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I will always find it interesting that while Lito and Jonathon originally tried to fuse together and ended up needing to be separated, in the long run they did eventually end up together in Kim Kim with positive results. Like instead of being explainable with simple math, it is more like cooking, where just combining L and J doesn't work but if you first let L and K simmer together THEN add J, it all comes together wonderfully. And regarding my own part in the calls, as a singlet I appreciate all the chances to better understand DID and I'm glad to have played any part in making your time away more positive.
We’ve thought about that too! How odd that they ended up still fusing together in a way. Thank you for years of company, conversation, and straight up joy 🥰 -Kim Kim
I'm reminded why I subscribed to your channel years ago. I too am a trauma survivor but live with secondary structural dissociation, not tertiary, which is essentially DID. Listening to your description of how your alters relate to one another and carry what I call the residue of trauma I'm deeply touched. Although the parts of myself carrying the trauma haven't had an independent existence, they are part of me. A very informative book on structural dissociation called The Haunted Self calls them "emotional parts." Deep respect for all you share with us... acceptance and kindness are key. We ARE carrying trauma and we deserve compassion and care... nothing else.
It is an odd form of relief to hear that fusion doesn’t have to be an active effort. The process of healing already is so daunting and full of so much work that we cannot fathom putting in even more effort to fuse.
You should mount Kit's wings on the wall! Repurpose them as a commemorative art piece :) glad you are back and thanks for the update. Since youve been gone I have accepted my systemhood and it has been a long journey. Your influence has been instrumental.
So glad to get an update! And Kim Kim you are handling yourself as a fully grown woman. It was so great to hear about having the full time job and getting benefits. You all deserve this happiness. Big love for the whole system ❤
As a system with autism, this level of healing seems so difficult right now. Our parents are in the middle of a vicious divorce/custody battle while still actively abusing our siblings, so we're forced to hold down a job just so we don't have to go back there (we got very lucky and found something remote with flexible hours, but the pay isn't great). So yeah, we are still very much "in the thick of it". our split tolerance is high, but we still split like every other month now (prior to that it was maybe a few times a year, and dormancy/spontaneous fusion kept the number of alters roughly even). We're better at communicating than ever before, and have even made a truce with the most uncooperative alters/are working on it. So thank you for this Hope, even if I don't yet believe you. -- Gwen (?)// THE HOPE SYSTEM PS You may remember us by our youtube account from back in the day! We weren't overt yet, and the host at the time (will) is dormant and maybe fused into me (it's kind of hard to tell for us). So yeah, we've been here all along haha!
We're so glad to see you guys are doing well! We're really sorry about Kit, forced fusion is not a pleasant time and we understand when that happens it can be really difficult. We're going to miss her as well. In other news, we discovered we were a system in March of 2022, and we wouldn't have known what was going on without us watching your channel beforehand, so thank you for educating and talking about y'alls experiences. We're still in the throes of trying to figure out the depths of our system and we're glad we have your videos to watch to understand what we're experiencing.
You were one of the first systems we watched when we were figuring our stuff out, and when we reached out to you with a question you were kind. It was incredibly appreciated. Your reasoned perspective, backed up by the science, is sorely needed in the community nowadays. Welcome back! Also, I can't wait for Cyberpunk! We're on our third playthrough and finally not playing Hackerman--we're doing a swordsman solo run with a character based on our lead protector. It rules.
didnt hear about Daniel :( I hope he's okay. I'm sorry about Kit's fusion, but in glad to know you're all so happy and healthy ♥️ it's a pleasure to know all of you and I look forward to your future content.
I went through a horrifyingly painful fusion between my two hosts that was unwilling on every side. I felt complete ego death, it was heartbreaking, and I was despondent for over six months after it happened. I didn't have a name or sense of self and would break down crying at the very thought of *me* as an entity, a new host alter. The word grief doesn't begin to describe it, I miss the way they used to exist too. The fear of spontaneous fusion is terrifying, even crippling, and its something that almost no one understands, which makes it feel so isolating. Thank you for sharing your experience of your fusions and the grief that goes with it sometimes. It makes me feel less alone. I watched your videos when I figured out I had DID four years ago and they helped me so much. I've been through a lot of trauma processing over the past several years and now have four alters down from sixteen. A hard, hard road, but one ultimately for the best. I was delighted to see a new video of yours again after healing and hearing more about the good things in your life too.
