Remembering Andrew - Our Eulogy 

A grief counselor told me the waves of grief drown you in the beginning then the time comes you merge above the waves for a gulp of breath. The waves will come longer apart, in the end, you're able to breathe but the waves will keep coming. Wider apart, wider apart, until they come every now and then. Pull you off your feet, make you go under, but you get up again. You loved each other, that is such a gift.

Your eulogy for Andrew has lifted our spirits. From Tolkien: "The journey doesn’t end here. Death is just another path, one that we all must take. The grey rain-curtain of this world rolls back, and all turns to silver glass, and then you see it…. White shores, and beyond, a far green country under a swift sunrise."

Andrew’s smile radiates in Madeline’s face. ❤️

The first time I watched Fruity Knitting I thought "this man ADORES his wife." I feel your loss. Thank you for allowing us to share in your grief. 💔

How blessed Andrew was to be so deeply loved, and to deeply love in return. Our prayers are with you

As a Buddhist I would like to say "May your tears honour his love, both for you and family ". And don't let anyone mention "closure".

Andrew was really inspirational to me as a man because he knitted. When I would watch his knitting progress, I knew that I could get better at it, too, and it would challenge me to not stop.

Madeleine looks a lot like Andrew, she definitely has his smile, and his eyes. She is a way for you to see Andrew each day. I hope that you give each other great joy in remembering the times you had together.

I don’t think I hav ever been touched so much by someone I have never met. He was such a sweet spirit, and his legacy will live on, not only to those who knew him, but in generations of knitters to come. Hang on!

" Grief is a hole you walk around in the daytime and fall into at night." Losing my father when a bit younger than Madeline I can understand your loss He was an amazing man, husband and father

Thank you for sharing Andrew with us, the Fruity Knitting viewers. He will be much missed by us all, but I know his loss will be hardest for you and Madeleine. Please remember, there is no right or wrong way to grieve, and no time frame that you have to adhere to. With much love. R

That was a beautiful tribute. I can hear Andrew saying, with a grin on his lips and a twinkle in his eyes, “Well done Dolls.”

That pat on the bum in the outtakes just sums up the man as I came to believe him to be - cheeky, irreverent, loving and mischievous. Your loss is profound. Madelaine's loss is profound. You shared him with us and we came to love and enjoy him too. I grieve your loss with you.

Last week I was thinking about you, and came here to see if there were some news of you all. And now this sad moment arrived. My deepest condolences to family and friends.

Two incredibly strong women celebrating their incredible man💕

Today is May 1, 2023, and I just watched this beautiful tribute to Andrew for the first time. Thank you for sharing Andrew with us. I understand how hard this must have been for you as I lost my husband to cancer 3 years and 2 months ago. Knitting, yoga, and walking saved and continue to save my soul and my sanity.

When my dad passed from cancer, my heart was broken. It still is. I saw many quotes in the first few months, that I really felt in my heart. I'd love to share them all with you, but I'll share two of my favorites. "The moment that you left me, my heart split in two; One side filled memories, the other filled with you. I often lay awake at night while the world is fast asleep, and take a stroll down memory lane with tears upon my cheeks. Remembering you is easy, I do it everyday. But missing you is heartache, that never goes away. I hold you tightly within my heart and there you will remain. You see, life has gone on without you, but I'll never be the same." & "Grief, I've learned, is really just LOVE. It's all the love you want to give, but cannot. All of the unspent love gathers in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love, with no place to go. And a bonus one... this one I always loved.. because I imagined these would be his words. It filled with me with comfort on some of my hardest days. Like when my boys were born, or when I think about how they'll never know his endless love... "As I sit in heaven, and watch you everyday .. I try to let you know with signs, I never truly went away. I hear when your laughing and I watch you as you sleep. I even place my arms around with you, to calm you as you weep. I see you wishing the days away, begging to have me home.. So I try and send you signs, so you know you're not alone. Don't feel guilty that you have life, life that was denied to me. Heaven is truly beautiful, just you wait and see. So live your life, laugh again, enjoy yourself.. be free! Then I'll know each breath you take, you'll be taking one for me." I know nothing can make this time better or easier for you girls , and friends&family.. but I hope these find you some comfort in your darkest days. Grief is not a one way road, with a single path.. it's windy, hilly, and steep, with many detours. Take your time, remember him, and never feel like you aren't "getting better", because everyday that you get through this, is another day you've won! - xoxo Amber

It’s been almost 9 years since my husband died. Someone said grief is like an onion of fog - over time layers fall away and you realize that you are at a new place mentally and emotionally. I understand your pain.

