Why I Joined the Mormon Church 

No matter your reasons... There will always be a Mormon who thinks you were deceived by Satan or you were lazy or wanted to sin or anything but your actual reason.

It's clear from her cat's disinterest that it has never been Mormon.

I’m in the middle of leaving the church right now and I just want to say that your channel has really helped me survive this period of my life! Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your experience- it’s made me feel less alone and less trapped while I’ve been quarantined with my entirely Mormon family

I used to be so anxious when hearing these stories because I was afraid of Mormonism not being true because it was my safety net. Now I know the truth and hearing people share their stories of freedom is so wonderful.

My brain hurts. I just started reading the CES Letter because I was having serious doubts and I now not only am I doubting more but feel super guilty. I don't who or what to trust, and I have no idea what to do. I'm not even supposed to watch this channel, being a "good Mormon girl". I'm frickin terrified.

You articulate so well the shift in mentality after your worldview has been uprooted. You understand how flawed you can be as a human, what the logical fallacies you can fall into are, and it gives you the ability to empathize so much more clearly with people you don’t agree with. Love the vid as always

I was raised as a Jehovah's Witness, I was born in and have left now at the age of 34, what struck me about your story is the similarities, like not feeling a need to dig deeper into the history of the religion,and when I finally did, found out a mother load of disturbing things.also I can relate to the feelings of being lost and sad because you really wanted it to be the truth. but after a while what amazing freedom you feel when you learn critical thinking skills and begin to love humans for just being humans and appreciate the beautiful paradise earth we live on right now, instead of waiting for some utopia just around the corner. Keep up the good work the world needs more apostates.

Great video. You have almost the exact same story to mine: intellectual teenager raised by single mom as a kid, impressed by the word of wisdom after a habit of binge drinking in high school and then kept investigating. Joined at 17, went on a mission, got home, and just couldn't reconcile the things I learned about the churches history. Got tired of mental gymnastics and went on my way.

Thank you so much for putting yourself out there and having this channel and your experiences there for me when I started understanding and accepting very hard details about the church's history and teachings. I really appreciate you and tanner both going out of your way to do this. I think you both and John Dehlin have hearts of gold for creating a sense of community and helping people like me heal.

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I hope you and Tanner will expand more on what you described in the last part about how your critical thinking skills have evolved out of having your world view upended. As someone interested in psychology, I find both of you fascinating from the perspective of personal development because of how quickly you seem to have been able to shed the social conditioning of church beliefs. It's caused me to challenge some of my own assumptions about how personal development occurs and how dramatic and fast it can happen.

"We're all just the products of our genetics and conditioning." This is a really powerful observation. Really picked up on this idea when you guys were on the radio show with the Christian guy. This is a really interesting and powerful idea that I hope you guys make a standalone video on!!!!

Sam, thanks so much for sharing. My husband and I were married last October in the temple with the full intention of staying Mormon forever, like what you described. But then after just a month of marriage he underwent a faith crisis and confided in me about what he was thinking about. The things he told me tore me apart and I was so scared that our differences in how we saw things (I desperately tried to hold on) would rip our relationship in half. But I valued him and our relationship more than religion, and because of that I pushed my fear aside to listen to him and truly thought about things for myself. I looked into philosophy and what "truth" is and how to determine what is actually true and what isn't. Eventually I came to the same conclusion as him that the church isn't true. And months later we are still happily married, but have had lots of reevaluation about everything we thought was true, as you can imagine. We are on a completely different journey now than we imagined it would be a year ago, but I'm happy where I am now.

This is awesome. You did an amazing job of conveying your experience. This promotes understanding and I want to have my believing friends and family watch it. Thanks!

I grew up in the church, and never felt like I really belonged there. I left a year ago after forcing myself through 3 years of BYU Provo and dealing with insane mental illness. It was such a great choice to leave BYU and the church. I'm still thinking about how I stand with god or any kind of "greater power". But listening to you give examples about how someone from your background could become involved in the church made me realize why my mom is so violently protective of the church. She feels indebted because her family choosing to join got them out of poverty in Brazil, gave my mom resources for a better life, saved my grandfather from alcoholism. My dads family was traced all the way back to Joesph Smith himself, which if he is a con artist explains my grandparents morality. I'm glad I left.

This video is mistitled. It should be "WHY I JOINED THE MORMON CHURCH.... AND HOW I ESCAPED!"

