STOP TORTURING YOURSELF | my eating disorder story + things I've learned

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well i guess i posted it. this video was something i wanted to make for awhile but never knew how to even start. at the end i just decided to just say what is on my mind and share my experience because that is all i have at the end - my experience. please do not starve yourself. i know it can be hard especially with the beauty standards of our society but your health is your number 1 priority. the desire to change your appearance is completely ok - but not when you are sacrificing your mental and physical health.
the amount of joy and wonderful experiences you are missing out on when you are restricting yourself is immense - from someone who had a binging and restrictive eating disorder.
if it's not apparent enough, i have a much better relationship with food now. which is also why i currently have the courage to make this video.
please eat well and take care of your body. i love you and I'll see you all very soon!
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@via.ilyouu 2 месяца назад

i want to make it clear that: the picture in the thumbnail was me in the high school where my binging was at an all time high (left) and the other photo (right) was a photo taken a few days ago where i am nourishing my body and also working out! i don’t want any of you guys to assume that it was the aftermath of my ed.

@Luvmckeea 2 месяца назад

You’re so strong via I’m so happy and proud of the person you have become ✨

@gelzamannn 2 месяца назад

Via you are sooo beautiful and brave and I love you soo much💞 You are a big inspiration for me. I have some problems and I am trying overcome them but we need to live life in the best way cuz we live once . Take care yourself you are precious to me girll🤍🤍🤍

@immiiimgood 2 месяца назад

I have a genuine question Via, did the eat disorder encourage you to go vegetarian and was it a hard transition? Btw I am very proud of you🤍not only for the decision to give your body the love it deserves but also for all you have accomplished in the past year !

@user-zh6zl3bt7f 2 месяца назад

I love you so much for this comment

@resultofeatingborax Месяц назад

goodbye i thought that was a photo of wonyoung

@user-dv3xo3cr8s 2 месяца назад

"People treating you badly doesn't give you the right to treat yourself badly" this touched my heart so bad... i love you via

@Lynn-cl2kq Месяц назад

They v

@larauerc 2 месяца назад

"just because other people treat you horribly doesn't give you the right to treat yourself horribly too" - damn, that it hard

@Ann-sv7zx Месяц назад

That's the best advice someone can ever give

@MountTaesan 2 месяца назад

It’s so tragic thinking of your body as a lover whose love will never be reciprocated. It’s like a child seeking to be something great for your praise, only for you to call it “ugly” and physically harm it. The perspective change really alters my own as it makes me feel like a villain and it’s essentially what I am. Your body is the only one you’ll ever get so make sure to love it as much as it loves you.

@back.on.track. 2 месяца назад

this is really profound

@pirimi Месяц назад

this comment hit so deeply, wow. thank you for that, truly

@Maomaomahu Месяц назад

Unconditional love is a good thing. It means loving something with no bounds. Do you mean unrequited, which means a love which is one sided?

@MountTaesan Месяц назад

@@Maomaomahu yes I think that’s more fitting, thank you for the clarification I’ll make sure to fix it!

@mummytrolls Месяц назад

Except I’m not insane and live in an adult body that is my own. We aren’t separate entities. I’m literally my body. It’s not that deep.

@asteriaaa16 2 месяца назад

honestly getting this during a really bad relapse feels like a sign EDIT: thank you guys so much for the support. i’ve had my ups and downs since this relapse but i’ve kept going. i’ve been trying not to get irritated with myself each time i relapse because, as somebody in the replies said, healing isn’t linear. but it’s baby steps for now. and i hope the rest of you are doing good.

@elliyuh228 2 месяца назад

best wishes for recovery :( you’ve got this

@PeaceMe-hs8dr 2 месяца назад

Yeah this is BIG sign !

@yeehaw-4532 Месяц назад

stay strong fam i believe in you 🌷 (for you) 🫴

@theaizere Месяц назад

healing is non linear, just keep on going, there is always tomorrow, you can do it, you will be okay eventually

@vaampyyrez Месяц назад

you got this ! from one person in recovery to another

@akshithareddy746 Месяц назад

“I was never called beautiful”… it hurts that soo many beautiful souls have not been told how gorgeous they are.. I hope that you give yourself all the love you deserve!!!

@dmnkhptr 2 месяца назад

honestly, ive been aware of my eating disorder, which was mostly rooted in my mind from me being insecure, for over a year now. im trying to get better at eating and seeing food not as a "i eat something just to stay alive" and my habits are bad still, but i love to see somebody else recover. it makes me motivated, thank you so much for this video

@megisawesome Месяц назад

Hey good for you every day you’re getting better. I’m proud of you.

