I left YouTube when I hit 1 million subs, sugar cravings | Glow up Diaries (Episode 10) 

★ WATCH ALL OF THE GLOW UP DIARIES: bit.ly/37O0bX6 ABOUT: This is a 6 year docu-series of my coming of age story. I originally thought I would end this series after a few months but ugly truths unraveled as I went further into my glow up journey. I began recording the glow up diaries at 17 years old and finished when I turned 22 years old.

She saved me. Honestly, she did.

Nobody's talking about how beautiful she is. And her dedication is crazy. Edit: I didn’t realize this compliment could be offensive but I meant that she is so inspiring and beautiful INSIDE AND OUT. Her journey is helping thousands of people and it’s amazing to see her brain realize her potential and mental and physical capability. She’s just a great human being.

When you are on the glow up diaries marathon and you have to drink water almost every episode.

I love how intelligent this comment section is and just Aliva’s Fan base in general. It’s so refreshing to see actual discussion and stories rather than the usual “tUrN tHiS bLuE iF yOu LoVe AlIvIa” keep it up guys!

This series should deadass be a Netflix movie

is no one going to talk about her editing skills though holy shit one of the best I've seen wow

At one point of my “glow up” I questioned my self I asked my self “Why am I doing this” “Who am I doing this for.. who am I trying to impress” So I toke a break over the weekend And over this weekend I got a glimpse of how it felt to be lazy to do nothing “I’m doing this for my self to look in the mirror and be proud of what I see to love my self” “I’m doing this for my happiness” “I’m trying to impress my happiness to be friends with happiness and not friends with sadness”

You are a great storyteller. I can't imagine how hard it is to edit so much information, and you do it perfectly. I feel like I am in the video with you. You make everything so real, so relatable. Because you tell your truth. And we love that. You are our motivation! ✊ Thank you so much for sharing you knowledge and experiencies 💛

This series is literally an eye opener

You don’t have million subscribers, because you were trending. We are all here for you, because you are real. Because your vlogs are so unfiltered and transparent that we can actually relate to you, to your struggles with self-image, acne, weightloss/gain, etc. Because you are showing us that you are just a human and girl, how such a beautiful human you are. Take care and never change yourself. 💕

"Motivation is like taking a shower, you have to do it daily" Bruh I don't even shower everyday smh

when i crave something sweet i immediately drink green tea then the cravings stop. we're all in this together Alivia!

you are the only youtuber that I click immediatly when i see the notification, your glow up diaries are edited in such a way that its almost a netflix show

Hey alivia, I know it's so unlikely that you will ever read this, but i just wanted to let you know how much you have helped me! I have so many unhealthy binging habits and I relate to you massively, i'm really excited for your next video so I can get more in tune with myself. It's so amazing for insecure teenagers especially to have someone amazing to look up to, and aid us on our own journey of finding ourself. I have been with you since the fierce livvy days when you were way down at 5k, i was so inflexible but your motivation and consise videos got me into splits with everyday stretching for about 6 months, you helped to remind me to push myself. I went from 90° to 180°. I was so happy when I saw the first glow up diary episode, you have inspired me to cook some meals and walk outside more, i also love how you have so many ways to be healthy without spending money on the gym or fancy food. I still have some proper issues with myself and my body, but i really really hope your videos help me even more than they have, although you have helped me admit I need help. You blew up after he first episode and I'm so happy for you, your feed on instagram inspires me everyday and I really hope you see this as I know how hard this can be on you, but I want you to know we all love you and want the best for you, don't be afraid to give yourself a break and out you first, you are amazing

Jus a random idea: You can easily become a voice over actress.

