THE AMOUNT OF LOVE AND PAIN ACHILLES AND PATROCLUS HAVE MADE ME FEEL. I CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH THE BOOK MEANS TO ME. IT TORE ME APART AND TEARS ME APART EVERYDAY STILL.
The day I find a better song than this has to be a hella lit day, because I can't imagine a song being better than this. Lyrics, instrumental, voice; everything is perfect.
I don't know anything about Achilles but this song is how it feels to want to commit suicide but either yourself or someone else is trying to convince you to not do it but the voice in your head is telling you to..ik Achilles wants to commit I'm assuming but still..
It's been a while since I heard this song I can't believe I'm gonna be in year 11. When I was starting secondary me and my best friend Eesa were obsessed with this song but after he had committed suicide I couldn't bear listening to this anymore. I just logged back into this account and this was the last thing I listened too. It feels nice, I dunno if anyone will read this or not but I hope you're having a good day and it's okay to not have a good day also check up on your friends.
The French part is from Albert Camus's the myth of Sisyphus where he tells that a good reason to live can also be a good reason to die, which compels Achilles's love for Patroculos for he lived for his love and went mad after he losed him
Isn't it so funny how I listen to this song when I feel like ending it all, and I feel some other soul telling me not to? ... Even more funny how I delay it. I know I'm going to do it.... One of these days, this song will not talk me off the roof. I have no Patroclus, and I will not heal. I will not press through. I'm delaying... It's a matter of time, isn't it? I do not have a setting to try, no society to help me, and I am alone. I have little pleasures to help me... The geese wait for me at the pond to throw them cracked corn. The crows outside wait for me in the morning to toss them unsalted peanuts. If, by chance, I die at home, no one will know for at least a month... No one is worried if I eat, if I am homeless. I'll be waking up to go to work to pay for my bare minimum bills, but I know. There is no brave ending. I want to fight. I have no soul to encourage my tender self. I have no Patroclus to make a pact with. This is the realization of me and my kind. I do not live to pay my bills. I live to hope for the sudden and abrupt accidents that excuses me from this life. A semi-truck? A driver carrying logs? Maybe a slip-and-fall at home...? I don't know... I have no Patroclus... I would like to exit now and hope to find one in the next life. Maybe in the next attempt, I'll be something better.
My sibling in Christ, that other soul is your own soul. Life alienates us from our inner life. Listen to it, cause it's you, the inner you, crying out to be heard. Learn to listen, and live, and persevere. You've got all the answers inside of you, you've just got to reconnect, and listen.
My fellow lonely soul. I feel the same way. You just described it more beautifully and poetically than I could ever hope to. One day I will be the tragedy that befalls me.
your writing is truly beautiful and i can see how much you’re hurting. though i know it doesn’t mean much coming from a stranger behind a screen. i can only hope you won’t cut your life short. everyone wants to leave their mark here on this earth before time and space slowly but surely erodes it away into dust. i’ve felt that way before, trust me. i don’t have many people to talk to either and sometimes it does feel like im alone. but trust me, life does its thing and you’ll find people. though sometimes you’ll have to seek it, and as tiring as it is, you’ll be proud of how far you’ve gotten yourself. find life as a worthy opponent. i wish you luck stranger 💕
Please don't do it, try this. Keep a journal, and every day, write something which you liked about the day. It can be little things, like seeing a nice flower. Write one thing each day for a year. Then, read it all in exactly one year. If you see all the things you have to live for, all the things that bring you joy, then decide, is this life really so bad? If you're gone, who will feed the birds? Also, I highly recommend using the suicide hotline. Please don't give up.
Polyamory is a form of non-monogamous relationship that involves more than two people. Polyamory differs from infidelity by consistency, that is, both partners are aware that in the relationship they are far from the only objects of love, and communication with other partners occurs with the consent of all participants in the relationship.
Don't get me wrong, I love Christianity, I studied it. However, it did cause the reason for separation due to differences. It painted this delusional 'image' of Love. Before Christianity the world loved both (meaning TWO) sexes, they always had intercourse between man and man, woman and woman, man and woman. It's the way it should be. Not hidden by a image of how 'God' made it. I am %100 for religious freedom, and religion. This isn't an attack just a point
@@neverwrong2896 not being rude, but no shit Sherlock, Jesus himself was Jewish, it's legit taught in eighth grade... of public school I might add. But Judaism was not as large as Christianity during that time, Jewish people converted to Christianity, some Catholicism. As I stated, not being rude just proving my point and your point further, I study this
@@neverwrong2896 You are so very correct, but Judaism didn't ruin much of Greece's religion, aka Hellenism, it was in fact Christianity and the Romans.... *dramatic emphases on Romans please*
@@TheLivingProphetJ i just thought you were trying to say that Christianity was the first one to empathize that, but I apologize for the misunderstanding
The reason I don't like most songs and music made by degenerate or predatory people is because in a lot of cases, at least one of their songs (if it has lyrics) will reflect how they feel / think, or sometimes what they did.
