Trans Guy: Testosterone Expectations vs. Reality 

I know there's a slim chance you'll see this, Jamie, but I had to share: I had my first dose of T today and getting to this point in my life would not have been made possible without watching your videos. Thank you for giving me the courage to pursue being my authentic self, you're such a great person

ITS A THING JAMIE!! My brother is 25 and his voice still cracks sometimes. Just when he tries to be high pitched.

The door being open is giving me anxiety. I mean haven't you people ever heard of closing the goddam- (I really need to stop doing that)

I can't wait until T... uhg.

My husband had large hips when he was female bodied and we could almost actually watch the fat move from his hips to his stomach. Now he's about your size but he was heavier then.

I'm over 1 month on T and my voice started cracking a bit also now I feel 10 times more uncomfortable when ppl call me by my birth name and misgender me ugh

School just started for me, and seeing everyone again (the girls, really) makes me have really bad anxiety. Yesterday the teacher split the girls and boys into different groups and while everyone talked about makeup, shopping and the guys they were/are dating made me super uncomfortable. I tried to connect and understand, but it didn't work. I felt like...I was a triangle trying to fit into a circle. I heard that this is some form of dysphoria, can someone actually inform me on this

I'm not even a year on t yet and facial hair was one of the first changes I noticed! I have enough to need to shave every couple of days after like...nearly 8 months. (also my voice spent a couple of months cracking every time I opened my mouth but it kinda chilled out and it's been sliding gently downwards since. testosterone is weird.)

I'm a trans boyyo and I don't think my school teachers understand and I get called my birth name a lot :( love ur vids Jamie teh Harry is happy when I watch ur vids

Your hair looks great! The brown goes well with the pink jumper. Thanks for sharing your experience with testosterone, it really helps with the reality of it all. My mom and I are saving up for me to start HRT and your videos really help with the anxiety of all of this :)

🌸 I like Jamie in pink... only because I think he looks like a aesthetic soft boy persona🌸 but then also cheeky ❤️

This is really interesting. I'm not trans but I find it so interesting learning about the experiences people have. I feel like I've come so far learning about the LGBT+ community but I've got so much more to learn!

I want to get on T 😣

My therapist wrote my T letter today and I'm so freaking happy oh my gosh. I'm so excited for the next step in my life,, I just started a new high school, and I moved in with my dad full time and everything is so great oh. My. God. :))

"Annd number seven!" *holds up six fingers* Did anyone else catch that? 😂

jamie should have so so so many more subscribers. who agrees?

I'm actually going through a rough time after a breakup and I felt like I couldn't even smile at anything... Then I watched this video and I actually LAUGHED. You are a God.

Thank you for posting this! Hopefully I'll be able to start t before the end of the year, and I'm so excited for everything (even the hair loss!)❤️

Ugh T seems so far away from where I am right now...

Don't need no notification 'cause I'm always on yt 😁🤘

Jamie, I can see you already have a great community but I have just discovered your videos and have to say that I am loving them. They are smart and informative and funny. Thank you so much for the conversation!!*** Good luck with everything ♥

Last time I was this early I identified as a lesbian. ILY Jammi!

LOVE YOU JAMIE

This is very informative and important to me, thanks

Your videos have helped me a lot ily Jamie

I'm so relieved bc I'm only 3 months in and I already have wispy bits!!

Omg u are the best Jammi! A big nose is a good facial feature!

Yes... It cracked on cracking 😂😂😂

I was just trying to watch this video when I suddenly felt our new kitten attack my feet through the blanket... This was interesting, learned more once again! I'm trans masculine and I have dreamed of starting T to get a deeper voice and a different fat disposition but the hair thing scares me. I have really thick hair and it grows super fast but my hair line is already quite high up, anymore and it'll look as if I was balding. Also, I at some point a year or two ago realized I had started to subconsciously talk at a lower pitch, I realized it because my best friend and I quite often speak in English to each other and I happened to notice that my voice was a lot higher than when I spoke in Finnish... And then I heard some old recording of my voice (not ages old) and then compared that to a new one and noticed the same, my voice had dropped. So apparently I had subconsciously started to train my voice to be deeper because I had for years felt really uncomfortable with how feminine my voice was (and is when I speak in English, Swedish, Russian or French). And the funny thing is... Every once in a while I experience the cracking voice... As if I was going through puberty again... I never had it when I actually went through puberty but somewhere around when I was 18-19 it started, around the time when my voice had started to get deeper.