@surveils 2 месяца назад

i'm an "ugly", midsized girl in 9th grade, and i feel insecure about how i look. people don't make fun of me, but i'm scared to dress the way i want, put on makeup, remove my facemask even when it's not necessary to wear, and i'm always VERY cautious when it comes to food since i often notice my differences from my pretty friends and stuff. watching your videos often remind me that i'm still young and that none of my current concerns really matter. i'm glad you're somehow healed from the wounds you've received growing up, and i hope that a certain point of my life where i finally heal from all the bad thoughts would be worth it, like how i've noticed from you. thank you for being such an inspiration to everyone, via! lots of love ^^💗

@story_inside 2 месяца назад

I also used to do this in school, and honestly getting over the face mask was key for me to feel better about myself. It felt like a safeguard “just in case” someone was judging me, but then I realized I cared too much about what ppl thought of me. And abt the makeup and clothes, just do it! Like Via said, you only live once :)

@ichijixi 2 месяца назад

very much felt the same way! im def doing a lot better now my junior year but i still have days of feeling down but i think it gets better! i grew up as the “ugly friend” in middle school and was also mid sized and had a lot of acne/face fat. this year i actually started putting an effort bc i always binged junk food n stuff but if you just try to take care of urself bc u wanna be healthy, i promise it will get better from there! i am very hypocritical bc i give others the advice i dont take but remember you are still 14-15 and dont obsess too much over stuff like others do (me), ur very beautiful and strong!!

@MUSAFIRBEFIQR Месяц назад

Oh, it's the same for me. I have been wearing a mask since coron@ came. And now, it has become a shield for me. I am very scared to take it off even in front of my friends. I don't go outside now, apart from taking classes. What am I supposed to do?? I feel so trapped 😭

@ar7sa821 Месяц назад

@@MUSAFIRBEFIQR I was like that once but I challenge you to take it off for a week straight soon you’ll realize how silly it was and no one cares

@meganm6269 Месяц назад

I used to be the exact same in 9th grade. I always thought I was too big but looking back I was actually really beautiful. I only had mostly small friends so that also worsened things for me. One day you will look back and see how beautiful you are🫶🏻 enjoy your time and do what you want with it. Good luck.

@madeofcastiron 2 месяца назад

i hope this isn’t rude, but i love your mad, “no BS” tone when giving advice. you’re like “fuck people’s opinion! fuck treating yourself poorly! go enjoy yourself!” i honestly find it so motivating.

@allianne 2 месяца назад

“i was scared of drinking boba” and that line hurt my heart fr

@Luvmckeea 2 месяца назад

My dad used to comment on my weight all the time and it really affects the brain and becomes a problem. I also went from binging to fasting and after losing weight I still saw myself has over weight but I wasn’t. I don’t understand why people have to talk about weight so much. I can’t believe the rude things your parents said to you 🥲breaks my heart

@milenasolis2201 Месяц назад

Same story of me. I understand you😢

@_lilyzz Месяц назад

I just can't believe how your OWN FAMILY would call you "fat" or something like that. I've heard things like this since I was 11 and to this day I'm afraid to go out in a swimsuit or shorts, it's unbelievable, and usually comes from people who are twice your weight. Remember you are beautiful!❤️❤️❤️❤️

@leti9340 29 дней назад

It's very common in Latinos and Asians households

@niki_jungkook7 2 месяца назад

via is literally one of my fav ytubers and therapist i love her soo muchh

@nawel.iffrig 2 месяца назад

I had an eating disorder but now I feel more comfortable in my body I’m so happy with my progress 😭💗

@catcacaforlife1438 Месяц назад

Do you have any advice? I’m having trouble loving and feeling comfortable in my body…

@nawel.iffrig Месяц назад

@@catcacaforlife1438 hi ! For me I started to be a « fake » confident person and then I started feeling confident for real. But for my eating disorder I just made a bocal of my « fear » food and tried one of these once a day ! And my sister also helped me with that cause it’s a psychological illness so I think you have to say what you feel to your closest friends (they can help you) and create a new version of yourself !! 💗 I hope it will help you too 💗

