple, and not only I can hear them there, but I also can see them there. The innerworld never disappear, mine is 4 walls with sky upon, and a "window-to-physical-world" I call "la Fenêtre des yeux" (eyes-window, but I'm french ^^). I can connect to physical world, and if nobody controls the body, then it falls on the ground, like soul-less (We totally avoid to do it somewhere else than a bed ^^). While I'm connected to this window, I still can here them talking. But I can, with some effort, focus enough on the physical world to ignore them (at university for exemple). And they still can steal the body sometimes, or parts of it. It's when I can't communicate with them that is weird..... it happened only once. With a severe depression. We're a crew, a team, like a family in one head ^^. Also, I used to have "passive influence" only when I was young, only inner- conversations and inner-visualizations. It took time for some of them to success to front. Especially at the begining (between 2009 and 2013). It's since Roberto came from nowhere and front (in 2013) that the other tried.... and now, switching, internal-talking, everything is kind of a routine to us ^^

My life used to be almost nothing but passive influence. I was always co-conscious but our protector was making most of our decisions (especially around our parents). I always would say things I felt like I didn’t control and assumed it was my emotional side.

Alex: ...oooh. That. Explains so much about the auditory hallucinations I’ve been having over the past several months. That makes so much more sense now. We also had a big issue with thought withdrawal early on. Sloan would be so close to front when I was fronting in the early days of knowing us as a system that they would pull back and suddenly half my day was gone and I was left confused and kinda bereft. W: Kit I relate so much with that speech insertion issue. I think my thoughts very loudly and can be a sarcastic shit so. Sometimes things are said that Alex does not want said in that particular moment. I’m working on it 😅. Thanks for the wonderful video as always! I never knew there was a term for this and the explanations given are so helpful for explaining shit to my friends.

I did my alters would come close to the front and then I would say something that I didn't want to say and then they would fall to the back and I would be like why did I just say that.

We’ve known a lot about passive influence for a long time but though withdrawal was something I’ve never heard of, before? Every time I have a strong argument with someone I would forget it completely afterwards and I wouldn’t know what we talked about? It’s so hard because because would ask me why we argued about and I wouldn’t be able to answer, and it happens a lot so much with other things and it’s just awful,, I don’t know who could be taking these memories (if it is thought withdrawal) though so that will be something scary to look forward to for now

I have passive influence all the time but never knew the vocabulary for it.

Our host is (so far) almost always at least slightly conscious when the body is awake. He is always just so confused by us having passive influence. He's actually writing this for the rest of us. He doesn't know my name, so he probably will sign this as "unknown alter" (I will lol -Cairo). He only recently learned the name of Alice, the first alter to openly be co-con with Cairo and tell him her name. While looking for face claims, we keep switching in and out of co-consciousness and Cairo gets so confused. It personally makes me laugh because he is only now, after almost five years of being the host, expressing his confusion in this sense. Cairo had identity crises almost everyday before learning that he wasn't alone in the body, but now that he knows we exist, he just doesn't know where he ends and we begin. Thanks for the vid! -an unknown alter, and Cairo, host of the Zephyr System :)

This is so incredibly interesting to me, as someone without DID. Your insights are very enlightening to me with regard to my beliefs on the nature of consciousness and the like. I'd love to hear more of y'all's perspective on consciousness and how you view its ability to split and merge, etc. I think a big reason why mainstream science seems to resist DID and related conditions is because they don't want to acknowledge consciousness itself, your thoughts on that would be super interesting to hear if that's something you're comfortable discussing. Just a suggestion 🙂. Thanks for sharing your knowledge with the RU-vid public, I think it does a lot to spread awareness and understanding of these conditions.

speech influence! thank you for giving us these words to help us communicate much more effectively! -noel

I just discovered I have OSDD-1 and this video was pivotal in my journey to realization. I've been watching your videos for months and way back then a nagging fear started that I might have DID...after all I'm an abuse survivor and it's one of those things that you can't exactly pin down. After months of this off-and-on anxiety, my system started getting VERY active due to other events. If I hadn't watched your videos (especially this one, as it's how my alters primarily influence things), I'd have had no idea what was happening! Thank you so much for all you've done to educate people and spread awareness

This validated so much for me. Thanks for your education!!! Love your channel so much!!!

That makes so much sense! When I get into an argument with someone Ashur always comes forward and it's like him talking while I'm the one fronting, then I'd have no recollection of what was said after it was over. Just like you said! Thanks for clearing up what was happening! -Tony

Oh my gosh! HUGE eye opener. I have not heard of this term. But yes, i have experienced many of these descriptions. It explians alot. How does this differ from co- consciousness? And could this be the basis of a lot of ddnos? Gotta tell you, this is a HUGE revelation. THANK YOU for doing this video.