I’m scared and excited to start T. I’m excited because I can get a deeper voice. That will help (hopefully) my voice dysphoria.

I'm a cis-woman and I shed at least 10 hairs a day. So many hairs I had to get a special drain cover to keep from clogging my shower drain. But I'm pretty sure that's normal and haven't noticed any thinning out. I think it helps that I just seem to have a lot of hair, hairdressers always comment on that. So rest assured that losing a few hairs a day is normal. :)

I’ve been on T now for 12 years. I didn’t have any preconceived ideas what to expect going on T. I noticed right off, like the day after my first shot, my sex drive was actually uncomfortable. 3 months on T my sideburns started coming in. My neck grew from a 14 1/2 to a 17 in just a year. Hair started growing everywhere in that year. And then the 2nd year my hair started to either stop growing or fall out. I now just shave my head. I expected to have my voice change more, but I had a low voice to start with. I still get clocked as female on the telephone. Sort of sux that part. Don’t fret all this stuff. You will end up being the man you are. Not what you expect.

Facial hair was the first thing to fill in at a phenomenal rate, I was really surprised how fast it happened, soon followed by a considerable amount of body hair. I turned into a wookie XD. First voice drop was fairly significant, then it slowed to a craaaaaawl. It's still working on getting there. Weight gain I got, but didn't need, though at least most of it's muscle now, so that's something, but I am always hungry, and I could probably eat an entire cow in one sitting. As far as emotional changes, I calmed down significantly, and like you, my confidence increased. Thankfully I haven't had any issues with hair loss. Started T in 2006, so I'm not terribly worried about it. All in all I feel like things are taking forever, and I haven't had top surgery yet either. Partially due to cost, but also because I want to be in at least decent physical condition when I do have it done. Part of my delay, though, is that I went through long periods of time where I had to drop off T due to just.. life issues, creating a situation where I simply couldn't get it. Now that things are evening out on that front, I'm hoping that things will get back on track.

I was so relieved when you said that your voice was cracking til 1 year on T. I'm 8 months in and my voice is not really cracking so much as that I just can't raise my voice. It's just gone whenever I try to talk louder and it's one pain in the ass trying to make yourself heard over 20 kids in a kindergarten 😅 Also I got like two actual hairs on my chin, I just cut them off with a scissor. Can't wait for that beard to grow!

I'm in love with your accent 💜💜💜

Size nine?!?! You're so lucky, I have size four!

You're so handsome. 😍❤️ and the voice cracking is adorable!

Honestly the hair loss/receding hairline scares me the most. Like I don't know if the rest of the changes are even worth it if I lose my hair...

Starting T tomorrow 💙

Meanwhile, I'm pre t and I already have a mustache and some hair on my jawline around the sideburns area. I'm also a tenor singer and can usually pass

Ok I was half asleep when I was watching this and as I was listening I noticed just how quickly Jamie talks and I was just wondering if anyone else noticed.

you're so cute. you make me believe I can feel good about myself. I'm not trans, but I have a LOT of body image issues and such. also, who cares if you wear pink? girls wear blue and its not a problem :p

I've been watching a wide variety of trans youtubers over the last couple years and they've helped me come to terms with accepting that I've felt like a male my entire life. However, I unfortunately don't feel that I'm in a position in my life currently to transition into who I see myself as in my mind. I have many reason for this and I thought I would start a RU-vid channel to share my story and hopefully connect with some people that can relate. I posted my first video today to try and break the ice and I hope to be posting more soon, covering things like being in the closet, trans topics specifically, and my personal journey so far.

My voice cracked so much when I started on testosterone, my family enjoyed teasing me over it.

Both of my brothers have almost no hair anymore so I've already been at peace with the idea that I might eventually have no hair myself. Considering I have gone almost bald for a charity before, I'm not too worried about it as my head shape isn't that bad. Only thing is that hair really keeps your head warm. I like beanies so again that's not too much of a problem for me.