(Holy fuck, this is my sixth time trying to actually complete a simple ass youtube comment.. ugh. It's been a hot minute since I actually missed my adhd medication like this. Oh well.) I basically just wanna thank you guys for speaking up on this, on Mormonism in general but especially this topic. This really fascinates me, since I'm a swede who never has been able to understand religiousness at all, but especially the "Christian" ones. I am so grateful for everything and everyone that brings awareness and the people who are willing to openly speak out on topics like this one. I can only imagine how big of a difference it actually can make, and MAKES, in peoples life. Even though I'm not in the biggest/nearest risk zone myself (although, of course, anything can happen with the "right" circumstances), it's so incredibly important for everybody to even begin trying to understand and _thereafter_ be able to make the right decision for themselves, whichever that might be. Thank you x1billion!

Thank you for this! Especially for the conclusion! There are people out there with similar stories (like me!) and it’s hard not to feel alone in that sometimes. Thank you!

KUDOS to you . . . it took me 65 years to get where you are now . . . and it was shattering, finally.

Thank you for sharing your experience, Sam! Can you and Tanner keep elaborating on the kinds of soul-nourishing practices you might be doing now? There are some past vids you've done, but I'd love to see more. Like meditation, or any other form of rational spirituality. I feel that many of our friends who end up leaving the church will pendulum swing into unhappy/bitter places, and I think you two could be really influential in helping them find joy in their journey :)

i joined the church after months of investigating. i was actually the one to call the missionaries because i wanted to learn more. I ignored all the problematic things because I was eventually convinced that God would bless me if I took a step to be baptized and eventually all my questions would be answered. i had strong faith and was a lot like how you described yourself. relief society teacher, went to lessons with missionaries, etc.. until I just couldn't ignore the obvious issues any longer. (basically everything you mentioned in this video). I came across this youtube channel around that time and you guys have no idea how much it helped me... it took the fear away from it. What could have easily been one of the scariest times of my life (my faith crashing down) became such a beautiful transformation of self discovery. It was the humor of your videos that kept me positive about everything. Also around that time a good friend of mine (a convert) also was leaving the church and he was STRONGLY Mormon, even more than I was. Another friend left and got in a relationship with a girl and our bishop said many rude things to her about her homosexuality, including asking her invasive questions about their sex life. I also ended up meeting my husband. At the time he contacted me because he thought I was Mormon and was interested in why I was (he was an ex Mormon), that was right around when my doubts started, so I had someone to talk to about all my concerns and he ended up being the love of my life. So while the church is not true, I dont for a second regret having joined. It led me to so so many crucial things in my life and I am very grateful for having joined but even more grateful for having left. Again, thank you for your videos, they really helped me

It's so nice that you were "allowed" to have an experience and realize you were young and impressionable and that's why you made certain decisions. I'm 36......my mother still pushes severe guilt on me for all decisions I made. She even goes as far as to say that I did them to her, like my poor decisions reflected on her so bad that shes allowed to make me feel awful because I hurt her so badly even tho these things didnt happen to her but in my life.

I love that you share your story and your youtube channel. Even though I left the church 16 years ago, it's always nice to revisit through someone else's story because I don't think the "crazy" ever leaves. Your channel helps me tame the crazy :-D

You are amazing. Thank you for sharing. I agree with the wonderful benefits from leaving a high demand, low logic world view. It’s very empowering.

I was born in the covenant, but I moved to Canada with my mum when I was 5, and she became inactive at that time. However, I visited my American (Mormon) family every summer and most Christmases. When I was 8, my dad had me take the missionary discussions. I didn't get baptized, but I did start going to church back home on my own. When I was 13, I attempted suicide (I was an LGBT kid growing up in the 90s and was bullied excessively). My mum decided it would be better if I went to live with my dad and have some spirituality in my life. So, I moved to Utah. I got baptized on my 14th birthday. However I always kind of thought there was something off about the church. I was called to be the Teacher's Quorum prezzy, but also I realized I was gay and my dad and stepmom, who always suspected that, to the point I had had the talk about homosexuality being sinful since the age of 8 from my dad. Anyway I talked to the Bishop and the church paid for me to go to reparative therapy, which I luckily realized was BS pretty immediately. I eventually came out to everyone months later when I was almost 15. That was in 2000. I moved back to Canada at the end of the year. I started reading a bunch of resources about church history and I realized the church was BS. My mum and I left the church around my 18th birthday officially. I put the letter confirming our names had been removed from the records on my wall.

