An artist in a little corner of RU-vid! Here you will find art, journaling, sketchbooks, selfcare & fairies, a love for nature plus all the ongoing happenings from my art studio. I love drawing, watercolour, mixed media, acrylics & oils & I love to show how creativity is woven into well-being, growing older & life itself! Thank you so much for keeping me company! Xxx
I love you so much Wendy. And your relationship with sweet James. And all the comments here from like minded/spirited individuals. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing yourself and b e a u t I f u l art creations. I experience a precious calm viewing your channel. Your knowledge, suggestions, & experiences are exactly what I need in life right now.
i don't have the same drive i used to...i am battling perimenopause complete with avocado sized fibroid...i was looking forward to enjoying this part of my life as being freeing and getting to do more of what i like...i just don't ever really feel good...i've not been moving much out of my chair...i don't feel like dealing with people either...
Wendy, I 100% resonate - I have had this feeling a lot over the last couple of years, but it seems to be coming to a head right now. It took me almost 4 hours to get out to go and tax my car today, I knew I had to go, I was running out of days to do it but the motivation, the want and the need just weren't there. I did eventually drag myself out and drive to the post office. On the way home, I didn't want to go back either so sat in the car and listened to an audio book for an hour or so, sat overlooking a huge field being ploughed. I can't really go on l ike this, it's not a healthy way to live, or even exist - is it? Going to settle down with a herbal tea now and see what you suggest xx
There are many weekends that when I get home on Friday evening from work, I don’t leave my home until Monday morning. There’s just too much chatter going on in my head from my busy weeks that I just need peace and quiet. I sit on my deck, and listen to the birds and watch them eat on my bird feeders then I feel like I can face the next week.
I'm a 47 year old Mindfulness and Meditation teacher...honestly Mindfulness saved my life when I was consumed by anxiety and fear. I am at a place in my life which is calling for some very big decisions..your videos are such welcome moments of presence...thank you from the bottom of my heart
I’m struggling too. I used to love going out. I do have a little dog so have to take her out in the morning, sometimes a longish walk and occasionally just a short walk. I’m trying to do a studio cleaning job a bit at a time - so today just a little bit because I have no energy. I am doing open studios the first two weekends in June so I do need to get tidy. I had booked a week away with my husband in early May but cancelled it a couple of weeks before because I couldn’t face the long car journey. Difficult isn’t it? Anyway open studios will hopefully give me a boost. My hobbies are my jewellery and painting and I love crochet so maybe I’ll get some started. Daily checklist is good and I enjoy cleaning up the kitchen.
Have you ever thought of just sitting in meditation, doing nothing? Like maybe going on a Vipassana silent retreat? Vipassana means seeing clearly in Sanskrit. Going on such a retreat takes a lot of courage to confront one's habitual thinking. It's not easy to just sit quietly. ❤
Thank you for the suggestion of that book! "My Stroke of Insight" my mom had what they called a mini stroke last year, and she's noticed many differences in her brain and is finally admitting to them. I just sent this book to her because we can all listen to her and sympathize with how she is feeling but to read someone's own story about going through a similar journey would probably be a nice change of perspective. I too have a chronic illness and I think, "Freeze Mode" is a really good descriptor of how I have been these past 8 or so months. Yeah, I'm depressed. Yeah, I'm overwhelmed and probably burned out a bit with the pain and all that nonsense. "Freeze mode" yeah,that's a really good word for it and, yes ma'am I'm going to go take a shower. I recently got a bath chair to make it easier and I ordered my most favorite shower gel in the world "Nantuck Briar" from Crabtree and Evelyn. It won't be here for a few days but when it gets here I may be in the shower all day long ❤ Yes,selfcare.need to allow myself that instead of beating myself up over what I can't do anymore or haven't done because I'm in a Blue Funk and Freeze Mode. Thank you for your videos and insights.
I kind of think this can be a good thing meaning you feel comfortable and safe at home. I think sometimes when people leave the house all the time it’s because they don’t feel as comfortable there.