@AkiraFireAngel 17 дней назад

⁠⁠@@catcacaforlife1438 Hey dear, I also was at the point where I hated my body and myself . It took me a whole year to say: I don’t hate myself anymore. It takes time and some days won’t be rosy and flowers. But as Nawel said: be “fake” happy. I started with saying 3 nice things in front of a mirror daily to myself. I did that for a whole month. Than I went on saying to myself what I like about my body specific. ( I like my eyes/ I like the way I smile when happy/ I like my eye lashes/ I like how my skin looks today) point is appreciate yourself daily, for a long time. It could be weeks, months depending on how m long you need for yourself it’s not a race😊 after I felt that I was no longer telling myself hateful comments I tried wearing clothes that I would have never worn. It was hard it first but every negative comment that came to my mind I tried to out weight with words of affirmation to myself. Today I really love skirts and dresses. 2 years ago I would have rather get burned inside my jeans and pants… it’s a journey a long one to be real but it’s worth it. The last step on my list was the relationship with food this one took me a whole year as well to fix… I had an ED too and I am still not fully recovered but I am trying and working on it ❤

@lordfreerealestate8302 Месяц назад

Family shapes our relationship with our self-esteem like nothing else. I cut my family out of my life because my family liked to degrade me. Best thing I've ever done. Now I have the confidence to do anything. Sometimes they deliberately degrade you to make you the family scapegoat, or to make themselves feel better. We need positive reinforcement, and it's emotional neglect if it isn't given to you.

@Ayi429 Месяц назад

I love my parents but I hate them. They’re the reason for my low self esteem and soo much trauma. But. I start to miss them and get scared of what do I do if I lose them for good. How do you cope with just cutting them off…?

@arroyobaby38 28 дней назад

I did the same thing. I cut off my family as well for the very same reason. I love myself more than I love them and thats how I’m able to deal with it. It was too much stress having them in my life. Now I’m stress free and happier than I’ve ever been!

@harmoniousandtranquilhannah 10 дней назад

Or to be the one in control of your decisions by lowering your confidence

@jazbennington6452 2 месяца назад

Thinking of my body as a separate living being has also also helped me; "she is there to love you unconditionally" is a really powerful mindset! 🥰🥰

@agneszzz 17 дней назад

The end of the video low-key made me think that we all are kinda like ghosts possessing a body and you just realized you can't treat your "vessel" bad otherwise you will have to wait very long before you can possess another vessel again, and I think that is beautiful

@alukakto7604 2 месяца назад

As a person who struggled with eating disorder for 5 years and completely ruined my health , my hair,body,nails,skin , even it affected my height growth … this video helped a lot , thank you so much via you are amazing

@Mary-fo2uv 2 месяца назад

Same, we got this bro.. I wanna change for better once for all.

@ketsu_kit8920 Месяц назад

Im literally fucking balding I’m always tired I just hate this so much I’m trying to get better adghghk

@YOUUV Месяц назад

I developed anorexia when I was just 9 years old. My childhood was ruined because of that, but I am glad to be born in this era where everything is at my fingertips. These types of videos have been helping me since then. I am 15 now, but I still have an unhealthy relationship with food. Sometimes I eat a lot, and some days I eat nothing. But when I binge eat, I see myself instantly fat in front of the mirror and I feel like total crap after that. I feel aggression, self-hatred, and more. I do 1 hour of workout daily, and as a human, there are those days when I didn't do my workout merely because of my school and studies. Because of that, I feel like trash thrown outside. I am on a journey of self-improvement, although my illness does affect my height, and because of that, I am 4'11 while being in class 9. No one in my family actually believed in eating disorders; they used to think that I was being stubborn, starving myself, while being a pain in the ass for my parents. They told me that I was ungrateful and spoiled. According to them, that was the reason for me starving myself. This actually hurts when I think about it this way. My parents used to beat me, a nine-year-old, so that they could force me to eat something, and then I would be left with bruises all over my body. It hurts. I went through a lot, but now I am on a journey of self-improvement. I am sorry for dumping all this. This whole chat should be a yes or no thing, but I wrote a whole life summary.

@winefish5006 Месяц назад

Oh my god I'm so sorry you had to go through that, you're so strong for still fighting. I'm the same age as you and struggling w ana too, but we can win this disorder❤️

@YOUUV Месяц назад

@@winefish5006 hope u recover soon

@graciepages 2 месяца назад

when you started explaining how it is important to treat your body like its own being, almost like an inner child, I felt my heart crack..I'm 16 years old (going on 17 this year) and I've spent too much time worrying about my body. time and time again i would restrict/binge myself to where I felt like I was being a burden for no reason to my parents by saying things like "oh, I can't have that ice cream because it doesn't fit into my deficit", forgetting that my body ISNT EVEN FULLY DEVELOPED YET. i honestly admire the bravery you have in eating, travelling, and let alone vlogging yourself. thank you for this video

@Hello-ll7ht Месяц назад

I am the same way, this video is going to help me a lot!!

