When you have no support system 

With parents ignorance is bliss. Parents will say stop being shy, depressed, or have a mental illness because they don’t empathize with your issues. Take care beautiful.

Watching your videos feels like talking to someone who really understands. Recently I have felt quite angry at my parents as I realized that they have never really been there for me emotionally. As you said it's so complicated because you still love them as they are your parents, but they are not giving you the support/love you need in certain areas which can make you feel sad, alone, and as if something is wrong with you. I'm sorry you are going through this 💕 you are not alone!

I always been alone in my life I don’t have any real good friends and I also love my family.

You are such a kind, caring person and deserve all the love in the world.

I understand. Been through it my whole life & am 46. Thank goodness I have a supportive husband because nearly everyone else in my life has turned out to be an uncaring piece of crap 😝. Thanks for sharing!

My lacking is not so much parents, but I lack the money and recourses to get kind of help others take for granted. Unfortunately, good mental health is not cheap. It's not for the poor or lower classes. I've basically resorted to self-therapy. I hope you can at least take strength in knowing you're genuinely connecting with other people. There's something really beautiful about that. And I hope you know how courageous you are. I truly believe, in time, you'll only grow psychologically/mentally stronger.

Good to see you again and hear your thoughts! You sure as heck aren't alone in your struggles, though it might feel that way. People here care about you.

I wish you the best. I also been through the same issues. I had social anxiety, low self esteem, couldn't build relationships because my childhood wasn't the best, and now I lost contact to my mother. I think I didn't overcome them completely, but since last year I made peace with myself. I barrely died and I understood how short life can be, and I have a strong desire to live. This made me self-conscious, just be yourself and don't give up, the only person who can really save you is yourself, when you find yourself you will find the people who care about you . Life is a gift.

I just woke up crying and my mom asked me what was wrong. I hesitated, but she looked kind and concerned, so I thought this time it could be a good idea to count on her. I then told her that I had remembered some things from childhood (I usually don't remember anything, but I made an effort last night to). She asked what, and I said: "how my sister was always mean to me, how my dad was never here, how you were emotionally unavailable... how I felt so lonely and not loved" now she is mad at me... My parents never had anyone over at our house, and they never made an effort to take us out of the house. I grew up watching TV and being bullied by my older sister at home, basically. It was like I only knew four people in my life, my mom, my dad, my sister and my brother (who is ten years older and was really never, never at home because of all the fights my parents had), and none of these people would support me when I needed. If I complained about anything to my mom, she would just say she had it worse and gaslight me to believe I had no reason to be sad at all. My sister would happily make me sad/upset, and when my mom showed up, would pretend she is the nicest, loveliest older sister. That really messed me up, constantly seeing her lie and shift. My dad, I don't remember ever having a real talk to him thoughout my life. He was distant and wanted to be distant. My brother... When I entered school things only got worse. How could I make friends if the only people I knew before did not care to teach me how to socialize? To make things worse, I have natural curly hair, and my mom didn't ever try to make it look nice. She would just brush it and it would look really bad and messy. Kids would point and laugh at me, calling me ugly. Of course they would! I was such a disarranged looking kid! Maybe that's where the body dysmorphia started.

There's alot people that don't have any friends .And some don't have the support from their families.Plus people being mean to them at work or just going shopping and cashiers treating them like crap too. This is a very hard world to live in but we have to be strong.

Your an amazing person , you got this ! Please keep uploading you help a lot of people more than you know. Stay strong .

I am here ! right with you we are getting through this support are not. Sometimes we expect the best for us from family or friends that we've never received, but now we deserve to let ourselves do what we can with the self awareness and compassion and make room for the people who support and care for us in a healthy way. To ourselves and the people we choose to love.

Your amazing. Thank you for this video. It's hard to communicate how I really feel. This video is beautifully spoken. I hope you are doing ok today. I see it's been a year since this video. Your feelings are valued & heard on so many levels. Sending all my love & light to you 💓

I feel the same way, I tried going to be with extended family, but I was only with them for 3 months and I couldn’t take it anymore. A friend of mine told me “would you rather be part of a family that loves unconditionally? or loves you only when it benefits them?” and it explained everything. It really sucks to me because after all my life of not being with them, and not growing up with my brother they raised and not ever really having a good home life and being homeless with my narcissistic dad… I thought going to go be with them was the way to go. It sucks because I thought I was a gift to them and felt so special at first but now… I totally don’t feel supported or loved, and I feel all alone. I tried taking to some people about it online and they were like “oh who are and why should they love and care for you?” And I get blamed for it all… 😔

