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Every time i get close to someone I start feeling like they’re annoyed by me and wouldn’t want to be around me so I just push them away and isolate myself again so that they don’t have the burden of doing that for me
its like everyone wants this clean, funny, chill version of me. and once they show interest in me I get too comfortable and show my true colors and they don't like that. and they start ditching that.
I understand you. This had happened to me a few times and i hated it But I'm happy i have my best friend that i just met 2 months ago when I shifted from a different country. I love that she loves me for who I am and my true colors. It's really hard to open up to someone. And once u get comfortable around u never wanna leave their side. I went for a shy person to a crazy fun person to her. This was her words
How bout we all give our Discords so we can talk about it and show our real versions, I showed it you should know my friends, They understand, They have the same attitude as i do. but the sadness out
“You never wanna hang out anymore!” “I’m leaving you because you never talk to me anymore.” “You never text anyone anymore.” “Be more social. You can’t be alone forever.” “You’re so annoying, you’re always talking” “You were never a good friend anyway” **Moves away** **Never hears from anyone again** ‘Isn’t this what you’ve always wanted? Not to be bothered by anyone anymore, not to have any drama, no more toxic friends?’ *But why do I still feel empty?*
its just so relatable, Everyone says that. I started being social again and ended up bad. I wanna stop doing it but i still need someone to vent to its annoying i feel just annoyed by everyone i feel like their gonna leave me, I feel like i will never exist to them like i used to after a few days. Its annoying how i feel like that
I'll never tell my friends how I really feel, because I already know that even without venting I am a boring and dull company, so easily replaceable, if I take a wrong step I will be alone. I've also always had the habit of saying the worst things at the worst times, it's like I'm not made to socialize, I'm not able to help anyone.
"also always had the habit of saying the worst things at the worst times, it's like I'm not made to socialize, I'm not able to help anyone" i feel you man
Same here. All of us in this comment section should become friends for eachother, honestly we are all here for one commom reason and its not really our faults :(
I ruined all my friendships by being scared. Being scared of failure, loneliness, abandonment, being replaced and manipulated, being annoying, talking too much or too little, not reaching expectations, being abused in anyway, miscommunication, misunderstandings, arguments, becoming addicted to the company of the person, relying on another person and being wrong PLUS trust issues and a fear or being separated.all of these fears, one brain and body to deal with them,even if they don’t work together. A fear of being lonely but having friends is also scary. That’s why I don’t have friends. I was always aware of it but I never wanted to accept it. I wish I could be better..
Seeing my dog die, my grandparents slowly fade away, my parents getting white hair, my friends graduate and me grow up. Hurts me, growing up made me think that I have to get used to this, not getting pampered anymore maturing is realising that ur getting old everyone is slowly fading away...
Bro same. Today at school my friend was talking about that how she tried to khs and how she was at the hospital all summer until she dont get all the teachers atencion. It was so anoying but I didnt say anythink bc she is my friend and I dont wanna upset her telling her to shut up. ( Bc she is talking about how her life is bad just for atencion and I know it bc for example whenever she want she just start to shouting that she has depresion at all the class until someone will not talk to her. ) And today she was talking about it again and when she was done I wanted to tell her about mine Wattpad story im writing and I didnt even started and she tell me to shut up bc she dont care about me. Its not fair bc I never tell her to shut up even tho I hate every word she said. And plus whenever she want she just start randomly kicking me and beating be. She is just the worst friend I ever had. And she is starting getting on my nervs now, but I dont know what to do. Im so happy that there is finally someone I can talk about it with. I love you and good luck at life
If you have to worry about them being mad at you, it’s not worth it. Also, ( please don’t be offended by this) she is just a attention seeker because she expected the teachers to give her special treatment. Honestly. She needs to grow up and realize self harm ( no matter what level) is not okay. I hope you have a good day/ night.
@@K3musickiddo ditch her, don't feel bad at all because shes making you feel like shit and pity her self all the time just don't talk to her anymore , it's for your own wellbeing and mental health ❤️
i come back to this playlist every night and read the comments. in a strange way it’s nice to know that i’m not the only one feeling this way and that we can all be a source of support for each other.