@mariaalonso3464 2 месяца назад

u are so correct, Via. Sadly food is something that is present everyday and when u have a bad relationship with it, it ruins your life. It has ruined my days, every single moment of the day revolves around food when, in reality, there are so many things that life has to offer. Unfortunately, an eating disorder won’t let u see that. Im working on it everyday, but sometimes I just wish I didn’t have to work to have a normal relationship with food, but it’s the only thing I have left. Everything u said is so true, thank u for sharing your story, i felt so identified and less alone💖💖

@cheeseburgerhater6676 Месяц назад

Your body IS YOU. She’s a part of you, the vessel you carry to move through life. With a ED, you think of your body as a possession when it is completely who you are. The body you carry shapes you.

@loonaticgowon Месяц назад

Kaeya pfp !! also tysm this helped sm

@1234DKFN 2 месяца назад

Via I was never called beautiful too. Like never until one of my friends randomly called me beautiful cause she noticed putting myself down , at 21 year. It felt bad. I felt like I was overreacting. But I was hurt. Seeing you cry , cause i cried and told her that too. I realised it wasnt our fault. We were regular humans seeking validation and love. And that need wasn't fulfilled. If I would meet high-school via maybe I would say you everyday you look beautiful. We are beautiful via internally too.

@aurelia9233 28 дней назад

i didnt go through hating myself bc of an eating disorder but i did have body dysmorphia and i totally know how it feels. i had a terrible mindset for around 2 years where i was so lonely and couldnt enjoy doing anything. i think what helped me the most was finding a sport that i was really passionate about, as it allowed me to take my mind off how i look as well us taking up a lot of my time and energy, so i dont have the time to worry about it. it doesnt have to be a sport, but i think the best thing to do to stop obsessing is to find something youre really passionate about and spend lots of time on it.

@MUSAFIRBEFIQR Месяц назад

My mother also took a picture of me to show me how I looked like from behind. But it hurt me when my sister made a video and showed me how my hips were so fat. Honestly, from day on, I have started to cover up myself from back even more. I feel like I don't deserve to wear anything pretty or beautiful.

@lvckycharm1218 2 месяца назад

Hi Via!! As someone who has struggled with disordered eating and body image issues for years, I'm so happy you're sharing your story! So excited to watch!

@Coreexedits 2 месяца назад

I really love the fact that you are so genuine 😭🤌🏼

@iuueoi 2 месяца назад

люблю когда любимые блогеры выкладывают видео о том, с чем ты сталкиваешься в данный период своей жизни это как знак от вселенной 😭

@radaheyyyy 2 месяца назад

Я впервые вижу русские комментарии на канале Вии, афигеть… ты со всем справишься, солнце 🫶🏻🤍

@iuueoi 2 месяца назад

@@radaheyyyy сейм хахаха! спасибо большое 😭🤍

@sonyamaslova9837 2 месяца назад

У тебя все получится, главное не дави на себя

@iuueoi 2 месяца назад

@@sonyamaslova9837 спасибо 🥺

@lotus.luvsrain 2 месяца назад

YESSS FOR REALL😭💗💗

@zigzaglychee7324 20 дней назад

I completely understand that thing about seeing your body as your younger self :') a couple years ago i was seriously thinking of ending my life. I was living at home at the time and my mum had these photos of me as a baby. She told me she used to keep them on her desk at work in her old job. And that made me almost burst into tears. That's her baby. I thought about hurting her baby. How could I do that to her? How could I even think about harming that little girl. Being a biologist as well made me feel so guilty because it made me think about how hard my body was working to keep me alive and healthy, and I treated it like that.