*”If you wanna loose weight, don’t weigh yourself! Just try your hardest until your body looks like you want it to look no matter your weight”*

Your journey is taking time like everyone else’s. So take YOUR time uploading these videos because WE understand and will be waiting!!😊

A year ago, when I found your channel, I decided to lose weight and start a healthy lifestyle. Indeed, kilograms began to fall as I exercised more and reduced calories. It got to the point that I felt bad when I ate one APPLE because I felt it was too much and I could gain weight. My family and friends started to notice that I was losing weight all the time, but I couldn't stop. I weighed terribly low. I forced vomiting a few times, but luckily I got out of it. Now I weigh more than a year ago because when I finished starving, seizures began and I ate more and more. I just want to tell you to be careful. This year I will try to lose weight in a healthy way, but in fact I still have the back of my head to stop eating completely. Eating disorders are a nightmare and it is not as funny as some people think. Just treat yourself good, everybody. It is better to lose weight slower but permanently and not have to deal with mental illnes for your rest of life. It's really not worth it.

When I heard the “Its like you forgot how to eat normally’’ I relate to that so much, for my whole life it has been habit. One reason being that my older sister had a hard time with textures and such, but she only liked unhealthy foods. So me and my brother would catch onto that and we would ask my mom, ‘’Why are we forced to eat this, but she doesn’t have to eat it?’’ So then my mom decided to let me and my siblings all eat unhealthy. And now it’s all I know. My whole fridge and pantry is unhealthy. It’s so hard to try and be healthy to try and find good foods, when my mom has to go spend money on those foods that I want to try, even though I might not even like them. So for a couple years I have tried so many times to get healthy. As soon as I eat one thing unhealthy, or one thing gets difficult I give up. But today I’m going to change that, and I’m not going to let anything stop me. I swear to it. I need to be healthy for now and for my future. So I will put everything into this and keep going until I feel happy. UPDATE: I wish I could say that it's working and that I got better, but no I didn't. If anything I feel worse than before. I'm sorry for letting those down who were supporting me in the replies, I've just been going through a rough time lately and I realized I'm to young to be focusing on this because it was stressing me out. As well as I've lost any motivation to continue. I can't figure out why I'm feeling so sad and unmotivated, and my anxiety has been really bad lately, so I'm sorry, I hope you all continue on your journeys and have a wonderful day.

"128.4, that’s like the highest I’ve ever weighed in my life" **cries internally at 156 at 15 years old**

You dont need an explanation it's ok everyone has their own life to attend too

EVERYONE NEEDS A FRIEND LIKE ALIVIA💕 I've been through this journey & filmed it, it's so beautiful to see liv do it too :)

"i hate boys! they're literally hella cute tho!" OHH THAT HITS HARD

4:02 when alivia tells you to go get a glass of water but you're already drinking one

13:04 that lady is like "um...'tf.."😂😂

The restarting every week is literally me and I feel so called out haha

Can we please talk about how *naturally* beautiful and also open-minded she is like *goosebumps intensify*

This proves that you don’t have to be “fat” or “to skinny” to be insecure or self conscious about weight and this also proves that ofc the journey won’t be easy and have some type of magic fix you have to work for it and stay positive 💗

After the reminder that I’m not the only one going through that stuff I can finally sleep peaceful now🥰

13:03 the woman in the background tho lmaooo

You literally saved me. I was going down a dark path of judgement towards myself and my body. I was eating anything I wanted without thinking about it. I was in such a bad spot where I hated the body that was given to me. I watched these vidios thinking “I could never do something like this” but I can and could. I realized that it would take a while and I would mess up but it would be worth it. I have lost 11 pounds in the past month and a half. I have found that eating the serving size on healthier foods have helped a lot. So I have some things to work on but I love my body so much more and I just want to say thank you because without you I would still have that negative mindset. Thank you so much Alivia. Thank you

I’m 17 and I weigh 210 lbs. When I started watching I was kind of thrown back by the fact that the heaviest she’s ever been is literally my goal. But it’s important to know that everyone’s body is different and there are a lot of things that I don’t know about her and her feelings. She had a really unhealthy relationship with food just like I do and she doesn’t need to be 300 lbs for me to take her advice and for me to appreciate all the effort and work she put into feeling good and strong and healthy. PS Your vids are amazing and really help me to continue. ❤️

You see this Alivia? You're our pinterest motivation. We just look at you and regain our willpower. Don't give up. Don't let us give up. With lots of love...♡

I *love just how real you are. You're truly relatable and the girl next door. I feel closer to you than a lot of other RU-vidrs.*

Someone needs to give this girl some props on her editing skills! And yes I liked my own comment

i honestly, whole-heartedly love how she says, you see me drinking that water? go drink yours too. its just so pure.