omg; still watching but the part about kitt being unable to front for very long happened to our host(?) for MONTHS if not years. the only reason we finally came to terms with having DID is because we spent months with the new hosts being Not Her. they were, i think our gatekeeper and a trauma holder, or something like that. then a switch flipped and the old host (who's more of a social alter) was triggered to front consistently for a solid month, and we were like Oh. so it wasn't just severe depression. it was a full switch in personality and world view just like that. then after that month, she struggled to front consistently again until recently, but the past month or two, she/i/whatever have become more stable and front regularly, and is/am more of the host again now. which is very nice because having trauma holders up front all the time is severely draining, as you can imagine. also, i think the first alter we ever became aware of fused a couple months ago, so hearing the story about kitt fusing was really nice. he seemed to fuse into two different alters instead of just one of us, which we weren't sure if that was even a thing that could happen until now. it's strange to have such an integral part of the system be like a distant memory, even if he fronted back in november, which... i guess is kind of a while ago to be fair lol.
we were going through some of our old things the other day and found a shirt that no longer fit us but was one of the first things any of us bought knowing it was just for one alter. and that alter fused about a decade ago now, and the emotion you talked about with spontaneous fusion happening really really hit home. it's how we felt when he fused too. we can't get rid of that shirt, so we're planning on framing it and hanging it up on our wall. also, we have an alter who split off a few years back and immediately wanted to change her name. she named herself Kit, in no small part because y'all were such a huge inspiration in our own journey. thank you so much for everything y'all have done. we're so glad to see y'all back and hear your updates! 💚
It's lovely to see everyone is doing well. I do hope you'll keep letting us know how everyone is doing. I think it's part of what made your channel appealing, having a personal connection with you all, or at least a glimpse into your reality.
We’ll definitely keep up with the system updates. We’ll also be switching up who posts videos from week to week so you’ll get to see each of us shine through ✨ -Wyn
I’m reminded why I’ve been subbed for so long. Thank you for the system update. I’m so happy for all of you. ❤ I’m a diagnosed DID system and we are 27 yo in body years. We’ve been diagnosed since 14 which is actually pretty young apparently especially at that time to be diagnosed. One day I hope we can be as functional as you guys are. We are polyfrag. And we are17mo free from our abusive child bride ex who our mother sold us to when we were15 and he was20. So we still have a lot of healing yet to do. But you guys give us hope that it is possible. ❤ edit- thank you patrions who convinced this beautiful soul to come back to youtube
We are so happy to see you back and doing so well 💗 We really needed some positivity rn since DID treatment isn't available in our country (Denmark), so we feel so hopeless about ever getting well enough to reclaim the life we never got to have. It is always amazing to see another system loving life and getting to do things that they are passionate about. We are looking forward to your future vids 💖💕
It's amazing to see all the healing y'all have had. I'm happy to hear that you guys are able to hold a job and give each alter time for their hobbies. Looking forward to more content 💛 - Lise
I'm a bit of a quite lurkier but just wanted to take a moment to say how happy I am to see that you guys have been doing well! Been following for years and you all gave me a lot of comfort when I was a kid while teaching me some really important topics. Crazy how much good can happen in a few years. I'm cheering y'all on in your future projects!
We’re so glad you’re back! You guys helped us figure out we’re a system, and you give us hope that we’ll find the sweet spot of functionality soon! Keep being awesome! ❤
I remember watching your videos at 16 (body) and thinking that I might be a system. We are 23 now, in a safe space, and we just started really accepting and working with our system. Thanks for making your videos. They really helped us understand what was going on in our head while we were still living in the trauma. ❤ so glad to see you back
See you back and know that all of you are so much better makes us really happy, your channel help us a lot at the beginning of our journey as a system, you made us feel not alone and afraid. Thank you for everything and for being back -Joshua
the story about what annie had to go through reminds me of one of the alters in our system, lucas. he had a different name but opted to switch not too long ago, partly to try and move on from some of the memories and experiences that he has. i'm not gonna say what they are but it's the kind of thing that we don't let see the light of day. really is good to see you posting again. -- sans.
I’m a part in a DID system and we are going through the thick of it right now. This meant a lot to us that it can get better. We struggle with a lot of amnesia barriers and flashbacks, It can be hard to function do things like our school work and even work. It gives us hope that we can gain communication within our system eventually.
I'm so happy to see you all back on RU-vid. Your story is amazing, inspiring, & hopeful. Love the positive energy. Therapy is hard work. Thanks for the update. I wish the system well.
Glad to see you back. Congratulations on working. I just got a job today! First time since 2002! I too lost decades of time. We talked before, I used to be in your live streams. I forgot all about it until I watched you again. I'm not that person anymore. I go to college even.