@raginiborkotoky1473 2 месяца назад

My friends laughed and mocked me for having belly fat a long time ago, I too have never been called beautiful, I exercise more than I need to. If by any chance someone tells me "I gained weight" it gets worse- I stop eating. When I became very very thin due to excessive exercising and not eating properly, my parents were scared and said I look malnutritioned and should eat but my "friends" said I looked pretty. I was 16/17 when this happened. Now I am 25 and have body dismorphia. I am still trying to heal from all of these but it takes time. ❤

@Didithurtwhenyoufellfromheaven 2 месяца назад

You got thisss

@melacting Месяц назад

I always was skinny, yet still when I was 13/ 14 I had times when ibis’s obsessed with going on diets from time to Team even tho I didn’t need them. Then while studying for Uni or sometimes when I’m stressed I’ll forget to eat. Last year in July I weighed like 53 kg and the lowest I was when I had an audition, met my boyfriend and had Uni work in March was 47 kg. Rn I’m like 48/49 kg and super insecure about bloating recently and felt super bad. Thx for sharing this vid, needed that rn, even tho I don’t have an eating disorder. 💗 and to everyone dealing with an eating disorder my love and support goes to y’all ❤️

@lavendermilk351 2 месяца назад

I completely relate, especially to the academics. What we try to satisfy is an emotional hunger. I really recommend breathing techniques and taking a moment to ask yourself what you really are hungry for, is it food or is it something deeper!

@Sunnie-pd9jv Месяц назад

Don't worry, you don't have to be sorry for making a video with a serious topic.We needed this to be addressed eventually.Thank you so much for this ☺️☺️

@ieatdirt9596 2 месяца назад

ahh this video is gonna hit close to home. I was suffering with body dysmorphia and ED in high school. I would starve myself to look “prettier”, only drinking water. I would only allow myself eat when I was so weak i couldn’t focus at school. Then i would binge eat to “fill up the space” and feel so disgusted and disappointed with myself for not having self control. It was just an endless loop. Now i am in college, still not perfect. I don’t think i can ever be the same again but now i know that i am the prettiest when i am happy and healthy. To anyone reading this, your body issues might take months or even years to fix, but the fact that you are still trying now is so admirable, and you are my hero for trying your best. Hope we can all be better soon

@irej9088 2 месяца назад

aww this made me cry 🥺 the part when you talked about your body being like a little girl who is dependent on you. Although I’ve never had an eating disorder, this video reminds me of how negative my self talk used to be towards myself, how abusive those words were. I’m so glad you’re doing better than you were in high school, and we love you too via!

@SumayaSiddique-dx4ib 2 месяца назад

Via li I can relate to you in so many levels. I never got any attention in my teenage years and was never been in relationship. I was very introvert also being average no one would approach me. Now I'm almost 21 and I've come to peace with everything. I'm glad I found this community. I dont feel like I'm left out anymore

@Esandeech2 Месяц назад

Your story cannot offend anyone, because it is YOURS!

@longliveleonkennedy 2 месяца назад

I'm happy you feel comfortable to share your experiences with us Via :(

@kikigh-in7uy Месяц назад

i dont think you understand how badly this touched me , as someone who grew up "overweight" and had such a clear horrible relationship with food (still do -) but people around me didnt think its a big deal bc im overweight , and as someone who was told "are you eating your siblings food?" as a joke bc theyre skinny and im not , someone who was forced to be on a diet since 5th grade , someone who developed being a "picky eater" bc the constant thought of food just makes me feel sick to my stomach , someone who had to throw up after every meal , drink huge amount of water to get rid of "calories" after or work out just to feel like i got rid of that slice of the bread i had , as someone who hate it when people take group pics and as someone who heard shitty things everyday for a literal living , i cried watching this , hearing you describing a very familiar life of mine made me feel seen for the very firt time in my whole sixteen years of living , especially that youre one of my "comfort youtubers" , so i really wanna thank you from the deepest point of my heart , thank you for recording and posting this Via , that meant so much to me

@SofieSoph 2 месяца назад

Hey! I have only recently found your channel and I want to say it is fate that I found it! I have been struggling recently and your channel has made me feel just that much better. I relate to you so much. I had/still have an ED and severe anxiety and I want to believe and hope that someday I can be in the same sort of mindset that you have! Thank you for creating this channel. It brings so much comfort to people like me.

@ilofepuppies Месяц назад

It's nice to know I'm not alone in this. 😭 I'm going through almost the same thing you went though when you were in high school and it's so nice to know that there's someone out there like me who went through this but was able to get out of it. I hope one day I'll be able to get out of it just like you did and thank you for showing me that I'm not alone in this

@dascooleWalross Месяц назад

its so good to hear from others having gone through the same bc irl when i was actively going through it i felt so alone with it no one else around me seemed (!) to be struggling with food at all... best wishes x

@Specificpickle 2 месяца назад

This was really helpful for me in coming to terms that last year I was highly restrictive and obsessed in a a not healthy way. These past few months I have been really hard on myself for not looking like I did then, and thats no fair to myself. Thanks for opening up, I know it helped me!