I can relate my present situation to each and every word you said. I have no REAL friends to whom I can open up. Me and my sister quarrel a lot but i, being an older child, am blamed by my parents for most of the issues. Sometimes I feel like there's no one to have my back. My relationship with my family was never that good and maybe that's why I can't openly talk to my parents about my mental health. I have tried a lot to tell them and have given many signs that I sometimes feel depressed. Just like other people, I have many problems going on in my life but sometimes I think, all I need is a person who can ask if I am alright, and I can share all my worries with him/her. But sometimes a hug is enough for me to get relief from all the pain. Sometimes when you are a teenager and life sucks really bad and also you don't have anyone to support you, suicide seems to be the only way out.... I really love myself and don't want to die, but sometimes that mental pain doesn't let you live peacefully. It really sucks when you barely managed to consolidate yourself and then once again you clashed with your family and all that hard earned mental peace is gone once again. Being a teenager and the loneliest person in the world really takes away the joy out of the life. Sometimes it feels like there's nothing to live for. My parents have taken me to a therapist once but he told that suicidal thoughts are normal during teenage, but this didn't helped me out. I have no one around to whom I can tell about my problems. But listening to you gave some relief to my heart as I felt that there's somebody who's going through the same problems like mine. I really want to thank you for that..... And don't worry, you are also not alone. We are here for you.

I can sympathize, because I've never gotten emotional support from my wife or my family. I'm just the bank, taxi, gardener, handyman, and jack-of-all-trades for her family and mine. If I hadn't adopted a form of Stoicism, I'd have probably ended myself years ago. Now I just think about my gradual decline and slow march towards death with grudging acceptance.

Gurrlll your skin looks so better....And I like your hair.... I love how much strong you are.... Love you gurl

I really know how you feel. My parents left me with my grandparents at age 7. It was awful. No support. My grandmother was telling me she was not my mother. It was like another slap in the face. Sometimes i don't even know how i made it this long.

Stay strong keep the videos and feeds coming u look great ... Ur followers enjoys Ur feeds and info .. 👍

I'm watching this at 12:40am, thanks for this.

Your skin glows up congratulations

I support you!!💜

I believe I have seasonal depression as well.. I strangely always feel depressed and suicidal when it starts getting colder out. I am DREADING the next few months

Im 37 and i feel this way My mom left when i was 15 and thats been a wound thats never truly healed Im pregnant and ive hardly heard from my family or friends. I feel alone. I dont want to put that all on my boyfriend and smother him as ny only support system but hes the only thing that seems to nake me feel bettter. I could realy use someone dropping by and helping me out with some things, im sick and nauteous and shouldnt be alone all the time. My bf is in the military so he cant be herer all yhe time 😫 i wish we could all have good friends and family that reassure abd show us love ❤️

Legitimately so pretty. I wish I looked like you

Great video thanks for sharing

My experience of living no support system is so painful. To a man.. while also having genetic issues.. it feels like the government and the matriarchs are both oppressing us to a level where we're treated like modern day slaves. Where you feel you don't get opportunity, investment, faith, or even privacy. Little to no emotional self-esteem and ability freedom severely regulated.. It can feel like living live on impossible difficulty while maintaining your humanity when others sell their souls essily. And the potential can still be there but.. others who has it better have a crab mentality against me. It feels like I'm the guy from the movie 'gladiator'.