I used to draw a lot when I was younger and didn’t really care about what other thought about it. I didn’t even think about showing it to anyone. At some point in high school I had a lot of friends that drew amazingly well and started to think I was terrible at drawing. I became ashamed about drawing and about anyone seeing what I draw. Creative work is like that. I stopped drawing for a long time and now that my major requires me being good at drawing I realise I should’ve never stopped. So I read something once it motivated me a lot to continue and it was “don’t do it to be the best, do it to be better” and I think that’s the approach everyone should take on anything. Bettering yourself slowly is the key to eventually becoming very good at doing something. Love your videos Alivia! You have motivated me through very hard times.

I absolutely love her editing style, it's so unique and visually pleasing 💛

"You can't make anything better unless you do it" Exactly what I needed right now

When I started watching her, I started realizing nany things. It's kinda funny that every word from here is in my head forever. She motivated me to starting eat healthy, so guys never give up even if you hurt myself in the process keep running toward your dream

The restrict-binge cycle sucks big time. Best of luck on your journey.

I sat and cried this entire video, you are truly a huge inspiration. I may only be 12 but this series has changed my life, I never had a healthy relationship with food and was plummeting into anorexia then I saw this series and realised there is a light at the the end of the tunnel! Honestly I never reached the terrifying mark but you stopped me and helped me build an amazing relationship and life!

this is the kind of daughter that every parents want imagine her parents/family watching this

4:00 I am fasting for Ramadan Alivia: drink water

the glow uo diaries are beautiful as they show a real unfiltered perspective that is able to make me relate so much. thank you alivia for trying your hardest 💗💗

I have a rule that helped alot with portion control i just tell myself "if eat another bite or another plate I'm just gonna drink water after it and the taste will disappear so why eat more than i need"

Im 12 years old, 5'6 and 71.5 kg I lost hope after an attempt to lose weight but then i discovered your channel and it gave me hope💜 I started my weight loss record like one month ago and i only lost 1 kg and i was so depressed like my whole self esteem dropped my a rain drop I gave up hope But now after watching your glow up diaries, i decided to get mire controlled in my diet and time table, thanks to you I just want to say thank you for not letting me lose hope **good luck to me 😔**

as someone who's struggling in the same way, watching these videos is like having a friend who shares the same experiences to relate to. love you alivia!

1)U post so freaquently now! 2)This should be replaced with stupid reality shows on TV. 3)U are 💯 real and I admire that.U inspired me so much and u get me going with not just clearing my acne ,but anything I wanna achieve. 4) Thank u

You should be so proud you've attracted this huge audience on such a positive journey and with content that is so raw, real and honest in a way that we don't get a chance to see a lot on youtube. You are exposing the silent struggle a lot of people go through in trying to better themselves on top of juggling school/work/friends/family... not to mention adjusting to adulthood and parenting your self... yikes Haha.

Do you ever just look at someone at say “this is what it’s like to be beautiful inside and out”

This is the best yt series I’ve ever watched

There are so many “quotes” or things you say in these episodes that motivate me so much

Can we all just appreciate how cute her dorm room decor is?

3:26 the one girl in the background showing her muscles haha

you saved me alivia, i watched this when i still had an ed at the age of twelve and i didn’t understand, i thought i did but my brain just said “see, control yourself. Starve” but now i’m fifteen and I’m successfully recovering and you have helped and inspired me to a point where you and everything you said and taught me and yourself was the reason for me to realize i’m not healthy. Being healthy is not about weight loss and being skinny. Thank you for teaching me and showing me your story. You’re like a teacher to me, acctually, hero is more fitting. thank you for saving my life

She’s amazing at editing I know everyone can feel like they are not doing there best sometimes but I have loved EVERY single one of her videos !!