This helped me make sense of my own experiences with religion, thank you

Hey Sam, nice video 🙂 I’m glad that it showed up in my RU-vid feed. You’ve got a great story to tell. God bless.

Thank you so much for this video! I appreciate you talking about your journey. It makes me happy to know that future “apostates” will have a safe place with your channel and that they can draw strength from your experiences! Hearing from someone with similar struggles is extremely validating.

This is such a good video, Sam! My story was similar, I moved to a town far away from friends and family and felt pressured to join by some missionaries because I thought if I didn't, I'd lose the new friends I'd made. But I was miserable in the church, so am glad I finally took the step out. Thanks to you, Tanner, and all the zelphites, I was able to step away. Keep up the good work!

Your story is so similar to mine. I came from a Catholic background but my family was not practicing. I had a very turbulent home life and as a teenager I started practicing Catholicism full hardedly. I will definitely say it really altered my personality. I prayed the rosary nightly, went to adoration, and learned any prayer I could get my hands on. I had Catholic guilt because of my mother lol but it intensified with being observant. I was freaking out that I would be damned for not following the guidelines of Vatican. I'm 22 now and I am still scared of talking crap about Catholic teaching sometimes but I am getting better at saying my dismay. Like you said I wouldn't change the fact I became religious at one point. It opened me up to learn more about heritage and becoming a more open minded pantheist. I still hold reverence for a few saints and I go to Mass occasionally for holidays. Either than that I hold all religions on the same foot. All have truth and all have fallacy. I love Hinduism, Judaism, Christianity, Wiccah, and so much more due to my experience. The moral of the story is being in cult like state of my mind showed me no religion is completely true and you should go to the beat of your own drum.

This is such a fascinating story; thank you for sharing!

Thank you for sharing. Well done!

I can totally echo what you said about everything crashing down and then gaining critical thinking skills. When I finally let the Book of Abraham fiasco sink in, everything started unraveling for me and I started to rethink my understanding of life. It was a real wake-up call.

Thank you for sharing your story. My fiancé resigned from LDS after 30 years. Hearing about the journey of others helps me understand what he went through and how I can be a support to him. 😊

I related to this video so much. Thanks for posting!

Thank you for the informative content and the floof!

I'm curious as to what happened to your marriage? Did he leave the church also? This is a very impactive and emotional video. I admire your candor.

This is literally my story minus I never got baptized.

Awesome video!!!

I really love hearing your full Mormon testimony 😉

I've got a question. Is your cat also a Mormon? She looks as though she is into it because she sat behind you the whole time.

I’m now inspired to share my conversion story, because it’s epic that the elder that baptized me is also ex Mormon now. Thanks for your vulnerability Samantha. 💕

Your story is amazing. Thank you for sharing.

i was raised in the mormon church in an area that was really mormon. i was lucky enough to go to an arts school which was a really safe space for queer people and minorities (even though the area in general was not at all safe) which led me to start questioning things around 14 or 15. when i was 16 i discovered the CES letter and i watched a ton of video essayists talk about their experiences, which helped me to feel comfortable enough to deconstruct my worldview entirely. im a lot happier now (even though my circumstances still dictate that i go to church) and i cant thank people like you enough. its because of you that people like me are able to get out of the mormon church :)

"Smart, smart, smart, smart, smart!" - South Park, on those who question Mormonism

Thank you for sharing! A crisis of faith is a difficult path to go down, but it can be ok in the end. Did your husband leave the church with you?

I have left yesterday. My wife, children and grantchildren are still in the church and are still good TBM. I will see what the future brings. You Zelph guy’s are a balsem for my soul! I forget my misèry for a moment with you two.

Thank you for sharing your story!!!

When ANY church pressures you for money, that is a bad sign. It's a sign that it's time to leave.

Thanks for posting this. I too was a convert and am glad that I found your video because some of what you are talking about I can completely relate to. Once one starts to ask questions about the doctrine, organization, history etc. it makes the decision to go much clearer. To my old friends and acquaintances in the Church, I always say that the LDS are very well meaning and good people, but incredibly naive. One thing I wanted to add about Smith's polygamy story is that it is actually laying conspicuously in plain sight in the annals of church history. When I did my own research, I was surprised that it is there in the church history books. It is however actively, purposely ignored by the leadership and never talked about on Sundays. In 2006 when the Church issued the manual Teachings of the Presidents of the Church featuring Joseph Smith, there was absolutely no mention of polygamy. After finding that out, I guess it just felt to stupid to read that manual and then sing "Praise to the Man" during the sacrament meeting as did Mandy others thngs. When did you find out about Zelph?

loved your thoughts and your expressions

This really is SO good! Thank you for sharing.

