The Esoteric Approach to Overcoming Retroactive Jealousy (This Changed My Life) 

Really positive words & outlook to have. I will try it

BUT . . . If it's true it can't be changed & that's what will always make it painful.

I feel like my bf caused my RJ. But it's also because of my lack of confidence at the beginning of our relationship. He told me he had a good one-night stand with his tinder date and I wanted to know why. So for months, I questioned him and at that time, I didn't know there was even such a thing called 'Retroactive Jealousy'. Thank God I found your channel because it was only then I didn't feel alone. It was only then I felt like I was not crazy. But months later he told me that he never had a tinder date. That it was something he told me to seem 'cool'. Now I should be happy right? that she didn't exist? that he never had a good time? but it only made me question the other sexual partners he had. And again months later (1.5 years into our relationship), he told me that he never had sexual partners in that sense. And the truth is he was ashamed to admit that he has gone to a massage parlor 3 times. I just can't help but think that if he didn't lie to me about it, that if he was just honest, I wouldn't be suffering today. Because I wouldn't have cared about those women. But from the beginning he made me feel jealous. I can confidently say that I am healing. That I try to be mindful about these thoughts but it still feels so uncomfortable and sometimes I just feel like breaking up with him. But this isn't a good enough reason. He has only lied to me about his past which doesn't really matter right? Cause at the end of the day, those 3 women meant nothing to him. And he wanted me. I mean something to him. So it really isn't a dealbreaker to me because I have never caught him lie about anything else in our present. Also, the past is the past. But there are these days that really hurt me. Days that I feel like I will never go back to how I used to be. Cause I never used to question my exes' pasts. It was those words he said 'i had a good time with her' that started all of this.

Good advice for a happier life! Happy 4th of July, Matt!

So basically... "But did you die?" Meme xD