Seconds add up into Minutes. Minutes add up into Hours. Hours add up into Days. Days add up into Weeks. Weeks add up into Months. Months add up into Years. Years add up into Decades. Decades add up into Centuries. Centuries add up into Millennium. It all continues on. Infinitely. All you have to focus on right now, is Today. Your Past is gone. Your Future is unknown. Just be the best you can be. No matter what your best is. If no one believes in you, I will. You are loved. ❤❤
Do you ever feel like your just not recognized by anyone bc that’s how I feel inside and this audio reliefs all the stress and anxiety out of me so thank you
Honesty, i'm tired of having to wake up and do the same thing over and over and over again. No one knows that I am truly an unhappy human being, even if I do tell anyone what's going to change? I always lose motivation to do things, I zone out, and keep overthinking things, even the most littlest things that shouldn't matter. All people are fake no matter how long you have known them for. I don't rely on others but I also can't rely on myself. It's also strange how people say i'm dumb but they can't seem to figure out that I have a fake smile on my face everyday, sucked in stomach, fake positivity... Etc, etc. I'm also such a selfish human being, everyone says so themselves. I also feel terribly sorry for others that I have hurt or intentionally hurt. The amount of times I stood over a bridge or near a bridge and thought about jumping. When I die I do not want to suffer, I truly hope there is no "Second life/After life", I would want to know where I end up, but not live in that moment nor live at all. SH didn't get me anywhere and it sadly made it harder and worse for me to deal with. I'm also tired of people ranting to me about there boyfriends and girlfriends, like oh my- did he really "grab your arm and start kissing you" well I don't care and I didn't want to know, i'm not jealous actually it's just annoying having to hear the same thing over and over and over again. I don't need nor want anyone in my life, I can do things on my own without other people having to help, or pursue telling me to do something I don't want to nor don't need to do. This cycle repeats everyday. Some people say "yolo", (you only live once) but actually you don"t only live once, you live everyday, and with that "everyday" is a new opportunity to start again, you only die once. I truly hope whoever is reading this lives their fullest life with no regrets. How are you? How has your day been? I hope that you have been eating/drinking well. please take a break, pause for a minute close your eyes and breathe in-and-out slowly, be calm, you will have a great morning/night, evening/day. Goodbye everyone, enjoy living.
hits different when you're lying in your room, while it's thunder storming outside with no one but yourself all your friends are in new york, whilst you're are in tx
Thank you recently I’ve been isolating myself and bottling up my negative emotions, and I feel like my sadness wasn’t valid nice knowing others felt this way to
May I suggest writing, I wanna talk to everyone who makes me bottle up, but I know it will cause problems. So I write, everything down it's nice to reference later. Helps get your thought organized. You got this! I belive in you, i hope you find a little hope. Have a good day/night. All the people haveing similar difficulties have all my respect. 💕
@@SkiddyScattOz18 that sounds like a good idea I’m glad you want to help people with situations like this, thanks! (I also hope you have a good day/night)
I was starting to become good friends with someone, and I was really excited to be their friend. I texted them everyday , I always worried if something happened to them and I always wanted to make sure they were okay. But for being to clingy and talking too much they started ghosting me , and still do it to this day , it hurts so much. I feel like I annoyed them so now and then I isolate myself from everyone even my trusted friends because I feel like I'm annoying and deserve to be alone. : ' ) Sorry for kinda venting here
I understand you- i used to act like you around people and they left pretty slowly. now i don't even know how i ended up here alone again, just like last summer, i wish i had true friends, or just people to talk to. for now the actual person that cares is my psychologist and that.. kinda hurts
its fine to vent, people on youtube are more chill because we all come here to escape our realities, we enjoy watching our favorite youtubers content and laughing, we're sad when other people are sad, we can smile, but most of the time its a front, none of us are truly happy
I acted like that for the most part of my life on this earth, being too clingy just drives people away and it's sad because I've been alone despite how hard I try to make friends
For anyone who needs this. Your worth it! You’ve made it this far and I’m proud of you! And I don’t know you but I’m sure that the people that do know you are thankful that your here. :)
@@EmilySav i lose my friend grope because of me get in drama because one said something about one of my friends i trust but they do not one said something bout her and i got mad and another said she is saying bad things about me and i do not want to think it is true i do not know what to do 4 think she did not and 5 think she is saying this about all of as and me they said " she said uh yea i am using her for more fiends