I remember when the teachers would split the girls and guys into groups and I felt weird about that. Now I'm out at school and the people who use to bully me (mostly other guys) respect me.

Lol I had to watch this spot twice, but I think he shows 6 fingers but says number 7. Gave me the giggles.

Faded salmon colour! ;)

i'm 4 months on t and my voice is starting to crack, specially when i yell and it's kinda funny... also i've always been skinny as hell but i gained like 10 kilos so far

Is it weird that I want a bigger nose? My nose had that kind of mountain on the middle of it, and I loved it, then it became softer and yeah, I miss my nose xD So I hope T can help in that especific part XD (and the other ones, of course) Thank you, for sharing your experience, Jamie! :D

Awe I'd love to hear a video on how t has influenced your mental/emotional state. I'm a little over a month on testosterone and I'm feeling a bit lost emotionally haha

I remember expecting so much facial hair because of all the trans guys I saw online who were only about a year on T with facial hair. I'm two years on T now and not much but a few chin hairs and a peach fuzz moustache haha, but I'm okay with it now.

the thing about increase in appetite and weight worries me tbh bc I really want to be skinny and I want to work on getting skinny and when I eventually go on testosterone I don't want that to instead push me in the opposite direction

I started in December, and I haven’t had any changes... I’m on gel. Does it take a longer time with gel and I still get my *cough....* ya I need it to work faster if it can...

As of tomorrow, I'll be 13 weeks on T and I started growing facial hair around 8-9 weeks and more hair on other places of my body around 11 weeks

Now 9 and a half months on T, I expected my apatite to increase so maybe gain more fat but I didn't I'm actually finding it easier to control my hunger and loose weight which I need to do for top surgery referrals. I have a shadow of a mustache but not that noticeable tbh and starting to get peach fuzz on my face, my dad is very hairy so I was expecting body hair to arrive and that it did haha very dark stomach and chest hair that loves to get caught in my binder.... No body warned me about that haha. My voice is still dropping and cracking left right and centre but is like a cis guy range which is making it easier to pass but as a 15 year old (I was 21 yesterday). This is one I wasn't really warned about, I have alopecia (a autoimmune disorder that make my hair fall out when ever it feels like it) it had been coming in pretty well until about 2 months on T and it decided to attack a random patch on the top of my head which in the 20 years I've had alopecia it has never fallen out on the top. The treatment I get for it has become less effective and slower to work and I decided I don't give a damn anymore and shaved it all off.

You are the jam in my donut x

My head got bigger. Lol i didnt expect that to happen! Lol

YES my hands look so much different now and I love it. I'm almost 2 months on T :D

I'm a trans guy Haven't started T But getting counselling soon But There's a few things I like about me I have a belly hair line ( probably from when I was very overweight) I have large hands And I am a shoe size UK 11 :3 I'm hoping I can start T and get a chest binder before I'm 18 ( I'm 16 )

Friended and Followed, now I feel a little weird...almost like I'm stalking you 👀...just kidding. Great vid, keep being the awesomeness we all strive for.

Hey Jamie I was wondering if starting testosterone makes you angrier or aggressive and this is something I can't seem to find any kind of answer to. Great video

Experience... Yep years in gel. Nothing. One year on sus.... My body encapsulated it and ate it as an allergen! Finally on that other injection and finding changes happening. Certainly is a journey

I’m 2 weeks on T and it’s irritating how slow things are. Have to keep reminding myself that 2 weeks is almost nothing lol

I've been on testosterone for about thirteen months and my shoulders have grown two shirt sizes and my chest has shrunk a bit so basically I have dorito bones now (not that I'm complaining lol). Also my feet grew two sizes in the first six months which is good bc I've always had really small feet and been self conscious about that. I started getting facial hair in like the second month tho, not to mention the massive amounts of body hair but that's a race/genetics thing bc my dad's side is super hairy lol. My voice tho,,,,,, HOOOOO BOY

Bingo! I really like numbers that end in 5 or 10 as well. Otherwise it feels uncomfortable. LOL

6:15 jammi: *holds up six fingers* and number 7!

If you are working out and are trying to put on some size, you will want to start adding Creatine to your daily supplements. Its the only way I have been able to actually exchange fatty tissue for muscle tissue.