You know, I was just going back to watch some of your videos from the very beginning and even the one from 5 years ago where you were talking about not being in regular therapy anymore, you seem sooo much happier now. as someone who dissociates and as a therapist who treats dissociative disorders I so appreciate the time and effort you put into your videos. There’s only so much I can read, seeing and learning about the experiences of actual systems helps me to help my clients. So thank you.
i somehow never caught that you missed out on 16yrs before this. i’m assuming the person filming was host prior to something that put someone else as host for like 16yrs ? wild. i used to watch you in roughly 2019, kind of guessing because i barely remember. i will be rewatching some stuff to see if it comes back. glad to see you’re doing pretty well!
it's so good to see you guys be back! it makes me so excited to see you back. but when it comes to media analysis: I would assume people are not solely here for the DID content, it has been some time, but I remember liking all the alters appearing here. So I'd be interested in your media takes in general. So I think the DID-media-analysis is super important (because how should I know how accurate that is :D), but at least me personally would say, I would whatever media analysis
I'm so excited to learn about Any Kits story is very solemn, some fusion really can feel like losing someone, especially when lots about what you loved and knew about that person are no longer really there afterwards. Of course I can't speak about this from the perspective of someone who's experienced this internally, but I did experience a mournful loss do to fusion and I can try and empathize with that experience. "OH MY GOD BIRDS" Kim Kim gives off big Gen Z vibes now, just like appropriately angry at how fucky everything in the world is but also like being able to smile and care and be happy (in her own snarky way which is a mood).
Saw the live stream but still love the video update. For us we recently had a fusion and for me it’s the first time experiencing a fusion sense discovering System hood. What really helps me is the quote that Luke Skywalker said in The Last Jedi “No One’s Ever Really Gone” their personality is either sprinkled throughout one Part and or a Part :)
Hi, I used to watch your channel a bunch and I'm glad you're back! For DID media reviews, it'd be great to look into Jekyll, Hyde, and Me, it's a K-drama.
After watching this, I clicked on one of the videos Wynn made a few months ago and was very struck by how different the two of you sound! It’s really great to see Kim Kim looking and sounding so happy and settled. ❤
You don’t know me, I’m just an Internet stranger. But I want you guys to know I’m fully weeping over your successes and victories, I’m SO glad for you and the work you and your team have done. Sending you the warmest healing wishes and thank you for educating those of us who wouldn’t otherwise get to understand ❤
SO glad to see y'all back and thriving !! ❣️ very cool to see and hear abt how much y'all have accomplished these last few years 🥰 sorry to hear abt kit.. i still do my eyeliner the way i learned from her in her makeup tutorial so long ago! 🤭 she'll definitely be missed, but it's absolutely wonderful to see the rest of you back on our feed again. can't wait for the next video !!! much love 💖
you mentioned kit fusing somewhat with karen and somewhat with wyn, and we had something similar happen when one of our alters fused. his personality traits mostly went to tommy, because they were pretty similar to begin with, but i (nick) got his abnormal navigation skills.
I've never clicked a notification so fast! So happy for you all and your progress and I got a little weepy when you signed off, I've not heard that in so long! Lots of love from the UK x
I love your channel so much and can’t describe how much it has helped us. We also love monster high dolls and have a bunch of the same ones in the background!!! ❤❤❤
Sometimes spontaneous fusion is what the body/system needs to be able to grow/survive. As you said, the ones who fused spontaneously ARE still there, just in a different form, if you will. That shows growth for the system, in my eyes. Glad to see you’re so happy with how things are going, even if they are not going how you may have planned. I am so happy you came back by the way, I was really starting to miss you while you were away. Edited to add: if I am completely misinterpreting what you’re saying my apologies as I am only half listening as I do things on the computer.
You guys were one of the first channels I found a few years before I realized I had OSDD. We also recently had several splits and 3 whole alters wake up from dormancy, spiking the headmate count from 3 to 10, and that's always stressful. I feel bad for our only two gatekeepers. On a different note, I'm really happy to see that you guys are doing alright! I hope you all share a sense of pride in yourselves for holding down a full-time job! Congratz! 🎉 I hope it goes well for you! I'm also sorry for the losses you experienced, I hope the imprint of the love you felt for the people you lost remains a warm memory, something you can brush your fingers over and be comforted by. Thank you for everything you have done and what you will do! It means a lot.
I think I’d love to watch yall play games even if they have nothing to do with DID lol. You’re just a sweetheart and I’d love seeing you play games that make you happy
so nice to hear from you and i love how amazing you have been doing, especially in times that are troubling for even pepople with less obvious struggles. so glad you have andrew and the life you created together! thanks parteons PS: could you share your twitch channel?
I'm so happy for you Entropy System. I know that's been such a goal for you since the beginning. To be a functional multiple. That's amazing to hear! ^-^ We're so proud of you!!!! ❤❤❤
So happy to see you all back!! I started watching your channel last year after we had our true realization that we have DID, and now we're having another one since we found out we have OCD. Very good timing :3
It's so wonderful to see you back!! It's felt for a while like all of the big DID creators had left the platform and I really missed this kind of content. It's so great to hear that y'all are doing well and I hope you'll continue making videos when you feel like it!
