Hey, I'm Lee Hammock and I'm a self aware narcissist. I have been clinically diagnosed with Narcissistic Personality Disorder (via the MMPI-2 and the PDQ4 tests) and I tested very high on Paranoia and schizophrenic traits. I have been in psychotherapy since October of 2017 and this channel started off as somewhat of a video diary for me to feel "human" and for me to stop suffering in silence. My goals have always been to get more people like myself into therapy, and to validate the vict1ms and survivors of toxic people. You're safe here, this could be the start of your healing journey from dealing with a toxic parent, partner or friend. Thankful to have you here.
I just got done doing 20 years in the military. I became a narcissist cause it's such a controlled high ops tempo 24/7 elite tier1 level leadership, promotions, It's not who you it's who can sabotage first. There's no weakness tolerated in the 1%matrix known as the government. Failure is not an option. Do gov leadership get a pass for being a narcissist? Is there hope for me? Is Trump a diagnosed Narc or is it just here's say?
Why are they suck p@s$y a$s b!tc#e$ be a man step up and be real, tell us what's up, I mean come on instead of jumping through hoops With ur damn lies about how crazy I am, all because your ass has a new witch, tell me what it is! I tell u if it was me boo. I got a new man bye!!!! On sum real!!! It's cut, and dry, stop playing with people's minds, body's emissions get it together be a damn man and own ur shit!!! Enough is enough tired ass excuses and lie here's what I here day in and day out, (but) I'm not doing anything (wrong) I can't stand that line!!! Can u tell I've had enough of my man!! He just want let me leave yet...
My narcissistic kids mother of 18 years & had came & went 7 times but always came back. This time, she concocted a plan to have be arrested while i was laying in bed for 3 hours, get an OP & have me removed from my home. 1 day later my neighbor tells me she has another man in my backyard drinking together. She played me good!
Mine did not do that. He told others in his family and ppl he knows. I came home from work one night and he was supposedly asleep in the bed and he had the petition for divorce laying on the couch!!! Cowardly F@#$ker!!!
Escape is the best. Involving family,courts,church or informing the narc can never b friendly. A narc will not understand yo emotions or needs clearly without fights or rage.Apart from being violent they can just love bond u to keep u longer and abuse u more.Lies,rage,accusations and inconsistency r their vital games.
I've known my gf for almost 2 years now. We split up after 6 months. That was hard. I got her out of my system. I never reached out. Four months later, she reached out to me. She has 3 kids and rarely gets enough from her ex. I've helped her out a lot the past several months. Work is slow for me right now and I was STILL giving to her. She goes on the social apps and flirts around. She tries to punish me if I don't pay much attention to her. I follow her on those stupid social apps. I catch her in lies too. I finally had enough. I blocked her a couple of days ago. It's killing me but tired of being disrespected and playing stupid games. Gee wiz, anyway. She talks to me the most when she needs money. No more. It still hurts but I'll get through it. It's been 13 months this time around. I've never blocked anybody like this before. Thanks Lee.
The way his EX (also a narcissist and psychopath) be goin around talkin bout folks you would think IT has NO mirrors in the house LMAO 😆🤣. I need these folks to get a JOB that doesn't involve watching me. That's not a job, that's a fan club and a hobby.... Y'all wanted me gone, But y'all still stalking me 👀😝 DEAR STAN✍
When you're healing from narcissistic abuse, you must also be abstinent to recover successfully. Since, s3x is energy transference, you have to allow your prayer & abstinence to remove the heavy layers of negative energy off of you which can take years. Before any of us was intimate with another person, we had our own (child-like) energy, & after we merge ourselves with another, we exchange mannerisms, behaviors, habits, etc. which has to come off so that you're able to assert your newer-improved established value system for yourself. Ask the universe to bring the events of your childhood past back to you, so you're able to evaluate the good, bad, & ugly to find out what your were genuinely passionate about, & the things you really hated, sift it in your nugget pan, to give you a perspective of how to best re-wire & live differently according those past events & your present. When we merge our energy with a person that's energetically not good for us, we ALSO attract those type of people to us in our future, like an apple-tag homing device. It's why children who become adults who were violated, wonder why they attract the same kind of people to them with different temperaments, and/or the relationship ends in ruin worse than the former. Your baseline passions & hatred for certain things is tied to your childhood. Example: I bought a Thundercats DVD collection, & re-watching the episodes activated my child-like passion; fighting for truth, justice, honor, & inventiveness...doing things in a different way from tradition...daringly.
I made myself record him when he devalued me because I knew I would possibly forgive him. No more. I’m done. Lost weight, have acne, liver, kidney issues and now fibroids all in the last year. Please People Get Away From Them!!! They are Silent Killers! 🙏🏽
I was in a narcissistic relationship once in my life. The best and worst experience of my life. She was so good too, made me believe she was the sweetest most caring person alive, told me she wanted me to move out of state with her because she wanted to be closer to her family. I legitimately believed she was moving out of state too. She posted it on social media and everything, and she would cry because she said she'll never hurt me the way others hurt me, and one day I made reservations for us and then the next day she ghosted me. Ghosted me for a damn week until I ran into her at the gym and when she looked at me I saw nothing but empty and darkness. I was honestly so scared and felt helpless. I asked her If we could talk and she said sure, it was mostly me doing the talking and she said I act like I never do anything wrong, but she never told me what I did wrong and I kept thinking what I did wrong, I was so patient and understanding with her, she always said I'm her safe place, but them she said it makes no sense for us to be together when she's moving to be with her family and again I believed her, and she asked me if I was done talking so she could leave and she drove away and started crying. For a year I was so confused, a month later she's in a new relationship and they've been together for a year and they recently got married and then she unblocked me from everything, she texted me and not once did she mention her new guy or the fact that she's married, instead she says she wants a clean slate with me and she said she forgives me for everything and wishes she could change things between us then asked me what's new 😂
I was ghosted after finally standing up for myself and calling them out on the constant disrespect. But she still follows me on social media and likes my posts and stories🤔
My big question is why would you put this in a video for the world to see? that’s the only thing I wonder about she’s a jealous woman. So let’s tackle my question.
🌟👉🏽 Its not even them thinking you wont leave...sometimes (especially if you share children) they think that you "Can't" or are "Unable" to. My baby daddy literally called me 5oclock in the morning just to tell me "YOU STUCK WITH ME FOR LIFE"! Uuuumm...no "technically" its just until the kid(s) are 18 and even that is subjective. Low contact and No contact is always an option. Especially if they believe their abuse deserves no consequence.
We own a house together. He will leave and life is so much better. I never call or text him when he does. But he comes back whenever he feels like and I can't say he can't be there his name is the deed to. I don't know what the heck to do. Selling isn't an option
YOU ARE SOOOOO CORRECT MY HUSBAND ENLISTED ALL FEMALES AROUND ME AT WORK MY RELATIVES AND THEY TORE MY FAMILY APART AND RUINED EVERYTHING AROUND ME. HIS LOW DOWN TRASHY FAMILY AND SO CALLED FRIENDS. FOR 56YRS I WAS IN A BONDAGE THAT I COULD NOT GET AWAY FROM HIM. I COULD NOT GET A LAWYER COULD NOT GET A PLACE TO LIVE.
