From Distrusting & Avoidant to Open-Hearted 

:) Beautiful. Thanks for sharing. You're welcome

:) You're welcome Tasha. I'm sending you softness.

You can do it!

:) I'm really happy to hear that. I will!

You're so welcome! :)

You're so welcome!

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Thanks Wendy.

I hear you Jessica. Thanks for sharing.

good point - it can be so scary, and then the relief does come. And is sweet.

:) my pleasure Eduardo. Thank you for seeing me.

@@NoahElkrief always will

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@P F wie schön 😊

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Delusional as it may sound, a few months ago I smelled some Black Spruce oil and the smell was so familiar and perfect to me, that even though I have never encountered that tree before, I felt like I was having a past life experience of actually BEING that tree, lol. No joke. It seemingly triggered a really powerful remembering. So now I have such a strange and intense kinship with it. That is one of my favorite smells now.

You're so welcome Andrea. Thank you :)

Thanks, will do Colin!

Beautiful, yes, sometimes it's about valuing connection over our fears.

@@NoahElkrief is there a video about how you found your gift of healing and got into the job?, as I am not sure what career path to take/if I am ready to go back to work, and also sometimes people give me feedback - that I comforted them, but I do not feel quite ready/confident to go into such a field.

One more thing I deal with though, is PTSD-I descried by symptoms and already two people said it sound like PTSD, so this also affects how I cope with new relations or relations in general, it seems/from my understanding thus far.

I hear you Lisa. I get it. You can try looking for events related to authentic relating, non-violent communication, or circling. In these types of places, people are opening to vulnerability.

@@NoahElkrief Thank you so much for responding... And, I will definitely look into those. 🙏 ♥

You're welcome Charnita. My perspective is to just trust your desire to share joy, and let go of any reason why. My experience is that the truest desires don't care about the outcome. Sometimes I may feel like sharing something, and I expect it to have a horrible result, but I just know that I have to share anyhow.

I hear you Andreas. It requires a lot of courage to be with that pain. The more we can love and hold these parts as they express themselves, the more we can fully embody love, acceptance, and joy.

I hear you. You are not alone. :)

Underneath the anger, may be feelings of helplessness that you're not allowing yourself to feel because it's too big, painful, or difficult.

I'm not sure if this is the case for you, but in my family, we were taught that anger was bad -- not explicitly, but in the way of disdainful remarks or scornful looks or harsh words. This was the response to other "strong" emotions as well, which, if you experienced or tried to express them, you got branded as overreactive or oversensitive. Can you imagine telling a crying young child to just knock it off every time they cried, instead of figuring out what was the matter and, if they indeed did have an out of proportion reaction, teaching them how to work with their feelings, or at the very least, not chastising them for not knowing how to handle emotions? It's sounds so crazy now but that's how it was growing up. As an adult, it's just been a trail of confusion and not knowing which emotions are "valid" and which aren't, and in what amount. The worst part is, I semi-caretake my now elderly parents, and I feel so much resentment, particularly towards my father, when he scoffs at my ideas or feelings. Anyway, I just thought I'd share that because over time, I've learned -- from therapy, reading, and healthy friends and mentors -- that anger has a logic to it, and it's trying to tell you something much more concrete about how you feel about a situation. But if you were taught early on that anger is simply bad and should be avoided at all costs, it's then exceedingly difficult to listen to what it's trying to tell you. Not to mention, you learn to hate yourself for being weak and unable to control your anger like everyone else. Anger and irritability are also hallmark symptoms of depression, so that's another possibility. Also, if you by chance have ADHD, you may have a very low tolerance for frustration, as many with the condition do, which becomes more or less pronounced depending on a situation or environment. Have you had a change of circumstance lately? New job, challenging assignment, unsupportive family or friends, need to pick up someone else's slack at work, crappy diet, not enough exercise? Even temporary changes can throw the mind for a loop.

Are you a manifestor aura type in Human Design?

I don't feel one with everything most of the time. So, it's not my thing to talk about.

@@NoahElkrief okay thank you.

When I first started making videos again a few years ago after a few years off, there were so many less views. It was hard for me to feel that at first. Feelings of sadness, hurt, abandonment, and being a failure came up for me. But, over time, I stopped looking for my self-worth from the video responses. Now, I meet each response individually, and try to let it touch my heart. Before, it was more about numbers, now, it's more about receiving from the heart. My perspective is that most of my subscribers subscribed to me based on my analytical videos. So they don't resonate with current videos. Also, people maybe stopped resonating after a few years off. Also, I used to make videos based on what topics people were looking for so I could get a lot of views. Now, I just make whatever comes to me, and I don't use RU-vid strategies to try to get more views. I don't feel the pull to put effort towards it.

@@NoahElkrief Hi Noah, your present videos do resonate with some people. I am guessing it's a different audience that's all and you shouldn't feel upset about views anyway yes. I do miss your older content because the content was a lot more relatable. I also felt a sense of belonging since I could see that a lot more people were responding to it. All the best Noah. Regards

There is an emotion. Then, there is a part of you that judges/hates/rejects that emotion. Allow yourself to understand and have compassion for the part of you that rejects your emotions.

@@NoahElkrief thank you, can you suggest something that I can practice to do so? That would be very helpful

Talk to that part as if it's a separate human being, and just be curious. Ask it, why do you hate emotions? Which emotions do you dislike? What are you scared will happen if I let myself feel an emotion? Get to know the part to develop compassion and understanding.

@@NoahElkrief Yes I'll do that, Thank you and you're awesome!

If you don't fear opening up, that is very beautiful. Opening up can't hurt us. The idea of opening up can cause us to fear what happened the last time we opened up (which may have been painful).

In my opinion, it's not opening up itself that hurts, but more the possible rejection of opening up with someone who doesn't receive you well (it's not the only cause, but the one that is most present in my experience). For example if the other person is uncomfortable with meeting us on the same level, and tries to steer the conversation away. And as Noah points out, there may have been painful events related to opening up, like sharing something you've been struggling with your parents and them telling you how it's your fault, instead of being compassionate with you.

I hear you. I've been there. The more deeply you understand why you did what you did, the more easily you can forgive yourself for doing it.

@@NoahElkrief hmmmmm 🤔🤔🤔🤔. Hard to say, compulsion I guess. I'm very adept to not judging others. Well I mean I do, but there is always an underlying sense of, "it wasn't their choice" so I don't hold onto it. Except when it comes to myself. I think it's a deep primal fear of being rejected by society, from an evolutionary stand point. People seem quick to "cancel" these days and less keen to forgive.

Tears in the eyes, but not enough emotion to break into full crying it seems.

@@NoahElkrief Ah thataway. Well let it all out, cry, shout , grieve. Once you're done or tired with the emotion - let it go. Then step out for a cup of coffee or chocolate and just watch cars or the world go by. It's a great way to feel ok.

You're welcome Andrea :)