I'll be 52 next month. I've always been a "homebody" but I find as I get older I realllly want to just be home. I work so little hours now, or I'm at a food store( In and out real quick), but home is the only place I care to be.
You are so right but I think most of us commenting here grew up in an era where idleness was not ok, I know I did. From staring out the window for a moment in school and suffering the teachers wrath to being chastised in the workplace for taking a moment to just breathe I think all our nervous systems are in anxiety mode and that doing nothing is bad. I know this absolutely applies to me and I constantly have to deep breathe and correct my thinking all the time. I'm making up for a lifetime of being scolded for "doing nothing" right now as I'm finally at a place where I can tell them all to go to hell!
I have recently been in therapy doing CBT and I said I don’t like to go out much and my mind says " I can’t be “bothered" and my therapist said it is "tick" and you respond in your mind "tock" to stop this and so far for me it has worked. my low energy though makes me feel like i just want to sit in my nest ->bed lol
Having a full time job I now schedule days off just for myself. I'm blessed to have enough PTO to do that. ❤ I also take a full day when I have doctor appointments since they stress me out. People make fun of me but I don't care. I wish I had done this when I was younger.
I think Covid allowed people the luxury of being in their own space for quite lengthy periods of time which was something a normal busy day didn't allow us to do. I cared for my special needs older btother before and throughout Covid lockdowns so life just carried on as usual for me but i remember feeling a little bit jealous of everyone who didnt have to carry on regardless! Sounds mad doesnt it but I'm trying to understand some of the comments and be honest about how i felt during that time. Maybe lockdowns showed us it was ok not to be so busy and rushing around everywhere and helped us realise our own company isnt too bad after all. Ive always preferred being outdoors.....Winter is when i go into hibernation lol.
"I don't know if I am extremely sensitive or if life is unbearable." Van Gogh. Well, I think we sensitive folk have a harder time "accepting" this horrible nightmare reality of existence.
The loc downs really changed my perception. Being forced to work from home made me realise not only is it possible, but made me see that turning my hobbies into income from there was not unattainable.... i think we are afraid to step into the unknown and it takes being pushed a bit to make us see that we can swim uncertain waters if you will. The other revelation that time and quiet allowed me to ponder was....that i pay a majority of my income to my home...payments aside there is insurance property tax and upkeep...and i realised i was only in it to basically sleep...working from my home makes sense to me now and i love that i am using ALL of my home, saving money on commute and lunches and even getting a tax break on it now....my life is calmer. I get up and there is no morning rush or stress of being late...i enjoy a cup of coffee on my patio or in my fav chair, i have time for morning walk or pilates before a quick shower. I still dress but no longer in an expensive wardrobe but in all the comfy clothes i always wished i could ware .... It easier to pay out all that money for my house now as i actually USE it and spend time in it and enjoy it. When i need some human interaction i take some work to the local cafe or coffee shop...its like being at work as your surrounded by people agsin, but now they are happy people and the environment is upbeat and positve and i find i can get a LOT of work accomplished. A positive outcome to what was a very difficult time...but isnt all growth and renewal a bit uncomfortable? ❤
Oh Wendy, i kept nodding my head to all you were sharing and just wanting to hug you when you do your sweet, cheeky pout ❤❤❤ i have been on a very long and rock path of self- discovery my whole life and an even more intentional gradual healing/growth journey since i turned 33 (i am now 55yrs old): i had to learn the really, really hard way that while being highly resilient, brave and always looking forward, it is necessery to also acknowledge and allow as much space for my highly sensitive self in all ways my soul needs ( ie retrieve myself in order to regulate myself, not watching Tv, disengage from certain connections etc). I am currently ,once again, at a crossroad workwise bc i have finally accepted to embrance what my gut has been literraly screaming at me for months (aka chronic IBS-D): that this work environment is draining me of my energy and equanimity, even if other co-workers complain but stay around. Being an empath, life esp. in Europe is most times totally overwhelming and draining. I also strongly tend to disclaim people's beahviors -esp. when they are good people- although those are detrimental to me. So a thousand yes: self-care,resting or mini-breaks, reading, watching a funny movue art,meditation, chanting energy-work, my 2 rescue cats,nature, doind aquarels, coloring, silk painting,embroidery have become an absolute must, not only to survive but also to fulfill to the best of my ability my journey on this planet (oh and to embrance that all the above don't have to excellent nor perfect but zo only bring me joy!). Please keep making such videos and remain your absolute authentic self: your are a very precious and inspiring pixie light, who,with each video, is brightening our path 💕💫🙌🧚♀️🧜♀️🙌💫💕 much love !! Mireille