Wonderful video! It was super helpful and worth the watch

omg yes. Passive influence is actually what we've mainly used, and actually started fully fronting maybe 6 months ago. The best way I've found to describe it is almost like a VR gaming livestream. Whoever is playing, let's say Person A is wearing the straps to control the character, is the one who is fully up front, playing the role of the body. But it turns out, Person A is still standing in the control room (inner world) and if Person B decides they want to watch the other play, instead of watching the gameplay (outside world) and now person B can surprise Person A by grabbing their arm, or yelling into the microphone. But remember, that comment stream is also still going, and that's just thought transfer. Person A has to make the choice constantly to see if the comments are getting upset or angry, make sure any one who wanted to watch and focus on Person A, rather than the game (outside world) is entertained enough, or content enough, while playing a game. Life: the hard level For us, the one who is usually "person B" is our little. Also, our host can only really be in the "control room".

I experience passive influence often and especially if I am really relaxed and having a good time or if I am feeling very anxious. Thank you for explaining and covering this as well as your many other videos. It has really helped me to come to grips with being a system. Most of my life I was saddled with the label "Undefined Mood Disorder" and left just to wonder what was wrong with me. Turns out nothing was wrong with me I just have DID which makes me different sure, but not wrong. My alters passive influence me a lot and watching this video just hit so many check boxes again it shocks me.

Merciful goddess! Yes, I have experienced this before. It was so weird. I remember hanging out with my best friend (thankfully supportive and has some knowledge of DID) and we were talking about my ex, and out of nowhere I ended up calling her the c word, which is not a word I use AT ALL. It shocked me that something like that could come out of my mouth. My best friend was surprised, too since he rarely if ever hears me curse. I later found out it was our protector in a mood.

I had no idea there was a name for it, and it explains so much as that's how our DID manifests the most. My alters don't actually front all that much, unless there's an emergency or just generally moments where they are needed the most, as they prefer to be - what we call - backseat driving. 90% of my day to day life I'm in a state of consciousness where I am still me, and in control of the body, but my personality, thoughts, mannerisms, taste, likes and dislikes is slightly different and similar to that of one of my alters. I'm guessing that's passive influence? This is why my alters tend to refer to me as a shifter, or a chameleon, or a Ditto (from pokémon), cause my personality is always shifting around because of their influence. And oh gods, the number of times they've had me do things I'd never even consider doing, just because THEY wanted to do it. In the past, it's been even more confusing and scary than actual switching. We're more used to it now, so now it can be more annoying than scary, especially if I don't want them backseat driving. Thanks for this incredibly enlightening video! It really explains things in a very unterstanding way that's really helpful.

THANK YOU!!! Had no idea that this was an actual thing. So much more makes sense now! 👍🙏❤️

OMG the intrusive feelings and actions so accurately described my life! I experience all of these, but the worst symptom for me is this. I’ll lie in bed at night just bombarded with different urges, such as writing, mediating, pulling some tarot cards, reading, doing more homework, drawing, going to the store, getting a cat, texting someone, and literally just everything/anything you could think of. And it’s all at once. I’ll literally go from one activity to the next and get no sleep because my brain is just so scattered. It’s like it’s in a game of tug a war but with a million ropes. At first I thought it was ADHD, but I’ve had ADHD nearly my whole life and it was never like this. The urges were just so strong, intense, dire, urgent that I couldn’t shake them from my mind. Thank you so much for describing this in a video! 💕

Love you guys, and the new hair!!!❤️💕

i have complex ptsd and i was never able to explain a lot of the symptoms your described so accurately to my experience as well!! thank you so much for making these videos!!

Yay! So many uploads, this is a gift :)

I've been doing research on this stuff and your videos are very helpful. Thank you :). I hope you all are doing good.

This makes a lot of sense. I could always see Rayne around in the room. This is how he protected me. He would make sure that he would wrap his arms around me in an embrace every single time I felt scared. When he would do this I would feel his touch, and he would help me calm down.

Thank you so much Kit (& the others) for this great and educational video! 😁 We very much appreciate your channel and everything you guys do for the community! Your videos honestly helped me/us understand a lot more about this disorder. &You all are awesome and genuine people! Thank you again 💕 Also My system deals with everything you said on almost a day to day basis. It's very frustrating but we survive lol

Thank you all for posting this video! This really helped broach the subject with our partners in another system, and helped us begin to better understand what we all are going through.

Just when I think I’ve seen every video, another suggested shows up just when I need it most! ❤️ So, so grateful for The Entropy System’s content, knowledge and candidness. The world needs more people like you!