Thank you so much for allowing us to say goodbye to Andrew with you. As the video laid bare your pain, it also clearly showed all the love and joy your family shared. I am grateful for the time I have spent watching Fruity Knitting and getting to know you three virtually. You honored Andrew beautifully and I believe that knitters all around the world have found peace, healing, and comfort in this heartfelt eulogy.

My heart goes out to you. My daughter lost her husband at 39. She has four boys and those boys and her faith in God have pulled her through. I will keep you and Madeline in my prayers

Andrew was a sweet, charming and unbelievably talented man. Thank you for sharing him with us.

Andrea and Madeline you have created a beautiful memory of Andrew for us to remember him. I have been watching your episodes since you began and have grown to appreciate your relationship. Thank you for sharing. Juanita

I was moved by this podcast. I lost my husband Oct. 26, 2020 and we were married 59 years. I can say that I can feel your pain. People who have not been through this really do not understand. I feel like I am doing well, but for no reason, I will fall apart and feel like I just can not go on without him. I am 80 and disabled and trying to make it in our home alone. Our two children and their families are thousand of miles away from me. I am blessed with wonderful friends and a church family who have made it possible for me to remain in our home. I had wanted to die first but that was not in God's plan. I have to keep on keeping on. Thank goodness for my knitting and my internet friends that I have. I will continue to have you and your daughter in my thoughts and prayers. Sincerely, Marie in NC, USA

“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation” . Prayers to you both. My deepest condolences 🙏❤️😢

We will always remember Andrew and his sweet and unique personality. Thank you for sharing this beautiful eulogy with us. We love you.

Vielen Dank fuer das Teilen dieser Erinnerung. Ihr seit beide wundervoll menschlich.

I am beyond words to express how it felt to witness the grace and depth you modeled during your family's process.

I am so sorry for your loss. Andrew always had a smile on his face; you could see how much he loved his family. Thinking of you and your family.

This eulogy was lovely. Since the time I first tuned in to your pod cast, I have been so blessed by observing the great love and respect you had for each other. This demonstration of a truly great marriage was as valuable to me as the knitting skills and projects featured. I always finished watching each podcast feeling uplifted and positive. I know I shall miss that, and Andrew so much. May God bless and protect you and Madeline in the days ahead. I pray for you regularly.

I don't know why your video came across my youtube feed. I have never knitted a single thing in my life, yet your video(s) consumed my evening and my heart. It did not take me long to realize I was watching something profound. I am so very sorry for your loss. I can see why Andrew captured your heart. What a lovely man. You and your daughter seem just lovely as well, inside and out. Wishing you comfort at this difficult time, and wishing you joy again, in time.

Fruity Knitting won't be the same without Andrew, and we'll miss him, but nevertheless we will enjoy the future episodes. Andrea, the future will be different, and sometimes difficult, but you can do it!

When my daughter died, I found A Grief Observed very helpful to help me understand my feelings. After many years have passed, I still remember him comparing losing a loved one to losing a leg....the acute pain eventually subsides, and you learn to function without that limb, but you’ll always be a one-legged man. Your life is altered forever.

You can be comforted by seeing so much of Andrew in Madeline, especially when she smiles. He will be with you always in your warm memories. My deepest condolences to you both. 🤗🌻💕

I'm watching this more than a year after you posted it and thinking back MANY, MANY years. I lost my dad when I was about Madeleine's age and my mom about your age. (That was in 1961) However, I can so identify with the two of you.

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Thank you for sharing your love for Andrew. It’s so hard to lose him from fruity knitting. You both and Madeleine have been a comfort to me for the last few years as we suffered loss after loss after loss. I can’t imagine your pain going forward but I do know grief. It’s a harsh task master who demands attention wherever and whenever he chooses. I pray that you both will continue to let us see your grief if it hits you during a show. Don’t worry about covering it up or editing it out. I will miss his walks with Jack especially.

Watching old Fruity Knitting episodes, my breath catches when I hear him talk about the future- a little comment here or there about being a shepherd or traveling somewhere. I know you are feeling that feeling and more every second of every day. He was yours and you were his. I'm glad we got to share a little of that.

A lovely memorial for a fine human being. "Life must go on, I forget just why." Sending condolences.

There are no words other than to say how very sorry I am. His was a life so well lived.