I RAVED ON, AGAIN.OK.HERES THE SKINNY. i WILL REVEAL TO YOU, THAT WHICH IS ITSELF FROM A DIVINE REQUISITE, AND WHILE MORE THERE IS, MY PURPOSE ISTHIS:IN ONE ACT, GIVE YOU WHAT DECLARES THE.......AND ITS PARTS,.....ONE, A SIMPLE ONE, WHICH IS...A CONTENDER, NOT EVER HAVING BEEN PUBLISHED BY PEN MOUTH OR DEEDLY COMISSION.......THE ISLAND OF patmos.THE END.THE 4 HORSEMEN.FOUR.THE OUR,WHEN IT COMES.PEOPE WILL LOOK FOR ROCKS AND CAVES AND HILLS tO hIDE under, BUT THE SVEN THUNDERS PROHIBITED THE REST FROM EXPOSAY.............WE ARE TALKING ABOUT THE FINAL REDUCTION OF TE DEVICE OF CREATION, AND AS STATED IN REVELATIONS, THE BABY ESCAPES WITH THE WOMAN TO A DESERT ON HIGH- THIS IS AS INSULATION, FOR WHILE IT IS COLD, HAVING THE WARM SEPERZTED FROM THE DRY LEAVES THE COLD AS ACTIVE, AND SO THE DRY BY ITS AFFINITY ABSORBS IT, BUT BECOMES INDEFFERENT, OPAQUE, AND A PEARL OF CENTER OF THE CRYSTALLINE PROGRESSION OF GEMETRIC COMPLICITY LEAVING STATIC THE STATE, BUT MERCURIAL AIR, THAT THE CONDUIT SOON BUILT,THE IONE SOON ARRIVING, THE TRIPOLAR DIFFERENTIATION PERPETUALLY REPULSED, A FREQUENCY FOR TH ARCS TO PASS,ELECTRICITY,AND THE ELECT,..........APPROACHING THE CONJUNTION OF POSSIBILITYS DEATH, UNLIKENESSES RESURRECTION, COMPLIMENTARY KIN,AND TWO TERMINALS,AS GENDERS,FOUL AND FAIR, NOW BASKING IN THE AMBIENCE OF GLORY,OR FRYING PULIFICATINGLY INTENSE AS THERE ONLY EVER WAS ONE ELECTRON,....JUST, BECAUSE IT WAS EVERYWHERE AT ONCE, .......DECEIVED.TAKE NOT WITH A GRAIN OF SALT THE FIRST PART OF THIS, AND CONTINUE UNDER UR OWN COUNSE, FOR OTHER MEN WILL TLL YOU ANYTHING, AND ACCOUNT FOR NOTHING.GOD BLESS.
AFTER SEEING DORIAN GRAYS COMMENT , I SHALL COMENT ALSO.......THE ACES, TE ONE AND ONE AS ONE, THAT IS, TWO THRONES, THAT IS , TWO 3 IN 0NES, BEIG ONE FRONTED AND STABILISED BY TWO.THE THREE AS ONES, THRONES FORM THE ACE, THE TITAN,......AS FOR HADES, WHICH COMES ABOUT AT THE LAST STAGES OF THE DECONSTRUCTION OF TIS DEVICE (THE EGYPTIAN HEIOPHANTS SAID THIS WAS :"A MACHINE OF TIME THAT CANNOT ERR",AND BEFORE HADES, OF COURSE, THE FORCES. THE FOUR HORSEMEN WILL SURELY, IN ITS APPOINTMENT, MAKE TRUE THE PROPHECY THAT ALL WILL LOOK FOR HILLS AND CAVES AND ROCKS TO HIDE UNDER....tO hIDE uNDER,....BUT I CANT DISLOSE WHAT EVEN THE LAST ONES OPERATING IN THE DRY AND BARON STRATOS WHEN ITS AS FRIGIDLY HOMEOSTATIC AS ANY SORT OF DEATH YOU WISH TO ENTERTAIN.THATS THE WORD,FROM JOH, ABOUT THE BEGING OF THE ENDS BEGINNING IN ITS MIDDLIG,...THAT IS,....NOT PATMOS,....BUT ONE MUS atmosphere,WITH the fear if god, FOR THE ONE WHICH CONVERGES UPON THIS TIME HAS BEEN ACCELLWRATION AT THE EQUIVALENT RATE OF THE SUM OF POSSIBILITYS DIMINISHMENT BY DELIBERATE INGESTION, NUCLEAR MELDING,AND FINALLY, THE SEPARATION OF THE LAST THREE AS ONE, WITHOUT ITS TWO CHARMS,INTO THE UNITS REQIRED