I can so relate to your story, thank you for sharing......btw, your kitty cat is precious :)

Excellent video Zelph, thankyou, and well done to you. It's very important for missionaries to get you baptized asap, that is the way they're trained at the Missionary Training Center. Presenting a clean living and good feeling about being a part is essential for the conscience to be pre-determined. In addition is the doctrine of Eternal Life (living with God, as god in Exaltation - the Mormon definition of "Eternal Life"). These aspects make Mormonism very attractive. It took me 47 years to finally leave the LDS church and never been happier. When I convey the points you've shared to active Mormons on RU-vid, (or those who defend it that are not Mormon), they often become vicious and judgmental, using ad hominem insults. Immediately they blow their own defense out of the water engaging in this way, and it adds as a testimony to me that behind the happy joy-joy fluffy smiles and pretentious niceties lay the mind set of Mormonism, a vindictive, judgemental belligerence merely under the thin vineer of false pleasantry. (It matches the character of Joseph Smith). I'm glad you got out. I am glad I did too. I developed a regenerative relationship with Jesus Christ and have not joined any other church since then.

Thanks for this. Very informative x

You are so brave! So perfectly said!

Only love and support are spoken here. Keep up the great work!

Thanks for sharing this!!! You are awesome!

liked this video! Thanks for sharing, Sam.

I understand. I'm SO proud of you!!!!👍👍

You've perfectly described Stockholm syndrome. I'm happy to see you saw the light.

Yes, that's how it works. Lots of similarities in what I went through. Thanks for sharing.

Your critical thinking shows in the way you've been presenting ideas.

I suppose you could say I "left" the Catholic Church when I realised the historical claims Christianity made about Jesus were unsustainable and that Christianity simply wasn't true. I didn't so much have any dissatisfaction with the Catholic Church (though I had serious reservations about many of its doctrines), I simply worked out that Christianity generally was unsustainable intellectually. At the age of fourteen I found myself on the sidelines of a debate between my school's most annoying evangelical Christian and a skeptic. Even though I generally agreed with her (despite finding her highly irritating), I had to admit he got the better of her in the argument. Every time she tried to say "Jesus said x" or "Jesus did y" he would respond "How do you know?" She didn't have much of a response to this other than "It's in the Bible" and some rather weak assurances that the Bible's accounts were historically true. Given that this struck me, as a budding young historian, as a rather feeble argument, I decided to go and research the historical basis for my Christian beliefs. I was confident that once I'd done enough reading on the matter, I'd be able to hold my own against a similar skeptic's questioning. Several years later, after an enormous amount of reading and study of modern scholarship on the question of the historical Jesus and the origins of Christianity, I realised that Jesus was not the Son of God and the second person of the Holy Trinity, but was actually Yeshua ben Yosef, a Jewish rabbi and apocalyptic prophet and that Christianity was a gentile religion that evolved out of a Jewish end times sect. A few more years of studying philosophy and I also realised I could no longer sustain a belief in any religion. So while I'm not a bitter ex-Catholic and I'm not an atheist, I have no regrets at all about leaving the Catholic Church and abandoning religious belief. My Catholic upbringing and education has given me an understanding of religious faith and a very solid knowledge of the Bible (better than most Christians I come across) as well as a good understanding of western history, since it was so heavily influenced by Christianity in general and Catholicism in particular. But my philosophical stance these days is humanism.