I see so much dedication in her, even if she doesn’t. Also, gurl you’re making me crave all that buffet food.

I don’t know how RU-vid algorithm knew I’m also going through my getting fit/ weight loss journey but I’m glad it did because I love your series!! You’re so raw and real! No bullshit and totally relatable! Excited for the next episode

3:58 I literally got up, had some water and did all my homework!! Thank you so much for making me productive!

i have a problem that I restrict myself so much and when I eat just a piece of cake I want to work out or eat less the next day, basically I feel the guilt of binging without even binging, but, your videos help me a lot, seeing your journey and what you say about a healthy relationship with food literally makes me try to change my mindset.

I love when it´s been a really bad day and suddenly i see a notification of a new glow up diaries. Alivia makes me feel way better.

girl youre such an inspiration

I thought I was the only one struggling with portion control and binging. Thank you for sharing this!!

I always look forward to these Glow Up videos. Your realness is inspiring. You don’t pretend like your success is linear and that you did everything right to get to where you are today on your health journey. People like me really appreciate and resonate with you showing your struggles and being vulnerable with us, even though sometimes our inclinations are to hide our less than desirable decisions. These videos are informative, well-edited, and fun to watch as well. Great work, Alivia.

I’m very proud of you, it’s very hard to have that healthy relationship with food. Sadly for me I did develop and eating disorder and even after years of therapy and support it’s still a part of my life well into adulthood. You are so positive about your journey and showing us how motivated you are and making your journey not about hate but about changing into more positive aspect is a very hard thing to do. We all fall down but we can get back up after!!! So proud of you!!

“Sister suffer” is my new mood.

man i cant explain how much i love ur videos and how im actually recovering from my ed. ur so honest especially about the weightloss and how ur weightloss isnt linear. ive had the same issue for nearly 3 years. i appreciate seeing how honest you are. thank u

i sooo appreciate you for doing this! it’s such an unique way of telling us your story and we are learning so much from you!! seeing you going through this journey means for us that we don’t have to do the same. we can actually learn from your mistakes without having to make them too. thank you so much.

wow! Jolei is growing beautifully, she was so small before and now she's taller! she's so funny, I love when she appears in the videos. and she saying "sister" before words ... amazing, I love her 💛

You've helped me sooooo much! Lately, I've been really unmotivated and I feel like I'll never make it to where I'm satisfied with myself. Just by watching this series and your videos in general, it has really giving me the strength to try harder and to not give up. You are so relatable and it makes me feel like the things I want to accomplish aren't as far out of reach as I thought. You really are an icon and I hope your channel continues to grow and I hope you know how inspiring you are. Please don't let others bring you down, you deserve to be happy :)

The Glow Up Diaries are more motivating than all the motivation videos and pictures out there combined

My gosh it is so helpful how real this is. Starting over and over again, with a new Day 1 is all too familiar for me, and I imagine many others. Thank you.

Love how self reflected you are!

Alivia, I just found you on RU-vid and I can’t stop watching you. I wanna thank you from the bottom of my heart for this. Thank you so much. You are saving many lives especially for people who suffer from eating disorder. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Watching you struggling more with another side of eating/food issues is really helping me in ways I didn't expect. You're so strong. You've gone through some over eating, food/sugar addiction, and I've gotten addicted to the control of restriction. Putting our experiences together is helping me with the way I'm think about food

Amazing music alivia! And thanks for talking bout how sometimes what you love doing passionately becomes the enemy. Made me feel less alone

That moment when you watch her videos and just think omg that’s literally me. So many things you say that you thought are the same that I am thinking..... it’s Crazy but at the same time really good because your videos help me sooo much❤️

i know not many people are going to see this, but Alivia you've helped me so much. Recently I got into the habit of binging, I've been feeling low on my luck so I've been rewatching your series. I made a plan with a few friend to glow up, mentally and physically. I have a checklist and several routines I'll be starting with them on Monday. This is my formal thank you to, well, you! Without you I'd feel a lot worse about myself and probably be a lot worse off. You've been an inspiration and a huge role model in my life. Thanks for everything you do

