Thanks brother..... I was a cop. 98 to 05, SWAT... lotta dead bodies. It never leaves you. The badge never leaves you. I took the call for my SWAT commander's niece. She took her head off with a .357 magnum. Like yesterday, I had just spoken with her, then I got to look into her empty skull.........as the firefighter/medics laughed. And all the car crashes, and suicides, the knifings, shootings, the overdoses, fights, the kicking in doors.......christ, its been 23 years and I still fight with it. When you put that badge and blue on? You in for a ride for sure. That shit lasts forever.
Please- consider MDMA therapy. Living with what you've experienced must be a daily challenge. Look into it- it works very well. I wouldn't be alive without it. MDMA Solo is the method that works best (free book). I wish you the best, and- thank you for all you've done👊🏽❤️
Thank you for the info. I'll look into it. No one who gave their life up for this country in the military or for a community as a cop, should feel like I, we, do..... I need some fuckin air support.....sniper overwatch. I'll always do my job, but sometimes you need an A10 to clear the field. ....... for a 3 second breather.....Know what I mean? Have a good Thanksgiving.
Don't turn to drugs turn to God NOT man! Turn to God directly not organized religion or all the fallen churches 501c3/501c4, pray for guidance and for Him to open your eyes with a open heart. Revelation 18:23, "And the light of a candle shall shine no more at all in thee; and the voice of the bridegroom and of the bride shall be heard no more at all in thee: for thy merchants were the great men of the earth; for by thy sorceries were all nations deceived." Notice how the word "sorceries" is defined: Strong's Concordance SORCERIES: 5331 pharmakeia {far-mak-i'-ah} from 5332;; n f AV - sorcery 2, witchcraft 1; 3 1) the use or the administering of drugs 2) poisoning 3) sorcery, magical arts, often found in connection with idolatry and fostered by it 4) metaph. the deceptions and seductions of idolatry The Greek word "Pharmakeia" is where we get the modern word "Pharmacy" today 2 Thessalonians 3:16 - Now the Lord of peace himself give you peace always by all means. The Lord be with you all. John 16:33 - These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. Philippians 4:6 - Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. Isaiah 26:3 - Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. 1 Peter 5:7 - Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. Matthew 5:9 - Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
Your not alone brother. 30 years in the business. We have to support each other. Stay well.. And remember, we all know your pain. We're just human. Love u brother..
I don't know how all police officers don't have this. The horrible things they see that human beings do to each other and knowing their life is on the line every time they put on that uniform. My prayers are with them all, every day.
I was raised by two police officers. My parents were divorced by the time I was 3, both with El Paso PD for over a decade before my birth. They always taught me the same thing this officer wanted to teach his kid- take only the best parts of them, leave the bad and the mediocre all behind. And they just trusted me to make that distinction I guess. I love them more than they could ever know, and I don’t hold a single grudge for the mistakes they made while I was growing up.At the end of the day I’m at peace, because I know that no matter hard the journey was, I never went a single day without knowing for a fact that I was loved. I only wish I could give them the same peace of mind about our relationship that I have.
I suffered with post traumatic stress disorder for many years. For me the worse part of it was being woken up from a deep sleep by the tremors. I would sit bolt upright in bed where I would be gasping for air and I thought I was going to choke. I had to quickly calm myself down and reassure myself that everything is ok. It got to a point where I was concerned about going to sleep or having a nap during the day because I didn’t know when these frightening attacks would occur. I was put on anxiety medication for a while and I was taught mindfulness by a therapist where you train your thought on that one particular task, it can be as simple as focusing on taking a shower or cleaning your teeth to getting dressed each morning and by doing that your mind isn’t jumping from one intrusive thought to the next, this technique helped me a lot and I now use this method to stay focused . I came off the medication about eight months ago, I was gradually taken off it under a doctors care and I am now free from the nightly tremors and sweating and that horrible feeling like I was going to choke to death. There is help and recovery for it and it doesn’t mean being on anxiety medication for the rest of your life either.
I feel so bad for the things police officers are forced to go through, it's crazy too see them be criticized so much when they are the ones making split Second Decisions that they or other people or loved ones could have a life altering side affects
It makes me angry how people think cops are these robotic, stoic people who have no soul but these men and women have feelings just like the rest of us and we need to make sure they are always taken care of.
It is nice to see some humanity in a Police Officer. Police are the reason I have PTSD. Hopefully one day we can make a truce and stop hurting each other.
Go get help and make sure you have short term and long term disability. I got sick and went through living hell trying to get any type of benefits. Fuck the stigma, get the help you need. Hope all is well.
My husband and i watch alot of real.crime investigations shows and we always say how memtally strong women and men working on these cases must be. We hopes they deal with whatever issues might arise from it too.