Hey, posting this on most of your videos 💌 What is your MBTI personality test? Take it please and learn more about your specific type. Please care to share? Let’s get One thing straight - YOURE NOT UGLY!! I’m not crying anymore!! The one video I commented on I was bitterly crying my head hurts. Had to find an aspirin at 01:50 am, I’m in South Africa, it’s a school night for my kids and I have work 😅. Ok listen.. You could be trying to fit in? Let me rephrase baby.. you’re trying to fit in. You’re amongst a few personality types that generally find interacting with people daunting and feel pressured to impress when it’s not in your nature? You’re super intelligent which most people finds uncomfortable because your mind is intricate, works totally different, you’re a deep thinker? You end up trying to find random mundane stuff to discuss which you clearly have no interest in that it’s hard to hide that it bores the life out of you, and when you over compensate in attempt to be engaging, people are not all entirely stupid (you know they are though.. 🤫 they just lack rationality, will choose to soothe emotions over facts and truth) they can pick up on these cues? You’re pessimistic and wish to act as if life is perfect and wish to have more difficult topics explored like .. why are we here? What is life for? Are we meant to accomplish something? How do dogs think differently to us? people label you as an oddball. You’re. And it’s a beautiful thing because there are people as frustrated as you’re in hopes to find someone as intense as you’re. You love and value truth? You seek truth? Alone time recharges you somehow? You’re thwart this because society thinks it’s strange and seem depressing? Is it? If overdone it can be. You’ve only had a few friends at a time? You don’t do very well in crowds, or large supposedly friendly group when society says you should and be a life of a party? Your mind is a maze, that need simplifying, good luck trying to unjungle that with ever forming questions and still keeping up with a screening outside world that says nothing at the same time? Do you wear neons over cool earthly tones? Really? Internal monologues? Healthy and funny monologues. The bouts of knowing moments? Answers that torrents out of nowhere. You wake up and you just know, your brain can absorb and understand stuff people don’t even think about? Death stare? The ‘’you should smile more” or “why are you always so quiet?” crap. You answer “how is it so hard to ever shut up bit$$?” (God why is everyone so plain and empty?) Rank pullers disgusts you, authority don’t impress you unless they can independently think, are fundamentalists, question and reason? Otherwise they don’t have your respect and you can hands down do a better job than they can or currently doing? So you’re interpreting this whole saga as you’re being rejected, unlikable. I have to smile belief that’s just wierd because I do that when it’s warranted. People pick up on your failing efforts and avoid you completely, you interpret it as being UGLY, UNATTRACTIVE. You’re an alien here. I am too. And for years I thought ugly because of the shunning I received, I’ve always been awkward, you want to change it, you want carefreeness. Try it, force it, forget it. You’re miserable, this could be your whole life, pity and walking around with a lump on your throat, when you can just let it out and screem instead of trying to fake a smile. Study you, invest in you, know you. I could say and I’ve said study God, hunger to know Him but see He is Holy something you can never be with the 7 billion might of human life put together. Take a one read to understand you, take a glance at God. THE DIFFERENCE!! And you want to be like and look like everyone else? Who do you think is the prettiest female actor? It’s Anne Hathaway for me, she my girl crush. Her facial features are strikingly different, bold and not that of a typical white girl. She is stunning yet unique in my opinion. Despite me regarding her as beautiful, she still put on more effort in taking extra care of herself, what do you know? She wears makeup 🥵. She takes that time to make sure she looks pretty because she may not perceive herself pretty the way I do. Women wear makeup!!! They’ve worn it for centuries now and they will continue to until the end of time. Which singer has stepped out to perform without it? The Jenner and the Hadid’s sisters. Why are that always so breathtaking? I’m guessing it’s the effort they put in their everyday expensive grooming. I love makeup! Show me a woman that doesn’t. I’m no pep talker, I don’t know you, you don’t know me. You’re in the US I’m in the jungle in Africa about to go feed my lions and elephants, I’m not expecting anything from you. Wouldn’t gain anything from you, why should I lie and say you’re pretty when you’re not or anyone for that matter. But my child you’re. Let God strike me dead if there’s a part of me that wants appease your ego right now. I do not take my faith lightly. God found me and saved me when I was sinking in the deepest pits. And for that I’m eternally grateful. I learnt of Him first before I found myself. Will copy and paste this to most of you videos. Excuse any typos, haven’t slept a wink. Reach out at philakalo@gmail.com

Big hugs… ❤

I have zero support an aunt asked me how school was, told her I was concerned about failing eyelashes because of my eyes, her response was “that’s nice!” The man in my life only asks me for money and ignores me all day except to ask where I am. No one cares to support he , never have . No one ever will.

How is this lady ugly??????? You’re beautiful. Please stop calling yourself ugly. Because you’re far from ugly

I’m very sick like you I have bdd but when I get upset from my face I always remember someone has it worse than me in this world like people with no arms and legs or their face got burned in a fire and then it makes me fell lucky. But I have bdd so I know what ur feeling

But it parents are supposed to be there and try to understand ur problems. The fact that ur parents completely ignore it and don't even try to research in some way how they can help u shows their selfish character.

I have had BPD all my life ( true I didn’t know the real extend of it till about half a year ago) … but never had true healthy long term friends and my family is with me only in words not present or in actions ( never was ) … I need guidance, I need to learn but have none to learn from on consistent, coherent level … where do I find it and how do I make it happen…. My support system consists of in law family, inconsistent partner and clients … it is depressing and very unstable …

good luck and dont give up

I foster a turtle but he is cool. I'm mostly alone to but the outdoors, nature and animals masks me happy or happier. I have some of the same problems you have but i don't have anyone to chat with who deals with the same as i do.