@@panguin2453 I’m sorry that’s happening, but once you sort all of this out I promise it will all be better and if it’s not you can always vent to me bc I’m your friend now and I’m gonna be here for you no matter what :)
Hey you yes you! Are you scrolling through the comments? Well I’m going to loose all my friends and memories and I wanted to let you know that we will do it together ❤ and I’m always here if you need to chat And if you need a good cry don’t worry I’m doing that right now! So have an amazing day! ❤❤❤❤❤ love all of you❤ UPDATE: this is almost a year later but I thought life was bad then well.. so I lost all those friends and started a new school, met a boy dated him got dumped called a b*tch and bullied then I lost all those friends cause of false rumours. Then today I found out my “friend” who knew I liked this guy went and dated him. I get bullied quite bad by all the boys. I don’t have friends anymore and home life isn’t so good. I’m rlly trying here guys and I haven’t been eating and people have said I’m gonna get an eating disorder so yeah. My anxiety is bad but when I bring it up to my mom she dismisses it and won’t let me even get checked for it. I’m worried I’m gonna end up in the hospital or dead. I hope I get better ❤️🩹 again love you all!❤ Date: 30/11/23
been more than a month this playlist is so good I was crying also "we love you still" "no ew not this clothing here pink!" "you need surgery lol" "shush your to talkative hun" "your not perfect" "leave your to annoying" Listen to me you are amazing leave those toxic people you have your amazing self dont you cry leave those toxic people and be you you are AMAZING i love you most of all of you!
to everyone feeling lonely and like they cant go on. im here ml you have me (and my 7 cats) you're loved. your feelings are valid. you're wanted and accepted. sending hugs if u like physical touch :) its gonna be alright just breathe. deep breathes ok? remember to eat and drink some water if u can
they left me today. they had lots of reasons too because they wrote a huge paragraph about me. it didnt hurt at first but when it turned 10 it all hit at once. mad, anger, sadness, desperation, and numbness. i havent cried in forever. here we go again. happy fucking 4th of july and im so sorry gray.
I swear as soon as I get close to someone I mess it up by being too clingy, to hyper or whatever. It always start as a “weird” look every time I talk or make a joke in my group. I feel as if sooner or later they’re turn their back and start talking shit about me to the rest of the group. I’ve never actually had it happen as this group I’m in are my first actual set of friends, as people always give horrible looks in the hallways, and just laugh and whisper to their friends. I don’t mean to use this as a vent place but I don’t really trust anyone around me atm to say this to. Xx
it’s my last year of school and i’ve always been pretty chill with the ‘people come and go’ thing since i cant feel sadness it’s a weird habit of mine wich im not pretty proud of. I don’t know what my life will be after graduating and i’m kinda scared that i’ll isolate from everyone and especially my feelings and beloved ones. I always feel like im not that important to people cuz they know that i’ll be always there for them and it kinda feels strange, i hope things change after graduating…
I always feel as though no one gets me, as though no one cares about me. And this playlist helps me so much. Even without venting to my friends or even saying anything, I get told I’m annoying and don’t know what others are going through. And I know that, I know that everyone is going through something different and they need to go through it to become a better person, but it’s just like..does anyone ever think about anyone but themselves? What about me? Am I not important enough to have company? Am I not special enough to have a shoulder to lean on? I am the shoulder everyone uses..I am the therapist for everyone..but whenever I feel a bit down because I’m going through something which has a long term effect, I’m the one who is attention seeking. It’s just not fair.. But that’s life isn’t it Not everyone gets what they want And I just have to sit and deal with it all on my own But oh well I guess, they just don’t understand It just crushes me to see people be so selfish to their own needs and wants… :)
I'm sorry to hear that. Its really not fair that they treat you as they do. You're important, and special, you just... haven't met the right people if that makes sense. I know it must be hard, having to deal with things alone. You're amazing! Always remember that! I'm sorry if I have confused, offended or made you uncomfortable in anyway, I'm not exactly the best at helping people, so I'm sorry if any of this came off wrong. I hope you have an amazing day/night, and that you're taking care of yourself.
I remember my friend group, they all ditched me and reminded me of the worst day of my life, i thought it was all my fault and they didnt deserve me. I hope everyone is okay, whatever your going through and if your going through something upsetting try, if you can , do whatever makes you calm, just try sit down somewhere and get a snack just chill wishing yall the best!!!