My voice is kind of deeper then normal girls in my grade, so if I took T, how much deeper would it get? I'm still confused on that part or does it depend on the person who takes T? I need to know because I'm thinking about taking T and I've been watching your videos for imformation on it, so I have at least some knowledge about it. Thank you for making these videos :)

after how long of being on t does your face become more masculine looking? i'm mainly talking about it the face shape getting sharper and less round

You rock pink

lm 4months on T and no change to the voice Some little hairs on my chin tho.... lm in my 50s.

Number 7 while showing 6 fingers it's okay, it's okay :D

When I started est and anti-T my sense of smell improved bit weird but yeah

I can’t even imagine how much my voice is gonna crack when I go on t (which won’t be for a few years since I’m waiting until I’m 18) because my voice already cracks quite a bit (compared to most people going through female puberty)

I dont know if anyone else has experienced this but im 1(ish) year on t now and where hair is growing in, it itches. like a very close to constant "theres a hair on my arm" feeling.

You could say the worry abt your hair has receded 😂

Im getting a binder 😃

but i already have thin hair so if i start im worried what the outcome would be.

Hey...jamie..may i know where exactly are u from...plzz ....tell me

Jamie you're so handsome 😍

I'm wondering, how tall are you?

How do numbers end in ten tell me

I kinda hope my hair thins because it's so thick and hairspray/styling stuff often doesn't work for very long

I want to... I really do but I’m scared

Im only a little under 3 months, and I already have a bit of facial hair, interesting. Side note, did anyone feel like they got punched in the throat for the first couple of weeks on t? Or was that just me haha.

Your accent is asmr holy shit

Truth

If you're a natural ectomorph, you'll need to follow a hardgainer routine for bodybuilding if you want more muscled appearance.

I'm watching this pre-T so I'll just comment on each topic cuz why not Facial Hair: honestly I have the opposite issue 😅 even without HRT, I have a LOT ot body hair, not just facial. In fact, my parents find it gross when I don't shave it because, well, I still look like a girl. It's not great and it gives me dysphoria when they act like I'm a freakshow but ah well... Voice Cracking: ngl this is one this I'm excited for. I find it very cute on other boys so hey, when is my turn? lmao Skinny: oh yeah I guess that depends on everybody's body type and exercise habits. There are no miracles! Mental: the ID name change alone gave me so much confidence so I can see how your actual body changing would too ❤🎉 Small changes: oh yeah, the body and pee odor makes total sense and I think I knew of that already. I've always had a strong odor even for a female body so I'm not too worried. I guess it's a matter of bathing more often? 😅 Receding hairline: ah... My eczema can relate 😅 even now pre-T I'm struggling with lack of hair because of the eczema so honestly? I'm way past that panic pfft *cries*

I had to go up a shoe size, I went from a 9 1/2 to a 10 US size

Do you happen to know if it's usual for pre-t trans guys to stop their period only on hormone blockers?

My hair started thinning when I was about 17ish which sucks. I have no idea why this is happening.

i think for some guys their voices will just continue cracking well after puberty, my history teacher is in his 30s and his voice cracks almost daily haha

I Take my first Testosterone shot today and I’m so scared of my voice cracking cuz I just know I’ll be made fun of ☠️☠️

I think for me I’m most worried that whenever I actually start on T that I loose my hair.... my brother has great hair and all the guys on my mums side have amazing hair however my dad has NONE and I’m freaking out about it because I have really thick hair and a lot of it and yeah I don’t care about the rest of the changes it’s just always been that I could likely loose my hair 😂😂

My biggest fear is hair loss, i'm like terrified that my hair will get thinner and maybe even lose it. I realize it doesn't actually work like that but still pretty damn terrified. I take pride in my hair god damn it XD

6:40 welp that's going to be a problem :| my hair is already pretty thin I think I might go bald if I do T

At about 3 months on T I lost a toenail due to my steelcap work boots suddenly being way too tight =(

I also want to hav T ...but i am sacred to tell my parents abt myself...i know i wont tell them the truth of bieng trans my whole life...but i cant live like this also ..what shld i do ?..i cant hurt their feelings and not even mine..plzz tell me smthing😔😔