FOR THE FINAL CHAIN OF TRANSVERSAL, AS SURELY SHAKING OFF ITS NAMES SHADES, AND HAVING BECOME ONE AS UNEFFIBLE, THAT IS, NOT UNLIKE INVISIBLE,ONE IS NOW ALSO indivisible, NOW READY FOR THE ODDYSEY, THE SEA OF ODD, WHERE HALVING TO EQAULITY IS IMPOSSIBLE,(A TIME,TIMES,AND HALF A TIME) AND THUS, AS TIME ,AFTER HALVING, MUST BE DOUBLED,BUT NO HALVING CAN BE HAD, THIS INDIVISIBLE, INDESTRUCTABLE, INVISIBLE ONE IS THE SECOND HOPE OF THE WORLDS CRY,....THE LION IN WIZARD OF OZ WAS SMART , AND CHOPPED THE HEAD OFF THE SPIDER.THE ARACHNID.THE 8.MAKING IT TWO O'S.MEN OF RENOWN,MEN OF RENOUN,MEN WITH NAMES, AND LATER, MEN WITH NAMES HYBRIDISING TWO PREVIOUS NAMES...RE NOUN, RE NAMED.THE DARKNESS SHALL, BY THE RECORD OF ITS INDUSTRY DESCRIBED IN POSTERITYS REFLECTION, AND COMPLIMENTING THE TIMES TABLES, HORSES STABLES, AND NIMBLE JACKS WHO ARE abLE,.........THE MONA LISA, NO SECET, U C, SIR.......DAVINCI,LAST SUPPER,STAR OF DAVID, DOGSNUNDER TABLE, JUDAS SO SMALL,THE MASTER PAINTED HOW JUDAS FELT, NOT WHA AN EYE WOULD HAVE SAW........BUT AS SURE AS SA IN REVERS IS WAS,I SAW YOU, HE SAYS, BUT HE IS US, WE KNOW, SO IT SURELY MEANS I WAS YOU, WHEN I WAS SICK,AND LONGED FOR COMPANY, WHEN I WAS THIRST, EVEN HUNGRY......AND EVERY THING I SA, EXCEPT WHEN EVERYONE IS SEATED AND ATTENTIVE, BUT ANY OTHER TIME, MY MESSAGE IS CLEAR,YET INVISIBLE,YET NOT FOR THE SMART, OR SMARTE,EVEN,NOR FOR THE ILLITERATE IS IT TROUBLESOME, BUT THE SPIRIT THAT STRENGTHENS THE LIVING WORD DOES ALSO AUGMENT ITS ESSENCE, SO BE ASSURED, OH WEAK AND LOWLY MEN WHOM GOD LOVES, THAT HE PREFERRS YOUR CONTENTMENT, IN HIS GLORY,HE HAS CRIED AND SHARED YOUR STORY, AND IF THERES ONE THING ABOUT OR GOD THATS FINAL,AND FOUND NOT ELSEWHEERE......THE ARTIFICE REQUIRED TO SATISFY ALL THE FIRM AND IMMUTABLE INDEXS MAINTAINING THE STAGES BY MEASURING TWO INDEPENDANTL, AND EVERY OTHER MEASUREMENT ADDED TO THE COMPENDIUM OF CIRCUMLOTION, WHEN CROSSREFERENCED AND STATED AS TRUE, THEN ALIKE, AND OPINED, THE SADHEARTS ONE OF A KIND AND AGREEING IN MIND,.....SUCH AS THEY, WITH THEIR GODWILL NEVER,AND A TIME,NEED TO LOOK BACK,FOR GODS RESCUE WAS AB GOOD THING, BUT THE DIFFERENC,EXCUSE THE PUNLESS LACK OF IRONY,WAS SOMETHING, THAT, BEWEEN MYSELF AND YOU,....IS A NEW ME ENTIRELY,DANGEROUS, AS GOD SAID,RIGHTLY,AS WE REPENT,OF REGRET.......BUT AS FOR A WORD, RESPECT,.......ITS INCREASE, I CANT IDENTIFY AND DECLARE, BUT SAFE TO KNOW,THAT ITS BETTER,AND FOR THE OTHER PARTY PRESENT, IN EVERY STYLE OF OUR INTERACTION, BECAUSE MY RESOLUTION,FINISHING WITH HEAPS OF TIME,CALCULATED PRIOR, AND SO CAN CALL ON AN OUTCOME,AND AS LONG AS THAT ARRIVES, THEN ITS ALREADY AM,ASJESU WAS LIKE TOO,TIME IS ONLY STRESS THATS MEASURED BY THE ABERATION OF A DIFFERENCE UNTO ONENESS OR RUBBLE,,0 OR 1,ZORROASTERIAN PRINCIPIAN OCCLUSION OF THE SENSIBLE, FOR