While reading this I remembered my "friends"group I had from 7th grade till 9th grade. We were so close even some of our classmates were jealous. Then something happened slowly they started ghosting me, inviting me then hanging out without me. Eventually they replaced me with another girl. I still remember how I sat all alone in class while everyone had someone next to them. My friends group had so much fun, talking, laughing while I was crying quietly. I blamed myself thought it's because of me. It's because I'm quiet I'm bOrInG. Now I realize it wasn't. I'm sorry that it happened to you. And as you said they don't deserve you. Take care, you are so precious 💓
This song is totally relatable. I always loss my friends bc I’m don’t talk to them or I start “fights “ even tho I don’t mean to ! I lost my bestie I was was besties with her for 3 and a half years … if anyone is goung through this , you deserve wayyyyy better they are not worth it and it’s not your fault, it’s all just a rumor that like how people say “oh ,always your fault “ or “ just stop being friends with me I lose all my friends “ ITS NOT YOUR FAULT ! 🤍 note: ✨I love y’all ✨ - Ellie
I'm isolating again, I feel like all my friends are leaving and I just feel bad, I hate myself... Idk what to do anymore, I couldn't cry until this playlist thank you
i have a decent life. decent family decent friends. but i feel really tired. school stresses me out so much, to the point of just wanting to cry. i seem really unliked for some reason. is it my looks? my weight? how lonely i am? i dont know anymore, but i want a break. i have such bad grades, im scared if my future will not work out my way because of them. but, im so happy summer holidays is coming up soon, ill be able to meet my friend in england and my girlfriend, i feel like maybe i can sit down and gather myself up, and just contemplate what im doing. maybe i can lose weight, maybe i can be who i want to be finally, not a quiet idiot, but a friendly extroverted person. my life resembles a puzzle to be honest, i have done the puzzle, its complete, but i lost the last piece, and the puzzle isnt complete without it, i just wanna know where that puzzle piece is. my life has ups and downs, as im sure you all do. but we will get through it together, you will find a partner, you will get your dream job. i know we can all achieve it. - mayoria
I had gotten a text from one of my best friends who I valued as a person a lot, even though we were so different and weren't super close as we were sort of was, it still hurt. Reading that message knowing that I might as well not talk to them for a long while. Even though I saw this coming as I'm entering high school, shouldn't mean it doesn't and will never sting. Knowing that I or my other friends weren't the best we could have done something even though we tried to change through the years. And the sad part is she only ever tells us still stuff last minute and even though she had expressed her feelings about this idk. It feels like nothing is ever enough and the worst is it. She says she feels like we're forcing our friendship with her in a way when I truly thought everything was ok and was never trying to force anything. Idk maybe I should have been easier on her. It hurts though.
I only have one best friend and we have had time apart, we have been best friends ever since 4th grade and we are both in highschool. She is like my other half, i am anti-social, doesn't like talking in big groups, dirty minded, has depression and anxiety, has quite a hard time making friends. She is kinda social, good at making friends, has depression, innocent mind. So everytime she doesn't want to do something, i do it for her and then if i don't wanna do something, she does it for me, we have always had that bond but over the years, she made more friends then me and her friends hate me... what should i do?
@@Playlists723 Talk to your one best friend. Maybe you both could work it out, if they start to become more toxic there's no use hanging out with them and I get it can be a hard decision as something similar happened to one of my closest friends. They started to bully them and say death threats to them. From heart to heart it's better to try and distances yourself or talk to someone you trust. Don't let it get out of control.
Can anyone relate.... trying so hard to keep everyone around you stable and happy. Putting them before all of your needs because they are all that you have. Any advice to work through this would be amazing too
I have a very similar problem. And something that’s sorta helped me is just taking a long break from everyone around me. You know just staying in your room doing things that make you happy, like drawing or finding new music. Use that break as a recharge, catch up on sleep, make a new routine. Making others happy is draining and taking care for yourself should always be your top priority no matter how much you care for those around you. You come first, you need the most care and attention.