Yes- I’m not sure if this is a challenge for “creatives” and I have always been a loner and need lots of time to recharge, alone with my animals or grown children, after other human interactions of the typical kind. I try to never talk on the phone. Less human interaction equals more peace in my life. This has been true for me all of my life. I need to be outside with nature and with creatures. Don’t like surprises or unexpected visits. Ironically I had very public jobs and worked successfully in the arts, as a teacher and director of programs and eventually, bc I needed to earn more for my children starting college, I segued to a career in healthcare. I could make myself do the “things” and was sincere about the mission of all that I did. But- I was exhausted all the time and shut down in my free time. TMI but I tested very high on the Autism scale. Thankfully, I chose to continue to work even though I’m 68 but on my terms. Still doing the creative things I love. I’m an artist who creates 3-D paintings and also an artisan chef with a creative catering company - our product is delicious amped up flavor with artistic presentation and excellent service. I can do this with long breaks between large events and have an excellent and fun staff. I can’t do this every day and that is ok. So…as this amazing presenting artist shares, don’t pressure yourself, take time to do smaller things with excellence, eat healthy food and make time for relaxing in nature. You’re not alone!
I appreciate this video very much. I don't have any in my family or friends that need to be home and quiet. It feels like everyone is constantly on to the next trip, buy or tick the box item. I find myself constantly defending my need to live simply, even and most especially to myself, it's as if it is not OK. I too feel overwhelmed by the world. I have found knitting, crochet, small DIY projects, growing a small amount of herbs and edibles and walks in nature, save my sanity! The challenge is other people's view of you but in truth.... they are probably just 'keeping up with the gang'... so then they're not being true to themselves. So cheers to you, me and everyone in this community for holding space for our true nature 🥰 🌹 🌻 💜
There are so many things I’d love to respond to, but I’m pressed for time, so excuse my briefness. First, thank you for what you do. You’ve helped me understand myself better already, and I’ve only just begun! Secondly, I’m 46 and peri/menopause or wherever I am can suck an egg! I’m trying to deal, but the energy fluctuations and mood swings are most difficult for me. Having bipolar 1 also complicates these symptoms and more. You’ve more than likely read it, but in Radha Agrawal’s book Belong, she talks about “DOSING” as she calls it. D for dopamine, o for oxytocin, s for seratonin and e for endochrines. These are our happy brain chemicals. And through a process she describes in the book, you can ‘dose’ anytime needed and refresh your energy levels. Fascinating book btw, if you haven’t read it. And now, it’s time for me to go, the autumn moon lights my way”- Led Zeppelin but seriously I do gotta go! Thanks again for everything, especially helping me realize I’m not the only one!🥰🫶✨
Happens to me a couple of times a month yet I can't stay home because I have to take care of relatives. I try to get my feet in the grass and take a few minutes by the river side. I make my car my safe place and since I am always working I have made my office as happy as I can with fairy lights, aroma therapy diffuser and a fan to always have air flow. NO OVER HEAD LIGHTING ALLOWED!! I have made it a priority to get out in the woods at least once a month.
The biggest thing I’ve done to allow for these dark days is arranging my life around their inevitability. That may sound sad but I know I can’t win against them, though I used to think so when I was younger. I essentially have arranged almost all my external world commitments so they are somewhat flexible and can be delayed by a certain amount, no questions asked. Part of that is just remaining private and vague about my life. I try to do some work and errands every day so nothing piles up, because a pile of tasks can be disastrous in the bad times. All this has definitely slowed my life down more than I would have chosen, but it’s just essential to my survival and I can’t fight it anymore. At the end of the day, I do believe the added sensitivity that comes from depression and anxiety gives us a depth of understanding and compassion that I know I never would have had my life been fully on my own terms. But I guess that’s my tidbit to offer - acceptance, and act on that acceptance. Be kind to yourself about it, and don’t fight it.