@meep2858 2 месяца назад

thank you so much for posting this🥺

@taintedflower01 2 месяца назад

i’ve had an eating disorder for half my life, since i was 11 years old and today has been one of the most horrible days i’ve had, just tired of it but not knowing what to do anymore. this video came at the right time, thank you so much for the courage it took to make it and post it. i’m so proud of you for getting through it and i hope i can too one day

@Mary-fo2uv 2 месяца назад

This video is really something I've been needing for the past 4-5 years.. it gives me hope. I really related with the household stuff and all, makes me hope that things will actually get better when I leave. Thanks via you give me hope, I've watched every self help video but they're just like something to procrastinate, I listen to it but it never actually gets to me. You're one of the fews if not the only one I feel like understands me

@lunam7578 2 месяца назад

Via, you don't have an idea of how much your videos had helped me to see things I'm identified in with a different perspective, feeling that I'm not the only one who feels in that way, encouraged me to keep going and growing through things like this.

@m6.1096 2 месяца назад

Thank you immensely for your vulnerability and for sharing your story, Via! I've been battling my binge eating disorder for quite some time now, and I've watched numerous videos in the hopes of changing how I perceive myself. Your video really struck a chord with me; it brought tears to my eyes. I've never felt so understood and seen someone who has gone through such similar experiences. Viewing myself as someone who cares for me, nurtures me, and keeps me warm is truly a powerful perspective! I'm determined to integrate this mindset more into my daily life. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story with us. Not only are you treating yourself with the love you deserve, but you're also helping countless others do the same. You're truly incredible.💓

@Paradise.kiss_ Месяц назад

I'm so happy you felt comfortable sharing your experiences with us, as someone who has currently struggled with binge eating disorder and body image issues since I was 12 years old, this video helped me a lot!!! thank you so much, you are amazing Via, we love you sm

@Xyxyr 2 месяца назад

I feel you and relate to you so much. You’re not alone! I’m so glad that you told us your story, as always loved the video! ❤

@user-dv3xo3cr8s 2 месяца назад

Im so proud of you this video needs a lot of courage that many people may not handle thx via for all what you do and for staying strong all this time where you just needed a stable ground to settle on❤

@creativeteeny925 2 месяца назад

if there's a chance you read this, thankyou for this video, i really needed it today. Im in highschool and basically i'm having the same experience you talked about, i was never called beautiful and so i never felt like it. I was always compared to my sister who is much slimmer and 'prettier' than me. I'm doing my best to heal my relationship with food and just heal from cruel comments and remarks that have been so normalised about other people's bodies but people like you making these videos, being so vulnerable helps so much more than you can imagine.

@annavampy Месяц назад

as someone who has been in a constant battle with disordered eating and mental health struggles for around 5 years now and still struggling, i want to thank you so much for making this video. you posting this video is so brave and inspiring for someone like me. seeing stuff like this makes me want to get better so bad and gives me hope that someday i will. thankyou via

@lillyg9200 2 месяца назад

This is so honest. I really appreciate it. I needed to hear this. Thank you.

@sapphics4hozier 2 месяца назад

thank you for posting this via , , it truly makes me feel less alone , , seeing this in a bad relapse right now and i couldn’t help but tear up , , this one really hit for me ; every word made me reflect on my journey in regards to my ed . im forever grateful that you openly speak about this stuff , , i hope you’ve been taking care of yourself ! here’s to recovery 💌

@xfronwenzyoucamex Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing Via! You are so brave!!

@cattmono 2 месяца назад

Via! You are so brave for this. Thank you so much for speaking up about diseases that are more current that people think and thank you for sharing your experience, I'm pretty sure it was a difficult choice to make. Just know that we are proud of you.

@a_ashii 2 месяца назад

I’m so glad you made this and I just want to say that you were and are beautiful. If the people around you couldn’t see this then it’s their loss

@angelaliu1285 2 месяца назад

Thank you for sharing your experiences. I’m so proud that you somewhat overcame your childhood trauma, especially from your parents and highschool-btw tufts is amazing gj. You’ve come such a long way to grow a much healthier and stronger mindset and it’s helping so many younger girls like me avoid eds and hurting ourselves.