if they dont put the same effort in the friendship/relationship with you, cut them off. it is honestly harsh and i wouldn't want to do this and come up with excuses to not cut them off but gonna rid of the rotten rope. after cutting them off, you look after yourself and ur needs. My advice is try to come up with a routine and have some ways that something can remind you, like adding alarm to it and stuff and then after do what you gonna need. also it is okay to be alone. being alone is better than having fake/ghosting/toxic friends. or even if the person isn't a 'toxic' or 'fake' friend but ghosts u or ignores you, cut them off. to have these down mood or depression out of the way you either have to fix the situation (try to find ways to speak with the others) or just change your mindset (way that you think). honestly put ur own needs first then others if you're not stable and unhappy. i learnt this the hard way and the best thing i actually did was going travelling with family overseas and looked forward to it and it did change my mindset (im not saying to travel but find ways that can lighten up ur mood a lot or even a little) and then try to change your routine. Do you wake up late? do u sleep late? start sleeping early and waking up early. have those routine honest and then what to do when you're doing nothing. you can do habits that you used to do a lot but later stopped maybe due to low motivation. try again. or watch shows that you were gonna watch but never did. do something different that can change the day. Spend more time with family. While you're doing these, don't think about the past or how your friendship are and the thoughts about them. they will distract you. instead do hobbies that u used to do and do them again or if you're at school, try to study. starting to study may be hard, but know what chapter or whatever topic you're doing and then list down what you're gonna study, break it down on what subtopics or stuff you need to complete and add how much minutes/hours it'll take. btw I've been through that whenever i 'study' (which tbh i never do because of low motivation that was honestly caused by my "friends") i just don't study and study last minutes for test and never know how to start. if you're like me, feel lonely and would like to study with somebody but don't have anybody, try to use those Watch Me study timers and you basically study with the timers and the person studying with u. this helped me so much on starting. if you're still have no motivation and wouldn't want to study long, try to study for just 1 hour but break it down. maybe do 20 minutes per subject with 5-10 minutes break and then go back and keep on going. keep on doing that and you will study efficiently. But during the weekend, ofc have a break because you deserve it but make sure to still study to not miss some studies for tests/exams/homework. i hope that this helps!!
I ended up losing a lot of my friends because they said i was too rude and i hurt them but thats how i was raised by my not right in the mind mom snd its hard to change that stuff and ive been working on it for years so yeah 👍
I've screwed up. One of my besties left our group, and now all I have is the other one, who I also now ignore. Im scared, im mad, im guilty, im annoyed. Its all my fault I couldnt be kinder to her. She's been lying all this time, she was afraid of us. I never saw any of it. And now I ignore the only one I have left, because nothing will be the same again. She reminds me of the pain I felt that night, my minecraft world paused and stifling tears with my head turned from the living room. How much have they lied to me? Why cant I seem to make nice positive friendships instead of self-centered name calling ones? It hurts so bad, and it still hurts after these weeks. I wish I could just... Find better people. Be better to them. I was right, friendships hurt too much. I should've never talked to them.
I'm so sorry. I'm proud of you bc you are still here. You are strong! 💪 Everything will be good. Friendship forever doesnt exist, every friendship ends sometimes. You are so strong and good person ♥️ and I balieve in you !! 💕💕
Hey, I know how it feels to lose someone you dearly loved for a very long time but you know, if you feel like you’re at your lowest come to me and we can talk it out
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! -Not mine, but pass it around babes
I needed this.. recently I’m feeling like I felt before, it was getting better but suddenly I relapsed, i’m an artist and I am not able to draw anymore. I cried abt that last night. Ty love you
I'm so sorry for you. I know how you feel bc I lost my friend group bc they just don't like me. Now they are my enemyes and sometimes they making fun of me at school. Thats why I started doing these playlists. Bc I love music. I wish you luck and be strong! ♥️ I love you and I'm always here for you. 💕🎶
I'm 14, yes it's a little young, but god it hurts seeing all my so called "friends" in love with a guy/girl. I sure love being third-wheeled. It doesn't help that home life is horrible. Somedays i think it's better to do SH, or I maybe better dead. It doesn't help that my "friends" use me to vent and all that sh**. I just have this simple question, why is life so hard? I want to be ok for once, but that won't happen.