Thank you for sharing your perspective! I can totally relate to what you said about younger people that consider themselves "intellectuals" feel more drawn to high-demand religions. I had never thought of it like that before but it makes a lot of sense to me. Currently I consider myself to be non-denominational, but not evangelical (I simply don't align myself fully with one denomination at this point), but I'm starting to lean into Mormonism even thought the church has some standpoints and viewpoints I strongly disagree with. That's puzzling to me because why would I align myself with a denomination or church I disagree with, but perhaps God is calling me to Mormonism because at this point in my life it will serve as an environment that will bring me closer to Him and His plan. That being said, it also makes me wonder why God allows all Christian denominations to exist and that so many people have very powerful testimonies on why they felt called to their denomination. Perhaps He allows all of these denominations to exist to simply herd people into Him, but then expects us to follow Him even if it goes against our denomination's beliefs. I just mean that for you, you said you were drawn in because you liked the tight-knit environment, etc; maybe that's how God gets our feet in the door to His care even if it means we will eventually leave the denomination we started in later on in life. I feel drawn to the LDS church because I feel called to the more traditional stay-at-home mom / homemaker role, the more modest dress, and some of the other more traditional views on marriage that I've noticed many LDS members hold. Perhaps God uses those commonalities to bring me into a church body that will help me to love Jesus, but then expects me to follow Him wherever He leads me even if it's eventually out of the LDS church. Of course, that doesn't mean that I can only pursue a more traditional womanhood role / lifestyle in Mormonism, but if my local LDS community is a place where I feel welcomed, loved, and able to progress with the Lord, then perhaps that's a good thing right now.

This was a wonderful explanation. Thank you a lot for making this. I've actually never heard a first-hand account from someone who converted to a religion after childhood and later became atheist. it makes sense how highly intellectual teenagers are most likely to become enraptured by some intense ideologies. With all that passion and mental energy to invest in something apparently deep and complex and significant... you're still a naive emotional teen. (I was in the final phases of deconverting from Catholicism, due to asking too many sincere questions, around the time you were beginning your phase of Mormonism. But only educated myself on counter-apologetics arguments and other moral philosophical alternatives to religion in my 20s.) I just think you're a more impressive person now, knowing some of your journey to get where you are, philosophically, and as a very enjoyable activist.

Your story out is mine exactly! I did so much research and read everything. Then it got to the point where I just could not justify their morals. When I let myself admit that I did not share LDS beliefs it was terrifying. But I am so glad to put all that behind me. It gets better!

I love this video- thank you for posting this- you are gorgeous inside and out, i find the Mormons to be very nice as ive had experience with them going back nearly 9 years- being raised as a Jehovah’s Witness i found Mormonism to be similar and thus welcoming, however the racism in the past as well as some of the doctrines have always been disturbing-

WOW!!! You literally told my story ❤️ At 16 I became Mormon via my best friend who is Mormon (ironically her name is Molly lol), but I left after 2 years because I’m gay and love literature and history. So when I was about to leave for a mission I quit. I had watched too much Oprah to live a lie...in all seriousness her show did make me, indirectly encourage me, to come out and get honest. THANK YOU! identification equals healing. #SomeoneElseHasMyStory ❤️

Love your channel

This video introduced me to the fact that videos like this exist.

“Jesus said to him, "I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” ‭‭John‬ ‭14:6‬ ‭

I think you are so strong to do whats best for you even though you had a hard time doing so. I live in utah and am not lds. I moved to Utah at age 12. My family believes in God but never had a specific religion. I did do all of the missionary teachings and almost got baptized. I just could agree with the rules or community standards for women. I just can't be the women or wife that just takes whatever everyone wanted. I strongly dislike how women and perceived. I also want to say I have met some wonderful and extremely nice lds members.

Zelph, You are an inspiration to all people who are searching in all the wrong places. What I admire most about you, is that you questioned many errant teachings and did not stick to something that you knew in your heart was not right. Too many Mormons get stuck and either do not know how to get out or stay because of the culture, not the belief. Very sad. I pray that you find true faith!

Wow this is incredible! Everyone who is thinking about joining this thing should watch this first. You have been through a lot! They are nice people, but you can't organize spirituality. The "group" is always dependent on how far the leader has gone in their emotional world. This is true with any group-a family, a workplace and a church. Most of them recreate their dysfunctional families of origin. My favorite Mormon friends are the ones that can laugh about it, that don't take it seriously. They are the keepers.

This is golden (reference intended). We need an FB page or website #whyijoined

I can see as a 50 year old the pressure tactics that are applied.

I enjoyed the video, and I particularly like that your decision was rational and a result of research and reasoning. I like that you placed facts above feelings and that you have a much more objective point of view now. Good on you for all of that. I am curious whether your departure from Mormonism has affected your ideas about, for example, Biblical Christianity (i.e. non-Mormon Christianity). I would welcome hearing your thoughts on Christianity as a whole.