THR RADIX, AND THE NAME, AND NUMBER, AND FORM,ARE ALSO A SYMBOL,A PARADOX,A PROVEN,......THE DARKNESS INSIDE THE ZERO,THE COWARD WITHOUT ANY HERO,THE ONE THAT HAD OTHERS DO HIS BID, WHILE ALL THE WHILE, STAYING HID. POSSIBILITY IS BEING CONSUMED AND THE WATERS ARE THICKENING, AND HOMEOSTASIS IS INEVITABLE,...YET THE mAGISTRY OF OUR gOD HAS MUCH MORE DYNAMICALLY INVESTED IN THE EVENT OF EVENTS,...THE ASTRAL FIRE,NOT AFFECTED, KNOWN INDEED BY THE LODESTONE,NO OBJECTION,......BEFORE YOUR EYES, IN THESE MY WORDS, IS AS MUCH AS BY YOUR SIDES, IT YOU LOOK AT A THING, IN A NEW WAY, REDY FORWHATER,......SEEK ,AND BE SHOWN. i ALSO, LIKE THE AUTHOR jOHN, DO TESTIFY BY THE SAME STRENGTH OF QUALIFICATION, AND ASSERTION, THAT BEING THAT AS SURE AS GOD IS, I SWEAR ON HIS TRUTH, THAT HE HAS SENT BEINGS(I ASSUME ANGELS) TO SPEAK,SHOWN THINGS THROUGH MEANS ESCAPING PHYSYCYSTS REGULATIONS, AND MANY MANY THINGS HAVE I BECOME PRIVY TO,....SOME ARE BEHIND BIBLE PARABLES, AND THEY ARENT GENERAL, BUT SPECIFIC, THEY CANT BE SAID TO BE ANOTHERS, FOR EVEN WITH THE LYING MAN, NO IM AGINATION HAS BEEN ABLE TO CONCEIVE A FALSEHOOD THATS EVEN CLOSE TO THE TRUTH.............WHIC. INCIDENTALLY,JESUS,SAYING HE WAS WITH GOD ALWAYS,LIES NOT....FOR AT ANY TIME, IF YOU TESTED IF GOD WAS, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN TRUE, THAT GOD WAS.THEY HAVE NEVER BEEN SEPERATED, NOR CAN THE DRKNESS HAVE EFFECT ON THE TRUE SONS OF THE PILGRIMAGE, THEY WHO TRAVERSE THE HIGHEST HIILL, OF sOPHIA, AND KNOW OF NO END WANTING, ONLY THE REGULATIONS OF SUCH A FIRE ABIDING, AS THE WISEMEN, IN THEIR VISIT, DID PROVIDE ENTIRELHY. FOR AS CALVARY WAS, ACCORDING TO GENESIS, SO ALSO GOLGOTHA,......NOT JUST EARTH,HUMANITY,OR LIFE THEREIN IS ON THE LINE....BUT IF THE HOLY ONE GOS OVER 7,THE MIRROR ON TH WAL WILL DOUBLE,ADD, AND NEVERMORE CAN THE KING BE, NOR ANYTHING, BUT THE COLLAPSE OF WHAT REMAINS, EVEN MEMORIES OF CREATIONS HISTORY,EVENTS,STORY.......IF THE WORD, THAT BINDS QUALITIES ACCORDING TO THE DEFINITION OF THEIR MEANING, MEANS A DIFFERET THING EVERY TIME, THEN IT NEVER EVEN BEGAN....THAT CONSTANCY ALLOWS US TO BUILD ON,BUT LIKE ALL ELSE, IS BUT A TRANSITORY POSITION ON ITS REDUCTION BY FACTORIZED RATIOS UNTO ITS GRADE OF COGNITION(FROM WHICH A FUNCTION BINDS ITS QUALITIES AS IS FIT, ASSIMILATING IT SEAMLESSLY INTO THEIRS,...JESUS OFFERED TO BE THE CRUX OF CREATION, THE CHRIST, ...THE ONLY THING THAT THE WORLD CAN PUT ITS HOPE IN.why?bBECAUSE,THE TRUTH ,AS HE SAYS, JUST HAPPENS TO BE THE ONLY THING ANY MAN CAN OR WILL EVER FIND TO BE CONSTANT,WITHOUT FAIL,FOREVER.ITS TRUE.THERES NOTHING ELSE.BIG, INNIT....
one time my friend berated me for listening to this (bc of the creator of the song) and i never listened to it again but im tryna listen to it again because its such a good song