hey man. your gonna be okay. i know it doesnt seem that way, but things will get better, over time. a lot of people here care about you. you are not better dead. people need you here. i know im just a stranger over the internet, but if you really need to talk about stuff, dont bottle it up. and, one last thing. we love you :) -a random stranger
Hey love, I know I’m a stranger but trust me. You have to leave them it’s for your own good, tho I am younger than you I’m sure your life will get better soon
Thank you for this it has really helped me! I have never really had friends ever since I was born and I just feel like everyone one I meet hates me and can’t figure out why, I have only really had one real friend but she left me like everyone else and I recently moved to a new school and I’m not an incredibly social person so I find it especially hard to make friends and the ones that I talk to I feel they don’t really like me. They never want to hang out, they never want to team up in a school project and one girl is especially mean to me personally like she subtly says things that I am very insecure about and it really puts down my mood and when I get home I just wanna lock myself up in my room and just cry my heart out but I feel like I can’t because there is this image of how people should be, happy, ok, social and I’m just none of those things. I don’t fit into society and it’s quite literally breaking me into my weakest form so people can bully and hurt me even more. It’s like no one can help it’s just me and me only, me against everyone else and the hatred they carry towards me. Everywhere I go it feels like people stare and judge me all the time and it drains my energy, I can’t do it anymore. Sorry if this is annoying but I’m anonymous right now so no one knows who I am. Thanks for reading this
I relate to this comment alot since i also have this friend she's really toxic i know she's had a verry traumatic life and it just kinda weights me down and pretty depressing for me but i just kinda deal with it i always tell her i'm the problem whenever we fight and i just kinda tell her to not be friends with me anymore which the isolating part comes in my life has already been pretty f*cked up and problematic lately i don't even vent to her about my life and just like me she doesn't also we're both pretty much introverts but the only difference is she has a lot of friends and i have only 2-3 friends we're in highschool now and whenever i get the chance to talk to her she pretty much ignores me i really don't know what i did wrong but i just hope i could d** sooner or later..
loneliness accompanies me for life, it is my curse. Credits: I am a girl with no desire to live and her curse is loneliness since they were going to give her that name.
Something just like this happened to me I lost 3 people in one year and on of those 2 people tricked me into thinking everyone else left me I cried for hours it didn't help that I was sick.
I'm starting to realise that all my years I've lived I never had anyone who stuck around. Online friends are nice but I just want them to be "online" friends cuz I'm pretty sure they wouldn't go through it to become friends with me IRL cuz of how I am since me online is an idealistic version of myself that I fake all the time . I'm the magnetic pole that makes everything go away from me. All the people I've met we're reasonable enough to get distant from me and I seriously don't think I can form a good relationship ever in my life. My own family has proven me right, I'm just gonna be a loner forever and it's completely my fault. I made my life like this. Now I don't even put effort to keep what I have cuz I'm too tired of going after everyone and I Just can't stop but do it anyways. so sorry to everyone that relates
I feel like my family is always annoyed by me when I really speak and laugh the real way like when I’m actually happy and actually talking with happiness because I’m always to Loud and it’s annoying
It is the feeling of being like your the problem like your not perfect enough, and saying that I'm not like them, it's like 1 word and then you're humiliated by the public I'm stressing out too much relationships and friendship, assignments, projects I DON'T EVEN KNOW ANYMORE
I just started listening to this again, Because I used t be friends with this person for three months straight, but then they started to become very distant to me and we only talked when we argued they never argued with anyone else so I always thought there was something wrong with me, recently I told them to be friends with someone else because they rarely texted me anymore and left me on seen a lot but replied to everyone else in seconds, Yeah it hurts because they easily replaced me with someone else after I left, But it was for the better, I am doing a little bit better now and I don't miss them as much as I used to anymore because I know they never gave a shit about me if they did they would of talked to me more. Sorry for the vent.
я просто один,я чувствую себя одиноким. я ушел от всех,потому что я делаю им больно. я ужасен. я один ..один ... я даже поговорить ни с кем не могу. я настолько доубегал от своих чувств и мыслей,что не могу даже связать то,что хочу сказать. в моей голове нет ничего. я не могу нормально плакать, не выдавливая из себя слезы. я уже потерял мысль, что хотел сказать. я ничтожен и одинок. я говорю что все в порядке,когда это не так.