Wow! Sis, do you know all of those motivation videos and speakers? They never motivate me nor inspire me as much as your series does or actually it's mainly you, without you the series won't be here

♥️♥️♥️ take your time to upload, when you do (like just right now) I get so happy but I can wait. This series is amazing and worth waiting for!!!

when i first started watching you, it was because of your dance videos and i remembered thinking “wow she’s so put together and i wish i was her” i stopped watching for a bit and i came back to the glo up diaries and your process of losing weight and gaining back confidence. at first i was surprised how a girl that looked so put together could get to that point. and i realized that everyone has a point where they are not their best. i wish i could tell you i am doing great on my weight loss journey because i’m not and it’s comforting and encouraging to see someone else that has the same highs and lows as me. just wanted to say that i hope both of us get to the point of body confidence we want. keep up the good videos!

I don't know why but this episode just really remotivated. Thank you❤

I love these videos because they are so realistic, all the other youtubers just show them being healthy all the time and don’t show their downfalls which makes me just feel like I’m worthless and everybody else can just do it and I’m the problem, but now I’ve got so much more knowledge because of you, thank you

She is such and inspiration. I actually feel like trying when I watch her videos

Who is rewatching for season 2?

This glow up diaries is refreshingly honest. Thank you for that. Sometimes when you watch influencers, you wonder why their lives aren't as good as theirs. It's good to know we're not alone in our struggles x

13:59 that bit of editing was really cool and creative

Thank you for all the effort you are putting on the glow up diaries, we don't deserve you ❤️❤️

When i watched your video for the first time, i felt a hope in my life. Live each moment, realize it and go on

I'm so glad I found your channel!! I am someone who's very insecure, and recently I just had a breakdown when I used Instagram again after a few months and saw my old gorgeous schoolmates on the feed!! I never felt beautiful = I've always been pessimist my whole life. I havent done anything to change my lifestyle, but you! you inspire me to act!! Thank you, Alivia for being the realest RU-vidr we need at the moment. The youtuber who inspires not boasts. I love you 💛

You're seriously the realest person eva. Thank you and I can't wait for your next video. Take your time okay hun. Don't be stressed💞💞

Hey Alivia. I'm Mehetabel from Nigeria. I've loved watching you ever since your 5 minute follow along stretch routine. It may not be so long a time but you inspire me every single video. My problem isn't really losing weight but more of social media addiction and motivation to exercise and really develop my skills as a dancer. And even as we have different issues, the fact that you keep getting up inspires me so much to get up and do what I need. I relate to you so much because I fall a lot with my social media sitch, so to see you keep going gives me hope. My goal is PRODUCTIVITY over TIME. I want to spend less time being distracted, while being more productive in that period. THANK YOU SO MUCH. I REALLY LOVE YOU ❤️. Keep growing and blossoming. I'm here with the others to celebrate you as you progress. You're blessed and highly favored.

This glow up series is my life, I love you so much and I hope you find your happy point!🥺💗

I love this series so much, it’s helped me realise that things can’t happen overnight, and that I need to stick with things to get the results I want! You have really helped me improve myself in so many ways

You are literally an artist! ❤️

your editing skills are otherworldly. srsly. it is a lot but it works so well and it feels like different segments, like a tv show 🥰

I was eating healthy and working out and then it all went down. I’ve been binging. I felt horrible for it then I suddenly don’t feel bad after watching your videos. Now I know that everything I ate was mentally. I’ve decided to try again. Thank you. You’ve helped me not go back to my old bulimic way of losing weight, instead to be healthy and enjoy life and learn from my mistakes. You’re probably never gonna read this but thank you a lot and I’m so happy I found your channel. Take you’re time we all understand. Your videos do make a difference and they’re worth watching. Love you!🥰

4:01 I literally stopped, got up and got myself hydrated yasss❤ also girl you have inspired me so much, I can't even explain. The way you've stuck to it, been honest with yourself and the community and evolving into the beautiful amazing person you are right now - AMAZING would be an understatement🔥❤