This explains so much! I have been freaking out for weeks over this.

oh my word!!! Thank you for that amazing explanation of something that happens to me every day and I cannot seem to figure out what's going on much love to you great job!!!

Omg your channel is just a breathe of fresh air i love how you explain everything so, well and in detail with every word you really takwe your type to put into contexts and try your very best to show and get into what DID is and what it is all about thank you so much.

OMG you videos are so helpful. Thank you for making them.

This video is SO IMPORTANT. Most of these things we have experienced, and as we tend to constantly analyse anything that's happening, we had our own words for some of these things! I did know about passive influence, but all these experiences with their own names helps A LOT. During the whole video I was "oh so THAT'S what it was"! Thank you so much for this!!

Yeah having the WHOA moment... Didn't know there was a word for it! We're so grateful for your system and all the help you've been giving us over the short 6 months sine our "awakening" moment. With so little info out there in a relatable and kind way for those of us starting out the journey and fighting to find correct help, your videos has been an amazing help, source of comfort, and a light when things got dark and confusing. You all are SUPER!

You help me so much I almost cry every time I understand something going on in my head! YOU ARE SO GREAT!

Omg so many terms i didn't know the word for but expierenced. Thank you so much for your wonderful videos!

We had this job at an inbound customer call center years ago, and mainly it was Alex who was responsible for doing that to such a degree that when something upset him one week so much that he completely vanished for several days, the rest of us spent those hours at work scrambling and putting in three times the effort to do half as much as Alex could do. It was such a huge relief when he finally came back.

the saying things without meaning to is a huge thing for us. i never will forget being in maths class back when i was younger and we were doing trigonometry and as the teacher explained tangents, our little piped up and asked "isn't that a type of orange?" we can look back and laugh now, but i was so confused and embarrassed when it happened!!!

Good morning entropy! Its a lil early today but i just wanted to let u know i really like ur videos. Ur really good at explaining all the simple and complicated terms and examples at how u see and interact with the world; and what your perception is of the world, and how u interact with it. I used to date someone with d.i.d. and paranoid schizophrenia. Its was very confusing and alot of drama. Not even her family really knew what she had, so i had to learn on my own, and then teach her own family about it. It seems like you have no problem explaining to the world about it, with no ill will and i thank you for sharing the experiences of the condition with me.

I’m so glad I found this video! This puts so many of my thoughts into context, I’ve been trying to figure out what was wrong with me for days! My alters almost never take over but I feel passive influences all the time, I was beginning to think I’d made the whole thing up or that I had something else entirely.

omg thank you so much for covering this. I didn't know there was a word for it. I experience this near constantly. It really had me doubting what it was i even had. its extremely confusing but I at least can handle it a bit more calmly that i know its not just me, instead of fretting about it.

Do you think you could talk more about depersonalizations? I have it, but I don't know much about it, and I think that an educational video could possibly help me understand it more

I didn't know there were set terms for these things! Thank you for talking about it.

OH MY GOODNESS! THANK YOU FOR THIS VIDEO. so many emotions. Feeling crazy for so long and hearing that what im experiencing is NORMAL and MAKES SENSE is so validating. I want to cry because it feels so good to understand myself better. THANK YOU. Just talked to my therapist this past week about thinking i had OSDD and she confirmed that as i finally was able to have some symptoms in front of her. Thank you. If it wasnt for you channel i wouldnt be starting the journey to understand my osdd.

Honestly at this point I'm watching your entire channel 😅💙 still undiagnosed but I've experienced almost every point you've presented in this vid, and I'm honestly just so happy to feel not alone in this stuff. Like thought withdrawal is so so common for me, and Ive never had an inner monologue, my whole life I've had inner conversations, many chiming in, not even a dialogue. It's comforting seeing your channel 💙

OK, this makes so much sense! I definitely get this, especially with Kitty! The way I described it was a thought or emotion that felt foreign. It was the first thing I really felt was wrong with me and I honestly thought I was going insane. Thank you for making this video ❤️

A bit late to the party, but I've just watched this video and literally said "omg, yes!" to everything said here. I've only recently come across your channel, but we're enjoying it very much! Thank you for all you do to reduce stigma for DID/OSDD systems! 😊💫

This is all super helpful as many of your videos are and we thank you all for helping everyone, us included. i never realised how many of these i'd get so often. i'd usually get auditory hallucinations of a man either saying my name or saying something in general, i havent figured out who yet but i have feelings of who it may be, i get other influences often too most of which i'd figure out who it was pretty quickly.