@zelos6307 2 месяца назад

💛💛💛 thank you so much for the content via! I feel better watching your videos every time! You are so relatable and honest about the things we often find embarrassing :)) your positivity and openness about issues makes me feel calmer and motivated 💜

@valeriacollell1762 2 месяца назад

you are truly amazing Via! I always feel very at peace after watching your videos, thank you

@simplyrivvie5914 2 месяца назад

Girl you’re my idol😭I watched your videos while struggling through a similar experience to you and you helped me SO SO SO much. ❤️

@chiinyecerezo_ 2 месяца назад

Seriously, your videos are helping me a lot. I was severely underweight when I was a teen but when I went to college and move out from home I kinda recover, even my period came back. The thing is that lately I have been looking at my old pictures wishing I was that skinny again, I’ve been feeling desperate and in literally hell, Im’m afraid of myself. I don’t want to study, sleep, eat or even live, I feel alone here, but I’m glad I came across your channel. Thank you!!

@radaheyyyy 2 месяца назад

Dear Via, thank you so much for these video. I really needed it. Thank you so much.

@AdiraSahar 2 месяца назад

Genuinely Via, thank you so much for talking about it. I gained so many new perspectives about eating disorder in general. You're so brave, you're such a beautiful soul❤

@cynopoly Месяц назад

The family thing is exactly what I’m going through and while I’m really sorry you went through it it feels relieving to know that my “food is my only controllable factor” mindset isn’t something I struggle with alone

@alealeoh Месяц назад

You are an inspiration, Via. From the year of more I've been watching your videos I can see how your relationship with yourself has improved a lot! Thanks for sharing it. You are so brave for standing up for yourself!

@ysca08 Месяц назад

i really love your videos, via! it gives me comfort since we both kinda have similar experiences and it's nice to see someone talking about it. you have inspired me, keep thriving!

@tubhjbadshbhi 2 месяца назад

I love you via and I’m really happy you’re doing better

@shorayyyy 2 месяца назад

everything Via said is SO REALLLL 😭 esp the slowing down of ur metabolism bcs of starving urself and not going out bcs of thinking that everybody is judging u. i am still battling with my anorexia nervosa ed and it's hellllll like i can't eat this eat that cause it's "off-limits". i have been trying to heal but whenever i look at my body i just relapse and not eat while also do heavy workouts. i still have a lot of things to say but i can't find the words to say ykyk. so, Via thank u for this, thank u for sharing ur experience, and thank u for the making me realize more things if i keep losing to my ed ❤️‍🩹

@carmosilva3589 Месяц назад

I'm so sorry you went through this, I'm glad your environment is not so toxic anymore!! Sending hugs and love 🫂❤️

@Seungeeeee 2 месяца назад

I really appreciate it when you started loving more yourself 💗✨

@deardiary.animatic 2 месяца назад

this is a increadible video thank you , i struggled in school with anorexia and i feel better after i watched your video and i saw that im not alone with this, my family didnt help me to get better and i feel like eating disorders are so much misunderstood and the victims have such a hard time to find help because my experience is that no one takes you seriously and everybody says: "Just eat more" or "Just dont struggle with food" .

@britneydiamondford1880 2 месяца назад

Thank you so much for making this video, Via. You’ve been my role model for months now and you talking about your experience made me feel less alone. I love you and your videos so much, watching your videos brings me so much comfort. I will never stop recommending your channel to my friends. You’ve helped me create a healthier mindset and i’m genuinely so grateful for you. Thank you and take care!

@samp-avi6617 Месяц назад

Since recently I've been in recovery and kind of was hitting a relapse but then I saw your video, I started crying when you cried too bc EXACTLY like you said "how can I do this to my body" and just the way you can feel her fighting to still keep you alive... thank you so much for this video! Im very happy you are having a better relationship with food and I hope you can continue to grow within yourself and reach more healing for the things that have happened to you :)

@shinxavi8046 Месяц назад

Thank you so much for sharing, I never thought someone else could go through the same things as I did most of my life. I know it's scary to talk about this sensitive topic so thanks again for the courage. 💜

@hannahlol9740 20 дней назад

Thank u sm for making these types of videos they help me so much ❤️

@alinacrutch Месяц назад

Via is so beautiful and just radiates light.. thanks for this video, I'm healing my relationships with food and exercieses so I needed to hear this. Your story made me really emotional

@radiokat1306 2 месяца назад

thank you for your content, you’re really helping so many people feel seen🫶

@jessietries 2 месяца назад

Love you Via, you’re always encouraging me. Thank you and I wish you the very best always.