CommonWeath -- Hebrew= CrossedOver sWORD Spirit and Truth -- 7th day sAbbAth's Seal -- Covenant IN Loyalty The Most High Ahb Yahu'Ah= Spirit= AbbA Creator Father. Yahu'Sha Hebrew Anointed SonShip= sWORD and Head(ROCK) to body(stones) of congregation covenant loyal (be)living IN earth, that adhere TO His voice: (Yashra'Al) ...The Most High Ahb Y6ahu'Ah sovereign saves. Emet ❤️ Love you Ahb Yahu'Ah sovereign of my breath, soul, and the blood IN my veins (DNA). (Psalm 90:12-17) So teach us TO number our days, That we (may) apply our hearts unTO wisdom. Return, Oh Most High Ahb Yahu'Ah sovereign, how long? And let it repent thee concerning thy servants. Oh satisfy us (early) with thy mercy; That we (may) rejoice and be glad all our days. And counting: ...1st day/night season of the WorkWeek, ...2nd day/night season of the WorkWeek, ...3rd day/night season of the WorkWeek ...4th day/night season of the WorkWeek, ...5th day/night season of the WorkWeek, ...6th day/night season of the WorkWeek (double up): ...for the morrow’s morning IS the Seventh day/night sAbbAth's season. Emet ❤️ What was Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob considered before the 12 tribes were born? ...And before Yahu'Sha the anointed Hebrew Messiah, rather than the Roman religion's man-made diety with the Greek name that has no power and authority IN the Kingdom's throne. ...Go to (Genesis Chapters 15-17) and (Hebrews Chapter 11) to understand the Covenant Loyalty and 'Saving Will' Testimony of the Most High Ahb Yahu'Ah sovereign ❤️ ...They were all faithful, obedient, and walked with the Most High Sovereign IN UpRightNess, Kingdom MindSet Justice, and were SetApart from embedded pagan world religious conditioning and dogma. Tsion ❤️ Praise and thanks to the Most High Ahb Yahu'Ah for His 'Saving Will' Testimony IN His anointed Hebrew Son Yahu'Sha Messiah. Prayers, blessings, and peace (restoration) of the ❤️, for those that adhere TO His voice, covenant, and commandments.
Life IS unbearable these days. The "powers to be" are blowing up the world economy, itching for war, war, war, up is down, black is white. As sensitive people our bodies are picking up on this even if our minds aren't registering it. Loved your walking video in the English countryside btw. That makes me happy!
This is wonderful! I b experience this frequently. I use these tools and self care also. It can be really hard..I journal everyday as well. Some other things that help are, therapy, dbt and Also Al-anon(co-dependancy). These for s of therapy have helped to transform me and my life into a new healthier me. Thank you for these reminders.
I heard the phrase- manage your energy not your time. It was a change changer for me. I have my most focus and energy in the early morning - so physical or mentally challenging tasks I do in the morning. Mundane, mindless chores- laundry, cleaning, decluttering, errands I do in the afternoon. I try to to wait until before bedtime to power thru to tackle stuff.
On my birthday I went to a small local garden alone. Thankfully there is a coffee shop there so had a coffee and a slice of cream cake and just relaxed, thanking God fof every good thing. Although life compresses on all sides and every aspect currently is difficult, to escape momentarily is vital.
I suffered terrible burnout in 2022 and fell into anxiety and agoraphobia to the point where I had to do graduated exposure therapy starting with just walking through my front gate. After a lot of regular effort I can now get the train for a 45 minute ride to my work twice a week, and drive to local shopping areas. I couldn't do that 12 months ago. The motivation to leave the house for me is that I wanted to interact with other people, and staying in the house was very isolating. I do honour my need for regular quiet and rest though.