OMG! The temporary loss of skills or knowledge thing. I was trying to find a bus stop that I'd gone to like a million times before, but as a totally DIFFERENT alter, and I couldn't find it! I was so frustrated I wanted to sit down on the pavement and cry! Every time I turned a corner I kept expecting to see it and it wasn't there! I finally found a memorable landmark and there it was... I was like, what is going on!?? -Holly

I love how informative your (and the rest of your system's) videos are~ A lot of these resonate with a lot of what I've experienced through the years but haven't really had definitive terms to call them by. Like the temporary loss of skill/knowledge. There've been a couple of times I've gone into the kitchen to grab a snack, and I'll get to the cabinet only to realize that I can't for the life of me remember how to open the cabinet. Like the 'reach up with hand' and 'grip door handle' actions just weren't there anymore. It took my friends asking why I'd been staring confusedly at the cabinet for numerous minutes for me to come out of it and explain that I couldn't remember how. Then, it was like I suddenly remembered my hands existed, and it all came back to me. If they hadn't jogged my brain, I'd probably have eventually given up on trying to figure out how to open the cabinet. Internal conversations is a really big one for me, as well. After I discovered who/what one of my scarier alters really was, it was like everyone wanted to be active and gathered near the front for a while. It made grocery shopping interesting, our little kept alerting us when we passed by something he wanted (coloring books, markers, anything Pooh Bear or Disney related). He usually stays pretty quiet when we're out and about.

thank you for this inf. helped me to better understand some things that have been happening

Wow I didn’t realize that I had passive influence so much till now thanks for the video it helped me alot

Ohhh gotta call myself out Kit! I was ALMOST going to make a comment about you being “human” 🤦‍♀️about not being Daniel’s super fan. (I imagine of you guys as a family, and family doesn’t always get along and I see the respect there, so good on you!) You are rocking that purple lip stick! I really enjoy the videos, I learn so much! ❤️

holy heck all of this stuff are things we relate to heavily, thanks for making this video! also your comment on how self alteration is something that trans people experience a lot really made me think about how my experience as a trans person has influenced my experience as part of a system, and vice versa

Alot of what is shared here resonates. I'm no longer dissociative, meaning that parts came together but when we weren't yet, so much passive influence took place. It's really validating to watch these vids. Thankyou.

This reminds me of a short sci fi story I read, Hallucination. In that, there was a being who could only communicate with others through passive influence. interesting video as always!

I’m a newly diagnosed DID system, so I’m still learning. This was so helpful. These things happen a lot to us and they have been confusing, scary and difficult to deal with. Thank you for explaining it.

I watched these in 2019, pre system awareness. About two years ago we realized we’re a system too (osdd-1b) and rewatching these… yeah.. we understand why we connected so deeply to y’all’s videos a few years ago. You put into words what we were experiencing before we knew that’s what it was and gave us the knowledge to seek out a trauma informed therapist that changed our lives for the absolute best. Thank you all.

THIS FINALLY MAKES TOTAL SENSE. Thank you so much for making this! I think we mostly relate to the "saying something you didn't mean to say" I remember I was fully fronting at work, and one of my coworkers said something that my other coworkers were saying behind my back. I guess it triggered something inside and Shaun, our persecutor protector, was close to the front, so I just responded them with a really aggressive comment and swearing. Something I'd never say or do in front of others like that. Usually I just keep it inside and get over it. I guess Shaun was having none of it lol But all of these make total sense, didn't even know there was a term for it, haha!

Very imformative and good use of examples too. Stay cool, stay you, love from the land down under x

I'm finding it really difficult to be in denial about possibly having OSDD when this is so damn relatable to my own experience and explains so much. I still feel like I'm faking.

You have helped me a lot with this video. Thank you.

This happens regularly! Thanks for the video! -Quinn

Omg this hits soooooo close to home!!! Hi Canary system here! Lydia suffers from this A LOT! Mostly from Jay Jay but a little from other alters as well. She said that this video helped explain so much of her life to her. We have had it pertty rough, especially with our parents and not knowing we had DID up until a year ago almost now. Lydia said that the most common thing she noticed was the fact that Jay Jay would offten want to do self destructive things and that would leak onto Lydia. Also Jake doesn't feel comfortable in our feminine body.

I'm struggling with denial currently as I just found out that I might have osdd and so many of things you said are really validating for me thank you for making this wonderful content.

Me when I realized DID was a thing: Waaaait the voices are not supposed to depict different and constant people? And since then I felt like I'm going crazy again ._. yes again... I think I explained the symptoms away when I realized I'm kinda halucinating voices but from the inside. Temporary loss of ability... Why does DID explain everything I noticed about myself since that weird dissociative lapse I had?