@iisunny_parrot2797 2 месяца назад

Thanks so much for opening up on this Via. Im 14 and had an eating disorder for a year and its been hard loving myself and your my motivation and this video really hit hard. Im glad i saw it though because your body is a temple, and now i understand that. In gonna keep trying to love myself as much as I can. I love you and im glad i have someone to relate to❤

@EsmeMV19 Месяц назад

Via thank you so much for making this video. I needed to hear this, I was literally already making a list of things I wanted to binge on and as I was getting ready to drive and listen to something while driving this video popped up. Ik I shouldn’t be using yt while driving lol but thank you so much for changing my perspective on it and thank you for even speaking on it at all. I appreciate you so much and take care of yourself as well! 💗💗we love you and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL I’m sorry you didn’t hear it enough you def are inside and out🫶🏼

@paulabevilacqua1986 2 месяца назад

you are so brave for making this video and talking about it im sure it will help and comfort a lot of people!

@user-kx5rr1cv6e 2 месяца назад

thank you so much for making this video.i honestly just want to hug you because you've really helped me change the way i look at myself.i wish you all the happiness in the world!! Mwah!!!💗💗💗

@ohthree 2 месяца назад

this kind of content is what i am looking for since i am also experiencing bad treatment with my parents and relatives about my body. i love you so much, via for helping us on how to cope up with this kind of challenge for someone who is also having a binge eating disorder.

@noabutterfly2607 Месяц назад

thank you so much. I've been struggling with food for years, but once I hit my deepest point I worked really hard to get out of it. recently it's all gotten worse again, and this reminds me of why I started recovering in the first place. I wish you a very happy life

@s8ntimental Месяц назад

i love and appreciate your vulnerability in this video via, you are so honest it's nice hearing how you treat yourself sm better and what it took to get you here. youre an inspiration TT

@bluehourcore 2 месяца назад

loved the video via

@megisawesome Месяц назад

Thank you for making this video. You’re so brave admitting it and putting up online. This will help a lot of people even if you don’t know it, I’m glad you’re on the other side. This video also helped me. I’m going through something similar.

@chmurk4741 Месяц назад

thank you for speaking your mind about such important topic! even tho im mostly recoved from my eating disorders its still there somewhere! hope you all beautiful souls stay safe in your own body!

@laurapaloma_ 2 месяца назад

via, thank you so much for sharing your story and sharing some advice. i wish 21 year old me had this video available because she would’ve gotten help sooner rather than later

@estrellademiel_ Месяц назад

it really hit when u said that these obsessive and self-deprecating thoughts about food and ur body make u unable to enjoy life. Its constantly on my mind, when im out with friends, when im out in the world, when imjust trying to exist. its so so limiting and hard. ive been struggling so hard, thank you for this video. I have been preventing myself from living, truly. im glad ur video came when it did, I appreciate you.

@frokal_ Месяц назад

Loved this. Thank you for being so vulnerable! ❤

@lapponiasnow7329 2 месяца назад

Your timing is perfect, this is what I needed. Thank you sweetheart ❤

@leah2097 2 месяца назад

i am so proud of you via

@Nr-im8sl 2 месяца назад

I seriously love you like genuinely love you you're so relatable and you're so uniquely you yourself and you are actually so wholesome and so pretty and so beautiful you're literally gorgeous inside out and I am so glad that I found your Channel I really love you

@haleysnote Месяц назад

Being the same age and currently struggling with my own past with binge eating this really ressinated with me. Seeing your journey through other videos has inspired me to finally start being serious about my own.

@Sumi_11_ Месяц назад

Thank you for making this video. A few days ago, I started realized that I'm obsessed to what I eat or not and that's not okay. My main goal of this year is to be able be health and safe but do not worry so much about it. (Sorry, English is my second language but I try to do my best).

@ixmgs 2 месяца назад

thank u so much for making this video via! i feel like deep down what you said is something that we (or atleast, i) know very well, but need a constant reminder of it. right now im recovering from an ed and, even if it's super hard sometimes, i keep on going because there's just so many beautiful things in this world that i haven't seen or experienced yet, and even if i don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow, i will at least like to enjoy the present, not worrying about how my body looks or how many calories my favorite dessert has :) i feel like im just rambling lol but again, thank u sm for sharing this with us, sending u much love!! ❣

@zerkosnow2556 Месяц назад

i wish i could give you a big hug, i really hope you’re doing better. from what i’ve seen you’re a really sweet person and i hope nothing but the best for you 🤧🫱🏾💕