Dear Andrea and Madeleine, I can't say how grateful I am for this wonderful eulogy for Andrew which was both heartbreaking and so full of joy at the same time. There were so many different aspects on how to live life to the fullest, including the parts of Andrew's family, and watching this eulogy tells me that you have lived your life together to the fullest. It makes me very sad that you can't continue to build on this life together any longer but at the same time I can see that there must be so much space in your inner being of all the good things you have experienced because you were the extraordinary people you were - and are. So to me the grief seems to be the appropriate answer to the wonderfulness of what you have lost. I wish you both, Andrea and Madeleine that one day you can see light in the tunnel - in the company of Andrew's soul which, I am sure, will always be with you.

I can only imagine how difficult this must have been for you, it is lovely. Thank you for sharing.

How is it possible for such sadness and joy to meet and mingle in an hour of breathtaking, poignant beauty? What stunning highness of being you both demonstrate Madeleine and Andrea. You could have warned us about those outtakes though 😭😭😭😭😭. Thank you so so much for sharing this with us. What an extraordinarily special family you are. All my love to you 💗💗💗💗💗

This was the most beautiful thing I have seen in a long time. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful memories with us. I have never felt so much for people I do not know on a personal level. You are very lucky to have had him as your husband and your father. May his memory soon become a source of joy for you both. Love from Israel.

I feel so sad watching this. I have just lost my lovely husband to cancer too. I feel so lost. Thanks for sharing your beautiful story ❤️

Andrew's life was as well-lived as any life could possibly be--and that's the most that any of us can achieve. Thank you so much for posting this deeply moving video, and for taking the time and care to keep us updated over these past few months. My heartfelt condolences to you and Madeleine.

What a beautiful and touching tribute! I'm a 3.5 year widow. I also lost my husband to cancer. He also had very long hair when he was younger and loved rock music so though not traditional, it's what I played at his viewing and funeral.

That was an absolutely wonderful tribute to Andrew, I cried and laughed with you. Both of you are very strong people and give so much. When you go through the deepest experiences however sad and difficult they are to move through they carry with them the potential to enrich your world in a whole new way. Much love to you both.

SUCH a beautiful memorial. In the beginning I was crushed but by the end I was rejoicing in a life well lived. Bless you.....

It’s amazing looking back on the life of someone taken from us too soon. It’s almost as if they knew time was short, because they truly pack their lives full of the experience of living. They are so actively present in the world, drinking it all in. Andrew truly lived and your tribute to his life is so beautiful.

Thank You for allowing us to be with you and Madeleine in your grieving. You apologized for getting “heavy”. I thank you for sharing deeply. I will return to the CS Lewis book. I loved how Madeleine’s eyes lit up with joy in remembering her wonderful Dad. The letters of Andrew’s father and grandfather were beautiful. I send you and your family Love. Kathy Folk

Thank you for sharing this eulogy of Andrew with us. He was such a remarkable man, such an anchor for you and Madeline. Be gentle and kind to yourselves through this grieving process. We are here for you as we also mourn Andrew’s passing. Sending much love and hugs. ❤️

Thank you for sharing. My husband passed away June19 2018 and I understand your pain. Lean on each other. My daughters and grandsons were my rock.

We have been praying for Andrew in our daily Rosary. You are lovely people who have shared such joy with us. Your love for each other is inspirational. Peace be with you.

Im so sorry for. your. intense loss. When I look at your daughter I see Andrew. He. was a. lovely. wonderful. human as. are you. all. Thank. you. for. sharing. your lives. with our. community. It is. a blessing.

it's astonishing how I can be sitting here, on what looks like an ordinary day, doing ordinary things... how life just goes on, even despite things that I feel really should just stop everything for a while. The unreasonable silence of the world, Camus called it, a reference I think Andrew would have appreciated. This was beautiful. Thank you for sharing it, for giving me a moment of stopping.

As a person with stage 4 cancer this really struck home with me. First as a knitter, I just watched a 6 yr old vlog that just appeared and I loved you and Andrew , and next I knew I saw the word Eulogy and it punched me in the gut. I guess I should at least write a few letters to my hubby and kids. Thanks for the inspiration.

That was a beautiful tribute to Andrew. He was such a kind and gentle man, and I especially loved his sense of humour. Your programmes were always so informative and such a joy to watch. Your joy will come back one day.