I am so happy to see you back. You are an inspiration to everyone. I have Bipolar, but have found your stories and relationships of your system comforting and knowledgeable. Thank you 🙏🏻
I've always loved this channel, and when you decided to leave it was bittersweet but more than anything I just really wanted you guys to do what was best for your system. Even if you went through some rough patches, it's great to hear that you've been doing well! I only even heard the term DID for the first time when a friend linked me a video from this channel what had to be like six or so years ago, and since then I've learned so much and seen how strong and wonderful systems can be, in large part thanks to you guys' videos. You're honestly an inspiration (and have been the cause of many an infodump to my friends, lol) so I look forward to seeing more from you! I tend to be way too anxious to make youtube comments for fear of having an autistic miscommunication and making someone mad or annoyed, but I feel that this is a more understanding space than most and I really just want to express how I feel about one (some?) of my favorite content creators :)
How happy to have you posting again! I can’t WAIT for this media analysis & game play content. This is gonna be good😈y’all hair looks GORGEOUS. the color is incredible!!!!!!!!! Missed you and happy to have you back. Love love love
We feel happy for you for all the incredible growth your system and individuals within it have had, you've been doing so much work and it really shows. Those are some really massive changes. We're sorry to hear about Kit, we understand that even though fusion can bring so many beautiful things with it, spontaneous fusion can also bring a deep loss for how that person existed as they were. Its something we've experienced and some of us are still nervous of it happening again in future. Yours was one of the first channels that helped us to understand what was going on for us in the early days of our hosts realising they were part of a system, and we're grateful that you made this channel and for all you share. We wish the absolute best for you and your system, its cool to hear how you're all doing. - Verses
Thank you Kimkim for the system update! Very happy you guys are back! Been following you since the beginning in youtube and I’m proud of the journey you have crossed so far. I will miss kit too! But I’m glad you all are getting better overall and being as amazing as always. You guys are like Knights who stand by the moral “ One for all and all for one!”. Looking forward to your next video
It makes sense that you (Kim Kim) have had fusions. I just saw your TikToks and while I recognized your face, it took a while to recognize you because you've clearly grown a lot in the past few years. Glad to hear you all are doing well.
Thank you for everything. We have watched you since before we knew we had DID, and now our Kit, Dana, is slowly, so painfully slowly fusing with me and it's terrifying. Thank you for sharing.
So happy for the update. We had a social alter fuse last summer and it sounds like it went a lot like how things went with Kit--definitely tough and with a lot of mourning. It's still odd and sometimes we can't believe it happened. We miss her even though we know she isn't technically gone. Wishing you and yours the best and so happy for you all to be where you are in life now!
like a lot of people in the comments, your channel was a huge part of me learning to understand myself and what i was experiencing when i discovered my DID. i think i've also come pretty far since then, in no small part due to having access to educational resources like your content very early on in my discovery, so it's really great to see you come back but also to hear things are going well for you too!! i've always looked back on your old content with a lot of appreciation and i wondered how you all were doing now. very exciting to hear about new stuff to come!!
I'm excited for your media analysis arc! I'm a big fan of doom patrol which has a character with DID who's characterisation is quite unique and I'd be interested to see your takes on her if you're interested in the topic
It’s so great to see how much happier you are! The system has changed so much, I can’t even imagine how difficult it’s been but well done all of you ❤❤❤❤
Thank you all for sharing your experience of fusion. I found it helpful. I had one fusion happen before I was diagnosed and I did not fully understand what was happening. It is something that was probably a net good but I still look back on it with a certain amount of regret. It's more complicated than people like to think.
I’m so glad you’re back! I missed your channel so much and I loved learning about DID and hearing all your different experiences! I’m not a system, I’m just an autistic singlet who is fascinated by DID and love meeting all these different alters! I’m so glad Honey is doing well and I hope we get to meet Annie one day! It’s sad to say goodbye to Kit since she was incredibly active on the channel but atleast she lives on in Wyn! Also I’m so glad you’re doing amazing too Kim Kim! I’m glad Lito and Jonathon live on in you to make you the happy but sarcastic Kim Kim we know and love! I can’t wait to see more videos and livestreams from you! (Also yes please stream Cyberpunk and other games, I love watching people play games)
Yay, Entropy System! Yay, Kim Kim! Wow, y'all have been on such a journey since last on. Many peaks and valleys (sorry y'all had to go through the hard feelings of Kit's fusion. I'll always think fondly of her). So glad more peaks, though. So much growth for so many and as a system as a whole. Y'all have much to be proud of. Ps: Awesome ya'll are back.
I was excited to see another video by 'you'. Congratulations on the full-time job. Who goes to the job; meaning who is 'out' during that time? Is it always a certain alter? Thank you, patreon members, for the boost of confidence for them to come back!
Wyn and I do the job about 50/50. We figure it’s good to have both of us well trained. Daniel has also done work in the past but this job requires us to have a very feminine appearance so he’s not comfortable with being out during shift. Totally understandable imo -Kim Kim