знаешь, буквально вчера я лежала на полу и думала о том, как разговаривать с людьми, как плакать, как смеяться. по-настоящему. это правда очень тяжело быть в одиночестве. хочется снова связывать свои мысли в слова, не так ли? хочется рассказать кому-то про самые мелочи. хочется быть нужным. раньше я пыталась завести друзей, и я правда старалась ради них, но они уходили. я задумалась: может это не только моя вина? поэтому я буду ждать. ждать, пока не встречу действительно настоящего друга. ты не ничтожен, ты не ужасен. правда. мне тоже сложно написать то, что я хочу сейчас сказать. но я знаю, что ты хороший человек. и я правда надеюсь, что тебе станет лучше. совсем скоро. мне очень жаль, если здесь совсем не то, что ты хотел услышать и если я вообще написала какую-то бессмыслицу. хорошей ночи)
I’m 11 years old but, this playlist helps me a lot. Because I’ve been left out and my friends forget abt me and i just need to talk to them and mabye even vent to them. But they never listen to me :(
“Am I the problem?” “I shouldn’t of done that” “She’s probably so uncomfortable” Me: “I do forgive you, even if you don’t. I give you every right to hate me, I tortured you in the worst way possible; over obsession. As much as you hate me, know that I would never. I might be uncomfortable around you, but at any time, if you would like to start over, I’m free.” M: “Thanks and I do hate you.” Me: “thank you. Please do…”
Im 13 yrs old and I'm so close to losing my best friend, SHE barely talks to me, and I'm alone now, it hurts so much.. sometimes I wish we never met , I lost so many ppl so many friends, so many members , I just want someone who will never leave.. I can't deal with this pain again, I need a break again, ever since my other best friend left me , I've took a break, it's like my heart is getting idk. Idk this feeling tbh...
My metal health has been getting worse.... and I've been taking pills, soo many pills, THAT I STRESS SO MUCH, I mean I'm used to it , I had depression when I turned 7, sometimes I think I might have depression forever but no, I just want it gone , I wasted so much in life...
You know...Having a best friend had these consequences too..And it happened again just a day ago lol. But what I've learned from this is that no matter who you are friends with, you should never depend on them but only on yourself. By doing that, you'll protect yourself from manipulation, disappointment, pain and a lot more..I know it's hard I was depressed, anxious and really close to do SH during the time I was bullied by my best friends. But even if I changed from the naive, very empathetic little girl, I know it's better for me :/ I really hope you'll get better, don't focus on the past but enjoy the present and dream of the futur.. If you're an overthinker like me, I found a cool tip on tik tok ! When you feel you're drowning inside your thoughts and feeling, start thinking about everything you're grateful for, even the smallest thing. Depression is a serious topic, your feelings ARE valid and one day you'll be able to live without it AND without the guilt of not having depression, LOVE YA VERY MUCH 💜💜💜💜💜💜
They come and go, They never stay. I’ve tried to at least make them stay, Nobody ever really depended or committed to stay anyway that’s why I don’t even try and put enough effort to be friends with anyone, I’m not social with anybody because nobody ever stays. And I want them to stay of course but I could never try hard enough even if I did, it would never work.
:) recently lost a friend because he didn’t need me as much anymore. he started playing with his friends and kinda just left me hanging. guess i’m in a grieving state because i never expected him to actually leave me. we were doing so good and very attached and clingy towards each other. idk how he suddenly just switched up and left me. haha funny thing is we talked EVERY SINGLE DAY never missed a day of talking or hanging out so i’m not used to it because i dedicated my whole day to him so it feels weird rn. it hurts so much though. it’s like my heart got ripped out of my chest. and me violently crying every single night. idk if i can make any new friends for a while or even ever. i don’t wanna keep experiencing having to be replaced or being left. i’d rather just endure the loneliness. it’s much less hurtful.
As I watch them walk by, ignoring my presence so they can talk to someone they consider a friend and nothing more than someone toxic, they all seem to fit in except for me.
Ah the tittle is so relatable for me, it has happened me for years I always end up loosing all my friends and end up being alone again.. I finally have a friend after a long time, but i'm afraid to loose him too I always have that fear of him leaving me and constantly have that thoughts of "i'm annoying" and feeling like i'm a bad friend idk man i hate those negative thoughts i rlly love him as a friend he's so nice with me, so kind, and i feel rlly comfortable when i'm with him i just don't want that to happen again all because of my fault,, I'll just try my best to keep that friendship on.
Hey uhm.. I know it's not your fault. People can be selfish and mean sometimes if not all the time. But you don't have to do this :/ There is no friendship without at least two people so if you see that your friend has no interest in your friendship, it's not worth it. You are important and your health is important too ! Don't put all those heavy things on your shoulders. Be yourself and offer the best you can if you're happy with that person ! Don't depend on them tho, you don't wanna give them the key to manipulate, deceive or break you hm :) I hope everything will be fine ! Love ya !!