So sorry for your loss and thank you so much for sharing all your beautiful memories of Andrew ❤️

Andrew will be missed. He was such a beautiful and intelligent soul. My thoughts are with you both during this time. Thank you for introducing Andrew to us and sharing your moments with us all. ❤️

Dearest Andrea & Madelyn, Please accept my deepest condolences at the passing of Andrew. He was a great guy and will be sorely missed by all. In sadness, Jon

I know this was hard, but at the same time, sharing your memories of him clearly brings you both joy - and this is a great way to honor him. In the years to come, may his memory continue to be a blessing for you both.

I am a new subscriber to Fruity Knitting. What an excellent site. The very best I have found after many years of knitting. I must send you and your family my most sincere condolences for the loss of your husband. I feel your pain. I too have lost my husband. You are in my prayers.

How lovely to see you both again so soon after losing Andrew. Of course there were tears today, but you also brought laughter and joy as you allowed us to share personal photos and memories of Andrew’s life. A life cut short but well-lived and well-loved. Fruity Knitting fans are ready when you are, Andrea. Take your time and let us know when to put the kettle on and get the knitting out 💕🙏🏻💔

Words cannot communicate the beauty and joy in your remembrances of Andrew. Thank you for sharing your heart ❤💙💜and love with us all. God strengthen you.

My goodness, I do feel your pain and I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes watching this, and I do understand you and the way you feel. I have lost so many lately to Cancer and the recent one just 3 days ago who was my ex. but still a friend. You are so brave to share these memories of you two and we will all miss him and take your time and don't feel pressured to get another podcast out unless you really want to. I'm so glad that you'll continue with the podcast because it would be a great loss for us all if you stopped. I'm sending my deepest condolences to you and Madeleine and the dog who also will miss him. Sending Hugs to you all.

When i heard this I started to cry. My heart is with you.

This was a beautiful tribute. Thank you for sharing this with us. Madeleine is so loving and supportive. Wishing you good days to come.

Soul mates you were and will always be... Sending you my love, from Portugal. 🙏❤️☀️

He was a clever man. He found you and held you dear. ❤️

I have been thinking of you and Andrew the past few days and this video pops up today...my heartfelt condolences to you and Madeline. You are some of the few lucky ones who experience such deep profound love. You are brave, God give you the strength. From India.

There are no words to express how sad I am to hear of Andrew's loss. I am already crying, and we're less than 5 minutes in, and it's over the loss of someone I have never met, but who nevertheless was someone I came to love. Thank you for the love and the joy that you and Andrew shared with each other and with your audience. Thank you for sharing this eulogy. Andrea, your opening words are profound, and I think your ability to articulate what you're experiencing will help many other people who are grieving. I do rejoice over the fact that Andrew is now perfectly well, but I grieve with you over the depth of the loss, the way you will not get to spend the next 25 years with him, and the pain laced through every moment for you. Hugs and prayers. May the One who comforts the brokenhearted be very near to you in this time.

How eloquent you are in your sadness and sore loss. Thank you. It tapped into my own personal losses, and helped me. God bless you.

My deepest sympathies to both of you, Andrea and Madeleine. We will miss Andrew's quirky sense of humour and adventurous knitting. Andrea, I'm so glad that you found C.S. Lewis and his writings.

I am new, just watched my first video with Andrew at your side. I can’t believe that he has since gone ahead. What a lovely lovely man. This is so sad. Thank you for recalling memories of him, it sounds as though he was the perfect husband and father. Many of us will be in awe of that and very jealous too. God bless him. Stay brave. ❤

danke, dass wir ein bisschen mehr über Andrew erfahren durften - ich habe fruity knitting erst vor 1Jahr entdeckt. Aber dass Andrew ein herzensguter intelligenter Familienmensch war, merkte man bei jedem Video. Ein Abschied, der so schnell und schmerzhaft war, dauert lange. Haltet zusammen. Möge er in Frieden ruhen.

Thank you for sharing such lovely memories and helping all of us with our grief. He was a special man.

I am so sorry for your loss, this must be such a difficult time for all of you. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. My thoughts are with you and I can only hope that you can draw some strength from the comments posted by us subscribers. We'll all miss Andrew so much. ❤️

This is only the second Fruity video I’ve seen and I was shocked to read the title. I have deep compassion for your loss. Andrew left behind a worthy legacy indeed. Your daughter is beautiful. We know the soul continues its evolution albeit in a heavenly place. God bless you both.