Your videos on the LDS church are so interesting, thank you for openly sharing your experience. I am from Austria, grew up in a catholic family and spent a year abroad going to high school in Blackfoot, Idaho. It was not my choice to go to Idaho specifically, the organisation sent me there. So I spent a year with a Mormon family, did my senior year at high school (which I loved!), missionaries tried to talk me into converting, I was confronted with so many unknown things at once. Fast forward 10 years: I left the Catholic Church. I think spending the year in Idaho really kicked off a thought process. I just don’t agree with so many things religions do and stand for nowadays, I can’t be part of that!

I grew up in the church, but I’ve never really had a strong testimony. In recent months, I’ve accepted that the church isn’t true (and that even if it was, I wouldn’t want to be a part of it), but because I’m still 16, I’m in a difficult spot. I’m going to Girls’ Camp in two days as a YCL, so I’m supposed to teach a bunch of young, impressionable girls about something I don’t even believe. It’s also going to be hard to leave because my older sister is already almost definitely leaving as soon as she gets to college in August.

Sam you are the sweetest cutest loveliest! I love you!

Hey Sam! Love your videos. I'd love to read the things that you mentioned. Where can I start? Could you give me some suggestions? Regards!

Great video! Though I'm curious, what are your religious beliefs now?

I WANT THAT CAT

I grew up Mormon and got out when I was about 20. Life is so much better now and I'm so much happier living without the church. Most of my family is still Mormon, which is unfortunate, but we still get along fairly well. I'm glad you figured it out and made your escape!

I passed as VERY Mormon in high school for quite awhile without realizing what was going on and it was a bizarre time indeed. It's the only time I've had teachers try to set me up with their sons.

Thank you for your video. Watching this is like looking in a mirror :'D You're brill.

Congrats on making your way out. I hope many more leave the Mormon and other high demand religions. Watching Christopher Hitchens and Matt Dillahunty debate theists was a big tipping point for me.

I am glad you found your way through this and look upon the experience as an "awakening" of sorts. I can't help myself.....I become livid when I think of the deceit and how the Mormon Church's lies entangled you as a 16-year-old and so drastically altered you life's path.

Your room looks really chill

I’m not Mormon but I’m fascinated by the religion. Do you believe that the church kept you shelter daring your youth? Especially in light of how you grew up in a fractured home and we’re having a turbulent time as a youth.

I'm in the process of leaving Atheism and I'm glad I watched this. It's good to hear alllll the sides :-)

Very good. My own story is about as different as you can get yet very similar. We moved to small town in AZ that was highly LDS and seemed the thing to do so at age 65 I got Baptized and swallowed the cool aid and for nine years we toed the line, served in the Temple and did it all. Then the church decided to mistreat the children of same sex couples, that was just to much. The Bishop gave us some things to read in support of this policy, this started my investigation with the answer being , how did I get sucked into this nonsense? They are right the internet is the LDS Church worst enemy. I felt deceived, It ended with me asking the Bishop for my money back, he was not amused. M

Like your videos and your honesty 😂

I just found this video four years after it was made lol, been following zelph on the shelf for the past few months as I deconstruct things. I loved hearing your story ❤️. This may have been answered another comments, but I couldn't find it if it was. What ended up happening with your temple marriage and your husband?

I fell for the friendship part of it to start with.

I am married and a mother to two little girls. Always have been in the church. While i have always had a strong conviction of the savior and god , i have never had a testimony that Joseph smith saw god and Jesus and was a prophet. It always bothered me. I always thought it must be something wrong i am doing to not believe.... I had a conversation at church with a young girl and we were saying how we both had our wild rebellious times but now that we have children of our own, we are more active with church. Ever since those words came out of my mouth, all of these little doubts have been entering into my heart and spirit and mind and i cant help but feel its Gods way of saying....maybe this church isnt right for your children. Its hard and i am torn on what to do because my husband is so strong in the church and served a mission. Its funny though because both my dad and my mother in law are super strong in the church and have high callings but i kid you not.....they are the most UNCHRISTLIKE and unhappy people i know. Why is that? I know that no one is perfect but i cant help but feel its because they are brainwashed. I have been praying to know if the church is true and no answer or burning in my chest that it is. What I do know is that there is God and there is a savior . so I am kind of riding the fence at this point

I just started reading The Kybalion, the very first chapter you can see pull from it into mormonism. The Kybalion is very ancient, thousands of years before Abraham and out of Egypt. I'm intrested to see how it corrilates into mormonism.

I'm here to find out about your experience, but I must say that I'm obsessed with your cat. Adorbs!

I'm a newborn Christian I come from a very dark background and I thank Christ for giving me a sense of biewing life in a better way Jesus loves U.