I relate 💯💯

I will agree that going at it alone does complicate things. Have you ever looked online at websites for people in your area trying to make friends?

We are here to support you but You're really pretty

I am also fighting depression, research about magic mushrooms... micro dosing can help in some cases.

Funnily enough I don't even know what a support system is or rather how is it supposed to work. I somehow understand that it's very difficult to pull myself out of these various vicious cycles. I don't know if I can say I ever really succeeded. Over time it makes me feel like it's just plain impossible to do that, the idea of a solution appears more and more unrealistic. The mental or emotional pressure feels too great to ever overcome by myself and I don't quite understand how exactly is someone else supposed to help me with that. Ever funnier is there may be people who may be willing and perhaps even able to give me support who already exist in my life, I just don't know how that is even supposed to work. Am I just supposed to vent to them and expect reassurance? Am I supposed to get compliments from them? I feel like there are emotional and rational components to this I was supposed to learn as a kid but alas. I think it's quite certain I've always been mostly alone fighting my issues, and that it sucks, and I can hypothesize some benefits a hypothetical "support system" idea that I constructed out of nothing would have, but I just don't seem to have the social skills to know what to do lol. My grandma of all people figured out that I'm fighting it alone and asked what can she do to help and all I could say is I don't know.

Happy to see u😘

Hair on point to me 😘

I have a friend who is damaged because of being physically and emotionally abused,by his parents and his trashy mother is still abusing him!! I think this is so sad,because none cared to protect him!!His father is dead and hope is rotting in hell for the pig he was!! But still his brainless mother is alive and treats him badly.Apparently he can't be happy or have a life!!

So cute love way you smile

I am very glad you film yourself. Please keep it coming. It’s good to let it out sometimes. I just wish I could hug you. I suffer too with depression and always feeling invisible. You’re gorgeous you’re amazing and you’re loved I promise you.

Therapy doesn't work for me!!!

I wonder what your parents’ lives were like with their parents and how they coped with their own issues. Do you know what they were like growing up? Like, the jock? Popular girl? Nerd? How old are they?

I feel so depressed every single day i been thinking in suicide but I can't do it I just don't feel comfortable with myself

You have really nice hair in this video

Im feeling this way when my parents dont supports me at all when I was raped by my brother because they thinking that was my fault or something (especially my mom)

Your skin is glowing, i was rated a 4 on photofeeler with my best pics, i cant imagine what my worst would do.

! Develop the skills to make new friends 🤔🧠

Your very pretty

My parents have done nothing but gaslight me all my life

Cat lady in waiting.

Sometimes our own families are narcissists or psychopaths & they actively challenge you. Your come up will always be your own. Key tips: sex toys, get tons of quality sleep/ear plugs/eye covers/door lock/wrap a thick scarf over your ears and head and wrap it nice and thick if u cannot wear ear muffs/ have a super cold room or cold blanket, take a cold bath (not an ice one a cold water bath) 30 mins before bed to cool ur body temperature down, put on a fan, wear a cold blanket or put a dry blanket in the freezer for an hour & make sure it just cools down. If u got hamsters put their furniture in the freezer for a couple minutes & put it back in their cage, got a dog? Put a cold blanket from the freezer or put it in a bucket of ice wrap it up put it in for 1 hour and then put it on their doggie bed for a good night’s sleep. My dog gets super hot at night. Here are some tips for awesome sleep. Crack open a window. Unwind with tea.

You remind me of Melody from the little mermaid

Thats cool 😺 kitty's I'll be your support

We have the support of God and the spiritual realm. Turn to Witch craft. It’s helped me immensely & if you truly believe in it that’s when it’ll only work. Have faith & learn how to use it

You're not ugly at all

Your skin is glowing . Beautiful hair your just so pretty 😍 your so young. I’m sorry your dealing with this and you feel like no body cares. I’ve been there. I’m in my late 30s now and what I have learned is no one can help you only you can help you. Everyone today are busy with their own lifestyles. Be kind to yourself and be strong 💪 this feeling will pass x

Do you workout? Do you use bio oil? Do you use and exfoliating wash cloth?

I don't love my mother

! Is your enviroment! Change it! Play video games, create a comunity on social media! Go to happy public places! 🎮🖌️🌟

You’re beautiful tho ❤ very attractive

I don't want to insult your parents, but... lets just say 1 good person in your life beats 10 bad ones.

is called playing the game of life on hard mode , and it's title is "being a male" , welcome to the club girl....

Many parents are ready to be on your side, but you need to get over your bullshit first.

Aren’t you daddy’s little girl lol?

You have a Facebook?