What a beautiful love story. Both of Andrea and Andrew ...and Madeline and her father. I lost my daughter. It was a process, trying to learn how to be alive after that loss. Early on I was given an image of two hands intertwined, one is grief and one is joy....I experience pure joy again and always profound grief. You will have joy again too... ...it will come. Thank you again for sharing and including all of us. Andrew touched many many lives through your channel ❤

So beautifully compiled and so lovely to see you and Madeleine - both of you so exceptionally strong. ❤️❤️

A beautiful tribute! I cried and laughed and feel like that is exactly how it should be. We are sad to loose loved ones, but we are overjoyed to have had them in our lives to begin with. ❤️

You are brave women. Andrew was an amazing man. G-d bless you both.

Bless you and your family. RIP Andrew, fly with the angels now. No one can explain and articulate quite like C. S. Lewis. He's one of my favorites.

a wonderful eulogy for a wonderful man! I loved his smiles and the little pointers you gave each other. Have great comfort from the letters and from each other.

A beautiful man, husband and father. He was a lucky man to find you, his life was full of love and happiness, not many can say the same. My sincere condolences to both of you. Thinking of your pain and how much you will have to deal with is devastating. I’m so sorry.

This was such an extremely beautiful memorial to such a beautiful and loving man. Andrew lives on in all hearts. And I think you need to publish a book of those letters memorializing Andrew, his father and grandfather!

What a wonderful tribute to Andrew. It was beautiful. Thank you for sharing him with us.

Thank you for making this beautiful video. It is so generous of you and Madeleine. Andrew was so special.

Thank you both so much for sharing Andrew with us! A beautiful man who will be dearly missed 💕

I am in tears. I knew of Andrew’s health challenges but only today have I learned of his passing. A spirit hug to you, Andrea, and to Madeline. Thank you for sharing this beautiful memorial. What a remarkable and wonderful man. He will be missed by your kindred knitting friends around the world! God Bless you ❤️❤️❤️

I just read the title of this video and started crying. I cannot imagine how difficult this was for both of you to make. Sending love to you both. Rest assured of my prayers. 🙏🏻💕🤗

I lost my husband 3 years in a boating accident. My heart goes out to you and Madeleine...please give yourself time to heal. The grieving process is difficult and is not the same for everyone. Hugs and prayers. On a separate note, Andrew recorded a special video message to new Patrons. Extremely well done and so nice to receive a welcome to the Fruity Knitting pod family! You could tell how much he loved you, Madeleine and his work. He will be greatly missed.

He is in your heart with the other lost loved ones, I had forty -one years as a wife the last six months doing hospice at home until the team nurse said it is time to go to Hospice.He didn’t want to go so I said then I will go , goodbye ! he grumpily said okay I will go .as Hospice will not take any one who is not willing I breathed a sigh of relief the threat worked. After one day he apologized and said you are right this is a wonderful place to be. Earlier on the night he died our son and I talked and we jointly decided this portion of our life was ending and that we would embrace our new life and enjoy it. I can say I am enjoying this new adventure . These are some of the best days of my life. We are lucky to have been surrounded with love to have loved and to give love then and now.🖖🍀💗☘️🖖

I am deeply saddened by Andrews passing. I lost my husband 5 years ago to a fatal water truck accident he had at work. I still miss him every minute. I still have times i can hardly stand the grief. They say time heals all. I truly hope that is true. I found youre youtube videos while learning how to knit at 56 new challenge. Thank you and youre family for all youre hard work. It helped me. I will continue to watch as long as you put up videos. God bless you and my you find solice in knowing he is no longer in pain. From Colorado US sending love and prayers.💗

Every minute of this video is a gift. I am so grateful to be allowed into such an intimate remembrance of Andrew’s life. I have a very small anecdote to share. Even though I didn’t know Andrew, I will always remember that he is the first and only person to pronounce my name correctly. My name is Jonna (Danish) and when I became a patron, Andrew sent me a short thank you video. In the video he pronounced my name the Danish way. I will never forget it. Thank you again for sharing him with us. Much love. Jonna

I am so sorry for your loss. Our loss really too because we love Andrew so much. Your family is part of the knitting community and we are here with you.

This is a beautiful tribute to Andrew and such treasured memories of such a patient, loving man. I am especially glad that you have turned to the writings of the great C.S. Lewis. Be well, Andrea and Madeleine. God bless you both. 🥀

The loss of Andrew is beyond belief, and the way you and Madeline have kept the channel growing is so inspirational. from this gaybro knitterspinnerweaver I thank you three for everything

Mein herzlichstes Beileid. Es macht mich furchtbar traurig. Wir alle hatten so viel Hoffnung. Ich wünsche Ihnen Beiden viel Kraft. 😔

This was a beautiful tribute. Thank you so much for sharing your Andrew. I am praying for both of you.