I have had many online friends who are at the beginning nice and sweet but then turn to mean and toxic "u are a bad friend etc" and "dogs don't talk" there are many toxic ppl especialy in my country
a vida adulta é solitária, mas se torna um pouco mais tolerável se você teve uma infância tão solitária quanto, façam amigos, pq não tem respawn nessa merda de planeta não, aproveitem tudo ao máximo, tenham hobbies, prazeres pessoais e comam muitos legumes, boa madrugada
whenever i try to let myself be happy, i feel like i’m making other people think i’m annoying. i then realize that, so then i just keep quiet. later on they’d ask what’s wrong, why are you so quiet all of a sudden?.. so from now on, i’ll just stop. i’ll stop trying.
I need better friends. Ones that care. Ones that are there for me. Ones that understand. At this point I only have 1 real friend but I’ll be losing her soon.
even though im not going through anything right now, i like to take time out of my day to scroll and read the comments to see what other people are going through just in case i go through anything they do
Well it's the fourth of July! Listening to the second song is therapeutic rn. I wish I had friends to celebrate it with, go out and watch the fireworks and have a good talk. Atleast I spent it with my family for that I'm grateful.
yeah, i understand, for me the 4th isn't like it used to be, my grandpa is recovering from heart surgery so we couldn't do fireworks. Nothing feels right anymore.
ive always had to move every couple of years so i never kept many friends but right when i started to feel like wed settled down finally and that id finally be able to keep the people i love with me my best friend has to move and wed been planning for them, their partner, and my boyfriend could all meet up again after so long on my birthday and now none of them can make it because theyre moving and im not close with their partner and my boyfriend says he isnt comfortable coming over. i hate this so much why cant i just have a stable life for once please.
The chances of you seeing this are slim but to you my friend, I'm sorry. It was all my fault and I know that. I hope you finally get the happiness you deserve. Hope to see you on the other side!! Have a good life Ray, have a good life with him as you deserve.
Idk if you need this or not but, it'll be okii that isn't your fault you just didn't know. Also this may be random but I am here for you if you ever need to talk lol idk how'd it work but I am here for you >:>
i was pretty popular, when i left two years and came back... people ignored me...i felt reallt painful in the heart. now today i cry every night to celebrate my isolation.
I’m a child between 11-12, tho I’m not suppose to know what depression or sadness is and be happy I’ve been feeling sad for some reason. Sometimes I wish I would go to sleep and never wake up. I live in a abusive household and I don’t have any family members to help me at all. All I do is eat and sit in my room all the time, not even my own mom can even look at me which is her own DAUGHTER. She always gives me this nasty look whenever I eat or ask for food. Only my siblings understood how I felt, my parents wouldn’t understand if I had problems like that. Whenever I tell them that someone called me fat they would said “well maybe if you didn’t eat so much they wouldn’t called you fat”. Instead of calming me down and comforting me like how regular parents would, they made fun of me for “over eating” and it makes me sad seeing that they body shame me for fun. I sometimes brush it off and laugh but it doesn’t feel right. I would always tell my siblings my problems because if I told my parents they wouldn’t care and say “brush it off” instead of comforting me. You know, sometimes I wish my parents would trade me for a better kid who is energetic, who is more “woman like”, who is quiet, who cleans up without being told so, and who is skinny. I might have depression or not but I’ve been feeling like garbage lately, I have wrinkles and dark eye bags underneath my eyes and my parents would tease me by calling me names :/. Forgive me if venting on your post is annoying.
I needed this. Thank you. I'm a semi-high school graduate. And I barely had friends in school so losing the last few that I can't be around anymore is kinda hard to let go of but it's not that hard to let go of things you don't get attached to. I can't wait to be happy with my next adventure in a different state.
Hello… the same happened to me, I just lost my friends a few days ago, and it’s mainly because of my mindset. We had a big talk, and they told their pov on the situation and it was my fault from their pov… at some point of the year I developped a fear of school because I didn’t wanted to feel like they made me feel. For me it was our fault but now I am starting to blame it on myself. Last Friday was our prom day, I was supposed to go there with my last highschool friend left, but I couldn’t go because I knew they were going to be there. I'm afraid to lost the last few friend I got because of the way I am. I don't have any confidence left. They said I made them suffered the most even when they didn't seen how much I suffered. But I guess it's still my fault. I know how you feel. I don't know why I told you all of this but I guess I needed to talk.
